royal girl

Chapter 458

The room was dark and dim, the lamps and candles radiated faint light, and the strong smell of herbs in the dormitory, mixed with the smell of imminent death, made people unable to stay in this room for a moment, wanting to escape.

The emperor narrowed his eyes and tried to see the coiled dragon pattern on the top of the tent, but it was a blur after all his efforts.

In that blurred shadow, a lonely and alluring face gradually appeared, and the shadow became more and more real, as if it could be touched.

There was a slight smile on the corner of the emperor's lips. This face was so familiar that it was almost engraved in his bones. He still remembered the first time he saw her back then.

There were especially many beauties in the draft that year, and the queens were virtuous, and the only ones left in the end were beautiful women.

On the day when we first met, the weather suddenly changed, and he entered a stone pavilion in the imperial garden to avoid the rain, not expecting that there were already people inside taking shelter from the rain.

It was raining heavily outside the pavilion, and the beauty inside the pavilion was like a flower. She stood there, and the rain curtain behind her was pouring, and she was like the only color in the world.

That startling glance, the stunningly beautiful face, suddenly made him lose his soul.

There is no shortage of beauties in the harem, but the beauty in front of him is quite different.At that moment, he was unable to express his feelings in words, and suddenly remembered that the queen seemed to have mentioned to him that there was an unusual woman in the harem.

It's just that he didn't pay attention to it at the time, and met by chance, but he couldn't move his eyes away.

If it's only about color and lack of talent, being an emperor would be put aside for a few days, but she is not only beautiful but also full of talent, which not only hooked his heart, but also hooked his soul.

The spring night is short and the day is high, and since then the king will not go to court early.

He thought it was an exaggeration, but when it was his turn, he understood the taste of it.

As an emperor, there is no love.

Love is too extravagant, like a flower in a mirror, the moon in the water, how important is it to go to the country and the country.

But gradually, he found that he seemed to have really met love, and that feeling was uncontrollable.

He smiled when he saw her.When he can't see her, he thought.

When I was with her, I was afraid of losing.

I wish I could give her all the most beautiful things in the world. It turns out that the taste of love is that I would rather suffer myself than let her smile.

He thought he was going crazy.

He pampers her, she is neither surprised nor happy, nor worried.

On the contrary, he was worried about gains and losses, and couldn't sleep.

What is the taste of love?
Even if two people sit together for a whole day without speaking a word, it is like drinking nectar, and the mind is at ease.

With a pair of eyes and a turn of their wonderful eyes, they know what each other wants, what they want to say, and what they want to do.

What does it feel like to have a telepathy?
He always thought that these were all nonsense, but at that moment he finally knew that there is really a kind of love in this world called heart-to-heart connection.

He didn't believe it before because he had never encountered it.

At that time, he was young and energetic, newly enthroned, the emperor who had not been a few years old, thought that the whole world was under his control, and everything could not escape his control.

He is conceited, proud, and thinks he is extremely intelligent.

Betrayal and deceit are absolutely unacceptable.

Looking back now, there is only a wry smile and endless repentance.

If he could lower his noble head to listen to her explanation seriously, if he put down his self-esteem and checked the matter seriously, maybe the tragedy would not have happened.

But he was too young at that time, too conceited, too unable to bear the blow.

So when he thought she was cheating on him, his anger was like a raging fire, out of control.

For the newly enthroned emperor, heirs are the most important thing, they are a sharp weapon to stabilize the country, and they are the rocks on the throne of Kowloon.A bottom line that no one can easily touch, so when she heard that Xia Zhaoyi had a miscarriage, the evidence was solid and furious, so she was detained.

In fact, he thought that if she bowed her head first, even if she really did the thing, he would forgive her in the end.

But her temperament is the same as his, she would rather die than surrender, absolutely uncompromising.

Now it is impossible to recall how sad he was at that time, and he has faintly forgotten the once monstrous anger.The only thing that remains deep in my memory is the break when her cold and indifferent eyes stared at her.

They are so similar, like two fires.

Normally, you and I can live in peace, but once they collide, it will be a disaster of burning everything.

Looking back now, she might not know what she was waiting for, but she just refused to bow her head.She would rather die than admit to something she didn't do.

He has the pride and dignity of an emperor, and he believes in his heart that she has made a mistake, but he does not know how to repent. He is so stubborn, and he refuses to turn back after repeated anger.

When was the last time you saw her?
It was the time when she had dystocia and was confused.

He still clearly remembered that just after he returned to the harem, the queen sent the news that Fang Jieyu had dystocia and was critically ill without resting his feet to catch his breath.

He rushed to Zhaochun Hall immediately, and when he arrived, the child had already been born, but she suffered a huge loss and was still bedridden after confinement.

At that time, he thought, now that he has a child, even for the sake of the child, he should bow his head first, right?

As long as she is willing to admit a mistake to herself, he will forgive her and let the past go.

But he was still disappointed, he couldn't wait for her confession, but waited for her to take the word for the child and retreat.

retreat?
Isn't this just continuing to fight with him?

She still doesn't think that she was wrong. Could it be that her child is a life, and Xia Zhaoyi's child deserves to die?
At that time, I didn't know what to think, even under the rage, I really didn't want to see her at all.

At that time, Xia Zhaoyi was still a kind and considerate woman, and because she could no longer have children after the miscarriage, I felt very guilty towards her, so during that time, I showed Xia Zhaoyi a lot of favors.Even above the court, with the strong support of Duke Xin, many of his policies can be implemented smoothly.

The political affairs in the court went smoothly, and his mind was shifted from the harem to the front court.

He is an ambitious emperor, and he hopes that under his rule, thousands of miles of land will be peaceful and prosperous, and will last forever.

The government was busy with business affairs, so the harem was subconsciously ignored by him.

Maybe this way you don't have to think about that stubborn person, which can make yourself more comfortable.

But such indulgence and indifference, in exchange for the news that she was critically ill.

I don't remember how he felt when he heard the news, I just remember that he was stunned for a long time, and when he rushed to Zhaochun Hall, he saw her for the last time.

She still didn't say a word to him, she didn't even entrust the child to him, and she never asked him for a word for the child.

How could there be such a stubborn person in this world?
In fact, he should have understood when she chose the word for the child as a retreat.

Too many memories were churning out from the depths of his mind, and the emperor felt that breathing was a luxury.

The truth was revealed to the world back then, but now thinking about it, he suddenly understood why she didn't beg him.

It was because her distrust broke her heart, so she didn't want herself, expelled herself from her life.

She didn't have herself in her life, so why bother to ask for herself?

I gave the child a name and retired, because I didn't want him to become a big position in the future, and if I didn't demand what didn't belong to me, I would naturally have a happy life.

He had never thought about this, but now that he figured it out, it was too late.

The love of spring is only as thin as the pear blossoms, and the flakes are urged to fall off.What's the matter with the setting sun? It's almost dusk. I don't know if there are still souls in the world.

That year she smiled and said to him, "If one day you betray me, I will never pay attention to you again."

He only took it as a coquettish statement from his little daughter's family, but he didn't want it to be the truth in her heart.

Sure enough, she never paid attention to herself until she died.

She hated him, and he hated her too.

Since a mother doesn't think about her son, why should he treat her unwanted son as a treasure in his palm?
The neglect of the fourth child is not a resentment towards her.

The estrangement of the fourth child, is it not because of his cowardice that he does not want to look back on the past?

An old man will die, and in the end, even if she is under Jiuquan, she would never have imagined that the son she gave and retreated would ascend to the throne that all people are looking forward to.

When he was under Jiuquan, he thought he would never see her.

She hated him so much, she was afraid that after drinking a bowl of Mengpo soup, she would rather forget him completely.

The blurry image gradually disappeared, and he wanted to reach out to grab it, but found that he didn't have the strength to lift it up.

Breathing seemed to become a little difficult, and as the image disappeared, he slowly closed his eyes.

Near to far things, deep to shallow clear streams.

As high as tomorrow and the moon, loved ones and couples.

I have lived my whole life, and I will understand it when I die.

If there is an afterlife...

She was afraid that she would never want to meet and get to know him again.

Where the heart is broken, there is no afterlife to look forward to.

(End of this chapter)