the most beautiful time

Chapter 46

When I transferred the money to her card, I received a text message from her, only 4 words, saying: Thank you, little sister.

Looking at that warm and unfamiliar name, I suddenly cried like a child, overwhelmed.

My father is getting older, unlike some men who are optimistic about life, know how to let go in a timely manner, and stop worrying too much about his children. Instead, he becomes more and more panicked. Every time he sees natural disasters and man-made disasters reported on TV, His face was gloomy, and he sat on the sofa alone in the noisy advertisement until it was dark before thinking about going to eat.

I thought he was worried about the impermanence of life, that he might leave this world so suddenly one day, without even finishing a cup of freshly brewed tea.So I persuaded him on the phone from time to time, saying that people always leave, so since they are alive for a day, they live happily, like those old people who carry birdcages or gamble some small money in the streets and alleys, happy and carefree.Besides, it is already a blessing to be accompanied by my mother, so why bother to work around like when I was young, and not enjoy the world of two.

But my father always sighed, didn't answer my questions, and didn't say hello to my persuasion.It seems that he will leave this world only tomorrow, but at this moment, he just wants to be alone and enjoy this moment of silence.

Then one day, I was rummaging through an old book and accidentally found a piece of paper.It is densely packed, and it is actually full of the father's disposal of the family property after his sudden departure one day.I think it's a little funny, the unfounded worry about my father.He was just a man in his sixtieth birthday, in good health, with black hair, good hearing and eyesight, without the slightest sign of illness.

I took this suicide note to my father and said that there was no need for him to be so alarmed. I have a job and I don’t have to worry about making a living. And live a simple life of your own.But the father took the suicide note and read it carefully for a long time.After reading it, he didn't follow my suggestion and tear up the paper, but explained the contents to me in a serious manner.He said that if one day he leaves, the house will be left to my younger brother, and the rest of the deposit in the bank account will be left to me. Although my situation is much better than that of my younger brother, I don’t need any money from him at all. He still insisted on leaving half of the property to me, so that this kid can't be lazy and not enterprising.He also bought an insurance policy for his mother, and gave his mother the private house money he usually saved, so that she can hire a nanny by herself instead of dragging the child down and causing us many troubles.

In my father's seriousness without the slightest joke, I suddenly remembered that I woke up from a nightmare one day, and I had such a panic, thinking that if I had a car accident one day, or contracted a serious illness, my little How should the property be distributed, so that the people I love will have less sorrow and pain in the life without me.I even got up and wrote a note pulling all the "inheritances" off the list and sorting them out.I remember that I wrote down all the passwords on the passbook and told my beloved Chen that if something happened to me, I must take out the money and give it to my parents.Except for some furniture, I didn't leave Chen any seemingly "valuable" things. I told Chen that if I could give him the courage to continue looking for a new love after I left, that would be enough.I also remember that Chen tore off the note with a smile and said, he still wants to be with me forever, these are purely superfluous.But the fear of death in my heart still hasn't dissipated.

Then one day, at the gate of the city court, I met a classmate who was helping my cousin find a lawyer.Her uncle died of a sudden illness recently, leaving behind a fortune that needs to be divided.Most of my uncle's sons lived an ordinary life, so when they fought for the property, they tried their best and tried their best to negotiate, so they had to find a lawyer to divide it.But the eldest cousin of the classmate avoided the dispute and went alone to find the best cemetery in the city for her father, and she had no complaints about the time and money spent.According to the classmates, this daughter was the uncle who loved him the most during his lifetime, and he also made several wills to leave the richest share of property to his daughter, but the daughter tore them up.

The reason why the students are very active in helping to find a lawyer is mainly because they don't want those greedy cousins ​​to divide up all their property, leaving nothing for the cousin who lives in the same difficulty.But the cousin didn't respond to this, and ignored the sibling fight as a child's joke.The classmate was puzzled, and asked her cousin why she didn't fight for her own rights. If the will made by her uncle could be preserved, she might get a good inheritance and improve her life accordingly.

My cousin answered her indifferently, but my father has left me a large inheritance, that is, no matter what kind of difficulties I encounter in the future, he will cheer me up in my heart, guide me, and accompany me through many difficulties; The various wills he made were not really for the purpose of giving us much property, but all because he wanted his love to continue to support us to go on after he left...

It turns out that all the panic among relatives is also due to love, and it is due to how a love can survive for a long time when it leaves, and accompany those who are still born in this world through the lonely time.

She has been busy with work and studies. When her son was born, he was sent back to his hometown in Shandong, where his parents took care of him. Only during the Chinese New Year holidays did she rush back to reunite with her son.

Therefore, the little child has always regarded her as the symbol of "mother" in the picture book. On the first day he saw her, he was always not far or near, as if someone suddenly came to his house and made him feel strange. As a guest, he wanted to get close to him, but he was afraid that he would disturb this guest who had always been nice to him.Only after a day or two, the four-year-old will get acquainted with her, but he will not be too close. As usual, he has his own small circle. When he wakes up in the morning, he disappears, only hearing his shouting outside the door. , very happy, like a bird whirling and chirping over the nest, knowing that there are parents there, so it screams extra happily.

A small town is not like a city, where there is a lot of traffic. When you leave the gate of the community, you have to worry. Knowing that he is running outside with the children, he will not get lost, so although I really hope that he can stay with her for a while, but I don’t look for him much. He, let him be like a runaway pony, roaming freely in his own little world with his companions.Sometimes he would turn his head frequently and look towards the door. If he could see her standing there, he would play more vigorously, just like on the stage, if someone gave some applause, he would be elated and perform more vividly.But he won't look at her for a second time, as if the power of this look is enough to support him until the end of the song; or maybe, he is afraid that she will leave and never come back, so he deceives himself , she will always be there?
This is of course her guess.In fact, every time we parted, he acted very cold and rational, even a little ruthless.He rarely came out to see her off, no matter how much his grandparents persuaded him, he would hide in the house, watch cartoons, or go to his friends' house, but he couldn't pull him back.She often feels sad for his behavior, thinking that after all, she is not by her side, the flesh and blood that fell from her body, and her heart is so far away.Even once, his father went to grandpa's house, he didn't understand, and asked grandma, why did father leave as soon as he came back?The grandmother smiled and explained: The baby wants to be with his father, but the baby's father also wants to be with his father.He tilted his head and thought for a moment, then said bitterly: Then let him stay with his father enough, enough!

She just thought it was a child's talk and didn't mind, but a few months later, when she went back to eat, he suddenly asked her in front of everyone: Mom, when will you die?The whole family was taken aback. Grandpa stretched out his hand and spanked him, saying: Brat, how can you curse your mother to death? !He couldn't help it, and burst into tears, but stopped talking, and just hugged grandma's neck, like a puppy or cat who has been wronged but doesn't know how to confide.

In the evening, I learned from my mother that in the past few months, five or six old people have died in the small town one after another. He stood in the crowd and followed the adults to watch those dead people being carried out and sent to the crematorium. Nervousness and fear, it seems that people related to me will be carried away one day, and will never come back.Including his beloved grandparents, as well as parents.

Waking up the next morning, she heard him playing with his friends in the alley outside through a wall. His voice was very loud. She seemed to have completely forgotten that he was spanked by his grandfather for saying unlucky words yesterday. pain.Occasionally, I heard someone riding a bicycle, tinkling past. I didn't know who it was, and asked him: Why is the baby so happy today?Almost impatiently, as if showing off, he shouted at the man: My mother is back!My mother is back from Beijing!

His seemingly inappropriate answer made her heart soften suddenly, as if there was a warm fire roasting her, making her feel attached in her heart, and couldn't bear to leave.

It was only then that she finally understood his indifference in the past, understood why he was so determined not to send her off every time she left, and understood that he asked when she would die just because he wanted her to live longer Some, don't be like those old people who left suddenly and never returned before they stayed with her for a long time.He just used this method to express the love and reluctance, as well as the loneliness and sadness in his little heart, which was too full but could not be seen by outsiders.

But she, so selfishly, for the so-called work, let such a small and fragile him have to fight against death, parting and longing helplessly and stubbornly until now.

(End of this chapter)