the most beautiful time

Chapter 43 Those Promises You Forgot to Keep (1)

The relationship between her and her father has always been reserved and seldom talked. When they met, before they even opened their mouths, they already felt dull.She has always believed that her father was the most directly responsible for her mother's death. If he could have rushed home from other places, instead of insisting on asking a buyer for an old debt of 2 yuan and delaying his return, then maybe her mother It will not leave so quickly because it cannot be sent to the hospital in time.So when she heard the news that her father had been diagnosed with stomach cancer, she felt for a moment that it was God's merciless punishment for him.

But she immediately booked a plane ticket, rushed to the hospital, and signed for his operation.When I entered the door, I saw him lying on the bed moaning, with obvious forbearance, but I could still hear the sharpness and tearing of the pain.Seeing her sitting opposite, his groans suddenly subsided, like a child who met a teacher with a serious face, the fear in his heart made him even forget the wound he had just opened on his body.

There was still no words between the two.She just asked the nurse a few words about his condition and the time of the operation, and arranged the messy cups, fruits and flowers around him, and then watched a group of nurses rush in, pushing him calmly and rationally towards the operating room.She followed him all the way to the door of the operating room, still not knowing what to say, but when he heard him enter, he stopped moaning and said to her forcefully: If I die, I will be buried with your mother!
This sentence made her feel a little sad. She sat on the chair outside and didn't come back to her senses for a long time.She remembered that the relationship between him and his mother was not very good, they always quarreled, for money and trivial matters, he had never had the tolerance of a man, he took the initiative to apologize to his mother, every time it was the mother who cried until she got a headache , and slept alone for two days without a sound, and felt that the work was delayed, so he went out and asked him for peace.Because of this, she always hated him, and stubbornly didn't even bother to make a phone call when she was alone.When I have something to do, I send text messages, always concise and to the point, without any sloppy and warm words.On the contrary, he occasionally sent a text message to greet her, although most of them did not get any reply from her.

She forgot how long the operation lasted, it seemed very long and short at the same time.When he came out, her legs were numb and unconscious.She saw him, who had undergone a life-and-death operation, become more and more exhausted and withered.It seems that if there is any trouble, it will fall down and never get up again.If it wasn't for his moaning more painfully than before, she felt that his body under the quilt was almost negligible because of his emaciation.

In the next week, she couldn't fall asleep peacefully almost every night, and was always awakened by his child-like moans of pain that could not be restrained.Every time she wakes up late at night and sees the faint light in the corridor outside, the nurse on duty lazily passing by the door to the bathroom, and the shadows of tree branches falling on the window are shaken by the wind, she will feel helpless in her heart. , she didn't know how to eliminate his pain, but at the same time, she also felt hatred, thinking that at his age, he still couldn't bear the pain, why couldn't he empathize with her mother when her mother was seriously ill?
Finally one day, he couldn't bear the pain that seemed to be coming violently, and yelled at her: If I don't call the doctor, I will die!It took only 2 minutes to finish this sentence, and he passed out while the doctor was still on his way.When the doctor opened his chest, he saw that it was full of blood.Those pains that she thought were exaggerated by him on purpose turned out to be real.

After he woke up, he described to her the feeling at that moment, saying that his body instantly became very light, as if he was flying up, and he saw himself lying on the bed in mid-air, without breathing, and he also saw her Weeping, like a bewildered child, or a kitten or dog who is lost and can't find the house, and hears her mother's soft calling, which seems far away and yet close to her ears.He wanted to find her mother, but he couldn't let her go. He wanted to comfort her, but he couldn't even touch her hair.Everything is illusory and empty, as if he and she are in two worlds, looking at each other through a mirror.

When he described this, his voice was very soft, and the anesthesia had not been completely removed, so the expression on his face was calm and soothing, and there was even a trace of a happy smile, as if he had returned to the old days when the whole family chatted in leisure time, tranquil, Quiet, homely and beautiful.

But she walked away quickly, not wanting to hear his escape from death.She used to think that he didn't love her, let alone her mother. It was at that moment that she realized that this man's heart was hidden so deeply, so deep that he was on the verge of death. Only through the sad and looking down soul did he slowly reveal pass it on to her.

He was expelled from the school, and since then he has been hanging out with a group of ruffians in the small town, and soon, because of a robbery case, he was put in prison and sentenced to three years in prison.His father is a respected teacher in a middle school, but he has never liked his father, and he stubbornly only calls him Shen in front of anyone.On the day he was taken away, many acquaintances in the town came to watch.When Shen cried and squeezed in frantically from the crowd, he was forcibly packed into the police car.He saw sinking in the persuasion of a large group of people, slowly squatting down, his shoulders trembling sharply, the man who had always been straight, his soul collapsed at that moment; while in handcuffs, his heart turned out to be comforting.

He hated Shen since he was a child.When he was three years old, his mother left him due to illness.Shen, who was rated as an outstanding teacher every year, immediately became the object of admiration of many women.At that time, Shen, in his eyes, was slightly complacent.Several times, the love that Shen was about to settle down was stopped by him halfway.He couldn't tolerate another woman inserting into their lives.Despite this, their home can be bright and clean, warm and warm.However, why does this man have the love of so many women, but he has lost his mother's love, and even his father's love, he has to be divided by others?He tried every means to destroy Shen's appointments again and again, until finally, Shen was finally discouraged about starting a new family, and devoted himself to work and his education.For him, Shen lost many opportunities for promotion, he knew it, but he was not grateful.He is stubborn by nature, and he is unwilling to let himself suffer the slightest grievance, so he withdraws his heart from playing around, and tries his best to fight for the glory of being a father.The more Shen sacrificed for him, the less he cherished it, and he used a more indifferent attitude to make Shen sad.It seems that only in this way, the maternal love he lacked, and Shen's neglect of him for the sake of love, can be made up for spiritually.In this way, his homework was left far behind, until he was completely tired of studying, and hung out with the unemployed outside the school, which dealt a serious blow to his dignity in his career.

He had anticipated his imprisonment, so he didn't feel too sad. As usual, he would fight with others and stir up troubles in prison.He thought that Shen must have despaired of him, from when he started to give up studying, to making troubles, to expulsion from school, and wandering around, Shen must have looked away earlier than him.He was doomed not to be able to give Shen the pride and glory he wanted, and he didn't want to see Shen live such a decent and beautiful life.Therefore, when he still made mistakes again and again in the prison, and the prison guards called the school repeatedly to call Shen and inform Shen of his bad habits one by one, he didn't feel the slightest guilt in his heart.Even though they were sitting face to face, when Shen saw his loose nails because he was punished by the prison guards to peel off the garlic all over the room, he immediately burst into tears, but he didn't shed a single tear because of it.

Indulging himself in this way made him notified by the prison guard a year later, and he was sentenced to another year in prison.He didn't meet Shen until a few days later.He thought that Shen would growl and scold him this time, or slap him hard regardless of the prison guards next to him.He even longed for such a scene, so that the guilt floating in his heart would disappear in an instant, and would not torture him again.But, nothing.Across a narrow table, Shen stretched out his hand strangely, and finally, hesitating, he put a pair of hands still stained with chalk on his face.This was the first time that he and Shen had skin-to-skin contact.Such rough hands, why had he never noticed them before, they were already exposed with blue veins and skinny?He always thought that they were as strong and powerful as Shen Angyang's body.

He finally asked Shen indifferently: Are you okay?But Shen, strangely, didn't answer his greeting as a gesture of goodwill, but just repeated in a rambling manner, son, why are you so thin? Daddy begs you, behave yourself and come out early, so that Daddy can give you the best of luck every day. You cook porridge and drink, and I won't let you suffer a little bit of grievance.He thought that Shen didn't hear it, so he threw the sentence to Shen again, but Shen continued to speak on his own.He finally got annoyed, stood up, and volunteered to end the meeting.When passing through a corridor, he saw Shen from the window again, led by a prison guard, walking forward tremblingly, but accidentally tripped over something.At that moment, his heart ached, and he thought, why did Shen suddenly become so useless like an old man?

He felt that Shen was becoming more and more strange.What about the successful man who was admired by all the girls in the town back then?What about the excellent teacher who never squints and walks with great strides?What about the father who has always listened to his complaints and then given harsh advice?Why did Shen suddenly show such helplessness and anxiety to everyone?Such doubts would rise from the bottom of his heart every time Shen came.He suddenly wanted to avoid Shen, he couldn't stand Shen's dead branch-like hand, hesitantly touching his face.He always dodged left and right, letting Shen's hand fall heavily in a cloud of air.He was also troubled that when Shen met the young prison guard, he bowed his head and said hello in a low voice.Even when Shen Lian walked, he always looked timid and cautious, as if he would fall if he took a careful step, which attracted ridicule and laughter from outsiders.

(End of this chapter)