the most beautiful time

Chapter 2 Girl's Lip Gloss

When I was 16 years old, I published an article in a magazine, and a boy from a neighboring city wrote to me, saying, I really like your writing.That was the first time I got such a sincere compliment from someone of the opposite sex.My heart immediately became infinitely gentle like that shy lotus flower.So I started the days of letters and letters, quietly writing the most delicate feelings in my heart on paper, attaching them to beautiful stamps, and then putting them into the green mailbox under the lilac tree.That was the most beautiful period of youth, my heart was full of joy and shyness, all the sadness and joy of a girl, dark and bright, for the first time, in front of a boy, like flowers, with the uniqueness of first love The sweetness and fragrance of the flowers are blooming petal by petal.

One day, in the letter, the boy said, let's meet, you come, or I go.I held the letter and ran wildly to the high stands of the playground, and then walked to the next step.I finally realized the feeling of dizziness, it surrounded me so real, just like those clouds clinging to the sun light, the light made them have nowhere to escape, and they didn't want to escape.When I was passing by a mirror at the top of the stairs, I glanced inadvertently and saw not only the girlish blush on her face, but also a clumsy and lifeless girl with plain clothes and glasses.That's who I am!A girl who has no other advantages to show off except for writing.The me in the text is just the one I long for in my dream, the perfect girl that many people like.But, unfortunately, except for my mother, no one ever said I was beautiful.Teachers always say, if you are an ordinary girl, if you don't study hard, what else can you do?The girls around also said that Kan An is such an ordinary person, she can't even sing badly.

But still in the boy's request again and again, I wrote back to him, saying, well, I will go to your city by car.The moment the letter was mailed, I began to take out all my beautiful clothes and wash them one by one with clean water to remove the traces of folding.I took the money I had saved, went to the optician’s shop, and quietly fitted myself with invisibility. The shop owner was a gentle woman. She looked at the new exuberant acne on my forehead and said softly, “You are so small, wear a mask. Invisibility is bad for the eyes.I bowed my head and said nothing, just poured out a lot of change, counted them one by one, turned around and ran away quickly.After returning home, my mother looked at my washed clothes, rubbed my disheveled hair, and said, when did Ann be so diligent.I smelled the fragrance of the sun on the clothes, and suddenly laughed. I raised my head and acted like a baby at my mother, saying, has Ann really changed?Mom also laughed, and said yes, Ann is 16 years old, and she is more cute and well-behaved than before.

It was my mother's words that filled me with joy and confidence. I thought of the lace princess dress that I never had the courage to wear out, the light pink sandals that could be matched with it, and the ability to loosen my hair Roll up purple blue ribbon.Maybe they'll make that ugly duckling prettier, I thought.

Just like that, I got on the bus to the neighboring city, hid in the corner, took out a small mirror, and painted and rubbed on the tube of lipstick that I secretly took from my mother's dressing table.In the end, it was in the mirror that I saw a pair of surprised eyes looking over, and I put the lipstick away at a loss.But still because of panic, an embarrassing red stain suddenly appeared on the white skirt.I rubbed and rubbed desperately, but the traces became more and more obvious, until finally, I decided to give up sadly.At that time, the car also slowly drove into the small station in the neighboring city.When I was at the gate of the small station, I saw a lot of men and women who came to pick up the station, with lazy and dusty faces.This is just a small dusty town, without the vigorous branches and clean bluestone roads described in the boy's letter, and there are no traces of the women who sell flowers along the street that he mentioned.Sitting in the car, I saw my eyes hurt, and finally believed that he didn't come, and he won't come again.Because, maybe he is simply a boy with a lower self-esteem than me. He lied, but unlike me, he has the courage to face those lies that were originally kind.

I came home quietly and saw my mother helping me tidy up the bedroom.She still smiled and asked me, is Ann happy to do homework at school today?I walked over, suddenly hugged my mother from behind, and cried silently.After a long time, my mother turned around and asked me gently, seeing that you were equipped with invisibility, did you regret it because of discomfort, so you wanted to cry?I didn't look up, but choked up and said, Mom, before An went to college, she would no longer wear invisibility because of her beauty.Mom patted my head and said with a smile, but Ann is really pretty without glasses. Mom believes that you must be the most beautifully dressed girl in the class today, right?No one is more like a princess than we are.

Then one day, in my drawer, I found a brand new tube of Maybelline lip gloss and a small contact lens case. I took off the bulky glasses, put them on carefully, and faced the mirror again, lightly After applying a layer of lip gloss, the simple me immediately becomes bright and moist.On that day, when I was 18 years old and about to enter university, I received this special birthday present from my mother.She said in the note, Ann, today, you finally grow up, you don't need to be so humble and self-pitying anymore, and you can also pursue true love and beauty bravely and carelessly...

The girl who used to be so inferior that she tried to encourage herself with the praise of others finally grew up to the age where she could own a tube of lip gloss.And the bitterness and pain in growing up, in this way, fades away calmly and naturally like light smoke in time.

(End of this chapter)