Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 81 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (81)
Freshmen Dream Jiangnan (1)
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After that, for a long time, I was trapped in a dream of despair.

Trapped in Xiaoyushan, trapped in Christmas Eve.

Liang Sheng in his dream had unstoppable sadness in his eyes.

His hand brushed over my long black hair, and he hugged me tightly, with the strength that almost strangled my bones.Those distressed sea tides like midnight blended with the heartbeat.

This is the kind of intimacy he would never make to me in real life.

His chin gently stroked my hair, his voice was full of sadness, he said, why didn't you tell me?Why don't you tell me what you've suffered for me?Why don't you tell me we're not related by blood? !Why? !I looked up and let the tears fall.

I looked at the bloody ring on his ring finger like a flower; I thought of his wedding invitation, which was placed in my room; I thought of the woman named Wei Young, who had walked up the cliff for love; I thought of Lu Wenjun, and his black hole The muzzle and those threatening words...

I know that even though there are thousands of feelings between me and him, there is no way to go.

I hugged him tightly and tried my best to keep the last warmth.

But, suddenly, Liang Sheng disappeared.My hands are empty, nothing is left.

I anxiously called his name around.

Then, I saw Tianyou, he stood there with sculpture-like deep eyebrows and eyes.

——I don’t know that I am a guest in my dream.

In anxiety, I held Tianyou's hand and cried, God bless, God bless, Liang Sheng is gone!Liang Sheng is gone!What should I do, I can't find him? !God help, what should I do?
In the end, Tianyou's expression turned to despair in my tears.

He smiled wryly, but his voice was hoarse due to suppressed rage, he clutched his chest, and said every word desolately.

He said, Jiang Sheng!I'm not a doll, let alone a prop for you and Liang Sheng's love story!Have you ever thought that I am a human being, a living man with a living heart? !
He said, Jiang Sheng, look at my heart!Look at my heart!
As he spoke, he tore open his clothes, revealing his strong chest; he tore open his chest, trying to take out his heart...

In the ferocious blood, I begged him, but there was nowhere to escape...

Finally, I woke up from the dream.

The crescent moon is like a hook, without the blood of Tianyou, and without Liangsheng.

And the night was terribly dark, like the muzzle of Lu Wenjun's gun.

I looked up, outside the window, the stars were faint.

I think of the old saying, they say, die and live.

I sighed and wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes.

Life has to go, I have to live well.

41 Their names can only warm our lips and teeth when we are drunk and in our sleep.

After Bei Xiaowu came back, just after the New Year, he started looking for a job.

Jinling recommended his own newspaper for him and let him try to be an art editor.

Jinling told me that she felt that Bei Xiaowu had matured a lot.

I squinted at her, shook my head, and said, I don't believe how mature a man who was pushed down by a monkey on Mount Emei would be.

Every time I see Jinling and Bei Xiaowu both appearing in front of my eyes, I always have an illusion, as if I am back in the first year of high school.

At that time, in our story, there was no Xiaojiu, no Weiyang, only me and Liangsheng, only Bei Xiaowu, who fell in love with a girl named Jinling at first sight...

However, I know that no matter how beautiful that year was, no matter how good the time was, we would never be able to go back.

Can not go back.

Babao is still wandering in the entertainment circle in a nonchalant way, bringing Ke Xiaorou to harass me from time to time.As for me, when I think of Ke Xiaorou who knows too many secrets about me, and often runs the train with her mouth full, I can't help but get a headache, so I have to make excuses and do "sister shopping" with him.

Ke Xiaorou, the "Sister Amoy", is quite competent, except for looking at me with resentment from time to time, and saying some sour things to stimulate me from time to time, everything else is pretty good.

However, things got a little weird later on, and he and Jin Ling became more like "sisters", checking Weibo every day, sharing skin beauty secrets, makeup tips, and even beauty porridge with each other.

Jinling often praised Ke Xiaorou to me, saying that this man lived a wonderful life, with taste and quality.

After saying this, she sighed, it's a pity, he doesn't love women, otherwise, I really want to introduce to the big leftover women in the newspaper office.It is estimated that Ke Xiaorou's beauty, taste, and quality have already been divided up.What a pity, what a pity.

In this way, our original small life intersected into two circles.

One is the newlywed circle of Liang Sheng and Wei Young, busy with their wedding; the other is the mixed new circle of me, Bei Xiaowu, Babao, Jinling, Ke Xiaorou, etc. Every day is chaotic but with a little freshness. In his small days, he would meet every now and then to hear the secrets of Babao's circle and Bei Xiaowu's wandering history.

Bei Xiaowu didn't mention Xiao Jiu's name anymore, but one day, when we were playing cards, he was sleeping next to him. In his dream, he murmured vaguely. up.

Later, when I thought about it carefully, it was, Xiao Jiu, I miss you.

Or I think too much.

The people we love can only be hidden in our hearts forever, and their names can only warm our lips and teeth when we are drunk and in our sleep.

42 Allure.

Ke Xiaorou got along like a duck to water in this circle.

I can even feel that if I marry Lu Wenjun in the future, if Ke Xiaorou cries in front of Jinling and the others, they might wipe me out on behalf of the moon.

Later, when Jinling heard that Ke Xiaorou was a famous makeup artist, he became excited and took him to their newspaper to open a column called "Zen Xin Bodhi". , Nourishing the heart of the Bible.

After a few issues, the reader's voice is quite high.According to Jinling, many female compatriots can't put it down, especially middle-aged and elderly women.

Suddenly, Ke Xiaorou became a famous "friend of women".

In Ke Xiaorou's column, the word "Mr. Lu" is mentioned from time to time.

For example, when it comes to "Tremella lotus seed porridge", I say, "I have a friend, tentatively called Mr. Lu, who really dislikes this kind of porridge and finds it sticky, but who says sticky is not a feeling."

For example, when "recommending a few face creams suitable for women who stay up late", they say "Mr. Lu doesn't like the orchid scent of this face cream. The fragrance is so strong, sometimes it is really a crime. For example, intense love."

Even when he talked about "Crystal trotter with collagen added", he could refer to Lu Wenjun, saying, "I still remember that he is a particular person and never likes this kind of food. The workers at home boiled it into jelly for him, cut it into pieces Small pieces, put them in a white porcelain plate, serve with dipping sauce, and just eat.”

……

Later, a group of female readers were full of curiosity about Lu Sheng in his column, and they called the newspaper office one after another, asking for contact, friendship, support, and compatibility.

The editor-in-charge saw how hot it was, so he urged Ke Xiaorou to write an article about "Lu Sheng" called "Allure", which replaced the beauty column in the current issue.

It is said that after the article "Allure" came out, some female readers brought their bedding and came to the newspaper office directly, planning to eat and live here, in order to meet this "Mr. Lu".

In Ke Xiaorou's "Allure", there are a few passages written like this——

As a friend, I should have written this article with all my praises.

However, I really can't find any good words.For a man who is ruthless and ruthless, besides a natural good skin, apart from a good background, I really can't think of other advantages in him.

……

In this world, there are such people who always have a smile in their eyes, but their hearts are as cold as iron.

……

Reincarnation is a technical activity.

The biggest advantage of Lu Sheng is that he is better at reincarnation than us.

His original surname was Zhou, but because of his father's misfortune, he took his mother's surname.His mother, Ms. Lu, was a lady of the family. She had an unfortunate life and died of depression. This seems to be one of the reasons for Lu Sheng's cold personality.

……

Speaking of Lu Sheng, one has to mention his father, Mr. Zhou.

Mr. Zhou is even more a legend, which is also doomed to Lu Sheng's legend.

Lu Sheng's grandfather and maternal grandfather were life and death friends on the battlefield.From this point of view, Mr. Zhou is really the second generation of red, a child who grew up in the compound of the military region, and became a famous official businessman when he grew up.

Mr. Zhou was a dude all his life. When he was young, he fell in love with a young lady from the wealthy Cheng family in this city—in our current words, he was a famous lady from the Cheng family, but Mrs. Cheng had no love for Mr. Zhou.Although the Cheng family was a wealthy family at the beginning, they needed to make friends with powerful people, especially this kind of red powerful people.It's a pity that Young Master Zhou's father was paranoid about his marriage to Miss Lu's family.But who is Mr. Zhou?

How could the sons and prodigals who grew up in the compound of the military region be bluffed by the old father when they were young and devoted themselves to love?
However, Mr. Zhou, who was born as a local tyrant, held a pistol and threw it at his feet on the night Mr. Zhou escaped from marriage, saying, either get married or kill your father!

Mr. Zhou wanted to cry, but in the end, Mr. Zhou pointed a gun at him and entered the bridal chamber.

Therefore, behind every son of an evildoer, there is an even more arrogant father!

……

The marriage between Mr. Zhou and Ms. Lu is doomed to be a tragedy.

There is only one woman in Mr. Zhou's heart, and that is Miss Cheng's family.

Ms. Cheng died unexpectedly in a mining accident, and Mr. Zhou was left alone. After that, it got worse and he no longer had a home. After reading all the women in the world, he was lying drunk in the gentle villages everywhere.

……

Lu Sheng lived in his mother's tears since he was a child. He was indifferent and conceited in his heart. He had to fight for himself in life, but he stubbornly fought against his father all the time in his heart.

……

At the age of 17, he began to take revenge on Zhou Gongzi.

Pianpian is a young man, but he has the demeanor and figure of an adult. He has successfully seduced a new love of his father, a new model.

When his father saw his son and his new girlfriend embracing naked under the brocade quilt, their smooth skin and charming posture made him extremely furious!
At that time, the 17-year-old Lu Sheng smiled, proud and satisfied.

He sat up from the gentle village, slowly put on his clothes, and smiled triumphantly at his father, frivolous and mean.He paused every word, as if reading a letter of war, saying, from today on, I will sleep with whichever woman you sleep with!Except my mom!
When he was young, he thought that he could use this method to force his father back to his mother, but he never thought that this was indeed the beginning of his degeneration...

Today's Lu Sheng is in his prime and at the right age, but he is entangled in his father's past sinful affairs.

In a self-righteous way, he tried to use a woman to control a younger brother who might compete with her for the family property—the son who was left in the world after his father forcibly occupied Miss Cheng.

……

Our lack of affection causes us to never see anyone who is willing to love for us; but our enthusiasm is always only willing to give to the person we are willing to love for.

……

This so-called, the allure of love.

Before Ke Xiaorou published this "Allure", he posted it online for me to read. He pointed to the highlighted penultimate paragraph and told me that I would not post this paragraph. .How about friends?I thought to myself, why don't you just die? !
Later, Jin Ling held the newspaper in front of my eyes, and asked as if searching, Jiang Sheng, is this Lu Sheng talking about Lu Wenjun?Miss Cheng's... is Cheng Tianyou's aunt?

I quickly put away the newspaper, smiled at her, and said, you think too much.If there is no legendary stuff, would readers like to read it?You asked Ke Xiaorou to make it attractive, but also to pursue truth, how could it work?But I thought in my heart, fortunately Ke Xiaorou deleted that paragraph.

Jin Ling didn't speak, curled his lips, and just said, okay.

43 There are many things that are hard to get back. Love is one, and becoming a house slave is one of them.

During these days, the lives of each of us have gradually become more comfortable, and my emotions have gradually calmed down.Occasionally, I would receive a call from Wei Young, and hear her complain about the hard work of preparing for the wedding.Occasionally, I would follow Bei Xiaowu to sketch in the wild.

There has been no news from Lu Wenjun, which made me suffer even more.

People always love to be mean, even if it is a bad thing, if there is no result, they will always feel uneasy.Originally, it was also true that a fatal blow was better than endless speculation and suffering.

On the weekend, Jinling and I accompanied Babao to participate in the program and came back. Jinling said that she had visited the injured employees in the store and paid medical expenses and compensation one by one.Speaking of this, she sighed and said, Jiang Sheng, fortunately the people in the flower shop are fine, otherwise, we would have really hit it.I looked at her, recalled all the changes in her recently, and asked cautiously, Jinling, I feel that you are not very happy recently, what happened?

Jinling looked at me, smiled, and said, yes, not happy.I went to the United States and saw all kinds of bad things about capitalism. The houses are ridiculously cheap, and the prices are ridiculously cheap. , to save their GDP...

I smiled, since she didn't want to say it, I didn't ask any more.

We passed by the messy flower shop, Jin Ling sighed, looked at me, and asked, Jiang Sheng, do you really want to give up this flower shop?
I turned to look at her, and nodded for a while.

It used to be a place where a man saved my little pride, carefully guarding my little self-esteem so that I wouldn't have to bear the pressure of being dependent on a man for support.In my heart, I was extremely grateful to this man, and also grateful for the existence of this flower shop.But these days, Cheng Tianen has repeatedly used this to mock me—in fact, it is the best evidence that I rely on men and cannot do without men.

Jinling saw me nodding, she didn't know what I was thinking, so she smiled and said, that's fine, since Liang Sheng is getting married and you can't go back, you can find Tianyou in peace of mind, reconcile with him, and be in peace of mind Let's be the young mistress of the Cheng family.We can't always let Wei Young show us the happiness of Liang Shengxiu!If you can't let go of your face, then Bei Xiaowu and I will help you find him!However, I just don't know where he is.Ugh.

I smiled at Jinling, sighed, and said, don't be stupid.From tomorrow, I have to go out and look for a job.Because... I became a house slave.Would you like to congratulate me?
After speaking, I took out a house purchase contract and shook it at Jinling.

If Tianen hadn't stimulated me so much, I wouldn't have done such a stupid thing as buying a house on impulse, because even I don't know how long I will stay in this city.

What is a good-for-nothing woman? !canary!Caged bird!

Everything depends on his brother!The house belongs to his brother, and the flower shop is also paid for by his brother!
In short, I am a super invincible parasite with no brain, no thinking, and no soul!

I have to prove that I am not a parasite, I have to prove that I am a young woman full of dreams and wisdom.

The pillars of the country, the elites of the society—although I can’t talk about it, I must have the courage to support the real estate industry in order to increase the country’s GDP, be willing to be a house slave, and serve the country, love the party, and love the society.So, I took out all the belongings I earned in the flower shop, paid the down payment, and signed the contract of selling myself as a house slave.

If it weren't for buying this house to settle down, I wouldn't have to rush out to find a job. The money would be enough for me to spend some time in peace and chaos.

When the house purchase contract was signed, I actually regretted it.

The little brother of the agent congratulated me charmingly and said, Miss Jiang, you have a good eye. In the 3 minutes since you signed the contract, the house has appreciated by at least 300 yuan per square meter! In 3 minutes, you can make a net profit of [-] yuan!Thirty thousand!I almost said regretfully, I won't buy it, you can earn [-] yuan.

The little brother in the intermediary laughed and said, as soon as I worked part-time, I thought about it, but the housing price is so high, I can only imagine with the strands of my hair.Miss Jiang, stop joking.

There are many things that are hard to get back, love is one, and becoming a house slave is one of them.

Jinling was petrified by the house purchase contract, and she looked at me in surprise.

Obviously, her memory of me still stays in the girl raised in Cheng Tianyou's big house who doesn't know much about the world and doesn't eat the fireworks of the world.

I also want to be full of beauty and carefree; I don't want to wake up every day and think about what I have to do to live in this world.

However, life is so realistic.

When you're out of school, when you have nothing to depend on...

Moreover, she doesn't know at all what I have experienced and what I have encountered in this short period of half a year.I have long been full of scars, and I can't go back to the beginning.

Sometimes, I feel that I am pretty good, but I didn't become the Chilian Fairy Li Mochou, who went mad to take revenge on the whole world.That may be because, no matter how much hatred there is, I know in my heart that there is a man in this world who is my first love and tenderness.

Because of him, I can't bear to become bad myself.

I looked at Jinling, and suddenly remembered the scene where she tore up Weiyang and Liangsheng's wedding invitation, so I quickly put away the house purchase contract, lest she stretch out her murderous hand again.

All afternoon, Jinling didn't wake up from the shock. To compensate for the shock I caused her, I bought her Qianxi chestnuts.

When Jin Ling and I were going to our new home with fried chestnuts in our arms, we happened to pass by the "Ning Xin, don't come here without any problems" PUB. I saw Ning Xin standing in front of his club, wearing a camel-colored windbreaker, smiling, as if he was waiting eagerly. Who's coming.I was just about to drag Jinling up to say hello, when I saw a few cars speeding past and parked next to Ningxin Clubhouse, someone got out of the car hurriedly, ran to a car and opened the door.

When I saw Tianyou get off the car, I was taken aback.

Jinling was even more stunned. She pushed me and said incoherently, ah, yes, it was him, he...

Ning Xin went up to meet him, with an uncontrollable smile in his eyes, that kind of smile was slightly tearful.When she glanced at me next to her, her smile froze for a moment, as if she wanted to turn around, but she finally greeted me.But Tianyou didn't want to look at me at all, he met Ning Xin, stretched out his hand to gently brush her hair, and kissed her on the cheek, then ignored Ning Xin's embarrassment, dragged her hand, and walked into the club.

The accompanying bodyguards stood by and looked around, as if they were guarding against something.

Jin Ling couldn't bear it anymore, his face was flushed red, and he wanted to run up, but I held him tightly.

Jinling said that he...

I smiled, alas, we broke up.

Yes, I don't care.

I only love Liang Sheng in my heart, don't I?
do i care
Ugh.

I will.

Because after watching the scene just now, a faint unhappiness still quietly lurked in my heart and lungs, and every time I took a breath, I felt sore.

After all, we were briefly happy once.

After all, he was my most important memory.

After all, he was once the heaven I depended on.

……

However, I think I will bless him, as long as he is happy, I will bless him.

(End of this chapter)