Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 316 Qingcheng II (83)
Epilogue: Three years (1)
To how strong, dare not forget.

Three years, like a dream that I can't wake up from.

It turns out that it's not that people can't give up, it's just that they haven't reached the moment when all thoughts are lost.

Three years ago, I left Changsha, turned off my mobile phone, disconnected the network cable, left the original life, the original friends, the original love, and the dream of writing that I have been pursuing for so long...

I left the fame, money, and love that this dream brought me.

Those words that kept me awake at night, the days when I was happy to have those readers’ likes, the days when I was disturbed day and night because of a bad comment, the dream that I thought was my life.

It turned out that letting go is so easy.

It turned out that leaving is so easy.

It's just because of a man, a man named Jiang Han, a man named Jiang Han whom I love deeply.

resolute.conceited.

Leaving without a sense of responsibility, those signed contracts, those anxious waiting—or, when one's heart dies, the feeling of hopelessness that can't be taken care of, everything seems to have nothing to do with her.

Even the closest parents, not to mention those things that have been put down.

For three whole years, one Spring Festival after another, and I forgot to see what the two old people who were by my side looked like.

Until the early morning of my birthday in the lunar calendar, my father brought breakfast, and the moment I looked up, seeing his aging face, my throat seemed to be blocked severely.

I accidentally choked, coughed continuously, and tears fell down. Lao Ai gently stroked my back, and complained distressedly, the eldest is alone, and he can choke even after eating.Don't you read it?Niannian eat well, let's eat well, don't follow mom, come, grandpa feed me.

Her name is Nian Nian.

Never forget Niannian.

She is my life, and I will never forget that man.

I remember back then, when my mother found all connections and registered for her, I wrote: Jiang Nian on the registration form.At that moment, the mother snatched the pen and paper angrily, and she wanted to change the name to: Ai Niannian.

Because in her opinion, if this child takes his father's surname, it will affect my future marriage, and the child's name will betray my longing for her father.

At that time, I pressed the piece of paper and shook my head at her, yes, this is my insistence - her name is Jiang Nian.

Niannian nickname.

Never forget Niannian.

She is my life, and I will never forget that man named Jiang Han.

My mother cried at that time, she said, you just don't want to live anymore, you should also think about your parents, and you should also think about Xiao Nian.

At that moment, I couldn't understand her, why didn't she want to forget a man, refused to accept marriage with someone else, so she didn't want to live anymore?

Instead, I have to live well.

If I am gone, there will be no place to hold his name in this world, the only place to hold his name is my heart.

Every day of the year, my mother is urging me to go on a blind date and get married.It seems that if I don't do this, my life will be finished, and her and Lao Ai's life will be finished, and after that, Nian Nian's life will also be finished.

Then, every Chinese New Year, especially shortly after my birthday, is more like the end of the world.

My mother would always meditate after the New Year's Eve dinner that her baby girl was one year older and depreciated by one year, and she would hold Ai and cry, and she said, go and see!How did I give birth to such a thing as your daughter!
Lao Ai didn't speak, and his temples were a little white. He patted her on the shoulder, comforted her like a child, and then smiled generously at me.

I think, Lao Ai knows my heart.

I thought, I must have followed Lao Ai. Once I fell in love, it would be difficult to turn back, and there would be no shore to cross.In this regard, I will definitely not follow my old lady who looks like Hericium erinaceus.

At first, I fought back against my mother. I said, if Lao Ai is gone, will you turn around and remarry?

My mother almost sucked me into a different dimension with a vacuum cleaner. She chased and beat me and scolded me, you have been so daring lately!Lao Ai, Lao Ai, you don't care about your daughter!Are you trying to piss me off too?If you are so mad, you can marry again!Then, she continued to chase and beat me, saying, why did I give birth to a placenta like yours!
Later, when my mother calmed down, she sighed to me and said, Lao Ai and I are married after all, the relationship is different.

I was playing with Niannian at that time, I remembered the scenes of me and Jiang Han together, I remembered Fenghuang, I remembered the moment when he hugged me and climbed down the mountain, he said, if you want to die, let’s die together - at that moment, I In my heart, I decided that I was married to him.

Thinking of this, my eyes became sore, Niannian raised her head, looked at me ignorantly, and said, Mom, what's wrong with you?
Nian Nian is a smart little girl.

Every time Lao Ai patted my mother on the shoulder to comfort my mother, Nian Nian would always turn to me and ask me, is it okay for my father to treat my mother like this?
She actually understood that this was a man's kindness to a woman.

I just nodded and stroked her little head.

Nian Nian would ask, then mom, when will dad come back?Miss him so much.

I have always told her that my father is very busy with work and has gone to a far, far place. When Nian Nian grows up, my father will come back.

I was very sad, but I smiled at her and said, when Nian Nian grows up, my father will come back.Dad is missed too.

Nian Nian nodded, she said, Mom, do you miss Dad?

Her words almost brought tears to my eyes.

i miss him.

How I miss him.

(End of this chapter)