Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 101 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (101)
Postscript: But a floating life is not like a dream
1. End

The summer of 2013 was of great significance to me.

The first is because I managed to escape the fabled 2012 Doomsday.Second, after it tortured me and I tortured it for eight years, I finally completed the novel "Liang Sheng, Can We Not Be Sad?" moments in your hands.

This feeling... really has the taste of a smiling Jiuquan.

It's like having a long relationship.

During that period, you loved him, cherished him, and didn't want to part with him; but you were tortured by him again, and even wanted to die with him in your arms.

The "Liangsheng" series is over.I often fantasize about the arrival of this moment countless times, what will I do?
I will shut down the computer hard!Don't even say "goodbye" to it!

Is not courage.

Ah, dear, this book is called "Liang Sheng". A woman has given you her best eight years. You should quickly become a peerless handsome man and marry her.

Ugh.

When I write epilogues, prefaces, etc., I am always so unserious and undignified.

I regret it every time I'm so unserious and undignified, and look what a bad impression I make on my readers.Alright, now, please make up the following vocabulary by yourself: Le Xiaomi Children's Shoes is an excellent writer who is slender, kind, not gluttonous, and never procrastinates.

Please bathe and change clothes every day, and recite ten times silently.

You will get the following benefits:

You are getting more and more beautiful.

You are getting thinner and thinner.

You must not fail the exam and be in the top three.

You're doing well at work, and your boss will never be an ex-boyfriend or ex-husband.

Your ex was so devastated by the loss of you that he almost committed suicide.

Your ex will love you more and more.

You will forget that Snail Rice actually has a bunch of tiankengs such as "Phoenix Tour on Phoenix Terrace" and "Cocklebur 2".forget it.forget it.

……

Please forgive me for being so chatty.Because of my poor health, I seldom write short articles or columns in magazines, and I rarely have the opportunity to talk to my readers. Therefore, every time I write the postscript and preface, I feel a little over-excited.In fact, I am just very happy to have this opportunity to talk and chat with you.

2. Growth

Some things can only be understood by experiencing them.

For example, health.

In 2006, I was still a strong girl.Lively as a dragon and a tiger, even if you capture two turtles with your hands, you can dance with the majesty of Fang Tian's painting halberd.At that time, I could code long stories, write short stories, edit, plan, and interact with each other at the same time... I stayed up all night for a week, every day until dawn, and I still didn't change my face or my heart beat, and I went up to the fifth floor in one breath.

So, I thought I was a female King Kong.

It turns out that I was wrong.

In April 2013, when I was creating the finale of the "Liang Sheng" series, a medical certificate pulled me back to the cold reality.

I have a heart problem.

When people are young, they never feel that there will be a problem with the heart-so, we have seen too many news about the sudden death of young people due to fatigue.

If it wasn't for my mother's coronary heart disease, I also had an electrocardiogram and blood pressure test along the way. I wouldn't have known that at this moment, because of staying up late, I had anterior septal myocardial ischemia and premature ventricular contractions.At that moment, I felt like the world was falling apart.

Thinking back, I've been going to bed at four in the morning for almost a month and a half - what have I done?Staring at the document in a daze, doodling back and forth.Even, I couldn't write a few words all night. I spent several months revising the 4 words in front of "Liangsheng [-]", and it seems a bit unbelievable to say it.I don't even know where this harshness comes from.

Is it really meaningful to be cautious about every word in this era of fast food?
I do not know.

……

At that moment, I even thought about giving up.

I feel so wronged.

I feel that if I didn't find out, I would die quietly one night, and no one would cry for me except my parents and relatives.

But I am eager to complete a story called "Liang Sheng" with a kind of obsession and perverted harshness, and give it to readers who chase after it... They are obsessed and persistent about it, just like me.But they lost me and their lives didn't change.

I dedicate most of my time to works, but these works obviously don't mean so much to my parents and relatives.

In May, I went to Hangzhou.

I want to rest by myself.

Accompanied by medicines such as Bailemian and Xinnaoxin tablets every day, fortunately, Hangzhou has a picturesque scenery.

When I left, my mother got up early and came to see me off by car.That situation, in her eyes, was like a farewell.

My younger brother is a troublemaker. He told my mother about my illness without telling me.

3. Meditation

In 2008, I had a heart attack.

In 2013, my body fell ill.

The difference is that during the heart attack in 2008, my mental condition was extremely bad and vulnerable; while in 2013, my mental state was even stronger.

Because I know the meaning of my existence.

Some people, they can't lose me.

My parents need me to support them, and my family needs my care.

Sometimes I think, if life is a dream, how wonderful it is, just sleep casually like this, and it will pass.

Unfortunately, life is not a dream.

We have our responsibilities, our obligations.

Looking back on this time now, I just want to tell those kids who are fighting for their careers or passions like me, remember to take care of your body, because it is very important to you.

Health is very important to us.

And we, to our parents and family, are irreplaceable and unique.

Staying up late, disorderly, and chaotic living habits are like a silent killer, quietly following you, waiting for an opportunity, and giving you a fatal blow at your most vulnerable moment.

I also know that what I say now may not matter to you who are too young.

In about a few years, when you are mature enough to no longer read the books of a writer named Le Xiaomi, maybe you will have the same feelings as me.

After I finish writing the finale of the "Liangsheng" series, I will take a long vacation for myself to take care of my body.

When we meet again, it is already the time when "Phoenix Tour on Phoenix Terrace" or "Cocklebur 2" is published.

I will fill up the pits dug as promised, and then live quietly, perceive, conceive and create new works.I think so.

4. Procrastination

Delaying the manuscript is definitely not a good thing, but sometimes it has to be delayed.

When I wrote the finale of the "Liangsheng" series, my feelings were very obvious.

The initial thoughts when I was young will inevitably change as I get older, and many insistences at the time have turned into disapproval now.For example, those extreme love and hate.However, the tone set at the beginning must be followed.Therefore, while silently criticizing my immaturity when I was young, I was distressed that I could not overthrow it—because the protagonists in my works have their own personalities and lives, and it is the tone that readers have tacitly accepted over the years. It's not fair to interfere.

Therefore, I very much hope that my body can get better soon. Of course, I should not be so sloppy, get rid of the habit of procrastinating, and write some brand new stories, so that you can see my growth.

In 2005, "Liang Sheng, can we not be sad" opened.

In 2006, "Liang Sheng, Can We Not Be Sad 1" was published. (14 words)

In 2007, "Liang Sheng, Can We Not Be Sad 2" was published. (15 words)

In 2011, "Liang Sheng, Can We Not Be Sad 3" was published. (17 words)

In 2013, "Liang Sheng, Can We Not Be Sad 4" was published. (The first part "Colorful Clouds Scatter"; the second part "Bright Moon Return") is finally over. (It has exceeded 30 words, and the number of words is still increasing)
……

Perhaps, if, if, I have 80 years of my life, then this work will occupy a tenth of my life.Although, it's not perfect, it's not mature.

Even if I try my best to hope that I like it and readers are satisfied, it may still not be perfect.

I am just a little woman who likes to write some small words among the fireworks.

Raising a golden retriever named Le Ben'er and a fox terrier named Qixi, he likes food full of fireworks. He is a little pretentious and vulgar, but he also hopes that he is a little different.

I cried when I was sad, and laughed when I was happy.

Because a man doesn't smoke, doesn't have tattoos, doesn't play sensuality, and can drink a little wine.

Be content with being plain and be happy.

I am very happy that my eight years of time have been honored to be collected by you.

Also eager to be collected forever.

Hi, Mi Mi, I'm Le Xiaomi.

The one that appeared in your life since 2005, Le Xiaomi.

You may have been scattered all over the world, walking silently in the boundless world alone, maybe you have him by your side, or even have your own children.

ever young.Don't understand.Passionate.It's been flamboyant.

When everything is flat and mediocre, peace and health will always be the greatest happiness.

Bless you in every period of time, have your own little happiness.

Le Xiaomi

On the night of July 2013, 7 in Chengyang, Qingdao

(End of this chapter)