Ode to joy

Chapter 76

Andy didn't look up until Singularity closed the door, staring at the paper bag containing Singularity's marriage information on the table in a daze.After a while, she guessed that Singularity had already walked through the atrium and was about to approach the gate, so she picked up her mobile phone and dialed Singularity's mobile phone. "Please just listen, don't ask. Although my childhood memories are blurred, some memories are still clear. Those nights, in the wilderness, my mother... Yehe... and those unsatisfactory hands reaching out to me... I was in an orphanage in primary, middle, and high school. I was always an unprotected child, and a good-looking child...so you can guess...I strongly resist men's physical contact with me. I can bear your contact , but that’s only because it’s you, and I remind you not to resist. But I’m very, very afraid to go further with you. When I think of what I saw and heard at night when I was a child... that’s it. Singularity, let’s end, I can’t go any further, I'm sick. I'm sorry, I'm very sorry, I shouldn't be late and I just found out that I can't restrain my resistance recently, my luck hurt you, I'm sorry, I'm very, very sorry to you."

Singularity froze in place, hearing the beep of hang up from the phone.Even though Singularity has done countless psychological constructions, he thought he had thought of the worst possibility, but he still accidentally miscalculated.Many questions were easily solved.

No wonder Andy kept rejecting his "unruly" hands, and even lowered the indoor temperature control. Everyone had to wear more clothes to prevent contact.No wonder Andy strictly refused him to stay overnight.Today, he cornered Andy, and he cornered himself.

Andy was also in a daze when he put down the phone. In this life, how happy is life?
Andy's eyes fell involuntarily on the knife block in the kitchen.Day and night, I worry and fear, fearing that one day I will repeat the mistakes of those nights, but what if it is all over?What is there to miss in the world of fireworks?

Singularity felt unable to face Andy for a moment, he hurried out of the Ode to Joy community, sat in his car, and his head was in a mess in the dark.Looking back at Ode to Joy, it was getting late, and there were only dots of windows dotted among countless black windows. He couldn't find which window Andy's was for a while.He stared blankly, not knowing what to do.He used all his strength to climb over a snow-capped mountain, climbed high and looked far away, but found that there was a vast swamp waiting to swallow living people.

But soon, Singularity thought of a time when Andy was out of order due to excitement. That time, Tan Zongming was called by phone, and he almost made a will on the spot.What will happen to Andy who talked so much tonight?Thinking of the singularity here, he couldn't sit still. No matter what, he was saved.Save it and talk about other things.

He rushed out of the car door, rushed back to Ode to Joy, entered the building with the door card given by Andy, and opened 2201 with the key given by Andy. Sure enough, he saw Andy staring at the kitchen knife rack in a daze, and did not hear him enter the door.

"Andy, I was just dumped by my girlfriend and I need comfort." Singularity pretended to be normal, patted Andy's shoulder lightly, saw Andy regained his senses, and reiterated: "I was just dumped by my girlfriend, I need comfort." But as he said that, he walked over and threw the knife holder into the cabinet below as if nothing had happened.

"You don't have to worry, I just gave up, I'm afraid of the pain of cutting flesh, I'm afraid of the dirt on the ground. It's nothing more than being born and living, just like that, living like a coward. Oh, you go home, please leave the key and door card .”

"I won't leave tonight, stay with you. Let's talk about our relationship tomorrow, I dare not leave you tonight. Go wash up, be good, I'll watch you. Don't close the door."

Andy shrugged and calmly went into the master bathroom.Singularity immediately looked at his watch and recorded the time.Then, Singularity watched the second hand of the watch tick-tock, annoyed to death.The calmer Andy was, the more worried Singularity was.

In 3 minutes, Singularity violated the rules and rushed into the bedroom, knocking on the door of the main guard.Fortunately, a human voice came from inside: "Alive, don't worry." Singularity still couldn't help pleading: "Please open the door, just open it a little, and let me know that I can rush in at any time. I won't peep."

Hearing this, Andy was in a daze for a while, and opened the door of the bathroom, "The door is closed, but it won't lock." But when he was talking, Andy couldn't help but sighed heavily, feeling helpless all over his body.The better Singularity treats her, the more guilty she feels.

When Singularity came out of the bathroom safely and walked into the bedroom with the door open, he saw that Andy was already sleeping quietly on the bed. The bedroom was dark, except for a desk lamp that was still on.There was no initial impulse in Singularity at all, but another impulse, that is, to rush over to see if Andy, who was motionless, was alive. He was terrified by Andy's eyes looking at the knife holder when he entered the door just now.

"Actually, don't worry, you have been here for so many years, and tonight is just a little bit excited."

Singularity did not respond, and he tried not to mention those sensitive things with Andy.He searched all over the bedroom for a place to sleep, but found only the floor. "Is there any quilt?"

"No."

"Any blankets, etc.?"

"No."

"Then what am I waiting for?" Singularity pretended to be relaxed and rolled onto the bed.I went to bed after longing for so many days, but there was nothing but helplessness in my heart.

I turned off the desk lamp conveniently, but I could still see my fingers in the bedroom. Only then did Singularity discover that there were dots of night lights scattered about ten centimeters from the ground.Thinking of Andy's confession on the phone just now, Singularity sighed again, she was afraid of death in the dark.And what is even more unexpected to Singularity is that sharing the bed with a beautiful woman has no dreams, which is simply a big stain in life.

But in the semi-darkness came Andy's active dialogue, "Suddenly thought of a question, if A understands all the darkness of B's ​​life, how should B feel?"

Singularity suddenly felt creepy, and had the idea of ​​packing up and running away.But he didn't dare to leave. Once he left, he would add fuel to the fire of the situation. "You need to look at the relationship between A and B. If the two are fully trusted friends or relatives, confessing each other's dark experiences is the best way to keep warm in a rough life. If not, I remember reading a mystery novel once I wrote a story like this, the good old man A was killed, and it turned out that many Bs were accomplices."

The room was silent.Andy thought, she really trusts Singularity, and Singularity, but Fan Qidian has a little idea in his mind that she may be insane, so it is impossible for Singularity to lie beside her boldly, after all, Singularity knows too much There are so many shady things about her past, even Lao Tan only knows a little bit about it.It would be fine if Singularity was just an unsophisticated stupid and bold, but he understood everything, and he dared to come back after hearing the darkness, and dared to stay and take care of her, Singularity was really good to her.Andy thought again, in fact, when the thought of life and joy flashed through her mind just now, what she thought was that she had nothing in the world, and even the singularity was forcibly expelled from her life by her, and she thought it was impossible for the singularity to come back.It's good now, he's by my side, he's not afraid of his past, he's not afraid of facing the future with her, he's always there.Andy was relieved, she fell asleep peacefully.

Those past events are kept in Andy's mind every day, and dreams come back from time to time in the middle of the night to scare her. Andy has long been used to the harassment of memories. He said it today, got excited, thought about the need to work hard tomorrow, and then fell asleep as usual.Singularity lying on the other end of the bed was stunned when he heard the sound of steady breathing not far away. Although he is also a person who has experienced a lot, what happened just now was a stormy sea for him. He couldn't fall asleep no matter what. cranky.Moreover, he was anxious and afraid to really sleep.He somewhat regretted his answer about A and B just now.

It wasn't until it was confirmed that Andy was asleep that Singularity turned his almost stiff neck and looked at Andy.The night light was guaranteed, and for the first time he clearly saw Andy's appearance when he was asleep.During the day, her expression is very calm. Many people think that she is arrogant and arrogant, but Singularity knows that she has always been like this. She is not even very flirtatious when the two of them are in private.He just couldn't think of it before, and Andy frowned slightly when he slept.Having experienced so much since childhood, no smart person would be heartless when he grows up.Singularity just watched, didn't reach out.

In the past, if a friend came to him and asked him, someone introduced such a girl, her life was full of shadows when she was a child... Without waiting for the friend to finish speaking, he would pass it off with a sentence. A woman who was full of shadows since childhood and affected her character is not acceptable, character determines fate Not talking about it, the unsunshine personality seriously affects life.But now it's his own turn, what about his principles?Singularity thought a lot, and his thoughts were chaotic, giving him a headache.He thought he would have no sleep all night, but after thinking about it, he fell asleep unconsciously.

When I woke up in the morning, Singularity jumped up like a conditioned reflex, my heart was beating wildly, and my breath was unsteady and I looked around.

After seeing clearly, I realized that this is Andy's bedroom, and Andy, who was sleeping next to him last night, has gone somewhere now, and there is no one on the other side of the 1.8-meter bed.Singularity looked at the other side of the bed, took a while to calm down, and checked the time with his watch.It was only a little past seven o'clock. He used to stay in bed at this time, but today he couldn't sleep anymore.

Walking out of the bedroom, I saw a bright room, with a faint morning sun slanting in from the east window, infinitely vigorous and infinitely energetic.Through the French doors of the balcony, Singularity saw Andy softly doing exercises on the balcony full of light golden sunlight, so warm and beautiful.The singularity is in a trance for a while, what is reality, last night or this morning?Why is it that as soon as the sun rises, as described in Liaozhai, the ghosts dissipate in an instant, and beauty descends to the world?
Therefore, when Andy saw him, when he opened the door and came in, he jumped into the guest bathroom with a single click, hiding his expression.He also needs to breathe deeply.

Andy made breakfast as usual, but made two servings today.Unlike usual, she didn't turn on the TV or stereo today, so there was only the sound of clinking cups and plates in the room.So, Andy's bored mind turned to Singularity, thinking about how to face such an awkward meeting. Last night, too many unusual things happened.

Singularity dawdled for a long time before finally coming out. Seeing the rich breakfast on the cooking table in the middle, he was in a daze again.

There is milk, a beautiful and rich fruit plate, baked bread sandwiched with cheese, fried eggs and fried bacon. It's not like Andy who doesn't know how to cook. It turns out that she can make breakfast.Coupled with snow-white dinner plates, shiny silver knives and forks, crisp napkins, and sunshine in a room, if you add a vase of flowers, isn’t this the ideal family life in the description?But Singularity had no appetite for the things on the table, so he found Andy who was making the bed in the bedroom.He watched in silence for a while more.

Andy felt something abnormal behind him, turned his head and saw the singularity, and couldn't help flushing: "Go and eat, I'll be fine soon."

Singularity thought about it, and did not intend to continue the topic of last night, "Have you thought about hiring a part-time worker?"

"I don't want to. When I first developed, I was so busy that I didn't have time to clean up the house. I once hired one, but people talk too much when they are familiar with it. Especially after finding out the layout of my room, I want to find out my inner structure. I don't want to lie, let alone I confessed that I was riddled with holes, so I had to quit her. No one has much housework."

"I noticed that the guest bathroom I used last night, you have cleaned it this morning, so diligent. I apply to stay in such a clean room for a while, and leave after everyone on the 22nd floor goes to work. Lest they see Talking too much."

So far, Andy finally confirmed the abnormality of the singularity. Normally, he had posted it earlier. Today, not only did he stand far away, but he didn't say a single joke from the beginning to the end.Andy looked back, the blush on her face faded, but she was still calm, "It doesn't matter, the neighbors like to gossip, but there is no malice. And Xiaoqu's working hours are always uncertain."

She went into the master bedroom and washed her hands, "Let's eat, I don't know how to have Chinese breakfast, so you can eat as you please."

"I didn't sleep well last night. I only slept for an hour or two. Hehe, I'm afraid that you'll violate your territory by throwing your arms and legs when you're asleep. I don't want to eat now."

"I got up today and didn't go out for a run. I was afraid that you would wake up and find no one, so I cried."

Singularity smiled, sat down at the dining table and forced himself to eat bread.Andy also sat down, but turned on the TV conveniently, allowing the TV news to occupy the speechless space between the two of them.Both of them rarely watched the morning news broadcast seriously.

Singularity ended up not going out with Andy.Andy went out alone, went to the door of 2202 to say hello as usual, and went downstairs with Guan Juer.It's just that she couldn't help being in a daze from time to time, and almost forgot to get out of the elevator.After getting out of the elevator, she turned to the other direction absent-mindedly, but it was Guan Juer who quickly pulled her back.When he came to the car, Andy handed over the car keys to Guan Juer in frustration, "You drive, I'm not in shape today."

"I'm basically a notebook guy, and your car is too responsive, it's scary to drive."

"I'm definitely worse. I...may break up with Brother Wei."

The car key in Guan Juer's hand almost fell to the ground, "No way, you two are so suitable..."

Andy made a gesture to stop Guan Juer from continuing, she didn't dare to listen, she turned to the passenger seat and waited for Guan Juer to open the door. "It looks like you're more surprised than I am. In fact, it's nothing. A person's life is nothing more than losing all the way. Forever and ever is praised because it's rare. Once you get used to it, you get used to it. It's like catching a cold. Recovery in a few days."

"No, you must have misunderstood. You are all kind and rational people. I suggest you sit down and have a good talk."

"There is no misunderstanding, there is a knot between us. Let's go, I don't want to talk about it."

"I don't tell others, and I pretend I didn't hear it. Nothing happened. I hope you don't give up. Good people and good people should be together."

Andy closed his eyes and shook his head, but stopped talking.She was very upset, she decided that her guess was correct, she might have lost the singularity.Well, this life has been losing, nothing, not a big deal.Andy kept hypnotizing herself in her heart, it's nothing, that's what happened, it's normal... Even her current upset is normal, just like every time she catches a cold, she always feels dizzy and hot, but it will pass.

Can't die.

It's just that she thought of "like morning dew", that short-lived beauty, that involuntary life.

▼orange baby
Why do I feel that Xiaoqu likes Dr. Zhao purely because he is handsome, educated and can pretend to be a wolf with a big tail.

As I grow older, I feel more and more that this is true love dominated by hormones.The love of the other girls is not as instinctive as Xiaoqu.

Although I have been locked up and can no longer pursue love; but seeing Xiao Qu like a little leopard, reckless, foolishly going for love, I feel very relieved.

I just forgave her uneducated, worldly vanity, and sometimes disgusting side.I just wonder why this child is so noisy.

▼san
Andy is a fairy in the sky - she has stunning beauty and a computer-like brain, but she has emotional barriers and treats people indifferently and rationally. When she sees Singularity, who looks ordinary but is humorous and considerate and full of life in the world, she immediately falls in love with her. , People who don't understand Andy's choice can refer to the story of the seven fairies Dong Yong and the Weaver Girl Cowherd.

Xiaoqu is an elf in the world—beautiful, lively and arrogant, likes to play pranks, but also likes to protect the weak, so she is kind in nature.

Xiaoguan is an elegant and restrained nobleman—comes from a wealthy family with cultural background, without amazing beauty and extraordinary intelligence, but after years of environment influence, he is also proficient in all aspects of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting (modern version), and needs close contact to learn. Feel that she is different.

Xiao Fan is a chivalrous woman in the world of mortals—naturally beautiful, but unfortunately, she was forced by her father and brother to almost sell herself.The dusty body is full of chivalry, willing to stand up for the weak sisters, so in the end, they have friends to support them when they are in trouble, and they can change their fortunes.

(End of this chapter)