Ode to joy

Chapter 263

Seeing Andy's silence for a long time, Xie Bin waited anxiously, playing with the teacup in his hand, and the tea splashed in the cup.He finally put the cup down heavily, and said, "Well, you already know about my past..."

"I don't want to know. Make trouble."

"No matter what, you know it anyway. Yuexi is against the whole world, and she is trying to flatter the powerful to get protection. I can feel her ambivalence. No, I have experienced them all. I can't bear to see her repeat the same mistakes."

"Repeating the same mistakes? So while you ignore Xiao Guan, you care about Yue Xi with extreme enthusiasm? While following me, you are trying to win me over to act as Yue Xi's benefactor?"

"I..." Xie Bin hesitated for a long time before saying: "Please believe me, I didn't follow you for the first time. The actions you saw from the surveillance video are just instinct, instinct that you can't understand... See The first instinct of an acquaintance is to avoid. I know you won’t believe me, but I admit it. If you think I’m stalking, just follow me, and I was also countered by you.”

Andy was surprised, this argument was similar to her guess.She asked bluntly: "Instinctively hide when you see an acquaintance, and only show up when you judge that it is a new acquaintance rather than an old acquaintance who knows everything?"

Xie Bin answered very hard, "Yes. But how do you know?"

"But the second time I asked the doctor, it was not accidental. Can it be regarded as your initiative?"

"Yes, I admit it. At the beginning I thought you were malicious towards me, investigating me like Qu Xiaoxiao, interfering with me, so I must take the initiative, and I must figure out why you panicked the day before. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for you If I made a mistake, I accept the punishment. But for Qu Xiaoxiao, I will not give up the investigation. For her, there is no other way but to contain her. She doesn't know how to be kind to others. But so far, all my actions have been limited to investigations, and there is no other targeted Action, if her family is affected by this, it has nothing to do with me so far. Please also ask her to be clear in the future, as long as she does not target me, I will not target her. A sure culprit. I'm not afraid to fight her to the death."

"Do you know how terrible it is to be investigated by you, a professional? I gave up my principles to find a relationship to transfer your work, just to prevent you from following me."

"Sorry, to you, I have to apologize. But being investigated by non-professionals is equally terrifying. Everyone has scars that they don't want to be uncovered."

"I understand your thoughts, but Xiao Guan and Xiao Qu are all my friends, and I'm partial to them. I'm trying to advise you..."

"No need to advise, I will not give up on the investigation of Qu Xiaoxiao."

"Calm down and think about it again, you are not Yuexi. You can see that Yuexi may slip into darkness, how about you? You are allowing the darkness in your heart to come back. Don't you think it's a pity?"

Xie Bin pointed to the surroundings: "What happened to them?"

Andy saw that all the people at the big round table came out, standing scattered at a distance, forming an outflanking trend towards her and Xie Bin.Even Qiu Yingying came supporting Fan Shengmei.Guan Juer stood the farthest.Andy couldn't help laughing, "They also prefer me. That's great."

"So you can't persuade me. A person who is loved by thousands of people, you won't understand my heart. I won't stop, I can tell Qu Xiaoxiao clearly now."

"Don't think about Xiaoguan? She treats you wholeheartedly, she is someone you can trust completely. Don't believe in Xiaoqu, Xiaoguan may worry about gains and losses, but she has the ultimate principle. Don't let her down."

"Because of your kind behavior: you showed me the surveillance video in advance, instead of catching me by surprise; you deleted it immediately after I watched it, and didn't spread it to Qu Xiaoxiao, and didn't even keep the evidence to threaten me. I'm willing to tell you, although you won't understand. I can't feel emotions at all right now, and my heart is occupied by...other emotions. I'm sorry for Xiaoguan, I can only stay away from her from now on, so that she can forget me."

"Other emotions—fear?"

Xie Bin was shocked, but he didn't agree, but slowly turned his head to face out of the window.Only in that position, no one was staring at him and his face could be seen.Andy looked at Xie Bin, and his heart trembled. "But you still distracted to help Yuexi, and you didn't hesitate to join forces with me, the enemy at that time."

"You misunderstood, it's not what you think. I have an explanation for you. I don't have to explain it to them. Please open Xiaoguan and leave Yuexi behind. I'm leaving."

"Slow down, I haven't finished talking."

But Xie Bin left without saying a word.Andy could only yell, "Stop him."

The outflanking formation was easily tightened, and everyone rushed over to block Xie Bin's way, which was also related to Ju Er.Xie Bin's face sank. "Want to fight?"

Qu Xiaoxiao was nervous all over, she subconsciously dragged Guan Juer to stand in front of her.But Qu Xiaoxiao still said fiercely: "If you want to leave, it's not that easy."

Andy was pregnant, so she didn't dare to get up quickly, and didn't dare to run fast. When she came over, both sides had already drawn out their fists.

She didn't know where her courage was, she grabbed Xie Bin by splitting her chest, and dragged her to the corner, "Don't resist, I'm pregnant." Xie Bin had no choice but to get caught, and was pulled by Andy with his arms up, until he was dragged to the corner, leaning against the wall stop.Andy stared at Xie Bin, but said to Bao Yifan: "Baozi, lead them away as far away as possible. I'll talk to Xie Bin."

Qu Xiaoxiao said: "Andy, it's not about your family. I'm the biggest victim."

Andy said without hesitation: "I will solve it, you go away first."

Immediately, two people rushed to follow, one was Fan Shengmei who mustered up courage, and the other was Bao Yifan who was worried.Fan Shengmei hugged Qu Xiaoxiao, and said softly: "Xiao Qu, you can see clearly that Xie Bin has given in to Andy. I believe Andy can solve it."

"I don't believe it. Andy makes a lot of money, but he's confused about the ways of the world. She can't handle it." But Qu Xiaoxiao temporarily stopped struggling, because she saw Bao Yifan go up, hug Andy from behind and whisper. "Look, her husband doesn't worry about her either."

Bao Yifan whispered only a few words, "He is good at inducing confessions, can you afford to bet?"

After Bao Yifan finished speaking, he retreated consciously.But Xie Bin, who was quietly waiting in the corner, saw Andy's face was flushed red, sweat was spreading from his forehead under the light, his drooping hands were twisted together, and his two thumbs subconsciously rotated positions.Xie Bin took a look, then closed his eyes and turned his face away.

Qu Xiaoxiao broke away from Fan Shengmei, and leaned over to Andy's side and whispered: "Don't be my middleman, I don't admit it. My parents agreed to divorce verbally tonight, my house was broken by him, I will not let him go."

"it is good."

"It's not that I don't worry about you or don't trust you. I want to deal with my own affairs."

"it is good."

Qu Xiaoxiao didn't know what these two words meant for a moment, she stretched her neck to look at Andy's face, saw that Andy was quite irritable and not calm, she wondered if she was angry with her.He hurriedly said again: "I don't want to disturb you, you can talk at ease, and I will drive people away for you. Be good, I love you." Qu Xiaoxiao then quietly retreated.By the way, he took another look at Xie Bin. From the beginning to the end, Xie Bin didn't look at her, nor did he look at Andy too seriously, let alone Guan Juer.

Finally, there were only two people left to face each other.But Andy looked at Xie Bin for a while, retracted his eyes, and said in frustration: "I wanted to discuss with you the fear in our hearts, and I will tell you with confidence that the problem you encountered is only pediatrics, and you should follow my advice. But I just I found that I was too busy to take care of myself, and I couldn’t overcome my prejudice to put forward arguments, and I didn’t have the courage to speak out. The fear in my heart accumulated day by day and went deep into the bone marrow. But if someone asked me what I was afraid of, I said that I was hungry for two meals that time, and suffered two meals the other time. I was heartbroken, and I was chased and booed once again... People who listened to it became impatient after a few words, and no one has encountered these. I can’t explain it to anyone, because I dare not say that The core of fear, I dare not tell others, I am afraid of becoming a handle in the hands of others, and I dare not tell myself, whoever walks under the sun dares to look back at the cold. Of course, I will not tell you today, so I can only Talk about how I feel."

As Andy spoke, the clasped hands slowly and involuntarily lifted up, clasped in front of his chest, and his fingers intertwined tightly. "For many years, I was afraid that someone would dig out my fear. Later, this fear itself became a part of the fear, but the core of the fear became more and more blurred. I only knew that I was very, very afraid, so afraid that I didn't dare to sleep at night. Sleeping blindly in the black light. If you are afraid of the wind, you can build a windshield wall. If you are afraid of fire, you can use the best fire-fighting facilities. But in the face of vague fear, there is nothing you can do. Instead, the more and more security around you are buried, Like a silkworm making a cocoon, it becomes more and more tenacious and sensitive. But it is triggered and frightened from time to time. People who trigger the alert will still blame me for making a fuss. And one day someone will say to me contemptuously, you live well, you Anxiety, there are still people starving to death, what to do with those people. So the fear becomes absurd, absurd also means abnormal, people see abnormal people in a different way, I have to adjust myself according to the reaction of others Be a normal person. But I can’t do it right and left, and I suspect that the whole world is against me. When I was still a minor, my guardian took me to see a psychiatrist, but you must have experienced that it is difficult for external factors to play a role. I have said before Now, the only one who can overcome the demons is myself. From you and from Yuexi, I can see me in the past. The demons are showing their teeth and claws. I have to remind you that you have demons. As for you asking me to keep Yuexi, I refused, because I was afraid of being triggered by her. I can only say this to you. You have already triggered my darkness. The danger is approaching, you have a very dangerous aura, and I don't want to touch you. Allow me to be selfish. I'm sorry, I have to sit down. When I talk about those fears, I feel weak and unable to stand. It's really useless. You Let's go, I hope my nagging is useful to you, Xiaoqu is still waiting for you."

Xie Bin listened intently from the beginning, but his eyes only stayed on Andy's face once, and then he lowered his eyelids and looked somewhere, with his hands in his trouser pockets.The same is true for Andy opposite him. The two faced each other with their necks hanging, one talking on his own, and the other listening on his own.After Andy finished speaking, he found a place to sit down, and he couldn't help but collapsed on the table, waving his hand to let Xie Bin do his own thing.But Xie Bin sat listlessly opposite Andy.

"It's the same. The difference is that I always tell myself that I am a man and I have to take the initiative. And..."

Andy still waved Xie Bin away, "It's impossible for two frightened people to hug each other for warmth, they'll just sink deeper and deeper. Find a normal person."

"Are there any normal people?"

(End of this chapter)