Ode to joy

Chapter 159

Guan Juer nodded, silently watched Fan Shengmei change her clothes, and hurried out.During this time, Qiu Yingying called Sister Fan several times, Fan Shengmei could only pretend that she didn't hear it, and Guan Juer also pretended that she didn't hear it.After Fan Shengmei left, Guan Juer silently stared at Qiu Yingying who was holding a mouthful of food.Seeing Fan Shengmei leaving without hesitation, Qiu Yingying was stunned for a while, then turned to Guan Juer and said, "Xiaoguan, I'm done."

"Well, I think you're almost finished. After the Spring Festival, you're just in a daze and don't go out to run business. Soon, you will get some dead wages for work. There is no commission, and you can't afford the property fee. Next time The quarterly rent is almost unaffordable. If you don’t have the cheek to reach out to your father again, you will have to save money. We are just white-collar workers who work hard in the sea market with bare hands. We rely on hard work every day to get enough food and clothing. Love is such a luxury. I'm sorry. Let it go, think about it, it's time for you to work."

"I understand what you're saying, but I'm not in the mood right now." When Qiu Yingying said this, she pursed her lips aggrievedly and burst into tears.

"Little white-collar workers are not qualified to pay attention to mood. Think about your last time, recall the loss of your soul when you lost your job last time, who told you about your feelings when you resigned? Who cares about your mood? Cherish the hard-won job now Well, you can’t afford it.” Guan Ju paused, and had to be more detailed, “You must seal up your attendance in the shortest possible time, and adjust your mental state in a day tomorrow, so that you will be in good spirits the next morning. to go to work, to earn a living. You have no other choice."

"Xiaoguan, how old are you? You are so cruel. I..."

"Eat slowly, and take a look at where you are when you're done eating. Time doesn't wait, property fees, rent, bus cards, meals, electricity, water, you do the math." Guan Ju'er finished speaking, and went back to his room.

Qiu Yingying stared blankly at Guan Ju'er walking away, and couldn't help saying to herself: "Why are you so cold-blooded." Guan Ju'er pretended not to hear, and endured it.

After a while, Qiu Yingying finished eating, took out the change in the drawer, collected enough money for the box lunch, took it to Guan Juer's room, and repeated, "You are so cold-blooded."

Guan Juer couldn't bear it this time, jumped up and said, "Qiu Yingying, please think twice before speaking, okay? How can I be cold-blooded? I started busying with your affairs before dawn, and I declined to listen to it for the first time with my friends today. I came to accompany you at the concert, and I bought you dinner. How can I be cold-blooded? Don’t you know that words can hurt people? Why do you hurt me so easily? Do you treat me as a friend? Diligent."

Qiu Yingying was scolded all over her face, but she also realized that she was wrong, she was taken aback, Guan Juer waved her hand and said: "I know you are absurd, please don't be absurd, think about it, live a good life, rely on yourself , you can only rely on yourself. Don't apologize, kneel down."

Qiu Yingying looked at Guan Ju'er who was blushing with anger in surprise, and she wanted to swear back in her heart, but she swallowed the words.Guan Ju'er also stared at Qiu Yingying, and couldn't help but recall Qu Xiaoxiao's decision to slam the door on the door with her face, but she couldn't do it.The two could only stare at each other.

"I forgive you, you are a child."

"I don't need your forgiveness, I am not at fault. The source of responsibility is investigated, and you are the source."

"What's wrong with me? I'm broken in love, I was kicked, I was kicked like garbage, I can't be angry?"

"You love to be angry and angry, so I won't accompany you."

Guan Ju'er couldn't bear it anymore, and stretched out his hand to close the door, but Qiu Yingying resisted it firmly, not allowing him to move at all.

The two stared angrily again, and the distance between the two young faces was closer, less than a foot.Both of them were exerting their strength on the door panel, and their two little faces were flushed with suffocation in an instant.

After confronting each other for a long time, Qiu Yingying burst out laughing, but her tears also fell down with a flutter.Guan Juer also let out a cry, letting out his true anger.The two of them unanimously withdrew their energy from landing on the door panel, and looked at each other foolishly for a while, Qiu Yingying nodded, "I understand. Starting tonight, I won't be on Weibo."

Guan Juer nodded, but didn't say anything.I'm afraid that I will ask "how many days can I last" when I open my mouth.The two met each other in silence for a while, and Qiu Yingying went back to her room.In the small room, she couldn't help but face the tempting computer.Qiu Yingying lingered for a long time before considering whether to go online to delete Weibo followers, or even delete the Weibo address.In the end, I had no choice but to go back to the door of Guan Juer's house, "Xiaoguan, help me delete his...his traces from the computer."

Without further ado, Guan Juer went to Qiu Yingying's room, shut Qiu Yingying out of the door, and quickly deleted all traces of Yingqin.Opening the door again, she reached out to Qiu Yingying, "Bring the phone too."

Qiu Yingying couldn't help showing a mournful face, but she couldn't beat Guan Juer, so she had to hand over her mobile phone.Guan Juer also removed all traces on the phone.Back in her own room, Guan Juer simply cut the weeds and rooted them out, and sent a text message to tell Ying Qin that she had helped Qiu Yingying delete the contact information on the computer and mobile phone. She hoped that Ying Qin would know how to protect herself. ID.Soon, Ying Qin replied, saying that except for the mobile phone card, which can only be done at dawn tomorrow, everything else has been done.Since then, all channels for Qiu Yingying to contact Yingqin have been blocked, except for the most primitive human blocking.

For this reason, Qiu Yingying stood silently at the door of Guanjuer's house, not afraid of suffering or tired until Fan Shengmei came back from the meeting.

Guan Ju'er was so stared at that he couldn't read at all, so he could only stay in his room and search the Internet for black metal.

Little 2202 was filled with the sound of howling ghosts and howling wolves.

After the wedding, Bao Yifan's friends invited their closest friends to play in their new house.Andy can't think about it, but considering that the groom is a close friend of Bao Yifan, she has no reason to hold back.At this time, she can no longer completely take her own likes and dislikes as the criterion for advancing and retreating, she consciously considers Bao Yifan.

The new house is in the villa area, famous cars are parked at the door, and the second generation of rich people come and go, and the tea table is already filled with famous French wines.Almost everyone present knew each other, except Andy.So they quarreled fiercely, and Andy was always cold and sweet and would not make trouble. He could only watch, with Bao Yifan accompanying him, and occasionally shielding Andy from all kinds of shocks.

"Why are you getting more and more worried?"

"Have it?"

"It's all written on the face." Bao Yifan stretched out his hand and gestured to the bustling crowd and the two of them, "Prosperity - loneliness, prosperity - loneliness, prosperity - loneliness. The contrast is sharp."

Andy sneered, she was not a hidden material. "afraid."

Bao Yifan couldn't help laughing, "Don't be afraid, I will share the responsibility with you."

Andy shook his head, "Go back and tell you."

Bao Yifan still laughed, what can he say?It is nothing more than the anxiety of new mothers, it is strange not to be anxious.Even a genius may not be able to handle this kind of thing smoothly.He whispered to the groom, and led Andy to say goodbye to everyone.What chased after them was everyone screaming, "It's your turn next!"

Bao Yifan excitedly carried Andy into the car, and before closing the car door he said with a smile: "Have you figured out what to say, let's start." After speaking, Xiao ran around to the driver's seat, jumped in, "Have you thought about it yet?"

"Already..."

Before Andy could finish his sentence, the door of the driver's seat was pulled open, and a friend who was stripped to only his shirt and shorts shouted loudly: "Baozi testify to me, they said that I can't play football, and that I will become a football player after graduation." Didn't kick a ball."

"By your two snow-white thighs? I won't perjure you."

The people who came out from behind cheered, "Strip naked! Fine wine!" They captured the friend in the shirt and shorts back to the house alive.

Bao Yifan looked at everyone and laughed, and waited for everyone to enter the house before he started the car and left. "Don't get me wrong, don't look at their unscrupulous troubles now, they work very well, most of them are pretty good."

"I thought of Qu Xiaoxiao, and it's the same. I'm curious, did you play like this before? Wouldn't you be suffocated by my side?"

"How can you be bored? I fell in love with you at first sight. What are you going to say to me? I plan to sit down and make a watch with you tomorrow. We will change you to a bigger house and find a reliable nanny from here to take care of you. Board and lodging. Let me ask my friends who already have children for details, and I will make plans tomorrow.”

"Well, I'm not in a hurry. I'll decide after I read the book recommended by Qu Xiaoxiao's boyfriend, Dr. Zhao. When I get back, I plan to tell you about my life experience, what I know about it. If you have any questions, I can't answer either, I will give you Wei Guoqiang's phone number, and you can ask yourself."

"If you feel bad about the past, don't talk about it, we all live in the present. I don't care."

"I care. The wedding reminds me that when two people are together, they should be open, transparent and fair in the face of love."

"Hehe, don't make it so serious, you can't be married, or anything else, you won't hide another person in your heart, you can't hide it, you always confess in front of me. What else, I perfectionism?"

Andy stopped talking.It wasn't until the car stopped in the garage and turned off that Andy said: "Tell me about my mother, my grandpa who just passed away, my grandma who died or disappeared, and my younger brother who was fostered in the orphanage. Except grandpa , and the rest are lunatics."

Bao Yifan tried to control his emotions, but his eyes still couldn't help opening round.

Andy's heart was cold, although she knew it would be the result, she stretched out her hand to open the car door, "I...I'll go in and get my luggage, please...please wait...take me...take me to the hotel. "

Bao Yifan stretched out his hand to stop him, but he hesitated to speak. He looked at Andy restlessly for a while, then turned and got out of the car.Andy watched Bao Yifan go around the front of the car, and soon opened the door as usual.The previous few times, Andy naturally reached out to hold Bao Yifan's shoulders, and Bao Yifan half hugged and half helped him out of the car door.But now her hand timidly stopped in the air, unable to press down, as if Bao Yifan was already someone who had nothing to do with her, how dare she bother someone who had nothing to do with her.

Instead, Bao Yifan held Andy's hand, still warm and enthusiastic. The two looked at each other silently for a moment, and Bao Yifan carried Andy out of the car with all his strength.The moment it landed, it also landed in Bao Yifan's arms.

"I love you. But I have a belly question to ask you." The faces of the two were close at hand, but neither of them had the urge to move closer, just staring silently.

It took Andy a while to restrain the excitement in his heart, "You're welcome, just ask."

"Go up and say it. It's cold here." Bao Yifan hesitated for a moment, let go of Andy, and the two walked towards the elevator side by side. There was an obvious distance between them, like a gap in their hearts.Andy has always acted like I'm right, I don't need to apologize and I don't need to explain, but now she can't do anything, she just stares at Bao Yifan's unusually serious face worriedly, looking at the sternness in his eyes. There are ever-changing things, and I guess all kinds of possibilities coolly in my heart.

Even though I had prepared for the worst in my heart, I still couldn't accept the arrival of this moment.

Bao Yifan walked into the house seriously, first went to the nanny's room, and asked the nanny to go home.After the nanny left, he came to Andy who was still standing at the door.Andy didn't wait for him to ask, and asked first: "Shall I start from the beginning, or should you ask me to answer?"

"I urgently need to know a question, why did you choose this time to tell me." Bao Yifan who asked the question was serious and even stern.

Andy was thrown into a tizzy by a mere question.The heavy clothes on her body made her breathless, so she had to turn slightly and took off her coat first.He only took off half of it, only to feel light on his hand, and Bao Yifan had already taken the overcoat.She couldn't help but turned around in surprise, was he doing this because of pure gentleman behavior, or was it to show that he still loved him?Bao Yifan also looked at her, their gazes collided in mid-air, and they spoke a thousand words.

"I don't pretend to be wrong, let's go straight to the point. I have always been vigilant and suspicious of my mental state; I used the previous specious love to prove that I'd better be single to the end; I didn't try to fall in love with you, and of course I don't have to explain to you ; Then I didn't try to be with you for a long time, and I thought that you might not last long with me, so I didn't have to explain anything; Then I kept trying to get away, but I was like a moth to the flame, that period was my most hypocritical time; today, The child is an accident, but it is also inevitable, and your behavior of preparing to marry and being with me forever makes me have to tell the truth, I can't get married. I'm sorry, let you have a dream. I... Thank you very much for the beauty you brought to me. That's it .I'm going to go."

Bao Yifan stared at Andy dumbfounded, unable to speak for a long time.But when Andy shrugged helplessly and moved away to pack his luggage, he reached out and hugged him in his arms.Andy was puzzled and wanted to observe Bao Yifan's eyes, but Bao Yifan buried his face in her shoulder and refused to move away.

Andy was back in her lustful arms, and she didn't want to go away either.But how could she not leave.She reached out to push Bao Yifan, but Bao Yifan hugged him even tighter.

"Don't move, think about it, push me away, who will hurt you? Don't move, let me be quiet, let me hug Jing Jing. I'm a little confused."

Andy was surprised. Slowly, she recalled "Push me away, who will hurt you" in Bao Yifan's arms, and tears could not stop falling down.She finally lowered her head and buried her head in Bao Yifan's shoulder, letting the tears flow quietly.

"Andy, Andy? Don't stand, let's sit down and talk. Don't be angry, I misunderstood you just now, blame me for being too complicated. Sit down, don't cry, don't cry." Bao Yifan kissed again, handkerchief again, In a hurry, "Okay, I will review..."

"I was wrong, you reacted correctly."

"I...I admit that I thought evil at first. I thought you didn't love me at first. I didn't understand why you announced the truth on the day you had a child. I thought you were making excuses, or it was because of Backing up, many, all kinds of messy possibilities rushed into my head, I was caught off guard at the time, I was very disappointed, I wondered why you are such a woman. I shouldn't doubt you. "

"It's not 'what the truth,' it's the real truth."

"Well. At first, I couldn't figure out why a person like you would wait for me to show up and love you for so many years. Yes, you have always refused me to approach you. I was scared by you today and my head was a little dull. The truth What's the matter? Why did you leave me for the truth? Our relationship in the past few months, you let it go as soon as you say?"

"Because I don't know when it will happen, and my child, I don't know what will be born. I can't implicate you. Think about it, my grandfather couldn't bear the pressure and fled his hometown. Wei Guoqiang also left. What happened Time, you can't bear it."

Bao Yifan bit his lower lip tightly, and after thinking for a long time, he opened his mouth with great difficulty, "I just thought about it. Even if there is such a day, before that day comes, we cherish every day. There will be a little psychological shadow at first, and I will overcome it. .”

"I can't do it, I know I'm hurting you, I know it."

"But how can you let me leave you? You are in my heart. Ask yourself, can you go away again? You know better than me how to play games. I was the one who chased you with shamelessness, no Blame you, you don't have to leave me to show any attitude. Being in love is the only reason to be together, stop talking about leaving, nod, and promise me."

Andy was exposed by Bao Yifan, yes, she really couldn't do without him.Even at the moment of the showdown just now, she still didn't want to leave in her heart, she could only tell her rationally, if you love him, don't hurt him.She didn't want to leave either, she really didn't want to leave, Bao Yifan understood her.But she has to shake her head, she can't nod.But while shaking his head, tears welled up again.Decades of tenacity have all turned into a mess of grievances at this moment. Of course she wants someone to love, of course she wants someone to hurt, and she hopes to accept the deep love frankly. She wants everything, she wants to find someone to act like a baby, she wants to find someone Rely on, want to find someone to discuss the most intimate things, want to find someone to share the joy or sorrow from the bottom of my heart, she needs a thick chest, she wants a lot of things that have never belonged to her for more than 30 years, she is already close to heaven, she How could she be willing to leave, willing to accept God's injustice to her.

But at this moment, she was crying in Bao Yifan's arms.For these 30 years of grievances.

Bao Yifan was a little surprised at first, but gradually realized something, and stopped persuading him, making Andy cry.

Bao Yifan didn't ask until the crying turned into choked sobs, "Agreed?"

(End of this chapter)