Those years when the male protagonist was a scumbag in the world

Chapter 239 Fanwai: Raise your eyebrows and bend your lips, all for you, and there will be no one in your heart from now on

[Although it may be a bit redundant, I still want to write Jiyun's side story]
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I grew up in Nanjia Temple since I was a child. Others practiced Buddhism, so I also practiced Buddhism with them.

Even though I have never really understood why I want to practice Buddhism and what a Buddha is.

But I can only practice Buddhism.

Because in Nanjia Temple, those who do not practice Buddhism are different.

It is strange to say that in the temple, I am the youngest and the most sloppy in practice, but my cultivation is far superior to all the brothers.

My masters and uncles all said that I was born to be a good buddhist. At first I didn’t take it seriously, and even felt that what they said was wrong, but as time went on, I got used to it.

I also gradually got used to the so-called title of "the first genius of Buddhist practice in this world" they imposed on me.

Even though I still feel nothing in my heart.

But it was also in this situation that I understood why they all said that I was a good buddhist.

This is not just because I have a talent far beyond ordinary people in Buddhist practice.

More importantly, I have no special interest in anything in this world.

For a person who is ruthless and desireless, practicing Buddhism is basically getting twice the result with half the effort.

Because people who practice Buddhism should not have ordinary minds or distracting thoughts.

I also thought that I would always live my life with such a calm mind.

but……

Perhaps this is the case in this world, there will always be a person who will appear quietly when you are not aware of it, and then break all the rules you once thought.

Be the inevitable accident of your fate.

The only surprise.

After a glance, it will be hidden in my heart from now on, and it will never be forgotten.

She has always been excellent, so good that I can't catch up, and I often feel a little ashamed in front of her.

But I still want to be with her.

The moment she nodded in agreement, I was really happy.

I was so happy that I even felt that the good luck of my life was given to that moment.

And later...

It really confirmed what I thought at the time.

I gave her the moment of nodding all the good luck of my life.

She said she still hadn't been tempted by me, she said she was leaving.

Now, I don't know how many years have passed since she left.

Over the years, I have been cultivating silently in her cave, and occasionally Xi Yu would come to visit me.

He always looked at me with a bit of melancholy, as if he was looking at the same people who had fallen in the end of the world.

And today, he came again.

"She is gone, why are you still so reluctant to let go?"

I pursed my lips and smiled.

For so many years, every time we meet, he has to mention this sentence.

I don't answer.

He just quietly raised his eyes to look at the sky that was cut before she left.

After all, my silence was only exchanged for Xi Yu's soft sigh.

"She has been gone for so many years, you should come out too..."

After speaking, he got up and left.

This has been the case over the years, he came to see me, said a few words, I was silent, and he left.

But today I suddenly wanted to say something, just when his figure walked to the entrance of the cave——

"Since I met her, I never thought about letting go."

He froze slightly, probably mocking my stubbornness, and finally said: "You will only create demons for yourself."

Then he left in a hurry.

And I just chuckled and watched him leave.
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①: A frown, a smile, a sadness, a lifetime of obsession and drunkenness.One study, one sigh, one cycle, one inch of lovesickness and one inch of gray.

②: I didn't have lovesickness at first, but later I saw you with a spring breeze, and I laughed at myself at the thought of lovesickness.

③: Before I met a girl, I only felt that everything in the world was the same. After I met a girl, there was nothing in my eyes, and there was only a girl in my eyes.

—— Jiyun

(End of this chapter)