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Chapter 50 Occupational Diseases (1)
The coffee shop is as warm as spring, but outside the window is snow.Shen Yue felt the sadness in Kang Ruxin's eyes several times, and could only smile wryly in his heart.

"You really care about her that much?" Kang Ruxin finally asked, her voice light and light, but her questioning tone was clearly revealed.

Shen Yue knew that the "she" Kang Ruxin was referring to was Qi Min.Two months ago, Qiu Jiwu's father-in-law found him. The old man's request made him very embarrassed, but he thought that it was related to Qi Min's future happiness, so he finally agreed.But he rejected the check from the old man, because he agreed to it for Qi Min.

Qiu Jiwu laughed loudly in front of Shen Yue, and said, "Dr. Shen, I never thought I would be such a stupid person in your eyes."

Shen Yue didn't understand what he meant, and said, "Stupid?"

Qiu Jiwu said in a deep voice: "I was born in an ordinary family, and it was not easy to get to where I am today. For all of this now, I sacrificed the only true love of my life, and I did not hesitate to push the woman I love the most to endless The suffering, the pain of which only I know. I am a selfish person, people like me care about everything I have now, such as my family, and my daughter, I will never Emotional desperation. I know that if I really do that, I will lose everything I have now, especially the love my daughter has for me. I know very well in my heart that what I have lost is gone, and now the only thing I can do is The most important thing is to regain the relationship between me and Qi Min. My father-in-law cannot accept other women to replace his daughter, so he doubts me, and I completely understand."

He didn't lie.Shen Yue was shocked.Qiu Jiwu is the most realistic person Shen Yue has ever met, so realistic that he would not hesitate to expose his worst side to others in order to clear himself up.At this moment, Shen Yue suddenly realized that the really stupid person was himself.Qiu Jiwu was right, since he could abandon his first love without hesitation, he would never make such a low-level mistake for the sake of feelings.People like Qiu Jiwu will definitely and will only choose the latter in the face of relationship and career.

A few days later, Qi Min called Shen Yue and asked him to meet.After the two met, Qi Min's first words were: "I rejected Qiu Jiwu. Do you know why?"

Shen Yue didn't expect her to be so direct, and was also surprised: "Why?"

Qi Min's face turned pale instantly, and he said, "The reason is very simple, I don't want to accept his sympathy."

Shen Yue shook his head and said, "He doesn't just sympathize with you, but also hopes to compensate you. I can feel that his feelings for you are real."

Qi Min shook his head slightly, silently Shen Yue felt the long sigh in her heart.He had a feeling that Qi Min's real thoughts might not be that simple.He asked: "Actually, you don't want Qiu Jiwu to get into the trouble of being suspected. Is that so?"

Qi Min's tears were falling, and he choked up and said: "If you lose it, miss it, what's the point of getting it again? In fact, a good memory is more important than anything else. Don't you think so, Dr. Shen?"

There was something strange in her eyes, which made Shen Yue feel flustered instantly. He nodded and said, "Maybe."

Qi Min smiled, with a dazzling brilliance blooming on her face, she said with a smile: "Dr. Shen, do you still remember our agreement? How is your preparation for the Institute of Psychology?"

Shen Yue was very embarrassed.A few days ago, Long Huamin personally approached Shen Yue and told him that the Provincial Public Security Bureau had decided to provide him with No. 28 Kangde Street as the site of the Institute of Psychology free of charge, and at the same time provide part of the funds, but the condition was that the Institute of Psychology The Institute must undertake the obligation to assist the police.At that time, Shen Yue told Long Huamin about his agreement with Qi Min, but Long Huamin directly rejected it.Long Huamin said: "Your Institute of Psychology will serve the police for a long time in the future. We must consider the establishment of this institution. And from the perspective of confidentiality, we will never allow private capital to enter."

Shen Yue couldn't restrain the excitement in his heart, and said: "I don't want any establishment from you, and I don't want you to provide funds. It's okay to ask me to undertake the obligation to assist the police, but you must give me full freedom, otherwise this psychological institute It doesn't matter if you don't do it!"

Long Huamin looked at him in surprise, and asked, "Why? You have to know, it's not easy to get into our establishment."

Shen Yue said disapprovingly, "I'm used to being lazy, and I don't want to be kept in captivity."

Long Huamin said angrily, "What are you talking about?"

Shen Yue said lightly: "I am a psychologist, and I have my own principles. My psychological research institute will be aimed at ordinary people in the future. I will provide them with free psychological consultation and treatment services, and I will also accept commercial promotion, insurance Fraud detection and other orders, I have the ability to support this institution through my professional knowledge. The development of academics requires free space, once I am captive by you, will I still have free space?"

Long Huamin suddenly laughed and said, "Shen Yue, it seems that you have a deep misunderstanding of our system. Who said that the institutions within our system have no room for free development? Our satellites are not the same. Didn’t you also go to the moon?”

Shen Yue shook his head and said: "I have always had a dream, that is, to be able to popularize psychological counseling and psychotherapy in China. This is the true meaning of the discipline of psychology. I don't want my psychological research institute to become a fancy school. Institutions, I want to serve ordinary people, even for free. I can volunteer to assist you police, but this is not the main purpose of my establishment of this psychological institute."

Long Huamin found it difficult to persuade him. After thinking about it, he sighed and said, "Okay, I'll report your thoughts to the leaders of the provincial department. But Qi Min's investment is absolutely not acceptable. After all, she is the widow of Kan Stone, and Kan Stone There are still some remaining problems in the case, and it is not appropriate for her to intervene in your institution."

At this moment, Shen Yue suddenly realized that the agreement he made with Qi Min was really impulsive.Long Huamin was right. Although Kan Stone’s car accident case has been solved, the remaining problems still exist. Both the police and this future psychological research institute have to consider the future influence on society.Moreover, Long Huamin's idea is also very reasonable. After all, this organization will serve the police for a long time in the future, and it has to consider the issue of confidentiality. Once Qi Min intervenes, she has the right to know some internal affairs, and the risk of leaking the secrets is also high. increased.

It's not that Shen Yue doesn't believe in Qi Min, but she's not a professional after all, so she can't use the so-called professional ethics to demand and restrain her.

Therefore, when Shen Yue faced Qi Min, he was very embarrassed. He could only say to her with apology: "Qi Min, I'm sorry, this matter is not as simple as we imagined. I can't explain the specific situation. You've made it so clear that I can only tell you that the main reason for not being able to cooperate with you is that the police are going to get involved in this institution. I'm sorry, but there is nothing I can do to change that."

Qi Min understood immediately, his heart was instantly filled with a sense of loss, and he said softly: "It's nothing, I understand."

Shen Yue felt even more uncomfortable: It seemed that she was always understanding others, but who could understand her?He found that he had no more comforting words, only to apologize again: "I'm sorry..."

Qi Min sighed and said: "Dr. Shen, stop talking, I can really understand you." Suddenly, she looked at the apologetic man in front of her with burning eyes, and asked in a low voice: "We are friends. Every word between us is sincere, so you don't need to apologize to me. Do you say so?"

A feeling of emotion rose in Shen Yue's heart: "Thank you."

Qi Min was still looking at him, and asked softly, "Can we just be friends?"

At this moment, Shen Yue suddenly understood another meaning expressed in her words.He never thought that Qi Min would have such emotions for himself.But he soon figured it out: a woman who is deeply hurt in her heart will often have a stronger desire for love in her heart.He couldn't bear to refuse directly, and suddenly felt a sense of panic at what to do, and hurriedly changed the topic: "Qi Min, there has been a question that I haven't been able to ask..."

Shen Yue's panic was clearly seen by Qi Min, but she misunderstood it as a kind of excitement, and she said with a smile: "You ask, I will answer you truthfully."

The joy and coquettishness shown on Qi Min's face made Shen Yue even more flustered, he just wanted to escape the embarrassment and bewilderment in front of him as soon as possible.However, the question he wanted to ask has always puzzled him. He wanted to ask it several times but finally gave up because it was really difficult to ask.At this moment, under such circumstances, he couldn't care less about the other person's inner sensitivity, and blurted out: "I saw a condom in your diary once, I don't know why you cherish such a thing... "

Qi Min's face suddenly turned pale, and Shen Yue realized that he had made a big mistake, and hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't ask."

Qi Min turned to leave, but after walking a few steps, he turned around and said to him: "I prepared that for Qiu Jiwu many years ago, but unfortunately it was not used. Dr. Shen, now I understand, I want to be your Having a friend is a very difficult thing, I am too extravagant."

Shen Yue froze there, watching her figure disappear out of sight.

One day a month later, Shen Yue received a text message from Qi Min: I have completed the immigration procedures to Switzerland.Dr. Shen, I shouldn't have said that to you that day.You are the only friend in my life, and I should cherish it.Sorry!

Looking at the short lines of text on the phone, Shen Yue felt his nose ache and his heart was congested badly, so he hurriedly called her, only to find that the phone was turned off.In the next period of time, he dialed that number countless times, but it was still the same, until one day, a new prompt came from the phone: Sorry, the number you dialed has been shut down...

Shen Yue once again felt that a corner of his world had collapsed, and only then did he realize what he had lost.In the final analysis, he, like Qi Min, belongs to the extremely lonely category of people in this world.The two of them could have become friends, but it's a pity that I don't cherish it too much.

At this time, when Kang Ruxin mentioned this matter in front of Shen Yue, the guilt in his heart suddenly surged into his heart again.Shen Yue sighed and said, "I shouldn't have hurt her like that, it's all because of my damn occupational disease."

Kang Ruxin suddenly realized that she was going too far, and her heart began to be entangled: the guy in front of him seemed to be a little less masculine, and he was always blaming himself.Kang Ruxin glanced at him, and said quietly: "That's her own choice, what does it have to do with you?"

Shen Yue didn't speak. The physics of "same-sex repulsion" also applies perfectly to human psychology, especially women.They have little sympathy for their own kind, and often feel a sense of rejection from the bottom of their hearts.Of course, this kind of psychology cannot be divided into good and bad. In the final analysis, it is just the instinctive attribute of human beings as animals.

But Kang Ruxin didn't intend to stop here. She looked at Shen Yue and asked, "You don't really like her, do you?"

Kang Ruxin in front of him had an even more mournful expression on his face, which made Shen Yue's heart throb.He shook his head and said, "How is that possible? But we could have been friends, but I let her down too much, and I hurt her again because of it. I'm a psychologist, and I was supposed to help her out of pain and start a new life." Life, I can't forgive myself for the kind of mistake I did to her."

Kang Ruxin said: "I don't think so. Although you are a psychologist, you can't solve everyone's psychological problems. I still say that, each of us has to choose our own future." Here, she suddenly laughed: "Shen Yue, why do I feel that you are sometimes like Jia Baoyu?"

Shen Yue was dumbfounded, and suddenly heard his cell phone ringing in embarrassment, and hurriedly answered it.It was my mother who called: "I made hot pot, are you coming back for dinner? By the way, there was a murder case in our family area, have you heard about it?"

Shen Yue was taken aback and asked, "Who was killed?"

Mother said: "I didn't dare to go to see it. I heard that it is a deputy factory director. Don't you know when you come back and have a look?"

After Shen Yue hung up the phone and stood up, she suddenly noticed that Kang Ruxin was looking at her.He was a little embarrassed when he remembered how many times he had rejected her, so he invited, "If you have nothing else to do, go to my house to eat hot pot."

Kang Ruxin was very happy, but she pouted and said, "You are not sincere in my invitation at all. By the way, whose call did you answer just now? Who was killed?"

Shen Yue replied: "My mother said that a deputy director of the factory was killed. I don't know the specifics yet."

Kang Ruxin hurriedly said: "Then let's go and have a look."

Shen Yue said calmly: "I'm not a policeman, and you're not a criminal policeman. Since even my mother knows about this matter, your police must have already intervened. Let's go, this winter is too cold, let's eat Let's go to the hot pot."

(End of this chapter)