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Chapter 47 Kant No. 28 (1)
After breakfast, Chen Lele went to work, and her mother went out with a vegetable basket, and the house was instantly clean.After making tea, Shen Yue began to read the morning newspaper that had just been delivered.

The entire page of the second edition was devoted to reports on the case of Kan Stone.Long Huamin did not break his promise. At that time, he told Shen Yue that all the circumstances must be clearly stated in the closing report. This is the principle.But the case-closing report was only kept as an internal police file, and he promised not to report the relationship between Qi Min and Teng Dawei to the outside world.Long Huamin also agreed to Shen Yue's other request, that is, not to show his name in the media.

Shen Yue carefully read the whole report. The story in this manuscript was very exciting, but it didn't mention Kan Stone's suicide at all.The image of a successful philanthropist is vivid on the paper, but Ni Xiaoyun is described as a villain who will repay kindness and revenge, and has monstrous desires.

After reading it, Shen Yue's heart was very heavy, and he suddenly remembered the words Ni Xiaoyun cried and questioned him: "Why, why are people like us always bullied by the rich? To the good newspaper?"

This report is obviously biased, and there should be pressure from the Stone Group.Shen Yue's heart was hard to calm down, as if there was a ball of air suffocating in his chest, he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe.

The phone rang, and his mind was temporarily relieved from the uncomfortable depression.It turned out that Qi Min's unique soft voice came from the phone: "Dr. Shen, thank you."

Maybe she just finished reading the report in this morning's newspaper, Shen Yue thought to herself.His heart was full of depression, and he said lightly: "It's nothing, everything is over." Qi Min's voice was still soft: "Dr. Shen, no matter whether you regard me as your friend or not, in my heart, you have It's my friend. I want to chat with you, can I?" Shen Yue didn't speak, he was hesitating.Qi Min's voice turned into pleading: "Please don't reject me, okay? I am very grateful for your help, now I am very confused, I hope you can help me again. I am really confused and scared , I really don't know what I should do now..."

Shen Yue seemed to understand, and asked, "Qiu Jiwu proposed to you?" Qi Min replied, "He just came to see me. But, I am now Kan Wang's stepmother. Also, Qiu Jiwu once betrayed me. Me, what if he..." Shen Yue's heart softened instantly, and he said, "Okay, where are you now?"

On the other side of the foggy mountain, Shen Yue and Qi Min stood in front of an ancient temple. Below the mountain was the city's development zone.Perhaps a certain eminent monk built this temple in this place a hundred years ago to escape the hustle and bustle of the city, but he did not expect that a hundred years later he would still face the prosperity of the secular world.

Before going up the mountain, Shen Yue saw clouds and mist on the top of the mountain. At this time, he was already outside the gate of the temple shrouded in clouds and mist, but everything in front of him was not hazy.Qi Min's dress has added some color, white long-sleeved shirt, light yellow trousers, and the small black silk flower on the left chest of the white shirt is still so eye-catching.That little black flower is telling others that her current identity is still Kan Sitong's wife, a widowed woman.

When Shen Yue got off the taxi, Qi Min went up to greet him, stood one meter away in front of him, and said softly, "Thank you for coming."

However, Shen Yue looked at the temple in front of him and said, "This place is not bad. I knew there was a temple here a long time ago. This is my first visit."

Qi Min also turned his gaze to the temple, and said softly: "I have already entered, and I have come to make atonement to the Bodhisattva."

Her words are somewhat nondescript, indicating that she is not a true Buddhist.But Shen Yue seemed to understand why she chose to meet herself in this place.He looked around and said, "It's foggy in the morning, and it's wet everywhere. Let's walk casually."

She nodded.The two walked towards a path next to the temple.Shen Yue didn't speak, he was waiting for Qi Min to speak first.Today he is not here for the case, but as a friend and listener.Qi Min's heart is full of gratitude to him, not only because he was able to walk into his heart, nor because of his promise, but because of the change of his identity in front of him at this time.This is a true scholar and a gentleman.

The two walked forward slowly, the air on the mountain was very fresh, the fog was slowly dissipating, and the eyes were green.The city below the mountain is very far away. There are only two people on this trail, and the cheerful chirping of birds not far away can be heard in my ears.Qi Min's heart is full of warmth.

After walking for a short distance, Qi Min said softly: "Although I don't know much about the details of the car accident, I know that the report in the newspaper is unfair to Ni Xiaoyun."

Shen Yue asked in surprise: "You don't hate Ni Xiaoyun at all?" She said quietly: "I believe everything you said, since he chose to commit suicide, is this car accident planned by Ni Xiaoyun? It doesn't matter anymore. He has suffered from illness for 10 years, and his choice is only for relief. Whether Ni Xiaoyun is because of greed or other reasons, such a result is not a kind of relief for her. ?”

Shen Yue couldn't help nodding, he sighed in his heart: She is indeed a relatively simple woman, that's why she was able to understand such a truth so easily.

Qi Min continued: "Actually, people like me are the ones who suffer the most. Qiu Jiwu abandoned me. After I married Kan Sitong, I lived a lonely life for a long time. That villa was like a cage specially set up for me. Now that he's gone, I still want to continue living in this cage, and feel guilty for betraying him for the rest of my life."

Shen Yue stopped in his tracks, turned to look at her, and said, "You can get out of that place, because you are free now."

She shook her head slightly, and said: "My husband's bones are not cold, can I be free now? Even if I still love Qiu Jiwu in my heart, can I promise him under the current situation? In fact, I have already desecrated myself to him. If it is my own choice to marry Kan Stone, then Teng Dawei and I... Yes, your judgment is not wrong, I happened to him once, I was drunk that day, I put him I became Qiu Jiwu when I was young. But the mistake has been made, and it is too late to regret afterwards. I have always felt guilty in front of my husband for that matter, and now, when I am facing Qiu Jiwu, my heart is also Still full of guilt and guilt."

Shen Yue sighed and said: "I kind of understand why you have been living too tired and being hurt by others time and time again. You are too kind and always consider other people's feelings, but you just ignore your own heart. In fact, you No need to do this, some people are not the image you think in your heart, to be precise, Qiu Jiwu and Kan Stone should be the ones who are sorry for you, and they should be the ones who are really guilty.”

Qi Min didn't speak, she shook her head slightly.Shen Yue sighed again, and said: "There are some things that I didn't want to and couldn't bear to tell you, but seeing that you are in such pain now, I think it's better to let you know some things, otherwise you may never be able to get back from it. Freed from such pain. Maybe you don't know, in fact, Kan Sitong and Ni Xiaoyun have had that kind of relationship for a long time..."

Qi Min's eyes widened, his face was full of horror, and he said: "Impossible! He just had that kind of thing when he married me, and then he has been... He really can't do it anymore. I am his wife, I The clearest. Him and Ni Xiaoyun? How is that possible?"

Shen Yue's voice seemed to be squeezed out from between his teeth: "He used carrots, and other things... One of the reasons why Ni Xiaoyun planned this car accident was Kan Stone's revenge for her physical and psychological insults. "

Qi Min's face was full of shock, and he couldn't help taking a few steps back, almost falling into the bushes next to him.Shen Yue hurriedly stretched out his hand to hold her back, sighed and said, "This is the truth, so you don't need to feel guilty about what happened, let alone feel any guilt."

Qi Min's eyes straightened, and he murmured, "He's not that kind of person, he can't be that kind of person..."

Shen Yue's heart moved, professional habits burst out instantly, and he couldn't help asking: "He has never done that to you? I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't ask you about this." Qi Min didn't care, her His eyes were still dull, and he shook his head and said, "No, never. He treats me very well, even when he is with me occasionally, he takes good care of me. At the beginning of this year, he got drunk in the middle of the night. He came back, lay beside me, touched my face with his hand and said to me, "What a wonderful woman, it's a pity that I, Kan Sitong, don't have such a blessing". We've reached the bedroom door."

At this moment, Shen Yue's heart trembled again, and the thought in his heart was pulled out again: Kan Sitong, why did he do that to Ni Xiaoyun?
He found that he was a little possessed, and tried his best to put away the lingering thought in his heart, and said, "It's all over, let's not talk about it anymore. Qi Min, you should understand why I want to tell you This matter. Therefore, you should be free, whether it is your current body or your soul. Whether it is your feelings or your way of life, you have the right to re-choose your own future."

She said softly: "But, I'm afraid..." In Shen Yue's eyes at this time, she was no longer a woman in her 40s, but more like a young girl who hadn't experienced much in the world. in fear.Shen Yue knows her heart, and knows that what she needs most now is time, and she needs time to find herself.He said gently: "You don't have to be so anxious about some things. In fact, you can use the simplest way to think about your own affairs. Qi Min, you have to ask yourself, what exactly do you need? Who is the person you love most in your heart? When you can answer these two questions for yourself, you can boldly follow your heart to do it. What you need most now is to free yourself from the words of Zhang Ailing and San Mao, and be as bold as the women in Jin Yong's novels To pursue, to love. Can you do it?"

Qi Min nodded slightly, and said softly: "I see. Thank you, Dr. Shen." Then she looked at Shen Yue and asked, "Dr. Shen, can you tell me about yourself?"

Shen Yue was stunned for a moment, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, my situation is different from yours. In the future, if I have a chance in the future, I may tell you about my affairs."

Qi Min said faintly: "I see, in fact, you don't regard me as your real friend..." Shen Yue felt even more sorry in his heart, and he said to her sincerely: "Qi Min, you can trust me, This moved me very much. In fact, we are the same kind of people, because I also have a deep shadow in my heart, and I am still suffering because of this, and I can't completely free myself. Qi Min, please give me some time, in the future If there is a chance, I will definitely tell you. I also hope that we can become friends, but the word "friend" is too heavy in my heart. In my heart, this word is not just a title, but more It's more of a responsibility."

Qi Min finally understood, and immediately became happy. She also sincerely said to Shen Yue: "Thank you!" Shen Yue reminded her: "You must follow your heart, and don't force yourself. You need to go Get rid of all the shackles in your heart, even if you can no longer love, you should let your own soul get the greatest freedom, because only in this way can you be your true self.”

Qi Min seemed to understand, she smiled brightly at Shen Yue, and said, "Thank you, Shen Yue. So, what about you? Is your soul free?"

Shen Yue felt pain in his heart for a moment, but with a slight smile on his face, he nodded and said, "At least, my soul is freer than many people."

Qi Min looked at him and said, "You are a very good psychologist, and even more so, a friend worthy of association. Have you ever thought that you should serve more people?"

Shen Yue froze for a moment.He found that Qi Min seemed to have been freed from a part of her inner shackles. At this time, she was no longer Kan Sitong's widow, but was asking him this question in the tone of a doctor.

In fact, Shen Yue has indeed thought about this matter, and it is already in the making.He nodded and replied, "I will."

Qi Min looked very happy, and said: "I can invest in you, if you need." Shen Yue hurriedly waved his hand and said: "Investment needs to be rewarded, and such a project is too risky." Qi Min smiled at him and said : "Being able to serve more people is a reward in itself. What's more, I fully believe in your professional level and ability."

(End of this chapter)