monologue

Chapter 43 Truck Driver (2)
Kang Ruxin didn't understand: "What do you mean?" Shen Yue shrugged and said, "I have to visit Qi Min again. Let me tell you why she hasn't come to me until now." Kang Ruxin seemed a little I understood, and asked: "You mean, Qi Min and Teng Dawei?" Shen Yue said: "It's hard to say. Think about it, how did Kan Sitong deal with Li Qingeng's family? When Kan Sitong was a child, his family was poor and his status was low. The harm that his uncle caused Kan Sitong in his childhood cast a huge shadow in his heart, so he took his own dignity very seriously when he grew up. Maybe this is the driving force behind his ultimate success. In fact, we can From his relationship with some people, we can find traces that he is very sensitive to dignity in his heart. For example, his relationship with Wu Qingshan, as a friend for many years, what he showed in front of Wu Qingshan was not between friends Equality, but strength; and between him and Qiao Dahuai, when a mafia boss can succumb to himself, I think Kan Stone’s inner satisfaction should be very strong. And we can also see from these things Out of Kan Sitong's two completely different styles of dealing with things - tolerance and vengeance. Dignity is the most sensitive thing in his heart. He is unwilling to have too much contact with officials. This is not only because of his vision, but also because of his You have to know that the status of a businessman in the eyes of officials is always low. After all, the word "profiteer" has been integrated into our culture for thousands of years. He can't offend officials, so the best way is to stay away. But For other people, once anyone violates his dignity, he will take revenge. This is inevitable and the only result."

Kang Ruxin suddenly felt breathless. At this moment, she found that Shen Yue seemed to have touched the deepest part of Kan Sitong's soul.She also believes that this is the most real person behind all kinds of halos.She suddenly felt an inexplicable fear, not because she was afraid of the real Kan Sitong, but because Shen Yue was afraid of the naked and bloody exposure of other people's souls.

Shen Yue insisted on going to see Qi Min alone, but Kang Ruxin and Zeng Yingjie disagreed.Kang Ruxin said: "Qi Min's identity is very sensitive now, if she is also related to Kan Sitong's car accident, if she accuses you of molesting her or something else, you will have a hard time defending her. We Must follow, this is to protect you."

Shen Yue shook his head and said, "I don't think she will. Although I don't know much about her, I can feel that she will never do such a thing."

Zeng Yingjie said: "What if? Our police have encountered situations like the one just mentioned more than once when handling cases, so the minimum precautions are still needed."

Shen Yue just gave up.However, the persistence in his heart has not changed. He knows that what he has to do next is a very cruel thing. He has to reopen the scar deep in the heart of a tragic woman.Perhaps, deep in her heart, there are not only old scars, but also an extreme sensitivity to others.

Shen Yue was very reluctant to face this woman, but in order to understand the truth of the case he had to come to her again.He can't forgive his cruelty, so the only thing he can do now is to let him face her alone, and he must not tear apart the scars and sensitivities in her heart and expose her. in front of more people.

This is the second time for Shen Yue to come to this place. When he saw the lonely villa in the green, he felt an unspeakable feeling in his heart.In the eyes of many people, this place is full of mystery, and they are envious of it.But they didn't know that the heart of the owner who lived in this place was already deserted.

"It's so beautiful. I used to look at this place from the bottom of the mountain, but I didn't expect to be able to come to this place." Zeng Yingjie admired it sincerely.

Kang Ruxin said: "After you meet the owner here, you may not think so." Zeng Yingjie smiled and said: "Do you think I really envy the life of the rich? Such a big villa, everywhere It’s empty, living in such a house, maybe you will have nightmares at night. By the way, do you know why Kan Sitong built the villa in this place?”

Shen Yue was immediately attracted by his words, and asked, "Why?" Zeng Yingjie said with a smile: "I also heard from others. This Wushan Mountain was called Nanshan in ancient times, and Kan Sitong built his house here, a metaphor It means Shoubi Nanshan. It is said that at that time he invited an expert to see Fengshui, so he built his villa on the mountainside.”

Shen Yue couldn't help smiling wryly.In front was the security guard box, and Shen Yue suddenly thought of Qiao Dahuai.A former underworld boss finally sent someone to protect Kan Sitong and his family. This is actually a cold joke, which is worthy of aftertaste but really makes people laugh.

The old housekeeper came out to greet them, Shen Yue asked: "Is Mrs. Kan at home?" The housekeeper said: "Yes, she is reading in the room."

Shen Yue pointed to the grass outside the villa, and said, "Please go and tell her, just say that I'm waiting for her outside, and I want to talk to her."

The housekeeper went, Shen Yue pointed to the distance of the green space in front, and said to Kang Ruxin and Zeng Yingjie: "I will talk to her alone there, you just watch from afar."

Kang Ruxin said unhappily: "Why don't you let us be together?" Shen Yue looked at her and asked, "If your heart is already scarred, are you willing to show it in front of more people?" Speak again.At this moment, she really understood the fundamental reason why Shen Yue had to talk to Qi Min alone.There is a big parasol standing on the edge of the grass, under the parasol are two beautiful rattan chairs, and in front of the two rattan chairs is a coffee table.Shen Yue sat in the rattan chair on the left, with a soft cushion on the back, which felt very comfortable.Below the mountain in front of you are all kinds of buildings with ups and downs in the city, and you can also see the big river flowing through the city.

Shen Yue glanced at the beautiful empty wicker chair next to him, and the image of Kan Sitong and Qi Min once sitting here admiring the beautiful scenery down the mountain suddenly appeared in his mind.At this moment, he suddenly had a feeling in his heart: perhaps, my guess about some things was wrong, and the lives of Kan Sitong and Qi Min might be warm and happy.

Qi Min came out, and she saw Shen Yue who was sitting on the wicker chair at a glance.She nodded to Kang Ruxin and Zeng Yingjie, and told the housekeeper, "Make a pot of tea, the kind that the chairman liked to drink most when he was alive."

Shen Yue could feel that Qi Min had come to his back, because there was a faint fragrance in the air at this time.He said: "This place is really nice. If I lived here, I would sit here every day to read a book, drink tea, and enjoy the scenery under the mountain."

Sitting in the wicker chair next to him, Qi Min said: "If you were allowed to live here for only a few months, you might be like this. What a person needs is not just books and beautiful scenery, and it is impossible for us to maintain our mood all the time. Cozy. Do you think so, Dr. Shen?"

Only then did Shen Yue take a good look at her, and found that the beautiful woman in front of her was wearing a long white dress and her hair was pulled back casually.Shen Yue noticed the small black silk flower on her left chest at a glance, nodded and said, "That's true. Mrs. Kan, just now the housekeeper said that you read in your room. What kind of books do you usually like to read?"

In fact, Shen Yue was still hesitating in his heart, he really couldn't bear to touch the most sensitive places in this woman's heart.

Qi Min said softly: "I like to read all kinds of books. I usually have nothing else to do, so reading has become my biggest hobby. I like books by Zhang Ailing, Sanmao, all female authors, but I prefer Read Jin Yong's martial arts novels."

Shen Yue laughed immediately, and said, "The sentimentality and sorrow of women's novels are completely different from the heroic and soul-stirring ones of men's novels. Reading this type of book actually reveals your true heart."

Qi Min asked in surprise: "Really? Why don't I know? Dr. Shen, tell me, what is my truest heart like?"

Shen Yue said: "You like to read women's novels represented by Zhang Ailing and San Mao. Such books touch your heart of self-pity and self-pity. Every story and every sentence in the book can make you feel your true feelings. Therefore, In your mind, their books are not only about the author's past, but also about your present."

Qi Min's face turned pale in an instant, she sighed softly, and asked, "What else?"

Shen Yue looked at the city below the mountain, it was so beautiful and real, completely different from the foggy mountain behind him in the morning.The misty mountains are misty and hazy, and only ink can better express them.He continued: "Although Jin Yong's novels are about the world of men and men, knights wield their swords and fight against violence, there are also love between sons and daughters in them. What is love in writing, and the final result is that lovers get married. So You also have a kind of envy and expectation in your heart. You envy the women in the book who dare to hate and love, and you also hope that your relationship will have a happy ending."

Qi Min sighed and said, "Will a woman like me have a happy ending in her relationship?"

Shen Yue looked at her and said, "You are still very young, aren't you?"

She doesn't speak.At this time, the housekeeper made tea, and Qi Min personally filled the teacup in front of Shen Yue.She picked up her own cup of tea, took a sip, and said softly, "It's too bitter." Shen Yue also picked up the teacup, took a sip, it was indeed a bit bitter, but after feeling the bitterness, it was full of fragrance.He could sense that what Qi Min was talking about might not just be the taste of the tea in the cup.The more she behaved like this, the more cautious Shen Yue was.He told himself, don't directly touch the most painful and sensitive place in this woman's heart.

He thought for a while and said, "Qiu Jiwu mentioned to me the matter between him and you. The two of you once loved each other sincerely. But what I don't quite understand is that after he betrayed you, you could forgive him so easily. Can you tell me why?"

She said lightly: "No reason, because I know him and know him, so I can understand him better."

Shen Yue glanced at her: "Oh?" Qi Min said: "In the final analysis, it's my fault. He must have told you about the day I was in that mall with him. I really liked that thing very much. I also know that if he has so much money, he will definitely buy it for me, but he just stood there without saying a word. I know he must be very uncomfortable. He is a man, and I hurt his self-esteem. .Later he chose another woman. That woman’s family was very rich. I know that he really loves me. I know. He did that because he felt sorry for me and wanted to give me a chance to choose again. So I understand He, I forgive him because he can make his own choice. I made a ten-year agreement with him to give our true love one last chance. I know that apart from him, there is no other true love in my life. I don’t want to give up so easily.”

Shen Yue's heart shuddered: What kind of woman is this? I never thought that she would have such a strong and persistent heart.He asked: "Isn't there a little bit of you trying to escape from reality?" Qi Min sighed softly, and said: "Of course there are. I am a woman, when I gave my heart to a man , I don’t want to make other choices. I hope my life can be simpler, because I’m afraid of complexity.”

Shen Yue asked again: "Then why did you accept Qiu Jiwu's persuasion and marry Kan Stone without hesitation?"

She replied sadly: "Since there is no longer any chance for the relationship between us, there is no point in me continuing to wait. I am a woman and I need a home. Although Kan Stone is older, but Maybe he could give me more security. That's what I thought at the time."

Shen Yue nodded and said: "That's true. By the way, I remember Qiu Jiwu mentioned one thing when he told me about the relationship between the two of you. He said that he went to find you at that time and told you that he was going to have sex with other people. When the woman married, you said something, you said you knew it would be like that. Can you tell me why you knew it would be like that? "

Qi Min replied: "Because during that time I kept having a dream with the same content. In the dream, Qiu Jiwu and I were on the top of the Wushan Mountain, and suddenly the fog filled up, and I couldn't see him all at once. I shouted His name, he didn't answer me. I heard him calling my name too, but the voice was getting farther and farther away."

Shen Yue thought to herself: This is a very typical dream of inner anxiety. She is afraid in her heart, afraid of losing Qiu Jiwu.However, when she didn't know that Qiu Jiwu had betrayed at the time, where did the anxiety in her heart come from?Thinking of this, he asked: "During that time, all your dreams were like this? Is there anything else?"

She shook her head and said, "No more."

She is lying.But this is not important anymore.Shen Yue looked at her, and asked again: "Have you often dreamed recently? What is the most frequent dream you have recently?" Qi Min's face turned pale again, and he said in a low voice: "I often dream of my mother recently. , she was covered in blood. I often see my dad in my dreams, he comes to me and asks me, 'Did you see your mom? Why can't I find her?' When I woke up, I realized that my face was full of tears."

Shen Yue suddenly understood that she still couldn't get rid of the shadow brought by her parents' death.At this moment, Shen Yue suddenly realized something: maybe there is more truth behind Qi Min's parents, and there are more unknown secrets behind her mother's suicide.He asked, "Do you still remember what your father looked like in your dream?"

Qi Min recalled, "He seemed very angry. Dr. Shen, why are you so interested in my dreams?"

Shen Yue said apologetically: "I'm sorry, I study psychology and am very interested in all kinds of dreams." She smiled sadly and said: "Dreams are just a person's premonition, just like when I had a premonition when I and I were together. It’s as if there will be a problem with the relationship between Qiu Jiwu.” Shen Yue shook his head and said: “Your premonition stems from your understanding and true love for him, in fact, when you had that dream, you were ready to give him the freedom to choose To be honest, I think Qiu Jiwu’s loss of you is the biggest loss in his life. It’s not easy for a man to love a woman deeply in his life, but it seems even more difficult to have a woman who loves himself deeply. Qiu Jiwu doesn’t cherish it too much Your relationship is over."

Shen Yue saw the crystal clear tears falling from her eyes, and at the same time heard her softly say: "It's over, why are you still talking about it now?"

In fact, Shen Yue has completely analyzed the true meaning of Qi Min's latest dream at this time, and this is exactly what he is trying to touch cautiously.The deeper real connotation in the subconscious expressed by her recent dream may be this: the image of Kan Sitong was replaced by her father, while the image of her mother in her dream reflected herself.In this case, it can also explain why Kan Sitong dragged Teng Dawei to die together. In the final analysis, it is dignity and betrayal.

But why didn't Kan Sitong take revenge on the woman in front of him?

(End of this chapter)