Rebirth Entertainment Strong Woman

Chapter 7 Give yourself a redemption!
The sun is rising again, and a new day has begun. Ou Shinan got up early and came to the lobby of the hotel. On this day, the top 15 finalists of the national idol finals will be interviewed by a media, and then they will prepare to shoot a new round of national idols. For the promotional video of the idol competition, each contestant has to shoot his own personal introduction video, which will be used for the next shooting.This is the work that the TV station arranged for them for a day. After these tasks, Ou Shinan also arranged practice by herself. Almost every contestant has such an arrangement.

When the 15 people were assembled, they rushed to the TV station in a car together.What they are about to record is a talk show on Beijing TV Station, and the top 15 in previous years are also routinely interviewed.From the time they entered the competition, external communication was almost closed. When the top 15 in the country were selected, the outside world's curiosity about them also reached a certain level. At this time, letting them be exposed in a timely manner will also help publicity.

When we came to the studio, 15 people entered one by one, divided into two rows and sat on the left side, and the host sat on the chair on the right side and read the script, and greeted them warmly and politely when they came in. "Hello!" Shake hands with them one by one. Because it is a talk show, their costumes are not uniform this time. Ou Shinan, who is not tall, sits first in the first row. As the youngest contestant, she is still very happy. She was taken care of, which made her very grateful.She was wearing a white shirt and a pink suit that she bought before the game, simple jeans and sneakers, her hair was hanging straight down, and the hair in front was broken, her face was a little pale, from participating in the game, her weight There is a downward trend, and the intense competition has brought her a physical burden.Despite the makeup, she still looked a little pale.

The audience in the audience was already full. When they came to the stage, their supporters called their names excitedly. Their enthusiasm made the players on the stage feel their popularity.When Ou Shinan came on stage, she also greeted the audience with a smile, and her polite and friendly performance won cheers from the audience.

Finally, the filming of the show started. The host was very experienced. Although there were many guests, they all took care of them. Even the most popular Ou Shinan and Gao Cen didn't pay much attention to him. It's not that tense, everyone is friendly as if they are chatting.Time is limited, everyone asks two questions, everyone sings, answers the questions, and the recording time is almost up.The last session was audience questions, which were posed by representatives of each contestant's supporters.Although it was a question, most of the supporters still showed their concern for these contestants.Among them, the representative of Ou Shinan's supporters asked Ou Shinan a question: "Xiao Nan, we can call you that!"

Ou Shinan replied with a smile, "Of course!"

"We really like you, your songs are so nice. But when we look at you, we feel that you are getting thinner and thinner. I hope you can pay attention to your body."

"Thank you! I will!" Ou Shinan replied.

"Finally, the top 15 contestants, let's hug the representatives of the supporters! Thank you for their support!" the host finally announced.

The boy who just asked Ou Shinan a question walked up to Ou Shinan shyly. The boy was only 20 years old and had a pimple on his face. He was both happy and excited to see his idol, and he was at a loss in front of Ou Shinan. .Seeing the boy standing in front of her, Ou Shinan paused, then smiled and hugged the boy. "Thank you for your support!"

After releasing his body, the boy blushed, "You must work hard! We will always support you!"

Then he walked off the stage excitedly. Just as he stepped off the stage, he was complained by several other people, "Why didn't you ask for her autograph!" So he left the studio with regret on his face.

Ou Shinan ran off the stage in a hurry the moment the boy turned around to step off the stage.Her movements were so fast that almost no one noticed her movements, except Ulan Dolma who had been watching her.Ulan Dolma and Ou Shinan have lived together for a while, and they are the ones who are most familiar with Ou Shinan among all the players. Today, Ou Shinan's face is pale, and his reaction is also very stiff, which makes Ulan Dolma a little worried.She saw Ou Shinan running to the backstage, and hurriedly chased after him.

Ou Shinan rushed into the bathroom alone, and the vomiting that was suppressed forcibly finally broke out.She lay down beside the pool, spitting hard.When Wulan Tuoma came to the bathroom together, she saw her vomiting like this. "Xiao Nan, what's the matter with you, are you uncomfortable?"

Ou Shinan was powerless and couldn't control her vomiting. The filth got on her body, and the tears she vomited flowed out. In the end, there was nothing in her stomach, but she was still retching.Ulan Dolma was really anxious, "Xiao Nan, what's wrong with you? What should I do?"

Ou Shinan collapsed on the ground weakly, retching non-stop.She covered her mouth and struggled in pain, which turned into sharp laughter. "I thought that this situation would never happen again, but I didn't expect that even if I changed my body, it would still follow me like a shadow."

Ou Shinan smiled crazily, so what if she was reborn after death, it turned out that she was still her previous life, the sick her!This is how God punished her, gave her hope for a new life, and then made her despair.So what's the point of her living again, dying again?Her crime is so serious that she is not allowed to reincarnate?She was struggling with something, thinking that she could live a clean life for a while, but it turned out that it was just a delusion.

While retching, laughing up to the sky, Ou Shinan was crazy and presumptuous at this moment, she was no longer the taciturn young girl, frighteningly crazy.Ulan Drolma tried to grab her, but she threw her away and fell down.Just when she was so frightened that she didn't know what to do, Ou Shinan, the girl who was smiling sharply, suddenly became quiet, and the bells of a Buddhist temple could be heard outside the window on the side of the bathroom.Ou Shinan became quiet as the Sanskrit sound came to her ears. The words of the former psychologist kept flashing in her mind.

In her previous life, the girl was called Ling Xiao, and she was an unremarkable actress.Living in the dark bottom of the entertainment industry, covered in germs and filth.Such a woman came to the counseling room, wanting to know how she could be redeemed.

The psychiatrist asked her "What's bothering you?"

She said, "I just feel that I am not clean, and I can't wash it clean! Teacher, what do you think I should do?"

"Why do you feel unclean?"

"Because of the dirty things I did."

"If you think it's dirty, why do you still do it?"

"I have no way, no way!"

"You think you are dirty doing these things yourself. Are those people who take the initiative to exchange their bodies for opportunities even dirtier?"

"Of course, isn't it dirty to use this method to get a chance and do such a thing?" Ling Xiao's voice was sharp

"We can't use our values ​​to judge others, or in your opinion, such a way is dirty, but in their view, they have paid the same price to get the opportunity. There is buying and selling, and everyone is happy." The consultant guides the direction of the topic

"Then it's like you said, am I wrong?"

"You are not wrong, but you are too strict with yourself. This world is not so beautiful. When you encounter darkness, you always blame yourself. After listening to your statement, I only think that you have found the wrong reason. In your experience, I feel your helplessness, your helplessness and your sense of guilt. People who have similar behaviors to you will not feel this way, which shows how strong your inner moral sense is. You He is the most conscientious person I have ever met. That's why you feel dirty and can't even touch people. Every time you come into contact with people, you can't suppress your vomiting, and even wash your body constantly. Do you feel that your body Dirty, afraid of tarnishing others, you are too kind."

"Really? How can a filthy person like me have any advantages." Ling Xiao was at a loss.

"Don't put all the blame on yourself. It's not you who caused such consequences, but the people who forced you, right? They are the ones who should feel dirty and guilty, not you. Ling Xiao, I understand your pain , But, I want to tell you that you have to learn to let go of yourself, and then accept yourself. When we evaluate things, we don’t look at what people do, but what the original intention of doing things is. I see your Forced to be helpless, so I believe that you are a clean and pure girl, and you should also believe so firmly, okay?"

This scene from the previous life kept reappearing in front of Ou Shinan's eyes, and the psychologist's words "clean and pure girl" were repeated in her ears over and over again.Over the past year, the words of the psychologist who came to counsel her from the SWD kept repeating in her ears, "Although you don't say why you are sad and painful, but Xiao Nan, what you need now is to understand one thing, all threats to you It’s gone, you can freely choose your own life, you may still be alone, but no one will be more free than you. Let yourself go and give yourself a redemption!”

Suddenly, Ou Shinan understood the point of the two psychologists. She did not know when she lost the intimacy with others, and habitually kept a distance of more than 10 cm from others, because she always felt that she was Dirty should be despised by others, and the seemingly cold and arrogant performance is just contempt for oneself.In her last life, she struggled with such painful guilt, and fell into depression bit by bit, until the death of her mother made her completely desperate, and she ended herself and the lives of those who hurt her.Although she was reborn in this life, she thought that she would not have such symptoms again, but in her subconscious mind, she still felt that her hands were stained with blood, and she felt guilty.In the last game, after cooperating with Gao Cen, she took a bath all night, washing her skin until it turned red and bled.Today, after hugging fans, I vomited uncontrollably.

The psychologist told her to give herself a redemption.But what can she do to redeem herself?

Thinking quietly, sitting on the filth all over the floor, her pale face was like a porcelain doll that was about to die, as if it would shatter if touched lightly.The staff responsible for their care rushed to see her unwell and rushed her to the hospital, while others continued to work.

Came to the hospital again, Ou Shinan was very quiet.Let the doctor take her to check one by one, but the result of the examination is shocking, "Although she is a little weak, Ou Shinan is not sick."

The doctor judged that "it may be caused by too much pressure, let's take a good rest and adjust!"

The staff handled the hospitalization procedures for her. Because of her hospitalization, a lot of work had to be stranded. After all, she is a very popular contestant and her popularity is also high. I can't shoot the promotional video without her!In the end, I had to postpone the shooting of the promotional video, and only shot the individual introduction of each player in the afternoon.

Ou Shinan didn't care about these things, she was just immersed in her own world, thinking about the future direction.How, give yourself a redemption.The psychologist asked her to accept herself, how to accept herself, accept that she is a person covered with scars, accept her own darkness, and then find her original goodness.The death in the previous life has put an end to her sins, and she, who was reborn, no longer needs to be responsible for herself in the previous life.People from the SWD told her, "Don't suppress yourself, liberate your nature. You just need to be yourself, and you will find that you are not who you know. You are not what you think, a cruel person, but The one with the purest soul."

Give yourself a redemption, liberate yourself, learn to forget, if you feel full of sins, do more good deeds to help others, if you are afraid of God's punishment, then do more good deeds to seek peace of mind.When she was reborn, she also thought about whether it was a punishment or a gift from God to let her live again.Could it be that God gave her a chance to redeem herself.Forget it, let go of yourself, Ou Shinan finally thought about it after a whole day of thinking.No longer guilty, no longer depressed, she wants to be a happy self, she wants to give herself a chance to be reborn, the sins of her previous life can no longer be made up for, and in this life, she is willing to use up all her life to help those in need If she does more good deeds, then she can be redeemed.

(End of this chapter)