I wish you never knew that I loved you so much

Chapter 49

To love someone is to believe everything she says, whether it is a lie or the truth, but who can do it. The "short film gate" incident was gradually forgotten by everyone as time passed.Shi Feng still didn't come to find Xiaoye, but Xiaoye went to find Shi Feng several times, but each time Shi Feng used an excuse to escape.Xiaoye blamed herself very much. She searched for "Mr. Left Eye" for so many years, but now she hurt him.After finding him, she just wanted to thank him for repaying him. She never thought that she would hurt him.Who can understand this kind of heart-pounding pain?The bell for the end of get out of class rang crisply and melodiously, and people in the classroom who were sleeping, chatting, or reading extra-curricular books all got up and packed their things one after another, preparing to get out of this cage-like classroom.Xiaoye sat there motionless.Shengran and Mengsen passed by the classroom, Shengran took a look inside habitually, seeing Xiaoye on the seat with a sad face, Shengran's eyes were sore again. "Let's go in and have a look at Xiaoye?" Mengsen suggested, maybe only he can understand Shengran's mood best now. "No, let's go." Although Shengran wanted to go in to comfort Xiaoye, he knew that his going in might cause another ripple in her life.

In the empty classroom, Xiaoye was the only one sitting quietly. She raised her head in a daze, looking at the lush green forest outside the window, her eyes were red and swollen like walnuts, and her face was covered with dirty tears. "Are you really going to lose him?" She repeated hoarsely, then smiled wryly.She may have really hurt him, and he and she may not have anything to do anymore.But, can it be different?But, why did a hole suddenly seem to open in the bottom of her heart, the hole continued to expand, spinning and roaring to wrap her in deep self-blame.She bit her lip tightly, desperately wanting to tell him the truth of the matter!She didn't really hurt him...she felt like a guilty person...it was her negligence that hurt "Mr. Left Eye".Suddenly thunder rumbled outside, and the rain fell quietly.She sat aside with a blank mind, her mouth slightly opened.She felt a little ridiculous, so ridiculous that she wanted to laugh.Who is Mr. Left Eye?Who am I?Who knows all this?This is just an ordinary love, why do I take it so seriously... However, she didn't laugh after all, a burst of sadness cut through her heart like a knife.All these years, she has been really looking forward to seeing Mr. Left Eye one day.She gradually walked away along the corridor, and gradually disappeared in the thin rain and mist.

In the cold rain, she didn't hold up the umbrella in her hand, and the rain shrouded her thin figure, as light as a cloud of unclear fog.The drizzle was falling, and the leaves were washed away without any dust. It seemed that there was only white mist left in the whole world.Xiaoye didn't know which direction to go, wandering in the rain.Before he knew it, he came to the apartment building where Shi Feng lived.Xiaoye stood in the corner of the apartment building, looking at the blurred floors in the rain and fog in a daze.Shi Feng lived on the third floor, with the windows closed and the curtains drawn, so it was impossible to see Xiao Ye shivering in the wind and rain.Xiaoye's mind was filled with white chaos, she couldn't think about anything, she couldn't understand anything, she had no direction, she didn't know what to do, everything seemed meaningless.She only knew that every time she tried to think about something, her heart would be aching.The cold wind blows.The net-shaped raindrops drifted endlessly.When Xiaoye came back, her whole body was drenched, her body was as cold as if she had been frozen, and her eyes were dull. "Xiaoye, what's the matter with you, don't scare me!" Seeing Xiaoye in front of her, Mona was in a mess, so anxious that tears almost fell out. "I'm fine." Xiaoye raised the corners of her mouth slightly, and then fell down on the sofa.The next day, there was an extra patient in the hospital, Xiaoye.The windows of the ward were half open, and the drizzle came in with the wind. The blue curtains fluttered in the rain, and the air was refreshing and cool.

The transparent liquid in the infusion tube flows quietly.Drop by drop, methodical.The liquid flowed into Xiaoye's left wrist.On the hospital bed, she was wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, and she was sitting half-reclined against a snow-white pillow.The rain kept falling.Mona was lying on the side of the bed and fell asleep. She hadn't closed her eyes all night.Dongdong... The sound of hurried footsteps slowly approached the ward. After the door opened, Shengran was the first to enter, followed by Mengsen.Looking at Xiaoye who was sitting on the hospital bed with his eyes tightly closed and his face haggard, Shengran's eyes showed unbearable.Seeing Mona sleeping curled up next to the bed, Monson took a blanket from the bed next to her and covered her.Although Monson covered it as gently as possible, it still woke Mona up.Mona rubbed her eyes. "Xiaoye, how is it?" Sheng Ran asked.Mona gestured for them to talk outside.Outside the ward. "What's wrong with Xiaoye, how could it be like this?" Sheng Ran's tone became a little anxious. "It's not because of Shi Feng. Yesterday, that girl was drenched in the rain for a whole day. You don't know that that girl passed out with a high fever last night. I was so afraid that she would just leave like this." Mona was sobbing.Shengran gritted his teeth angrily, clenched his hands into fists, and then turned away without saying a word. "Where are you going, Shengran?" Monson shouted while supporting Mona.Shengran didn't look back and continued to walk out.Outside, the drizzle was still pattering.

(End of this chapter)