the time you love

Chapter 30 Between You and Me and Him (1)
Christmas Eve.

I had agreed with Zhou Nuoyan early in the morning to celebrate his birthday after ten o'clock in the evening. In order to compensate him, I specially booked a suite at Ruiyang Hotel, intending to enjoy the world of two people.If so, I still feel guilty, but he called me in the evening and said that he would have to work overtime before ten o'clock, and I was relieved as soon as I heard it.

Following Ji Xiaoju's instructions, I dressed up carefully, and then went downstairs to wait for her to pick me up, but the result was beyond my expectation, it was Shen Su who came, and I fell silent all of a sudden.

I got into his car without saying a word, and after a while, seeing that he had no intention of explaining at all, I couldn't hold back and asked him: "Ji Xiaoju told me that tonight I'm talking to the director of the company's public relations department. Attending the event together, why was it temporarily replaced by you? And no one has notified me before."

"Manager Cheng has a very important meeting to hold, and I won't be there until after eight o'clock. I was going to attend this event on behalf of New Vision. Recently, I have cooperated with your company. Your boss called me overseas and asked me to be your male companion. , Manager Cheng will be with Ji Xiaoju." Having said that, he glanced at me sideways, "Tourma, I hope you understand that this is a necessary means of business. Since you work for this company, the premise is to obey and follow me." Cooperate. If you mind partnering with me, I'll call Ji Xiaoju now, and you can change with her."

I don't speak, just stare straight ahead.

He really freed his hands to call, but the line was busy after several calls.

I suddenly felt tired, and said lightly: "Forget it, just concentrate on driving, I will go as soon as I go."

The winter rain that has been falling for several days has not stopped, the cold wind is rustling, and the raindrops are slantingly splashing on the car window.I was depressed, and my chest felt nauseated without warning.

At quarter past nine, Ji Xiaoju and Cheng Fusheng arrived late.I left Shen Su behind, walked over to say hello to them, and privately told Ji Xiaoju that I was leaving. Ji Xiaoju looked at his watch and actively tried to persuade me to stay: "It's still early, please stay a little longer. Let me introduce a few people." The supplier knows you."

I don't want to refute her face, so I have to agree.Like a butterfly flying back and forth among a group of guests, I usually socialize with them and drink when I am not talking.After walking around the venue, I don't know how many cocktails I drank.Ji Xiaoju excused me to tidy up my clothes, dragged me to the bathroom, and said in surprise: "Bixi, so you can drink so much! But, are you okay? It's enough to clink glasses with others on such occasions. Clients who want to make friends There are so many, you can have a drink alone, no matter how massive it is, you can't stand it!"

Her words had been fulfilled, my stomach felt extremely uncomfortable, acid water poured into my throat, I couldn't take it anymore, I fell on the washbasin and vomited.My drinking capacity has always been very good, but when I am in a bad mood, I will lose my standard.

Ji Xiaoju frantically passed tissues beside me and patted me on the back.

"How is it? Are you okay?" Seeing that my face was white and my lips were blue with vomiting, she was also anxious, "How do you go home like this? I will help you go to the lounge to rest, and I will take you back later."

"No need..." I slowed down, took some water to rinse my mouth, "I'll just go back by myself, I'll feel much better after vomiting."

She was worried and insisted that I go to the lounge and sit down before leaving.

I met Shen Su at the door, his face changed slightly when he saw my appearance: "What's going on? Are you feeling unwell?"

"She drank too much." Ji Xiaoju responded for me, paused, and remembered something, "Shen Su, didn't you just say you wanted to leave? It's just right, you gave Tourmaline a ride, I don't worry about her going back alone. "

"No, no, no," I objected hastily, "It's really all right, no matter how much I drink, I don't know what happened today... None of you need to send me off, so go do whatever you want."

"I'll see you off," Shen Su said without hesitation, grabbed my hand and dragged me out. Seeing that my boss was not happy, he added, "At worst, I'll send you to the gate of the community. Your complexion is so bad and your hands are so cold. I want to take you to the hospital."

Take me to a hospital?What a joke!If Fang Wenlin knew that I was drinking and went to the hospital, she would have to laugh her teeth out!I thought about it, and had to say: "Then go, please."

After getting in the car, I told him to go to Ruiyang Hotel.Shen Su looked at me with disapproval on his face, "Tourma, you should go home and rest now, I'll take you home."

"I think I'd better take a taxi by myself. The hotel is not on the same road as where you live." I didn't want to say more, I opened the car door to go down, but he stretched out his hand and slammed the car door shut with a "bang"!

"What are you doing?" I looked at him in surprise, in a terrible mood, "Shen Su, today is my husband's birthday, if it wasn't for this boring banquet, I think I should be with him at this time, I know you care about me, but I hope you can keep a good balance, we are just friends."

His face was a bit ugly, "If you really regard me as a friend, why do you mind being alone with me so much?"

"I don't mind, I just don't want to cause unnecessary trouble."

"Because of Zhou Nuoyan? Are you afraid that he will be unhappy?"

"This is one of the points, and the more important thing is not to want you to get deeper and deeper."

He chuckled, but didn't respond.

I simply opened up and said: "Shen Su, we are over long ago, please accept this fact and stop wasting time on me, you will meet a girl who is more suitable for you in the future."

"Do you know why I went to France? After you followed him, my mother quickly introduced me to a girl. I didn't have any feelings for her at all. At that time, I always felt that there was still a possibility for us and that you would Come back to me, but there is no news as soon as you go, I think you are going crazy, I called you, I didn't expect you to change the number so soon... In order to get rid of my mother's surveillance, I chose to go to France, and It’s an escape from reality. I thought I could forget you and start over again after going to France, but it turned out that it still didn’t work. I miss you all the time. Only when I fully devote myself to work can I miss you less.” The pain on his face was revealed little by little, and he slowly let go of the calmness and calmness that he had pretended in front of me these days, his voice was hoarse, and he looked helpless like a child when he said these words.

I saw the old Shen Su again, the Shen Su I was familiar with.

I couldn't bear it, but I didn't know how to appease him.

"I'm sorry." Countless words rolled in his throat, and finally he squeezed out this sentence.

His face turned pale, and it took him a long time to force his mouth: "I don't want to be sorry."

"But, apart from being sorry, I can't give you anything. Shen Su, I already have a new life. I'm living a very good life now. I hope you are the same. Let the past go, don't think about it anymore."

"I can't do it!" Shen Su flatly vetoed it, and then said stiffly, "Tourma, let me ask you, have you ever loved me? Even just a little bit."

"I tried so hard to love you..." I explained feebly, "but if I did, that's in the past, I now have a home of my own, a husband who loves each other... Shen Su, what do you want me to say to you to understand? I am very happy when I am with you, you are so outstanding, regardless of family background or talent, you have satisfied all my vanity in love, and I also thought about marrying you, I have spent my whole life with you, but we don’t have enough fate. Of course, it’s my fault. I don’t love you enough and I’m not firm enough. So when facing your parents, I’m neither active nor active enough, and I even feel a little conflicted in my heart. Being investigated by your mother, I hate her for treating me with such a high profile, I hate her for slandering my father's reputation, I still remember it."

He stared at me blankly, with deep sadness in his eyes.

"Yes, I still hate her," I laughed helplessly, "I have always been so stingy, I can't learn to be tolerant, and I always retaliate. I used to say something insincere when I was with you, but you didn't know it. I'm not as good as you imagined. You downloaded a lot of tender and lingering songs to my MP4. Every time I told you that I liked them, but I didn't like them at all. I only like to play games on MP4 that you find boring. I know you can’t get used to vicious girls. You think Wen Lin’s words are too mean. I didn’t refute you at the time, but in fact, Wen Lin and I are best friends. Birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups, that's right, I unconsciously disguised myself as another kind of person in front of you, causing you to mistakenly think that I'm what you want, but it's not, really not... Don't talk about me I didn't know that I was so bad, I'm sorry..."

"I know, you just said that to make me give up on you, but you don't have to do this..." He looked ahead, his slender fingers gripping the steering wheel tightly, "No matter what you are, I always If I like you, even if you don’t say a word, as long as you are quietly by my side, I will feel happy, this feeling is real, and it can’t deceive anyone.”

The nicer he was to me, the more ashamed I felt. If he scolded me angrily and broke with me completely, my conscience might feel better.

"Shen Su, don't be like this. I really don't deserve what you can do for me. Telling you these words today is also a matter of peace. If you want, we are still friends. If you don't want to, I won't either. Reluctantly." I paused, and said what was in my heart, "We won't meet again in the future, it's good for you and me."

He looked at me for a while, then silently drove the car onto the runway, heading towards Ruiyang.

I slackened down, my head was groggy, and after a while, my upper and lower eyelids fought.

I don't know how long it took, I woke up with a burst of suffocation, and found Shen Su's magnified face in front of my eyes, and... he was actually kissing me!
"What are you doing?" I was in a hurry and pushed him away, and saw the golden signboard of Ruiyang not far away through the car window, I opened the car door in a panic, and ran out in a panic.He came up from behind, grabbed my hand tightly, and blocked my way.

"Shen Su, you are crazy! Let go!"

"Tourma, give me one more chance, okay?" His eyes were flushed, his eyes were terribly stubborn, "I shouldn't have let go so easily back then, I shouldn't have lost my mind after listening to my mother's one-sided words, I shouldn't have seen If you are with him, you will deny our relationship. If I can keep you at that time, you will not marry him, you will not..."

"Shen Su, can you let me go first, my hand hurts so much!" I was frightened by him, and kept backing away.He pressed on every step of the way, forcing me to be confined within an embrace.

"Tourmaline, come with me to France, you can do whatever you want, as long as you are willing to follow me."

"Shen Su, you, you, you are really crazy, I'm married, please let me go, sober up!" I just noticed that Shen Su also drank a lot of alcohol, and the smell of alcohol hit her nostrils , It made my stomach twitch again.

"Let go, let me go..." In a blink of an eye, I felt my hands and feet go weak, and I fell limply on him.

He hugged me tightly and buried his head in my chest.

This gesture was so ambiguous that it attracted passers-by around me to stare sideways. I didn't have the strength to push him away, and I was so angry that I was about to cry.

Suddenly, a gust of wind swept past my ears, followed by a muffled sound.

Shen Su staggered while clutching his right cheek.

I sat down on the ground with a "thump", and suddenly my world was spinning. I hugged my head for a while, and then tried to look up at the wrestling people.Last time, if Shen Su's mother hadn't stepped in to stop it in time, the war between the two might have progressed for a long time.I had no intention of stepping forward to stop it. The extreme discomfort in my body made my brain dull. No matter how violent the fight was, it was like a replay of the camera, slow and silent.

There are more and more onlookers, but few people dare to go up to persuade the fight.It is not new for hooligans to make trouble, but it is very rare for two men in suits and leather shoes to fight.Until the police came and forcibly separated them, one of them approached me, whispered something in my ear, and helped me stand up at the same time.

Zhou Nuoyan put his coat on me and asked the people beside him to take me to the hospital.

I anxiously grabbed his hand and asked, "Where are you going? Why don't you take me there?"

He frowned, and stroked my face with the other hand, probably seeing that my mental state was really not right, and comforted me with gentle words: "I will go with them to the police station to make a statement, and then I will find you. "

I saw that the corner of his mouth was bleeding, and I stretched out my hand tremblingly, but he turned around and walked away.

The police car roared away, and I stood there in a daze, not recovering from the chaos.

I didn't sleep all night, when it was getting bright outside, I heard the sound of the door opening.

Getting up from the bed, he stumbled into the living room.

"Nuoyan, are you okay?" I rushed to hug him.

He shook his head, looking weary.

"You, why don't you take a shower first?" I had a thousand words to say, but after seeing his bloodshot eyes, I couldn't bear to say a word. His white shirt was dirty, and there was a big hole on the front. Obvious shoe prints.

I had a sore nose and lowered my head.

"En." He responded lightly, and went back to the room. After a while, there was the sound of him going to the bathroom to shower.

I sat on the edge of the bed and waited for him, wondering what to do.What happened tonight is so big, I don't know what he thinks in his heart, I regret it to death, if I knew that I would rather die than participate in that charity event, it was just a game played by a group of rich and famous people, if I knew it, I would Don't drink, don't even touch, if I knew it, I would have to run away from Shen Su even if I jumped off the car, even if I limped my arms and legs, it would be better than now, if I knew it, I should have rushed to pull the two of them away, if I knew... …Ugh.

There are so many opportunities to avoid it, why did I step on it without pulling it once!I fell headlong on the bed, so remorseful that I wished I could dig a hole and bury myself in it.

When he came out of the shower, I didn't dare to look at him, I lowered my head in despair.He walked up to me without saying a word.As if low air pressure hovered over my head, I tensed up and sat up in a panic and hugged him.

He patted my head lightly, "Are you all right? What did the doctor say?"

"I didn't go to the hospital." I left the police and ran away halfway, but I drank too much alcohol and caused such a big disaster, how could I have the nerve to go to the hospital.I responded in a low voice while looking at him.

The skin on the corner of his mouth was broken, and there was a small conspicuous wound. He seemed to have lost weight overnight. Although his face was calm, his eyes were full of disappointment and boredom, like cold stars hanging high in the lonely night sky. It's thousands of miles away from me.

This feeling makes me sick.

He just said a perfunctory "Oh" and then fell silent.

"Promise——" I called his name, hoping that he could look at me with a frown and a little helplessness as usual, or open his mouth to complain or even blame me, instead of covering up all his emotions under the calm appearance like now .

"What?" he answered me.

"Nuo Yan, are you alright?" I hesitated for a moment, and reached out to touch the wound on his face, "Does it hurt? I'll apply some ointment for you."

He tilted his head to avoid it, and said expressionlessly: "No need, I will heal myself."

I withdrew my hand embarrassingly, and asked again: "What did the police say? Didn't make things difficult for you?"

His expression finally changed a bit, seeing my pupils becoming more and more unpredictable, he raised the corner of his lower lip and said, "No, I can't even tell the motive of the fight, can I sue him for assaulting my wife? He's fine, you can rest assured."

I froze and stared at him blankly, "What do you mean? I care about you, do you think..."

"Thank you for your concern." He interfaced, lifted the quilt and went to bed, "I have nothing else to do, I'm going to sleep, it's still early before work time."

My chest felt tight, as if there was a piece of lead stuck there.Staring at his back, he finally had the strength to say, "You haven't slept all night, don't go to work today, I'll call and ask for leave for you."

"No, there are many things in the hospital." He closed his eyes and stopped talking to me.

I was so sad that I wanted to cry, but I was afraid that I would disturb him. I don't know if he has an operation today.Sitting alone in the dark for a long time, I didn't fall asleep until the sky was bright.

Misfortunes never come singly, and troubles follow.

(End of this chapter)