the time you love

Chapter1
After receiving the employment notice from the internship unit in the south, I called Shen Su.Sitting in the small, broken phone booth next to the playground, I called over and over again.

There was always a busy tone on the other end of the line, but my mood was somewhat better. I knew that he didn't refuse to answer my calls on purpose, because it was impossible for him to reject all unfamiliar numbers.

I threw my mobile phone under the bed in a fit of anger last night. The iPhone is not as durable as the Nokia, not to mention that I sleep on the upper bunk.

I didn't get in touch with Shen Su in the end.That night, the four people in the dormitory went to have a break-up meal together. The one we frequented in the snack corridor behind our dormitory building ordered a table of dishes. They ordered, and only added one sentence before the waiter left: "A bottle of Erguotou."

The waiter is the nephew of the owner of the small shop. He has just been here for a month or so, and he is quite young. Everyone looks timid and cowardly, with flickering eyes. When he heard what I said, he immediately turned his head and glanced at me. He curled his lips into a smile, and suddenly realized that the kid actually had pretty facial features.

Fang Wenlin pushed me and said, "What's the matter? Just order a few cans of beer, and Erguotou? You want to die of drunkenness!"

This woman is the closest to me in the dormitory. We are both from the south. Although her hometown is far away from mine, it is always from the same province. It is reasonable to say that she is a fellow.

I smiled and said, "It's rare, we'll be flying each other in a few days. If you don't watch me get drunk today, you won't have a chance in the future."

Tang Ningning and Yao Jia laughed at the same time, and then claimed yes.Tang Ningning is a local, and her parents are high-ranking officials. The internship unit has already arranged for her, and she only needs to report for work next Monday.Yao Jia comes from a small town in a neighboring city. His family is not very well off. His father was a driver for a private company, and his mother was unemployed in the early years. Later, she opened a small grocery store. It is said that the business is not bad, and it is still possible to earn a living for meals a day. of.

Fang Wenlin gave me a blank look, and said, "Don't forget, I'm going to go with you. There will be plenty of opportunities after drinking madness."

I remembered what she told me a while ago that she wanted to fight the world together. I didn't take it seriously, but now it seems that she is serious.But I really like her, and I wish we could stay together after graduation, so I nodded, turned to look at Yao Jia, and asked, "Yao Jia, has the internship unit been confirmed yet?"

Yao Jia obviously hesitated for a moment before saying, "I might go home."

Tang Ningning shouted hastily, "Go home? We have to stay in big cities for this kind of profession to have a future. What can you do when you go back to the backcountry?"

I frowned. Although she was telling the truth, it was uncomfortable to listen to. Yao Jia's grades were not good, and she could only be regarded as a middle-to-lower level in the class. The bottom line is that she has no context here.

Yao Jia stared down at the chopsticks in his hand, and said with a smile: "I don't have to do professional work. After I go back, I will see if there is any suitable work and do it first. The right is to accumulate experience."

I hurriedly said: "Yeah, now there are a sea of ​​people who have changed their careers after graduation. We are just a blank sheet of paper. No matter what we do, we start from scratch. In this case, it is better to give ourselves more opportunities to choose. There is no need to work together. You hanged yourself from a tree." As she spoke, she gave Fang Wenlin a sneaky wink, and she immediately agreed, and said to me, "That's right, the idea is correct, besides, a small place is better than a small place. The transportation is convenient, and you can go everywhere on the 11th road.”

I was amused by her, this woman is better at comforting people than I am, but I know her and know that what she said is duplicity, from the first day I knew her, she vowed to tell me her ideal, That is being a strong woman.

I made fun of her at the time and said that this ideal is too vague, but I am more or less envious in my heart. One of my ideals is to be a strong woman, but I have a more ambitious ideal, which is to be a housewife.

How happy and wonderful it is to wash hands and make soup for the man you love!

Every time I review the feasibility of this ideal, Shen Su's face always flashes in my mind unconsciously, imagining that in a big bright house, we say good morning to each other after waking up, and then I go to the kitchen to fry two. A loving egg, made coffee with hot milk, ran into the bathroom and hugged his waist from behind, the little bird snuggled up to him to see his chin covered with white foam, and begged him in a coquettish tone to let me shave for him beard.

I have played back this scene countless times, and even clearly remember what dialogue goes with each action.Many years later, I have to admire my courage back then. In such a situation where everything is uncertain, I can still maintain a high level of blind optimism, which is simply invincible in the universe.

Erguotou was brought over, but no one joined us, only Yao Jia had a symbolic toast with me, and said some good words for a bright future.Fang Wenlin is not bad at drinking, but her skin is prone to alcohol allergies, and she is about to graduate. In order not to damage her glorious image, she refused my kindness very shamelessly that night and insisted on not drinking at all.Tang Ningning went to the bubble tea place next door and ordered a cup of freshly squeezed fruit juice, which was said to improve beauty.In fact, I also know that it’s just expensive. A small glass costs 12 yuan. I’d rather drink beer than get angry!
I drank Erguotou like I drank beer, and the people around me were terrified.Fang Wenlin tried to stop me several times, but I stared back unceremoniously.If Shen Su was there, he would have turned a blind eye and snatched the wine glass away, and said, "Xixi, don't mess around."

I didn't know what to do right away, he could justly call all my behaviors that dissatisfied him nonsense, I don't know if all boys are so nervous, or is it because they want to save trouble?

I don't know, but I always handed over the white flag under his helpless expression and tone. He said I was messing around, and I was messing around, and I wouldn't even say an excuse.

I poured half a cup of Erguotou into my mouth and swallowed it. I smiled and approached Fang Wenlin's ear, and said, "Tell you something about Coca-Cola. Shen Su praised me for my good temper in front of his friends, and I never talk to others. loose the temper."

Fang Wenlin snorted and said, "I don't know what you like about him. We've been dating for so long, and I don't even know the character of my girlfriend. I advise you to fire him as soon as possible."

I smiled and said, "What's wrong with him? He's handsome and excellent in academics, and he's also a heartthrob."

"This kind of man is the worst thing. He has lived under the admiration of the women around him since he was a child. There must be a lot of problems. Believe it or not?"

Of course I believed it. Shen Su's biggest problem was that he felt too good about himself. Although he did have the money, I couldn't open my eyes and talk nonsense and favor him, so I nodded realistically to express my agreement with her.

Fang Wenlin stared, and said disdainfully: "But you just like him, don't you? It's useless to tell you, women in love lock their brains in safes."

I pouted aggrievedly, the head teacher called me to the office today, congratulations on winning the first prize in the design competition I participated in at the beginning of school, my brain has always been very useful, how can I lock it in the safe?
After a meal, the table was full of messes, and we still refused to leave.Tang Ningning went to ask for a pack of toothpicks, and happily said that she would tell our fortune.

The first one was Yao Jia. She broke off a few toothpicks and put them on the table. After careful study, she said, "From the hexagrams, you don't have much luck in career, and your luck in love is smooth, with almost no ups and downs...you will grow up in the future." Two kids."

I was happy and hurriedly asked: "What about me? Do the math."

"Okay, wait a minute." Tang Ningning took a few new toothpicks, broke them off, and arranged them again. After pondering for a while, she suddenly said "Yeah" and shook her head, "Stop talking, stop talking, You're going to hit me."

I raised my hand and promised: "Never! Beat you like a puppy."

Tang Ningning pursed her lips and smiled, but still shook her head.

I begged hard from the sidelines, maybe it was because of the alcohol, the more I begged, the more I begged.

Fang Wenlin stabbed me and said, "Yes, I can also tell fortunes. Let me tell you, you are destined to be a housewife. After three months of internship, you are going to get married."

I couldn't help laughing, and finally lay down on the table and cried.Tang Ningning and Yao Jia were terrified, they both looked at Fang Wenlin for help.Fang Wenlin patted me on the back, turned her head and explained to the classmates who cast strange eyes around her: "It's okay, it's okay, we're having a breakup meal, she's drunk."

I really drank too much. Usually, I would rather suffocate myself than cry in front of others. That night I cried so much that it was earth-shattering. Fang Wenlin left the shop half-embracing me as if fleeing. Like a koala clinging to her, she had no choice but to quickly drag the shameless me away as far as she could.

Tang Ningning and Yao Jia went back to the dormitory first, they didn't know about the mess between me and Shen Su.

Fang Wenlin took me to the large classroom where I usually attend classes, but there was no one there at that time.We sat side by side in the first row, and when I stopped sobbing, she said mercilessly, "Since you're so reluctant, you might as well stay."

I shook my head and whispered, "No way."

"I heard that we have a place to stay in this year, you might as well fight for it." Fang Wenlin thought for a while, and deliberately emphasized, "If you really want to stay in this city."

I can't help but want to cry again, I just can't stay, why should I stay?For Shen Su, I am afraid that one day I will regret it.

In love, the most fearful thing is regret. Thinking of a certain day in the future, I will complain that I shouldn’t have stayed for Shen Su, and I can’t help but tremble. I’m not sure if there will be that day, but I’m really afraid.

I would rather kill all possibilities in the cradle than take chances.

Fang Wenlin sighed, and said: "You are so weird. You obviously care about him to death, but you can stick to your principles like this. If it were me..." She didn't continue, but sighed heavily again. tone.

She was really right, I cared about Shen Su to death, but I couldn't stay for him.

Three days later, at the airport, after changing the boarding pass, I still didn't give up.

Taking Fang Wenlin's mobile phone to call Shen Su, while dialing the number, I said in my heart: "This is the last time, if we can't get through again, it means that we are not destined." Keep shouting, pick it up, pick it up, please!
Maybe he really heard my heart. When that magnetic and familiar voice sounded in my ears, I was so excited that I wanted to scream, and the hand holding the phone was trembling slightly.

But I actually said to him in an unusually calm tone: "I'm at the airport, and I'm flying back to Wucheng in half an hour."

He was silent for a long time, so long that I could hardly bear it, and was about to speak again, but he suddenly hung up the phone.

I was stunned, and then anger took over.

Fang Wenlin came over with a small bag and said, "Ready to board the plane."

I took a deep breath, unplugged the battery of the phone, and returned it to her.

She gave me a strange look, her face full of disapproval.I'm too lazy to talk, I took out my MP4 from my satchel and listened to it. It was a song I couldn't remember the name of. He downloaded the music for me. Every time the song was updated, he would tell me, Change the song you should like.

I should like it, but he was never sure whether I would like it or not, and used to express it in words like "should, maybe, maybe...".

Every time I answer him cooperatively, "Well, I like it." In fact, I don't like it at all.

Just like the song that is playing now, to be honest, if it was normal, I would not have the slightest impression of it, but I heard it today.

I can't help but be moved by this situation.

The song is singing: "Everyone has enjoyed the fear in this way, so they refuse to be the lambs of love..."

My eyes suddenly blurred, and a stream of heat seemed to burst out of the embankment.I tried my best to open my eyes wide, and freed my hands to grab my messy short hair. A passenger hurried past me, and the suitcase in his hand hit me hard, and my tears burst out.I heard him apologize to me hastily. He is obviously of Chinese descent, with some Western blood, and his Mandarin is standard, but a bit blunt.

My eyes were blurred with tears, but I smiled at him as if nothing had happened, and said tolerantly, "It's okay."

After walking a few steps, I remembered my companion, and turned around to look for her. She was standing behind me and followed me relentlessly.

"Well, let's go." She put my shoulders on my shoulders and gave me a hug quietly.

My heart suddenly warmed up.It's no big deal, if you are destined not to go to the end, then separate at the most beautiful moment.

The moment the plane soared into the sky, I overlooked the land from the small window next to my seat, and I unexpectedly felt a little nostalgia.But I'm not going to say goodbye hypocritically, I have to go back to school after the internship.I'm just a little melancholy, just like that... Is it over?
Shen Su hung up the phone to send me away, and even gave me a word to persuade me to stay.

The winter in Wucheng is not too cold.After leaving the airport gate, we immediately took a taxi into the urban area. Fang Wenlin was not from here and was not familiar with this place, so she could only follow me temporarily.Neither do I, strictly speaking, I'm just luckier than others to own an apartment here.

Speaking of the origin of this apartment, I would like to thank one person, she is my sister - He Amber, my name is He Bixi.It is said that my dad thought of the name "Jingle" for my sister at first, but my mom didn't like it. They made up their minds about having a second child at that time. My dad happened to see the name my mom put in the collection box. An amber pendant, so I picked up a ready-made one, and I got He Amber.Two years later, my mother was pregnant with me, and my father gave her a tourmaline chain, another ready-made one.From the day I became sensible, I felt that my dad was eccentric more than once. He Amber is so nice, but such a nice name does not belong to me. My name is Tourmaline, a name that looks old-fashioned and has a strong old Shanghai concubine style. .When I thought that this name would be with me all my life, I was extremely depressed. When I finally made up my mind to change my name, my parents left, so of course I didn't change it.

He Amber not only has a nicer name than me, but also looks more beautiful than me, is more sensible and well-behaved than me, and is... luckier than me.That year, she met her real son, and she didn't take the college entrance examination. The man directly gave her a passport, and the two of them went to study abroad together.Four years later, she sent me an email from Vienna telling me she was getting married.In fact, that email was not specifically sent to me, but to her future uncle, but it was forwarded to me by the way, because the content of the email was related to me, and she wanted to forward one of her betrothal gifts to me.

However, the dowry gift was a Mediterranean-style apartment!
I was overwhelmed by flattery. I never thought that my elder sister, who had competed with me for toys since childhood, would be so generous.Almost without any intense ideological struggle, I convinced myself to accept it with peace of mind. I think these material gifts are just a drop in the bucket for her now, so don’t give them up for nothing.But after taking over, I regretted it a bit. After all, that man bought it. Since then, I have no legitimate reason to refuse him to come to my house, and this place is full of his taste and atmosphere.

Fang Wenlin put down her luggage, looked at my small apartment, her eyes showed great envy, and said, "My God! You actually have such a house! So you are a rich woman."

I laughed, "Indeed I am, have you noticed? I haven't been back for almost two years, but this place is spotless. It seems that my part-time worker is very conscientious."

Fang Wenlin was dumbfounded: "You still hired hourly workers to clean up regularly? I always thought you were a poor peasant like me. I was so wrong."

Without saying a word, I took off my thick coat, went to the bedroom and changed into a light blue woolen sweater with a simple style.

Come out, hand over a set of keys to Fang Wenlin, and tell her: "There are several restaurants downstairs, you can settle your own dinner today, and I will take you around tomorrow."

"Where are you going? Aren't you coming back at night?" She stared at my dress a little confused because I said I didn't like blue.

(End of this chapter)