Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 37 The Love That You Can't Forget (3)
Xiaomei, my most beloved Xiaomei, you must promise me that you must live a good life and enjoy happiness. You must know that your happiness and happiness are my happiness and happiness!No matter where I am, no matter whether I am alive or dead, I can feel your joy and happiness, so you must promise me to be a happy and happy woman!
You will promise me, right, you have always been a very obedient and good baby.

After reading the letter, don't cry, just smile, you know I like to see you smile.I love you forever, my beloved little eyebrow!
Finally, I wish you the best of luck!
Anwa
how do i laugh

An He, how do you tell me to laugh?How do you tell me to laugh?

The letter fell from my hand like a fallen leaf in the autumn wind.

No!Anhe!you can't leave me!
Why are you leaving me again?Don't you love me?

No, you clearly said that you love me, and you will continue to love me as always!

We finally met again, why did you leave me so easily, I don't believe it, you must be joking with me!You're kidding me, aren't you?It must be, it must be, An He, it must be!
I opened the closet, it was empty, only a few hangers hanging alone, I ran into the bathroom, the towel rack was also empty.

Everything related to An He in the house disappeared, and he deliberately took away everything related to him.

He's gone, really gone...

I don't understand, what is the reason for all this, does An He no longer love me, otherwise why does he always avoid me?

Why is this, why?
My mind was blank, and my heart seemed to be hollowed out, empty, and I didn't even feel the pain...

An He, why on earth is this?
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I don't know how long I stayed in this empty room, I thought of Mi Yao, maybe Mi Yao knew.

I hurriedly called Mi Yao, but Mi Yao called me in surprise, "What did you say? My brother-in-law is gone?" Her voice was full of panic and surprise, and it didn't look like she was pretending at all. .

I was stunned, she didn't know, she didn't know, who knew?

Anhe, my Anhe, why did you leave me?
Mi Yao rushed over, frantically searched every room, and then burst into tears, crying hoarsely.

I was stunned, I had never seen Mi Yao cry like this, she seemed to be a hundred times or a thousand times more sad than me.

Mi Yao wiped away her tears and said that if she went to the train station, she might see An He at the train station.

She reminded me with one word, so we went to West Railway Station and Beijing Railway Station separately.

However, we searched every corner at the train station and waited all night but did not see An He.

Later, we went to the airport and the bus station. We went wherever we could. We searched all possible places, but we couldn't find Anhe.

Maybe An He really left Beijing.

Maybe An He really left me, and I will never see him again.

We searched for a long time, but still haven't found An He, he really disappeared.

12
Mi Yao moved out of that man's house and moved back to my residence, bringing the pair of silk figurines with her.

I have lived in this place for five years. Hana once wanted me to move to his apartment. Although the hotel-style apartment he lived in was in very good condition, I refused.Maomao moved away, and I don’t know where she went. She took the “Green Poison” perfume with her, and left behind a vase full of roses. Although she has broken a few vases, she will always find new replacements. On, like she changed lovers.A few girls moved in later, but none of them lived for a long time, only me, who stayed here all the time, as if guarding my feelings for Anhe.I always hope that one day An He will come to find me. I am afraid that he will not find me if I move away, so I wait for him there.

Mi Yao never smiled again, looking very lonely.

One evening when the setting sun was like blood, she stood by the window, with her back to me, and told me what had happened in the past five years——

It turned out that when An He was trying to pay off his debts five years ago, he discovered that he was suffering from leukemia. He was in great pain and almost collapsed. He had to sell his furniture store and workshop to pay off his debts.At that time, he had no financial ability to treat his illness at all, and he didn't know if he could survive, and even if he could survive, how long he could live, so he came to Beijing to see me, because he was afraid that I would not be able to bear it, so He didn't tell me about his condition.Later he knew that Hana was pursuing me, and he felt that Hana would make me happier, so he chose to leave.

Mi Yao accidentally learned from Pang Xie that An He was ill, so she went back to Wuping and tried her best to persuade An He to treat her illness. At first, An He was unwilling to accept Mi Yao's help.Mi Yao found Pang Xie to persuade An He together, and Mi Yao threatened to die, so An He agreed, and Mi Yao took An He back to Beijing.

Because of the high cost of leukemia treatment, Pang Xie didn't have much money to help An He pay in advance. Mi Yao couldn't borrow money from her father, so she chose to be the real estate agent's lover. An He didn't know the secret, and Mi Yao lied to him. Said it was her savings over the years.In addition, the reason An He lied to me that he was dead was because he knew that his future life would be very difficult, and even if he was cured, there was a possibility of recurrence. Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain, so he lied to me.In order to convince me of his death, he deliberately arranged those illusions.And in fact, many people, including Milan, really thought that something happened to An He.Only Mi Yao and Pang Xie know the secret because they participated in the whole thing.Later, after bone marrow transplantation, An He's disease was finally cured.But he couldn't go back to Wuping to start a business, so he followed Mi Yao's advice and stayed in Beijing and worked in a real estate developer's company.

I was stunned, so many things happened to An He, I don't know how he survived these five years.

"You know that, why didn't you tell me?"

"Brother-in-law won't let me tell you."

"He is so stupid. Since it is so difficult, why don't you sell my house? At least you can use that money to treat illnesses."

"He wants to keep it for you. He said you like that kind of house. And he is afraid that if the disease cannot be cured, he will leave you nothing."

"Why is he so stupid, you should persuade him."

"It's useless." Mi Yao paused, and then said, "Brother-in-law only thinks about you, and he can even give up his own life."

My heart was twisted like a knife, "He is really stupid, why did he hide it from me, doesn't he know how painful I am?"

"know."

"Mi Yao, you should help me, you are my best friend, why don't you help me."

"I'm helping you in my own way. I pushed Hana to your side, and he gave you a lot of happiness."

"You really think I'm happy with him?"

"At least it's better than being with my brother-in-law, and better than seeing him tortured by illness."

"You're arguing for yourself, you know which way I prefer."

Mi Yao didn't speak.

"You would rather see me and An He in pain than say a word to me. You are so cruel. I hate you, Mi Yao!"

Mi Yao turned around with tears in her eyes.

"My sister, do you think you're the only one suffering? You think I'm not in pain. You loved him at least once, but I love him but can't say it, and want to be with him but don't have the courage. Do you know the pain, how I got here all these years, do you know?"

I was stunned and looked at Mi Yao, "What did you say, you said you love..."

"I love my brother-in-law. I fell in love with him a long time ago, and I loved him earlier than you, and I love him no less than you."

"Miyao, you..."

"Do you think I'm really happy at home? You know, I'm a bastard. I was a bastard born to my father and another woman, and a bastard who was fostered in my father's house! That woman died, and I I have nowhere to go, so I have to be fostered at my dad's house. I'm like a clown, try my best to please everyone. But in that family, anyone can despise me, Milan, mom, even dad. Only my brother-in-law doesn't despise me, he comforts me and encourages me Me, without my brother-in-law, I would have lost the courage to live, do you know how important my brother-in-law is to me, do you know my feelings for him?"

I was dumbfounded, I always thought that Mi Yao was well-clothed and well-fed, who wanted the wind to get the wind, and the rain to get the rain, but I didn't expect so much bitterness.

"I love my brother-in-law, but I can't say it, and I dare not, if I say it, my brother-in-law and I will end well. Do you know why I like to watch 'Slam Dunk' play, because he is like a brother-in-law, watching He was like looking at a brother-in-law."

I was stunned for a long time, then came back to my senses, "Mi Yao, you...do you hate me? I didn't know you loved Anhe."

"I don't hate you, I hate Milan, I'm jealous of her. She doesn't love her brother-in-law for a long time, but she wants to get entangled with her brother-in-law. She wants to torture her brother-in-law. The more pain her brother-in-law suffers, the happier she is. She is the most vicious in the world. I know she and her brother-in-law will go their separate ways one day, so I won’t have a chance to see her brother-in-law, instead of letting her brother-in-law be with other women, it’s better to let him be with you, at least you are both my favorite So when my brother-in-law asked me about you, I strongly recommended you to be a quiet tutor, and I wanted to let you into my brother-in-law's life."

I was surprised, "What, you pushed me into An He's life on purpose?"

"You can say I'm selfish, but I know that brother-in-law will fall in love with you, and you will fall in love with brother-in-law, just like I fell in love with you."

"What do you mean by love?"

"Love like your brother-in-law loves you, love like you love your brother-in-law."

I was taken aback and looked at Mi Yao, I didn't understand what she was talking about.

"My sister, I love you!"

"Miyao..."

"I met you in college. You cared about me, loved me, and loved me. At first I regarded you as my sister, but then I found out that it was not. When I was in your arms, my heart would move. I have hope for you. Kiss my desire, I want to see you when I'm at home on weekends. I don't know why, anyway, I want you when I can't get my brother-in-law, but I know I can't get you either, so I'm very Painful and desperate. Seeing you with your brother-in-law makes me both happy and sad. Although this is the result I hope for, I cannot accept this result when it appears in front of me. I am very painful, you know. I have tried to let others replace you, but I failed, I am still happy and sad for a while, I am afraid that I will become a madman, so I chose to escape, came to Beijing, I want to stay away from you, I want Break away from that kind of relationship. I went to Beijing and met Lin Ning. He is neutral. He fits the characteristics of your brother-in-law and you, and he is very good to me. I persuaded myself to try to date him, but you As soon as it appeared, all my feelings returned, and I knew that I would not be saved in this life."

I'm surprised, I didn't expect Mi Yao to be bisexual.

"My sister, do you think I'm a different kind, look down on me, hate me?"

Although I was surprised, I didn't think Mi Yao was so weird. Instead, I felt a little sore and aching.I hugged Mi Yao in my arms, like I used to do on the side of the school basketball court.

"Mi Yao, why don't you speak out, you should at least tell me, it will make you feel better, and I will help you."

"No, I'm afraid that if you say it, you will think I'm ashamed and leave me."

"No, Mi Yao, I never feel that pure love is shameful."

Mi Yao's eyes lit up, "Then, what you mean is that you are willing to be with me."

"Yes."

"Together like you and your brother-in-law?"

"No, like sisters."

"No, I love you, sister, I don't want to be a sister, I want to be a lover, I only have you now, I don't want to lose you."

"Mi Yao, I gave An He all the love between lovers, so I can only give you the love between sisters."

"Can't you give me a little bit of the love you have for your brother-in-law?"

"Yes."

"My sister, you don't love me enough."

"Miyao, I love you."

"No!"

"Listen to me, I really love you!"

"No... I knew it would be like this, I knew it, yes, I knew it..."

Disappointment appeared on Mi Yao's face, she smiled sadly, left my embrace, and turned around.

I didn't expect that Mi Yao never turned around again, she left me an eternal back, a lonely back.

I didn't know that she had a sharp fruit knife in her pocket - she had already prepared, she had seen the end, and she had seen her fate.

She plunged the knife into her lonely and amorous body...

Blood stained the entire dusk, the entire autumn, the pair of silk figurines, and the world of Mi Yao and me.

Shocking red, heart-piercing red, heartbreaking red.

Mi Yao, my Mi Yao...

At some point, a few birds chirping came from outside the window.

I thought of that legendary bird, maybe Mi Yao was that bird, and it landed only once in her life, and that was when she died.

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Hana left Beijing, and he gave me a card with his address and phone number in the United States, and he still had fantasies in his mind.

And I tore the card into pieces and threw it into the sky like fallen leaves in autumn.

Autumn, it's autumn again.

In autumn, I met Anhe;
In autumn, I fell in love with Anhe;
In autumn, I left Anhe;
In autumn, I lost peace;
In autumn, I also lost Mi Yao;

Autumn, the autumn of my life;

……

One autumn passed, another autumn passed.

I am still looking for Anhe, I know he is still in this world, I want to find him, he is the person in my destiny, in this life, in the next life, life after life, forever!

(End of this chapter)