Small peasant girl in space: under the fence of the flower field

Chapter 334

She felt more and more that she had no way to control her own destiny, and there was no such thing as freedom at all.

For her, freedom is an unattainable luxury. Everything is like a dream. She used to be obsessed with reading various time-travel novels and seeing the protagonists in them. She felt that the fate of the protagonists was completely different from her own. Now she is He doesn't even have the ability to resist, let alone muster the courage to fight against all injustices.

She is like being manipulated by someone, and she has no right to make decisions on her own, so gradually she becomes less and less courageous and more and more silent. She knows that even if she resists, it is useless, so she simply does not resist. So she doesn't worry that others will regard her as a tool that can be used. After all, her destiny has been decided, and she herself knows what she is destined to face in this life.

She smiled wryly and said, "I don't even know what kind of person Qin Mu is, let alone living with a man who has no feelings at all, let alone if he is the emperor's harem with three thousand beauties in the future, how can I become his favorite? , It’s just making people laugh, after all, I can’t control my own destiny now, and this life may be in vain.”

Maybe Hua Xiaoqiao would say that her thoughts are too decadent, but she just thinks like this. She can't lie to herself, and she doesn't know what to do. In short, all kinds of worries emerge in her heart at this moment. If it continues like this, it might really be over.

Hua Xiaoqiao still felt that her thoughts were too decadent, so she comforted her: "Don't worry too much. Qin Mu is a good person. I came here first and he saved me. At least he is a kind-hearted person, so you don't have to. Worrying about other things, in this era, the life of a man who is not a woman with three wives and four concubines is worthless at all, let alone wanting to be respected by others, as long as I think about it, I feel that the decision I made is a joke."

She raised her head and looked at Zuo Ni, feeling a little uncomfortable in her heart: "If you don't want your destiny to be led away by others, then you have to try to resist, but the road of your resistance is full of thorns, which is not very good. The road to take, this road full of thorns is the road I am walking now, so you must know that this road is not easy to walk.”

How could she not understand what the path she chose was like? Now thinking about the decision she made out of sheer self-will, she really made her feel emotional.

It doesn't matter whether it's easy to go or not, she told me everything she told me, and Zuo Ni had to think about the rest, anyway, she felt that she should live a good life in this life.

Zuo Ni listened carefully to what Hua Xiaoqiao said, and felt a little sad in her heart. She herself did not have Hua Xiaoqiao's ability. She doesn't have the courage to face the future, so she will compromise.

"I heard that you went to the palace with Qin Mu earlier to ask the emperor to marry you. You like Qin Mu, don't you?"

She is still worried about this matter, she knows that it is useless for her to resist, and her future husband must be Qin Mu, she knows that she is at most the life of a female supporting role, and it is impossible to become a heroine at all, so she really wants to know herself What the future holds.

Hua Xiaoqiao smiled helplessly: "Didn't I tell you earlier because Prince Jin asked me for help and I wanted to repay my favor, you know what we say about the fact that he saved my life? Maybe it's more of a cooperative relationship." , no matter what, I still hope that you can stay and become a queen in the future and live a new life in vain."

She feels that everyone's fate is different. Although they are all time travelers, she feels that Zuo Ni's life is better than hers, and her luck is much better than hers. Being able to become a queen is something everyone dreams of, so why not do it.

Zuo Ni smiled wryly in her heart and didn’t know what to say. Now she was in a mess and didn’t know what to think. In her opinion, all the decisions Hua Xiaoqiao made were worthy of her own thinking, but no matter what No matter what, she is still willing to fight for the life she wants by herself.

"Actually, I want to get out of here."

Also as a time traveler, she didn't hide much from Hua Xiaoqiao in her heart. After all, in this lonely world, there are at least some people who are exactly like her. Thinking about it, she feels that the world is actually very strange.

Hua Xiaoqiao was extremely surprised. She had just talked so much to Zuo Ni and persuaded her so much. Now Zuo Ni actually said that she was going to leave, which was completely unexpected to her, and she was worried.

"You said you were leaving here? Are you kidding me? If you leave, you can go there?"

She felt that Zuo Ni had stayed here for so many years, after all, she didn't have much self-survival ability, what would happen if she really left here rashly, what if she couldn't protect herself and couldn't survive, after all, she was still very worried.

Zuo Ni smiled wryly and said: "I've been thinking about this for a long, long time. I really want to leave here. I want to leave here and find a hidden place to live. This place is going to drive me into a psychopath, I know I am different from other ladies, so I am very afraid of being in contact with others. I am afraid that others will see that I am wrong, so I am cautious in everything I do, but this kind of life always needs to come to an end. I don’t want to change for the rest of my life. It's like this so I'm scared I want to choose again."

She looked at Hua Xiaoqiao worriedly and wanted Hua Xiaoqiao to support her.

Hua Xiaoqiao can completely understand the idea of ​​wanting to get rid of fate. After all, she thought the same way at the beginning, and sighed: "I will help you find a way about this matter. If you really believe me, just wait, Qin Mu won't come back within a year or two. I have to think of a surefire way to help you escape. As for the life you want, I can also help you prepare. I hope you still think about this matter carefully. , don't make a decision so quickly, okay? It's too early, why sit down and make a decision so quickly, just calm down."

It's really not that she doesn't want to help Zuo Ni, it's because Zuo Ni's current status is too worrying, the status of Prime Minister Zuo's daughter Jin Wangye and Jin Wangfei is absolutely impossible to ignore.

So she knows very well that it is not easy to take Zuo Ni away. Zuo Ni feels uncomfortable and knows that Hua Xiaoqiao is doing her best now, and it is only the first time she and Hua Xiaoqiao have met each other. Knowing that Hua Xiaoqiao can do so much for her is already considered very good.

She didn't have any extravagant hopes but just wanted to leave here. If she could really leave, it would be the best result. If she couldn't leave this life, she would accept her fate. In short, she felt that her fate in this life might be just like this.

The room is very quiet. Hua Xiaoqiao sighed heavily and said, "Zuo Ni, take care of yourself and don't worry too much. In my heart, everything is predestined. Think about it, if only the two of us can come here." , maybe it's the arrangement of fate, and you think about who we have the closest relationship with? Does Qin Mu have a relationship with Qin Mu, that is to say, we are here because of Qin Mu. "

She herself couldn't explain what was going on in her head, but once she got to this point, she felt that everything was easy to explain. Maybe there was some connection with Qin Mu. You must know that Qin Mu is a person who does big things. Qin Mu may really be the most critical existence.

Although Hua Xiaoqiao didn't understand, Zuo Ni still figured it out. After thinking about it carefully, the only one who really has a relationship with Hua Xiaoqiao since she came here is Qin Mu, and Qin Mu's current identity is really impressive. Had to think about it.

"It's true, I agree with what you said, maybe we came here because of Qin Mu's relationship, Hua Xiaoqiao, do you think Qin Mu's fate will be changed because of our arrival? I always have this feeling and I can’t even explain why, but I always feel that it’s because of Qin Mu that we traveled here.”

The more she thinks about it now, the more she feels that her guess is right. After all, to know the relationship between Qin Mu and Hua Xiaoqiao and the relationship between her and Qin Mu now, they both have a relationship with this man.

The two quieted down again, Hua Xiaoqiao bit her lips and said, "I agree with what you said, maybe because of this man's relationship, we are closer to each other, but no matter what, we have to work hard to live out our own splendor, you Say yes or no."

She really wanted to express how she felt in her heart now, she didn't want to be controlled by fate but controlled her own destiny, Zuo Ni's decadent attitude made her a little worried, Zuo Ni would definitely destroy herself if she continued like this, this is not What she would like to see, Zuo Ni is not bad, although she just got in touch with her, Hua Xiaoqiao thinks that Zuo Ni is the kind of girl who is more pleasing, but she became like this because of various reasons, but it doesn't matter after all. Things are a foregone conclusion, she still believes in her own judgment.

In any case, her life may be much better than Zuo Ni's. After all, she is free. Even if she encounters a lot of hardships, she is happy to exchange these for her freedom.

Zuo Ni stood up and poured Hua Xiaoqiao a cup of tea and talked about her own affairs: "I don't know how I got here, but you know that since I got here, I didn't realize what it means to live like a year. At that time, I was still full of curiosity about this place, and I was kind to everyone, but I didn’t expect that the battle in this back house would never stop. You see how quiet and quiet this yard is, right? In fact, I don’t know how many murderous intentions are hidden in secret. I almost died in the pond in that courtyard, so from that day on I gradually closed myself off, I don’t want to go out to meet other people or make more people, I just want to do what I want quietly It's a bit embarrassing to think about it, but it's actually nothing if you think about it carefully. This is how murderous intentions are hidden in the backyard."

Hua Xiaoqiao looked at Zuo Ni in surprise and said, "Is someone deliberately trying to harm you?"

Zuo Ni nodded and said: "It is true that someone did this on purpose. Don't think that it is impossible for such things to happen in the backyard all the time. I don't know what to say. It's just that after I lived in this attic, all the troubles gradually disappeared. I'm dead, many people in this mansion don't mention me anymore. Although I'm here now, it's as if I'm dead. This is really good. I'm looking forward to it. I just think that if I can go out in the future, no matter how much I suffer now. The suffering is worth it, Hua Xiaoqiao is here, I really don't have anyone I can trust, I hope you can help me, if you can rescue me in the future, you must help me, okay?"

She begged and hoped that Hua Xiaoqiao would agree to take her away. She really didn't want to spend the rest of her life in that deep palace, which was the most fatal thing for her.

Hua Xiaoqiao was very worried: "Don't worry, Zuo Ni, I will help you, but now you know that I don't have that ability. If you can trust me, just wait for me, and I will take you when I can plan everything myself. Go, now you have to feel wronged."

Coming down from Zuo Ni's attic, Hua Xiaoqiao's heart is very heavy. She thought she was the only time traveler, but she didn't expect Zuo Ni to be the same, and she didn't expect her and Zuo Ni's fate to be completely different, even though they are both time travelers But she doesn't envy Zuo Ni at all. After all, Zuo Ni has no freedom in her current life. Is a life without freedom still called living?
The servant girl was a little worried when she saw her bad face. She was originally sent by Prime Minister Zuo to help find out the news. She tentatively asked, "Miss, what's wrong with you?"

Hua Xiaoqiao regained her senses and glanced at the servant girl. She didn't let go of the emotion that flashed in the servant girl's eyes: "It's nothing but something on my mind. How many years has your lady lived in this attic?"

She really wanted to know when Zuo Ni came here through time travel.

The servant girl frowned and thought for a while before she said: "Five years, almost five years, when the young lady fell into the pond and got up, she had a high fever, and then it became like this. The young lady rarely went downstairs for so many years Upstairs, the lady of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting is very good at our lady."

The maid was very foreign when she said this, but Hua Xiaoqiao became very worried. Five years of self-enclosed life can easily change a person. She felt Zuo Ni's timidity and fear, and felt Zuo Ni's defense against others. Although many words are very gentle when talking to her, she can also feel the trembling in Zuo Ni's voice. The fear and worry hidden in the depths of her soul cannot be hidden. She is really worried about Zuo Ni. Really as she said, self-enclosed gradually turned into a pervert.

She was very worried that Zuo Ni would gradually change herself in the self-enclosed space, and this was what worried her the most.

The servant girl felt a little uncomfortable when she said this: "My young lady is also miserable."

After she finished speaking, she let out a heavy sigh, that voice twitched Hua Xiaoqiao's heart.

(End of this chapter)