My wife was reborn before me
Chapter 1 Please marry me
Chapter 1 Please marry me
What does it feel like to like someone.
Xu Yan didn't know if it was because she had a serious illness when she was a child, so she didn't understand love and love very well.
As for the love between men and women, she learns more through novels and books.
In junior high school, there were already some precocious girls and boys going to and from school together, and many boys passed her desk after class.
Xu Yan is very envious of those boys and girls who are together, because they look very happy.
I also know what those boys who approached her intentionally or unintentionally are thinking, because their eyes have already said everything.
But junior high school is still too early, whether it is reality or fiction, she feels that a boy's admiration for the opposite sex is not love.
Childish love may be accompanied by growth, and there may be a day when you want to mature love.
But that needs to be the joint efforts of both parties, not unilateral efforts.
Xu Yan always felt that someone was waiting for her, so she turned a blind eye to the gaze of the boy beside her.
In high school, she met the first person in her life who could be called a confidant.
Lin Jiajia also likes to read romance novels, and her taste is exactly the same as hers. The two exchanged their views on love.
Often discuss what is love until midnight.
What is love, is it written in books that men and women are attracted by each other's pheromones, or is it spiritual resonance?
On this point, Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia had different opinions for the first time.
Lin Jiajia believes that spiritual resonance is too difficult and needs time to adapt. Love should start with pheromones and be loyal to spiritual harmony.
Xu Yan disagrees with her point of view. If love starts with pheromones, then the uniqueness of love is a fairy tale. If you fall in love with someone, you must be loyal to each other spiritually for a lifetime.
This is the first time that Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia have ambiguities in their views on love.
It was only after that time that Xu Yan knew that Lin Jiajia actually had a boyfriend who was a year older than him.
That boy was on the school basketball team, and he wasn't too bad looking. Every time he played, there were always girls watching around the court, and Lin Jiajia was just one of them.
It was completely beyond Xu Yan's expectation that Lin Jiajia, who was too quiet, would find such a boyfriend.
Xu Yan herself has never been in a relationship, so she can only keep silent about the relationship between the two.
But is this really good?
Xu Yan is always worried, can Lin Jiajia and him really achieve the spiritual harmony she said?
She didn't want to lose this rare friend, and kept this worry deep in her heart.
Until that Christmas.
The basketball team of No. [-] Middle School successfully won the championship in the city's basketball game. The boys of the basketball team invited the girls from their dormitory to the celebration banquet.
There is no teacher, and Lin Jiajia's boyfriend and other school team members organized it spontaneously.
Xu Yan didn't like this kind of gathering where she didn't know too many people, so she didn't go.
She returned home that day, and after a long time, she received a text message from Lin Jiajia.
'I'm dying, help me. '
As soon as she received the text message, Xu Yan panicked and desperately called.
But several phone calls went nowhere, and she finally called the police.
When the police took her to the hotel where Lin Jiajia and the others were staying, the rest of the school team and people in their dormitory had already left.
Only Lin Jiajia and her boyfriend were found sleeping on the same bed in the hotel room.
Because the two were boyfriend and girlfriend, and both had passed, the police only contacted the parents, criticized and educated them and left.
This matter is based on the misunderstanding of the young couple's first experience by others around them.
However, the matter did not end like this, and it began to ferment slowly.
The other people in the dormitory had a normal relationship with Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia.
After this incident, Xu Yan often heard them say that Lin Jiajia was willing to go that night, she was willing, and Xu Yan was simply meddling.
They even congratulated Lin Jiajia in a strange tone for the first few days, but as Lin Jiajia didn't respond, they gradually fell silent.
The girls in the same dormitory felt that Lin Jiajia was a lonely person, and it was not surprising that she didn't respond to them.
Only Xu Yan noticed something was wrong with Lin Jiajia, and she talked less with her.
Lin Jiajia sent such a text message that night, she must not have done it voluntarily, and being hurt by someone she likes must have dealt a heavy blow to her.
Because she was worried about Lin Jiajia, Xu Yan stayed with her inseparably for half a month.
During this period of time, her boyfriend never visited Lin Jiajia, Xu Yan gradually felt uneasy.
Half a month later, Lin Jiajia seemed to be in better spirits.
Talking to Xu Yan, maybe boys are like this, the reason why they don't come to her is probably because they feel responsible for her after taking her for the first time, and spend time on study and basketball.
They will definitely get married in the future.
When she said this, Lin Jiajia's face was filled with a brilliance that Xu Yan had never seen before.
At that moment, Xu Yan thought that maybe Lin Jiajia was right, there should be many kinds of love, maybe there is someone like Lin Jiajia, who gets on the bus first and pays for the ticket, and will be happy in the future.
Xu Yan wished the two of them to the end in her heart.
But things turned out to be, that summer vacation, Xu Yan heard the sad news of Lin Jiajia's suicide.
'Maybe we're all wrong. '
This is the last text message Xu Yan received from Lin Jiajia.
Are we all wrong?
That winter, it snowed in the south where it seldom snowed, and Xu Yan was shaken in bed alone like never before.
Xu's father and Xu's mother knew about this and took turns to enlighten her during the Chinese New Year.
Tell her that people are different, there are good people and there are bad people, even if it is a wrong payment, don't give up hope, keep your heart, there is always hope in life.
The words of her parents gradually opened Xu Yan's heart, and she remembered the feeling of a long time ago, there will always be someone who has been waiting for her.
Life goes on, Lin Jiajia left, her boyfriend got together with another girl who often watched him play.
Xu Yan knew that Lin Jiajia's death must have something to do with him, but she didn't say that it was Lin Jiajia's choice.
Lin Jiajia has very few friends, and Xu Yan doesn't want to be brought up for discussion after her death.
But if she doesn't say it, someone will naturally say it.
Especially the incident of her calling the police on Christmas Eve was brought up again.
Many people said that Lin Jiajia was killed by her, because she called the police, and her good things were spoiled by her, and Lin Jiajia's boyfriend alienated her girlfriend because of this.
The matter was distorted and turned ugly, but Xu Yan couldn't produce enough evidence to justify it.
Although she had two text messages from Lin Jiajia at that time, one was deemed to be a misunderstanding, and the other was just Lin Jiajia's last lament. No one understood the feelings and stories contained in it except themselves.
In order to maintain his image, the boyfriend also took advantage of the trend to blame her.
For others, the beautiful campus life is like living in hell for Xu Yan.
In the end, not only the girls but also the boys looked at her eyes changed.
After struggling until the second year of high school, Xu Yan still couldn't forget about Lin Jiajia.
Everyone seems to have forgotten about this matter, only occasionally talking about it in a low voice when their eyes fell on her.
Until one day in physical education class, a basketball rolled in front of her, and a boy ran over to pick it up.
After the boy got the basketball, he didn't leave immediately, and looked at her with the basketball.
"It must be hard work alone, do you want me to help you?"
"what did you say?"
"I think you are just one person at school. Everyone seems to have a misunderstanding with you. How about I explain it for you."
The boy's smile was bright and bookish, Xu Yan wanted to refuse, but the boy had already made his own decision.
"It's behind the library after school, I'll wait for you there."
After the boy finished speaking, he held the basketball and left.
After school, Xu Yan hesitated for a long time and brought a bottle of jelly water to the back of the library.
Usually no one came to the back of the library, Xu Yan had already prepared for the worst to be invited to such a place.
If there are many people, just run away. If there are few people, see what he wants to do. If there is an accident, spray his eyes with jelly water and run away.
As a result, when Xu Yan was behind the library, he was the only one.
"What's the matter with you, I don't need your help."
"Don't be so nervous. I did it out of good intentions. In fact, I already knew that Wang Feng was not a good person."
"The rumors he spread must have made you very distressed. I have evidence in my hand, which can prove that before that Christmas Eve, Wang Feng stepped on two boats and fell in love with his current girlfriend."
"It's obvious that I don't love wholeheartedly, but I still have to sleep with her. Even if I am a man, I can't stand it."
Since the meeting, this person has kept a distance of two meters from her, and it doesn't look like there is any malice.
Xu Yan gradually relaxed her vigilance and listened to him talking there alone.
"No, I don't want Jiajia to be in the ground and be talked about by others."
The matter has passed, no matter what is proved, people will not come back to life, the damage has been done, no amount of words will only appear hypocritical.
Xu Yan's first meeting with this boy ended with her leaving alone.
She thought that after such a straightforward refusal, that man would never come to her again.
But two days later, photos of Wang Feng and his current girlfriend were posted on the Internet, followed by articles with embellishments.
When she returned to her dormitory that day, Xu Yan learned from her new roommate that Wang Feng had a fight with that boy in the gymnasium.
The next day, all kinds of rumors were flying in the school.
Xu Yan and that boy met again at the back of the library. Someone ran to her classroom and said that her boyfriend was looking for her.
It's inexplicable, she doesn't even know when she has a boyfriend.
But when it comes to who this boyfriend is, she can probably guess seven or eight points.
"I'm really sorry, it seems that it didn't achieve the effect I wanted."
The boy had a wound on his face and a big purple patch on his shoulder, but he had a smile on his face.
"Why do I still have to do it? It doesn't matter what I do."
Because of other people's unnecessary contributions, Xu Yan felt as if she owed others something and was very irritable.
"I just see him unhappy, nothing else, you don't have to worry about it."
"Then why did you call me here?"
This time Xu Yan was still holding the gel water in her hand, and she had the urge to spray this person's face.
"Don't spray me with this stuff, you'll be blind."
"I asked you to come here to say that I did this because I like you."
"But don't be nervous, this is just my one-sided matter, you don't need to be stressed."
"That's it, I'll go first, goodbye."
The second meeting ended with the boy leaving alone.
Very irritable, even if she went back to the dormitory, Xu Yan still couldn't suppress the irritability in her heart.
It was the first time a boy confessed to her. According to the plot in the novel, she should be more or less moved.
But she just felt very stressed and irritable.
This feeling is not so much a heartbeat as an irresponsible debt.
From then on, the boy never came to see Xu Yan again.
Things seemed to be going in a good direction, and the new roommate gradually took the initiative to greet her.
No matter what the purpose was, Xu Yan felt that maybe she should thank him.
But the way of the third meeting was completely out of her expectation.
There is no contact information of that boy, but Xu Yan knows that he is also a member of the basketball team.
During the break, she came to the gymnasium and wanted to call him to the back door of the gymnasium while the basketball team was training.
But there were already people behind the gymnasium.
It was that boy and Wang Feng.
"I got Xu Yan's cell phone number for you. You owe me a meal."
"Don't worry, didn't I pay you for the two meals you owed last time?"
"I said it's not good who you have a crush on, that Xu Yan, I don't like it when I look at it."
"I'm different from you. The more difficult it is, the more interesting it is."
"Don't play too much."
"Don't worry, I'm the same as you. I'll let go after I taste it. If that kind of woman is serious, she will be entangled for a lifetime."
Xu Yan, who was hiding at the corner of the gymnasium, also gave up the thought of thanking after hearing this.
That night, Xu Yan received a text message from a strange mobile phone as expected.
'Is it Xu Yan's classmate? '
Without replying, Xu Yan knew who sent the text message.
Silently pull this mobile phone number to black, as if nothing happened.
Another month passed, and it was almost summer vacation.
The boy finally couldn't hold back anymore and asked someone to ask Xu Yan out.
The fourth meeting was still behind the library, but the time was slightly different.
In a few minutes, evening self-study will start.
"I thought you wouldn't see me. Some time ago, I asked for your mobile phone number and sent you a text message, but you didn't reply."
"Sorry, my phone is set to block strange calls."
Xu Yan was empty-handed this time, hiding the jelly water in her sleeve and not taking it out.
She had a hunch that the meeting tonight was different from the previous ones.
"Time flies so fast, there is only half a year left in a blink of an eye, are you free for Christmas?"
"No, there is class on Christmas Day, and I have to do my homework."
"Um, indeed, I forgot that there is no holiday that day."
"Unfortunately, the last Christmas, I can only spend it alone."
"It's time for class, I'm leaving first."
As the bell rang for the evening self-study, Xu Yan turned around and planned to leave.
After taking a few steps, Xu Yan immediately felt the boy behind him move.
Taking advantage of the darkness of the night, the boy opened his arms to hug her from behind.
But his plan was doomed to fail, Xu Yan turned around and sprayed jelly water all over his face.
"Why are you still carrying this thing? I've helped you so much, but you're still wary of me, cold-blooded animal?"
"You rushed over by yourself."
"I just want to hug you."
"I'm sorry, I don't like being hugged. I'm going to class. You should hurry up and find someone to take you to the infirmary."
The boy was still covering his eyes, and there was no threat for the time being, so Xu Yan could turn around and leave with confidence.
From then on, the boy didn't look for Xu Yan again, and he graduated soon.
In a blink of an eye, Xu Yan also ushered in her new life.
There are still no friends around, and I only talk to my classmates occasionally.
It has been two years since Lin Jiajia left, and Xu Yan gradually likes reading in the library.
But when I was in school, homework piled up like a mountain, and the time for reading idle books was constantly being eaten away.
One day, a boy with glasses came in front of her.
As soon as the man with glasses came up, he talked with Xu Yan about the book in her hand.
But Xu Yan was only puzzled.
Who is he? Is reading here hindering him?How about the book, she can read it by herself, she hates others arguing around her.
The man with glasses talked a lot, and seemed to think that he was familiar with Xu Yan, and sat next to her to read a book.
Xu Yan didn't object to just sitting next to her and reading a book. The library belongs to everyone, and it's normal to share tables when there are many people.
"Actually, I've been following you for more than a year. You come to the library to read every day, because you like reading very much."
It's just because she will be bored if she doesn't read books.
"I also like reading books, can you be my friend?"
to be friends?
Xu Yan couldn't figure out what the man with glasses meant, but looking at his glowing eyes, she probably understood what he wanted to do.
"I don't like people interrupting me while I'm reading."
Having already declined the other party, Xu Yan thought that the other party would not come again.
But in the next month, the man with glasses came over to share the table with her, read books and do homework together.
It was as if the two had known each other.
Xu Yan didn't understand very well, and the man with glasses always looked comfortable every time he sat beside her.
A month later, the man with glasses began to write love letters to her.
Although she was mentally prepared, Xu Yan was still taken aback when she received the love letter for the first time.
Inside the love letter is a love poem, which is quite beautifully written.
Xu Yan couldn't help thinking that when the man with glasses was reading next to her, he was reading poetry collections, and he was peeking at her while reading, as if comparing something.
Maybe he started preparing at that time, now the love letter.
The love writing is beautiful, reminding Xu Yan of the love novels she has read.
But when looking at the man with glasses, Xu Yan can be sure that he is not the one she was waiting for.
"The poem is beautiful, thank you for your kindness."
But I can't accept it.
Xu Yan's meaning is obvious, and at the same time she also wants to say that if it is an ordinary friend who meets by chance, she will not refuse.
It reminded her of the days when she was reading love novels with Lin Jiajia, and she was still very grateful to the man with glasses.
"I won't give up."
The man with glasses was unexpectedly stubborn, left this sentence and left.
Since then, I have received a love letter almost every week.
The feelings of the love letter are getting hotter and hotter, almost as long as she responds, she will die in the next moment.
Xu Yan was almost moved by the man with glasses, and her heart was shaken for the first time.
If she likes it, she doesn't like the man with glasses, but his kindness makes her sympathize.
If he didn't respond a little bit, it would be regarded as living up to his sincerity.
Two months after they met, Xu Yan sorted out the ten love letters of the man with glasses, and waited for the man with glasses while writing the test paper in the old place in the library.
This time, the man with glasses was the same as usual, holding a love letter in his hand, but without looking at her, he handed the love letter to another girl who was on duty.
Not long after, Xu Yan saw them walking together at school, and she didn't receive any more love letters.
This is the love of boys?The shelf life is really short.
These ten love letters were finally pressed under Xu Yan's suitcase, and burned along with the old books on the night of graduation.
On the playground, Xu Yan stood among the crowd, watching her entire book turn into ashes, and couldn't help thinking about a question.
Does the pure love described in the novel really exist?
Does the person who has been waiting for her in her heart really exist?
It's still like what Jiajia said after three years of walking.
They are all wrong.
University has always been a yearning vocabulary for all high school students.
It is also the existence of the legend that skipping classes will not be called parents.
There are many messages from seniors to younger students on the university website.
Talking about a relationship in college is a very frequent word.
When Xu Yan saw that the seniors had already left, she realized for the first time whether she should take the initiative to pursue a relationship.
If there is really someone waiting for him, then she doesn't move, and he doesn't move, so the two of them will never see each other.
How can I find him?
This problem troubled Xu Yan for a month during her military training.
During military training, some clever boys would take advantage of the break to ask the girl team who had a boyfriend.
Many girls have been asked, but she was not.
At the end of the military training, she curiously asked the girl next to her.
The other party was also very surprised.
"You are so beautiful, but you don't even look at the boy. You always look at the sky when you are alone. Everyone thinks you are thinking about your boyfriend."
Unexpectedly, it was a misunderstanding, Xu Yan smiled, and half-sincerely said that she also wanted to have a boyfriend to accompany her.
The speaker is not intentional, the listening is intentional.
The news that Xu Yan didn't have a boyfriend and wanted a boyfriend quickly spread.
As the rumors spread, some people secretly said that Xu Yan looked aloof, but she was actually sullen, otherwise a normal goddess, who would miss a man.
When the words reached Xu Yan's ears, she was also taken aback, and she warned herself not to speak casually in the future.
Things quickly fermented.
In the days when the school club was accepting new students, Xu Yan was pulled into a guitar club by her roommate.
Although Xu Yan doesn't know how to play the guitar and didn't join the guitar club, the president of the guitar club is a person who dresses up very exaggeratedly but plays the guitar very tenderly.
This contrast made Xu Yan deeply impressed by him.
So much so that when the school arranged to watch a certain football match, he recognized him at a glance.
The president usually dressed normally, noticed Xu Yan's gaze, and sat next to her.
"I heard that you want to have a boyfriend, have you made it now?"
"No."
The president's eyes are very aggressive, Xu Yan suspects that he has not specially practiced his eyes in front of the mirror.
"Then you have it now."
The president suddenly held Xu Yan's hand, which made her a little confused.
There is a heartbeat, but is it really a heartbeat?
Xu Yan imagined what would happen if her roommate came over suddenly, only to find that she would also be jumped.
"you like me?"
"If I don't like it, I won't say that"
"Sorry, my classmate told me to leave for a while."
Before Xu Yan figured out whether she wanted to refuse, the president had already disappeared into the crowd.
If you choose to take the postgraduate entrance examination, the university will be very busy and hard.
Xu Yan chose to find a job after graduating from university and live in the way of ordinary people.
So she has a lot of free time and hangs out with her roommates on the weekends.
During the process, Xu Yan had the idea of working part-time when the opportunity was right.
This idea has not yet become a reality. When she was returning to school, she happened to meet the president who came back from outside.
"Have you gone out for a stroll? If you call me next time, I'll take you to a fun place."
"Where?"
"Keep it secret, remember to call me next time."
There are roommates from the guitar club in the dormitory, and the others are not too attached to the president, only Xu Yan stares at the president.
I feel that he is very strange. He clearly said that he would become her boyfriend, but now he pretends that nothing happened.
A week later, Xu Yan couldn't refuse her roommates from the guitar club, and followed the president to a bar in every dormitory.
"I'm already a college student. It's okay to drink some wine. The degree here is not high. I have something to come back later."
Bringing four girls to the bar, but running away by himself, which country's deceptive behavior.
Xu Yan felt that the president seemed to be surrounded by layers of fog.
The four girls didn't completely trust the president, they discussed and left the bar together if he didn't come back for a few minutes.
As soon as the discussion was made, the lighting of the bar at that time changed, and the strings of the guitar sounded in the middle of the dance floor of the bar.
Different from the club's welcome night, the equipment in the bar is obviously better. The stringed sounds surrounding the wine tables, and the president's good looks, made the eyes of several girls look straight.
"Hey, two little waves, you want to eat my president."
"Hmph, it's up to you. By the way, does the president have a girlfriend?"
"That...he didn't say it himself, and I don't know."
Xu Yan felt that there was something wrong with the roommate in the guitar club, but she didn't ask.
Her expression said a lot, and she couldn't get a real answer even if she asked.
Looking at the coffee shop outside the bar, an idea sprouted in Xu Yan's heart
A week later, Xu Yan went to this coffee shop to start a part-time job.
The president will go to the bar every weekend, and Xu Yan will occasionally look at the bar during work breaks.
This situation continued for a month, and Xu Yan finally found out that something was wrong.
Her two roommates occasionally ran to the opposite bar alone, and the two never went together.
Xu Yan wanted to ask, but couldn't find a chance to ask.
Finally, one night, Xu Yan kept watch until very late and did not see her roommate come out.
Xu Yan, who couldn't help herself, planned to go directly to the bar to find someone.
When passing the road between the bar and the coffee shop, the headlights of a car were aimed at her, and she couldn't keep her eyes open.
The car stopped, and it was the president who opened the door.
"It's so late after get off work, let me take you back."
"Where's my roommate?"
"She seems to have sprained her ankle. I drove her back to school."
"It's so late, I don't know how long it will take to take the last bus back to school. If you want to see her, wouldn't it be faster to take my car?"
The president's reason made Xu Yan unable to refuse, it was indeed getting late.
Touching the anti-wolf spray in her bag, Xu Yan bit the bullet and got into the president's car.
Xu Yan didn't dare to leave her bag along the way.
"Thank you for sending me back, and what's your relationship with my three roommates."
"One of your roommates is a member of my club. The other two are because the waiters in the bar often ask for leave during this period of time. I'll ask them to come and take their place."
Could it be that she was wrong?
"And you don't need to say thank you, let your girlfriend rest assured that it is the boyfriend's obligation to pick up and drop off your girlfriend."
The president suddenly said that she was his girlfriend, Xu Yan only felt complicated.
Does this person really like her?Why does it feel like a deja vu hypocrisy.
The president has always been talking to himself. As soon as Xu Yan opened his mouth, he changed the topic, and she simply stopped talking.
See if the roommate is safe to go back.
There was no accident on the way. When Xu Yan returned to school, all three roommates were in the dormitory. The roommate who came to the bar today was lying on the bed with the quilt covered.
After Xu Yan asked her, the result was the same as what the president said.
Is the president of Guitar a good person?
Xu Yan didn't sleep all night, and the roommate who sprained her leg in the middle of the night staggered out of bed, it seemed that it was not as simple as a sprained foot.
Because she didn't sleep well, Xu Yan got up late the next day. When she was standing in front of the school, she asked for leave because she wanted to call the coffee shop.
As soon as she picked up her mobile phone, the president came over as if he had been guarding the school gate and said to send her to work.
This delivery is a semester.
Asking a boy to send her to work all the time, Xu Yan was very resistant at the beginning, and later became numb.
The president won't say or do unnecessary things, as if he really looks like a perfect man, which makes her feel unreal.
Could it be this man who has been waiting for her?Xu Yan's atrium began to loosen a bit.
During the Chinese New Year, she went home and asked Father Xu and Mother Xu what it was like to like someone.
Xu's father and Xu's mother thought that their daughter was in love, and they didn't know whether to be happy or sad, but it is always a good thing for their daughter to grow up.
The feeling of liking someone is that you can't forget him at the first sight, even if you haven't seen her for a long time, you still care about her very much, and sometimes you can't fall asleep thinking about him.
What Xu's father and Xu's mother thought of and what to say, Xu Yan was dubious, and found that most of them were in line with her.
Although it doesn't feel right, could it be that she really likes the president.
The second semester of the university is coming soon, the dormitory of the university is fixed, Xu Yan saw her three roommates again.
All three of them had contact with the president, and she wanted to tell the three of them to discuss this matter together.
College girls are like this, they have a little love problem, and they like to share it with their roommates.
But before he spoke, apart from the roommate from the guitar club, the other two roommates ran to the dormitory toilet to vomit one after another.
Spit and can't spit out anything.
Seeing the two roommates retching, the faces of the roommates from the Guitar Club became very ugly.
She ran outside the dormitory and started talking on the phone.
"You're crazy, it doesn't mean that you only have your eyes on Xu Yan, and everyone else will do it too."
"Why don't you eat it when you bring it to your mouth? Are you a pig?"
When Xu Yan heard her words, she suddenly had an extremely bad premonition in her heart.
In the past, the roommates from the guitar club were brought back to the dormitory, and the four of them talked together.
Xu Yan found out that the incident was actually caused by herself.
The roommate of the guitar club originally took her to meet the president out of kindness.
The president fell in love with Xu Yan at a glance, and asked his roommate to help him with the rest of the matter.
Xu Yan went to work in the coffee shop opposite the bar, and her roommate told the president.
But she didn't expect that the other two roommates would be captured by the president one after another.
What's even more tragic is that both of them are pregnant with the president's child.
The sudden reality made Xu Yan's mood drop to a freezing point, and at the same time she calmed down and knew that she didn't like the president.
How could she like such a hypocritical person who should disappear from the world.
Finally, Xu Yan approached the president with her two roommates who were pregnant.
After the president received the call from his roommate, he was already prepared and offered a sum of money for the two of them to abort the child.
Xu Yan was so angry that she wanted to tell the school about it, but when she saw the appearance of her two roommates, her heart softened again.
The roommate of the guitar club quit the guitar club, and accompanied Xu Yan to the hospital for an abortion with the pregnant two roommates.
After the examination, only one person met the conditions for abortion, and the other person was not suitable for abortion because she was more than two months old.
The girl who said that she twisted her foot that day was the one who was more than two months old.
Upon hearing the news, her face turned pale and she left the consulting room in a daze.
When Xu Yan found out that she was missing, she hurriedly followed her out.
Pulling her down, Xu Yan finally took her back to the hospital.
When I came back that night, the four people in the dormitory discussed it, and went to school the next day to tell the teacher about the president.
Xu Yan didn't want this matter to become a big deal, and the two parties ended up changing schools with the president, and the roommate who couldn't have an abortion was compensated, and she kept her student status and went home to wait for the childbirth to end.
In her first year of university, Xu Yan found that she no longer believed in love.
Love makes people blind, love makes people sin, do people really need such a thing as love?
For the next three years, Xu Yan looked at the sweet couples on campus, and couldn't find the answer in her heart.
Soon after graduating from university, Xu Yan found a job without much effort because of her looks.
The company, home, two points and one line have become Xu Yan's daily life.
Because she doesn't get close to men, Xu Yan has once again become a high-altitude flower in men's hearts.
The male colleagues discussed in private, who can take down Xu Yan, that would be awesome.
A few people who thought they had good conditions worked hard to continuously create opportunities for themselves to get in touch with Xu Yan.
Let Xu Yan be very annoying, but she can't offend others.
She asked Dad Xu to learn scriptures, and Dad Xu suggested that she go on a blind date.
Xu Yan hesitated for a long time.
Are blind dates really reliable?Can a marriage be happy without love?Will she, who has never fallen in love with others, ever fall in love with others one day?
Xu Yan finally agreed to Xu's father, but asked Xu's father to do a full investigation, and she only had one blind date.
Seeing that his daughter was so demanding, Father Xu also devoted all his energy to screening his future son-in-law.
This search took another half a month, and someone in the company had already started sending flowers to her by playing straight balls. Xu Yan gave the flowers to the colleague next door, and directly asked the personnel to ask for leave to go on a blind date.
Personnel also had a headache for the male baboons in heat in the company, and agreed to Xu Yan's request for leave.
It was no wonder that the male baboons were in heat. That day happened to be the beginning of summer in June, and Xu Yan was dressed in a cool dress, which attracted countless eyes just by walking on the road.
What kind of person would the prospective son-in-law that Dad Xu carefully selected be like?
Xu Yan actually had some expectations in her heart, so she dressed up a little.
The location of the blind date is a dessert shop.
Before Xu Yan entered the store, she discovered that her blind date had already ordered a sundae before she came.
After eating, I looked around and asked the waiter to take away the empty cup.
Then I checked the time and ordered two more glasses.
This operation made Xu Yan feel funny.
It's a child, if you like eating so much, go to another place to eat before coming back.
Personality is not difficult to accept, and the appearance can be regarded as above-average.
Xu Yan's first impression of her blind date:
Even if the blind date fails, maybe it should be easy to be friends.
The sundae was already served, and out of politeness, Xu Yan decided not to observe outside and walked into the dessert shop.
"Hi, my name is Xu Yan."
"My name is Yang Yang."
"I heard from Uncle Xu that I often played with you when I was young."
At the first sentence after the introduction, Xu Yan was stunned for a moment. She didn't remember anyone named Yang Yang.
No way, there are still people who say "I hugged you when you were a child" to start a conversation.
"I may not have a good memory when I was a child, so I don't remember it."
"That's okay, I don't remember either."
The atmosphere was a bit awkward, and Yang Yang didn't know what to say. He looked up at Xu Yan, trying to find something to talk about from her.
The afternoon sun shines in through the glass wall, Xu Yan tilts her head to look at the sun's shadow distorted by the glass on the ground.
The refracted sunlight also shone on her face, and the breeze brought by the indoor blower let the slender hair spread out naturally.
The 24-year-old Xu Yan has already grown into a bright and charming urban beauty. The experience in her youth made her eyes no longer innocent, and her indifferent eyes revealed a trace of sadness that makes people enamored and distressed.
The fascinated Yang Yang couldn't help saying:
"Can you please marry me?"
"Ah? What do you mean?"
Xu Yan's heart skipped a beat. It was the first time someone said such words to him, and she was moved.
True or false, will not be scared.
Xu Yan forced herself to calm down, pretending not to understand.
"I said please marry me and let me be your husband for the rest of your life."
"why?"
Damn, this person is poisonous, and the one who proposed marriage as soon as he was born made her heart beat non-stop, it was too foul.
"You don't seem to want to chat with me very much, and I don't know you, so I want to spend my whole life getting to know you."
And you are Uncle Xu's daughter, Uncle Xu knows my dad and has a good relationship, so there will be no pressure to say hello in the future, wouldn't it be great.
The marriage proposal was impulsive, but after thinking about it, Yang Yang realized that it would save a lot of trouble, and his wife was still very beautiful, so the more he thought about it, the more he was motivated.
"So you like me?"
"It can also be said that you looked really beautiful just now."
"I don't believe in love, let alone love at first sight."
"I don't believe in love, neither do we, so let's get married."
"What's the reason? You don't believe in love, that is, you don't love me, so why did you marry me?"
"I don't believe in love, that's why I want to marry you. Anyway, we don't believe in love. In the future, it's a life for one person, and it's a life for two people, isn't it?"
"Then I can go to someone else, why you."
"Because there is no one more suitable than me."
"I'm afraid of having children, will you marry me too?"
"I also……"
A blind date almost turned into a debate match, Yang Yang almost slipped his tongue.
"Why are you afraid of having children?"
"My roommate in college had an abortion, and the doctor said it was similar to giving birth, and he would collapse."
"Then don't have children."
"Then you are not allowed to touch me."
The person in front of him was like a child, obviously not very handsome, Xu Yan looked at him very kindly for some reason.
Maybe it should be easy to live with such a person.
But is it really good to delay other people's lives in this way? Let him quit in spite of the difficulties.
"What kind of touch?"
"I heard that it hurts to break that one. You are not allowed to touch me until I am mentally prepared."
This is a big problem. Yang Yang is not a man who does not want women's bodies, but if he has never been in a serious relationship, he can't be a widow like this.
Seeing that Yang Yang was finally stumped, Xu Yan was relieved and couldn't help but feel a little proud.
"If you can agree to this condition, I will agree to your marriage proposal."
"It's a good deal, but in exchange, I hope you can fulfill your wife's obligations."
"Ah, what did you say?"
Because she was so proud just now, the moment Yang Yang agreed, Xu Yan's mind went blank.
"Let's go, you are my wife now, let's go get the certificate."
Yang Yang didn't give Xu Yan a chance to react at all, and dragged her to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and called Xu's father and Yang's father on the way to send the household registration book.
Are there really such stupid people?
On the night when the blind date ended, Xu Yan lay in bed and fell asleep again.
As soon as she closed her eyes, Yang Yang was standing not far away looking at her with a childish smile.
Only two people know about the agreement during the blind date.
When Xu's father and Xu's mother knew that their daughter had finally figured it out, joy overflowed from their brows.
Seeing such parents, Xu Yan really couldn't bear to tell them the truth.
The wedding went smoothly, except that Yang Yang cut Xu Yan's finger on the night of the wedding, leaving a smear of red on the bed sheet, there were no other excessive demands.
In order to find a common topic with his wife, Yang Yang suggested that the two of them go on a wedding trip.
Thinking of her asking too much, Xu Yan didn't object.
During the wedding trip, Yang Yang talked a lot, mainly asking her what she likes.
Xu Yan said very little, either shaking her head or nodding.
How much Yang Yang knew her, Xu Yan didn't know, but she knew that her husband was a very childish, but very committed person.
This made her regret even more what she said that was thoughtless on the day of the blind date.
Also because of this, after the wedding trip, Xu Yan decided to keep her promise and be a perfect wife.
As time passed, Xu Yan gradually felt that she could not balance family and work.
The competition in the workplace is so fierce, either you get in or I get out, Xu Yan gradually thought of resigning.
Regarding this matter, the two families agreed with both hands, saying that five people could not support one big one and one small one.
Parents always thought that Xu Yan and Yang Yang didn't want children because of work, and when they heard that Xu Yan was going to resign and have children, they couldn't be happier.
For this reason, Yang's father and Yang's mother also took out a passbook, telling Yang Yang and Xu Yan that if they feel that the education in their hometown is not good, they can go to the city to buy a house and have children.
The parents' intentions are touching. Yang Yang also has the idea of moving to the city, but it's just a matter of having children...
That night, when Xu Yan threw him on the bed, she realized that the problem was no longer a problem.
Life in the city is not as simple as Yang Yang thought.
The young couple are dizzy and busy with various things.
During the time when Xu Yan was pregnant with the child, Xu Yan vomited in the dark, and experienced the hardships of being a mother for the first time.
During that period of time, she did not fulfill her original promise to prepare breakfast and dinner for Yang Yang.
Yang Yang also began to work overtime every day, gradually getting used to this kind of life.
Sometimes when two people notice each other's embarrassed appearance, they can't help feeling a little distressed from the bottom of their hearts.
But such is life, it's all about the kids.
They don't know if there is love between each other, or neither of them believed in love in the first place.
But he doesn't regret proposing.
She doesn't regret marrying him either.
(End of this chapter)
What does it feel like to like someone.
Xu Yan didn't know if it was because she had a serious illness when she was a child, so she didn't understand love and love very well.
As for the love between men and women, she learns more through novels and books.
In junior high school, there were already some precocious girls and boys going to and from school together, and many boys passed her desk after class.
Xu Yan is very envious of those boys and girls who are together, because they look very happy.
I also know what those boys who approached her intentionally or unintentionally are thinking, because their eyes have already said everything.
But junior high school is still too early, whether it is reality or fiction, she feels that a boy's admiration for the opposite sex is not love.
Childish love may be accompanied by growth, and there may be a day when you want to mature love.
But that needs to be the joint efforts of both parties, not unilateral efforts.
Xu Yan always felt that someone was waiting for her, so she turned a blind eye to the gaze of the boy beside her.
In high school, she met the first person in her life who could be called a confidant.
Lin Jiajia also likes to read romance novels, and her taste is exactly the same as hers. The two exchanged their views on love.
Often discuss what is love until midnight.
What is love, is it written in books that men and women are attracted by each other's pheromones, or is it spiritual resonance?
On this point, Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia had different opinions for the first time.
Lin Jiajia believes that spiritual resonance is too difficult and needs time to adapt. Love should start with pheromones and be loyal to spiritual harmony.
Xu Yan disagrees with her point of view. If love starts with pheromones, then the uniqueness of love is a fairy tale. If you fall in love with someone, you must be loyal to each other spiritually for a lifetime.
This is the first time that Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia have ambiguities in their views on love.
It was only after that time that Xu Yan knew that Lin Jiajia actually had a boyfriend who was a year older than him.
That boy was on the school basketball team, and he wasn't too bad looking. Every time he played, there were always girls watching around the court, and Lin Jiajia was just one of them.
It was completely beyond Xu Yan's expectation that Lin Jiajia, who was too quiet, would find such a boyfriend.
Xu Yan herself has never been in a relationship, so she can only keep silent about the relationship between the two.
But is this really good?
Xu Yan is always worried, can Lin Jiajia and him really achieve the spiritual harmony she said?
She didn't want to lose this rare friend, and kept this worry deep in her heart.
Until that Christmas.
The basketball team of No. [-] Middle School successfully won the championship in the city's basketball game. The boys of the basketball team invited the girls from their dormitory to the celebration banquet.
There is no teacher, and Lin Jiajia's boyfriend and other school team members organized it spontaneously.
Xu Yan didn't like this kind of gathering where she didn't know too many people, so she didn't go.
She returned home that day, and after a long time, she received a text message from Lin Jiajia.
'I'm dying, help me. '
As soon as she received the text message, Xu Yan panicked and desperately called.
But several phone calls went nowhere, and she finally called the police.
When the police took her to the hotel where Lin Jiajia and the others were staying, the rest of the school team and people in their dormitory had already left.
Only Lin Jiajia and her boyfriend were found sleeping on the same bed in the hotel room.
Because the two were boyfriend and girlfriend, and both had passed, the police only contacted the parents, criticized and educated them and left.
This matter is based on the misunderstanding of the young couple's first experience by others around them.
However, the matter did not end like this, and it began to ferment slowly.
The other people in the dormitory had a normal relationship with Xu Yan and Lin Jiajia.
After this incident, Xu Yan often heard them say that Lin Jiajia was willing to go that night, she was willing, and Xu Yan was simply meddling.
They even congratulated Lin Jiajia in a strange tone for the first few days, but as Lin Jiajia didn't respond, they gradually fell silent.
The girls in the same dormitory felt that Lin Jiajia was a lonely person, and it was not surprising that she didn't respond to them.
Only Xu Yan noticed something was wrong with Lin Jiajia, and she talked less with her.
Lin Jiajia sent such a text message that night, she must not have done it voluntarily, and being hurt by someone she likes must have dealt a heavy blow to her.
Because she was worried about Lin Jiajia, Xu Yan stayed with her inseparably for half a month.
During this period of time, her boyfriend never visited Lin Jiajia, Xu Yan gradually felt uneasy.
Half a month later, Lin Jiajia seemed to be in better spirits.
Talking to Xu Yan, maybe boys are like this, the reason why they don't come to her is probably because they feel responsible for her after taking her for the first time, and spend time on study and basketball.
They will definitely get married in the future.
When she said this, Lin Jiajia's face was filled with a brilliance that Xu Yan had never seen before.
At that moment, Xu Yan thought that maybe Lin Jiajia was right, there should be many kinds of love, maybe there is someone like Lin Jiajia, who gets on the bus first and pays for the ticket, and will be happy in the future.
Xu Yan wished the two of them to the end in her heart.
But things turned out to be, that summer vacation, Xu Yan heard the sad news of Lin Jiajia's suicide.
'Maybe we're all wrong. '
This is the last text message Xu Yan received from Lin Jiajia.
Are we all wrong?
That winter, it snowed in the south where it seldom snowed, and Xu Yan was shaken in bed alone like never before.
Xu's father and Xu's mother knew about this and took turns to enlighten her during the Chinese New Year.
Tell her that people are different, there are good people and there are bad people, even if it is a wrong payment, don't give up hope, keep your heart, there is always hope in life.
The words of her parents gradually opened Xu Yan's heart, and she remembered the feeling of a long time ago, there will always be someone who has been waiting for her.
Life goes on, Lin Jiajia left, her boyfriend got together with another girl who often watched him play.
Xu Yan knew that Lin Jiajia's death must have something to do with him, but she didn't say that it was Lin Jiajia's choice.
Lin Jiajia has very few friends, and Xu Yan doesn't want to be brought up for discussion after her death.
But if she doesn't say it, someone will naturally say it.
Especially the incident of her calling the police on Christmas Eve was brought up again.
Many people said that Lin Jiajia was killed by her, because she called the police, and her good things were spoiled by her, and Lin Jiajia's boyfriend alienated her girlfriend because of this.
The matter was distorted and turned ugly, but Xu Yan couldn't produce enough evidence to justify it.
Although she had two text messages from Lin Jiajia at that time, one was deemed to be a misunderstanding, and the other was just Lin Jiajia's last lament. No one understood the feelings and stories contained in it except themselves.
In order to maintain his image, the boyfriend also took advantage of the trend to blame her.
For others, the beautiful campus life is like living in hell for Xu Yan.
In the end, not only the girls but also the boys looked at her eyes changed.
After struggling until the second year of high school, Xu Yan still couldn't forget about Lin Jiajia.
Everyone seems to have forgotten about this matter, only occasionally talking about it in a low voice when their eyes fell on her.
Until one day in physical education class, a basketball rolled in front of her, and a boy ran over to pick it up.
After the boy got the basketball, he didn't leave immediately, and looked at her with the basketball.
"It must be hard work alone, do you want me to help you?"
"what did you say?"
"I think you are just one person at school. Everyone seems to have a misunderstanding with you. How about I explain it for you."
The boy's smile was bright and bookish, Xu Yan wanted to refuse, but the boy had already made his own decision.
"It's behind the library after school, I'll wait for you there."
After the boy finished speaking, he held the basketball and left.
After school, Xu Yan hesitated for a long time and brought a bottle of jelly water to the back of the library.
Usually no one came to the back of the library, Xu Yan had already prepared for the worst to be invited to such a place.
If there are many people, just run away. If there are few people, see what he wants to do. If there is an accident, spray his eyes with jelly water and run away.
As a result, when Xu Yan was behind the library, he was the only one.
"What's the matter with you, I don't need your help."
"Don't be so nervous. I did it out of good intentions. In fact, I already knew that Wang Feng was not a good person."
"The rumors he spread must have made you very distressed. I have evidence in my hand, which can prove that before that Christmas Eve, Wang Feng stepped on two boats and fell in love with his current girlfriend."
"It's obvious that I don't love wholeheartedly, but I still have to sleep with her. Even if I am a man, I can't stand it."
Since the meeting, this person has kept a distance of two meters from her, and it doesn't look like there is any malice.
Xu Yan gradually relaxed her vigilance and listened to him talking there alone.
"No, I don't want Jiajia to be in the ground and be talked about by others."
The matter has passed, no matter what is proved, people will not come back to life, the damage has been done, no amount of words will only appear hypocritical.
Xu Yan's first meeting with this boy ended with her leaving alone.
She thought that after such a straightforward refusal, that man would never come to her again.
But two days later, photos of Wang Feng and his current girlfriend were posted on the Internet, followed by articles with embellishments.
When she returned to her dormitory that day, Xu Yan learned from her new roommate that Wang Feng had a fight with that boy in the gymnasium.
The next day, all kinds of rumors were flying in the school.
Xu Yan and that boy met again at the back of the library. Someone ran to her classroom and said that her boyfriend was looking for her.
It's inexplicable, she doesn't even know when she has a boyfriend.
But when it comes to who this boyfriend is, she can probably guess seven or eight points.
"I'm really sorry, it seems that it didn't achieve the effect I wanted."
The boy had a wound on his face and a big purple patch on his shoulder, but he had a smile on his face.
"Why do I still have to do it? It doesn't matter what I do."
Because of other people's unnecessary contributions, Xu Yan felt as if she owed others something and was very irritable.
"I just see him unhappy, nothing else, you don't have to worry about it."
"Then why did you call me here?"
This time Xu Yan was still holding the gel water in her hand, and she had the urge to spray this person's face.
"Don't spray me with this stuff, you'll be blind."
"I asked you to come here to say that I did this because I like you."
"But don't be nervous, this is just my one-sided matter, you don't need to be stressed."
"That's it, I'll go first, goodbye."
The second meeting ended with the boy leaving alone.
Very irritable, even if she went back to the dormitory, Xu Yan still couldn't suppress the irritability in her heart.
It was the first time a boy confessed to her. According to the plot in the novel, she should be more or less moved.
But she just felt very stressed and irritable.
This feeling is not so much a heartbeat as an irresponsible debt.
From then on, the boy never came to see Xu Yan again.
Things seemed to be going in a good direction, and the new roommate gradually took the initiative to greet her.
No matter what the purpose was, Xu Yan felt that maybe she should thank him.
But the way of the third meeting was completely out of her expectation.
There is no contact information of that boy, but Xu Yan knows that he is also a member of the basketball team.
During the break, she came to the gymnasium and wanted to call him to the back door of the gymnasium while the basketball team was training.
But there were already people behind the gymnasium.
It was that boy and Wang Feng.
"I got Xu Yan's cell phone number for you. You owe me a meal."
"Don't worry, didn't I pay you for the two meals you owed last time?"
"I said it's not good who you have a crush on, that Xu Yan, I don't like it when I look at it."
"I'm different from you. The more difficult it is, the more interesting it is."
"Don't play too much."
"Don't worry, I'm the same as you. I'll let go after I taste it. If that kind of woman is serious, she will be entangled for a lifetime."
Xu Yan, who was hiding at the corner of the gymnasium, also gave up the thought of thanking after hearing this.
That night, Xu Yan received a text message from a strange mobile phone as expected.
'Is it Xu Yan's classmate? '
Without replying, Xu Yan knew who sent the text message.
Silently pull this mobile phone number to black, as if nothing happened.
Another month passed, and it was almost summer vacation.
The boy finally couldn't hold back anymore and asked someone to ask Xu Yan out.
The fourth meeting was still behind the library, but the time was slightly different.
In a few minutes, evening self-study will start.
"I thought you wouldn't see me. Some time ago, I asked for your mobile phone number and sent you a text message, but you didn't reply."
"Sorry, my phone is set to block strange calls."
Xu Yan was empty-handed this time, hiding the jelly water in her sleeve and not taking it out.
She had a hunch that the meeting tonight was different from the previous ones.
"Time flies so fast, there is only half a year left in a blink of an eye, are you free for Christmas?"
"No, there is class on Christmas Day, and I have to do my homework."
"Um, indeed, I forgot that there is no holiday that day."
"Unfortunately, the last Christmas, I can only spend it alone."
"It's time for class, I'm leaving first."
As the bell rang for the evening self-study, Xu Yan turned around and planned to leave.
After taking a few steps, Xu Yan immediately felt the boy behind him move.
Taking advantage of the darkness of the night, the boy opened his arms to hug her from behind.
But his plan was doomed to fail, Xu Yan turned around and sprayed jelly water all over his face.
"Why are you still carrying this thing? I've helped you so much, but you're still wary of me, cold-blooded animal?"
"You rushed over by yourself."
"I just want to hug you."
"I'm sorry, I don't like being hugged. I'm going to class. You should hurry up and find someone to take you to the infirmary."
The boy was still covering his eyes, and there was no threat for the time being, so Xu Yan could turn around and leave with confidence.
From then on, the boy didn't look for Xu Yan again, and he graduated soon.
In a blink of an eye, Xu Yan also ushered in her new life.
There are still no friends around, and I only talk to my classmates occasionally.
It has been two years since Lin Jiajia left, and Xu Yan gradually likes reading in the library.
But when I was in school, homework piled up like a mountain, and the time for reading idle books was constantly being eaten away.
One day, a boy with glasses came in front of her.
As soon as the man with glasses came up, he talked with Xu Yan about the book in her hand.
But Xu Yan was only puzzled.
Who is he? Is reading here hindering him?How about the book, she can read it by herself, she hates others arguing around her.
The man with glasses talked a lot, and seemed to think that he was familiar with Xu Yan, and sat next to her to read a book.
Xu Yan didn't object to just sitting next to her and reading a book. The library belongs to everyone, and it's normal to share tables when there are many people.
"Actually, I've been following you for more than a year. You come to the library to read every day, because you like reading very much."
It's just because she will be bored if she doesn't read books.
"I also like reading books, can you be my friend?"
to be friends?
Xu Yan couldn't figure out what the man with glasses meant, but looking at his glowing eyes, she probably understood what he wanted to do.
"I don't like people interrupting me while I'm reading."
Having already declined the other party, Xu Yan thought that the other party would not come again.
But in the next month, the man with glasses came over to share the table with her, read books and do homework together.
It was as if the two had known each other.
Xu Yan didn't understand very well, and the man with glasses always looked comfortable every time he sat beside her.
A month later, the man with glasses began to write love letters to her.
Although she was mentally prepared, Xu Yan was still taken aback when she received the love letter for the first time.
Inside the love letter is a love poem, which is quite beautifully written.
Xu Yan couldn't help thinking that when the man with glasses was reading next to her, he was reading poetry collections, and he was peeking at her while reading, as if comparing something.
Maybe he started preparing at that time, now the love letter.
The love writing is beautiful, reminding Xu Yan of the love novels she has read.
But when looking at the man with glasses, Xu Yan can be sure that he is not the one she was waiting for.
"The poem is beautiful, thank you for your kindness."
But I can't accept it.
Xu Yan's meaning is obvious, and at the same time she also wants to say that if it is an ordinary friend who meets by chance, she will not refuse.
It reminded her of the days when she was reading love novels with Lin Jiajia, and she was still very grateful to the man with glasses.
"I won't give up."
The man with glasses was unexpectedly stubborn, left this sentence and left.
Since then, I have received a love letter almost every week.
The feelings of the love letter are getting hotter and hotter, almost as long as she responds, she will die in the next moment.
Xu Yan was almost moved by the man with glasses, and her heart was shaken for the first time.
If she likes it, she doesn't like the man with glasses, but his kindness makes her sympathize.
If he didn't respond a little bit, it would be regarded as living up to his sincerity.
Two months after they met, Xu Yan sorted out the ten love letters of the man with glasses, and waited for the man with glasses while writing the test paper in the old place in the library.
This time, the man with glasses was the same as usual, holding a love letter in his hand, but without looking at her, he handed the love letter to another girl who was on duty.
Not long after, Xu Yan saw them walking together at school, and she didn't receive any more love letters.
This is the love of boys?The shelf life is really short.
These ten love letters were finally pressed under Xu Yan's suitcase, and burned along with the old books on the night of graduation.
On the playground, Xu Yan stood among the crowd, watching her entire book turn into ashes, and couldn't help thinking about a question.
Does the pure love described in the novel really exist?
Does the person who has been waiting for her in her heart really exist?
It's still like what Jiajia said after three years of walking.
They are all wrong.
University has always been a yearning vocabulary for all high school students.
It is also the existence of the legend that skipping classes will not be called parents.
There are many messages from seniors to younger students on the university website.
Talking about a relationship in college is a very frequent word.
When Xu Yan saw that the seniors had already left, she realized for the first time whether she should take the initiative to pursue a relationship.
If there is really someone waiting for him, then she doesn't move, and he doesn't move, so the two of them will never see each other.
How can I find him?
This problem troubled Xu Yan for a month during her military training.
During military training, some clever boys would take advantage of the break to ask the girl team who had a boyfriend.
Many girls have been asked, but she was not.
At the end of the military training, she curiously asked the girl next to her.
The other party was also very surprised.
"You are so beautiful, but you don't even look at the boy. You always look at the sky when you are alone. Everyone thinks you are thinking about your boyfriend."
Unexpectedly, it was a misunderstanding, Xu Yan smiled, and half-sincerely said that she also wanted to have a boyfriend to accompany her.
The speaker is not intentional, the listening is intentional.
The news that Xu Yan didn't have a boyfriend and wanted a boyfriend quickly spread.
As the rumors spread, some people secretly said that Xu Yan looked aloof, but she was actually sullen, otherwise a normal goddess, who would miss a man.
When the words reached Xu Yan's ears, she was also taken aback, and she warned herself not to speak casually in the future.
Things quickly fermented.
In the days when the school club was accepting new students, Xu Yan was pulled into a guitar club by her roommate.
Although Xu Yan doesn't know how to play the guitar and didn't join the guitar club, the president of the guitar club is a person who dresses up very exaggeratedly but plays the guitar very tenderly.
This contrast made Xu Yan deeply impressed by him.
So much so that when the school arranged to watch a certain football match, he recognized him at a glance.
The president usually dressed normally, noticed Xu Yan's gaze, and sat next to her.
"I heard that you want to have a boyfriend, have you made it now?"
"No."
The president's eyes are very aggressive, Xu Yan suspects that he has not specially practiced his eyes in front of the mirror.
"Then you have it now."
The president suddenly held Xu Yan's hand, which made her a little confused.
There is a heartbeat, but is it really a heartbeat?
Xu Yan imagined what would happen if her roommate came over suddenly, only to find that she would also be jumped.
"you like me?"
"If I don't like it, I won't say that"
"Sorry, my classmate told me to leave for a while."
Before Xu Yan figured out whether she wanted to refuse, the president had already disappeared into the crowd.
If you choose to take the postgraduate entrance examination, the university will be very busy and hard.
Xu Yan chose to find a job after graduating from university and live in the way of ordinary people.
So she has a lot of free time and hangs out with her roommates on the weekends.
During the process, Xu Yan had the idea of working part-time when the opportunity was right.
This idea has not yet become a reality. When she was returning to school, she happened to meet the president who came back from outside.
"Have you gone out for a stroll? If you call me next time, I'll take you to a fun place."
"Where?"
"Keep it secret, remember to call me next time."
There are roommates from the guitar club in the dormitory, and the others are not too attached to the president, only Xu Yan stares at the president.
I feel that he is very strange. He clearly said that he would become her boyfriend, but now he pretends that nothing happened.
A week later, Xu Yan couldn't refuse her roommates from the guitar club, and followed the president to a bar in every dormitory.
"I'm already a college student. It's okay to drink some wine. The degree here is not high. I have something to come back later."
Bringing four girls to the bar, but running away by himself, which country's deceptive behavior.
Xu Yan felt that the president seemed to be surrounded by layers of fog.
The four girls didn't completely trust the president, they discussed and left the bar together if he didn't come back for a few minutes.
As soon as the discussion was made, the lighting of the bar at that time changed, and the strings of the guitar sounded in the middle of the dance floor of the bar.
Different from the club's welcome night, the equipment in the bar is obviously better. The stringed sounds surrounding the wine tables, and the president's good looks, made the eyes of several girls look straight.
"Hey, two little waves, you want to eat my president."
"Hmph, it's up to you. By the way, does the president have a girlfriend?"
"That...he didn't say it himself, and I don't know."
Xu Yan felt that there was something wrong with the roommate in the guitar club, but she didn't ask.
Her expression said a lot, and she couldn't get a real answer even if she asked.
Looking at the coffee shop outside the bar, an idea sprouted in Xu Yan's heart
A week later, Xu Yan went to this coffee shop to start a part-time job.
The president will go to the bar every weekend, and Xu Yan will occasionally look at the bar during work breaks.
This situation continued for a month, and Xu Yan finally found out that something was wrong.
Her two roommates occasionally ran to the opposite bar alone, and the two never went together.
Xu Yan wanted to ask, but couldn't find a chance to ask.
Finally, one night, Xu Yan kept watch until very late and did not see her roommate come out.
Xu Yan, who couldn't help herself, planned to go directly to the bar to find someone.
When passing the road between the bar and the coffee shop, the headlights of a car were aimed at her, and she couldn't keep her eyes open.
The car stopped, and it was the president who opened the door.
"It's so late after get off work, let me take you back."
"Where's my roommate?"
"She seems to have sprained her ankle. I drove her back to school."
"It's so late, I don't know how long it will take to take the last bus back to school. If you want to see her, wouldn't it be faster to take my car?"
The president's reason made Xu Yan unable to refuse, it was indeed getting late.
Touching the anti-wolf spray in her bag, Xu Yan bit the bullet and got into the president's car.
Xu Yan didn't dare to leave her bag along the way.
"Thank you for sending me back, and what's your relationship with my three roommates."
"One of your roommates is a member of my club. The other two are because the waiters in the bar often ask for leave during this period of time. I'll ask them to come and take their place."
Could it be that she was wrong?
"And you don't need to say thank you, let your girlfriend rest assured that it is the boyfriend's obligation to pick up and drop off your girlfriend."
The president suddenly said that she was his girlfriend, Xu Yan only felt complicated.
Does this person really like her?Why does it feel like a deja vu hypocrisy.
The president has always been talking to himself. As soon as Xu Yan opened his mouth, he changed the topic, and she simply stopped talking.
See if the roommate is safe to go back.
There was no accident on the way. When Xu Yan returned to school, all three roommates were in the dormitory. The roommate who came to the bar today was lying on the bed with the quilt covered.
After Xu Yan asked her, the result was the same as what the president said.
Is the president of Guitar a good person?
Xu Yan didn't sleep all night, and the roommate who sprained her leg in the middle of the night staggered out of bed, it seemed that it was not as simple as a sprained foot.
Because she didn't sleep well, Xu Yan got up late the next day. When she was standing in front of the school, she asked for leave because she wanted to call the coffee shop.
As soon as she picked up her mobile phone, the president came over as if he had been guarding the school gate and said to send her to work.
This delivery is a semester.
Asking a boy to send her to work all the time, Xu Yan was very resistant at the beginning, and later became numb.
The president won't say or do unnecessary things, as if he really looks like a perfect man, which makes her feel unreal.
Could it be this man who has been waiting for her?Xu Yan's atrium began to loosen a bit.
During the Chinese New Year, she went home and asked Father Xu and Mother Xu what it was like to like someone.
Xu's father and Xu's mother thought that their daughter was in love, and they didn't know whether to be happy or sad, but it is always a good thing for their daughter to grow up.
The feeling of liking someone is that you can't forget him at the first sight, even if you haven't seen her for a long time, you still care about her very much, and sometimes you can't fall asleep thinking about him.
What Xu's father and Xu's mother thought of and what to say, Xu Yan was dubious, and found that most of them were in line with her.
Although it doesn't feel right, could it be that she really likes the president.
The second semester of the university is coming soon, the dormitory of the university is fixed, Xu Yan saw her three roommates again.
All three of them had contact with the president, and she wanted to tell the three of them to discuss this matter together.
College girls are like this, they have a little love problem, and they like to share it with their roommates.
But before he spoke, apart from the roommate from the guitar club, the other two roommates ran to the dormitory toilet to vomit one after another.
Spit and can't spit out anything.
Seeing the two roommates retching, the faces of the roommates from the Guitar Club became very ugly.
She ran outside the dormitory and started talking on the phone.
"You're crazy, it doesn't mean that you only have your eyes on Xu Yan, and everyone else will do it too."
"Why don't you eat it when you bring it to your mouth? Are you a pig?"
When Xu Yan heard her words, she suddenly had an extremely bad premonition in her heart.
In the past, the roommates from the guitar club were brought back to the dormitory, and the four of them talked together.
Xu Yan found out that the incident was actually caused by herself.
The roommate of the guitar club originally took her to meet the president out of kindness.
The president fell in love with Xu Yan at a glance, and asked his roommate to help him with the rest of the matter.
Xu Yan went to work in the coffee shop opposite the bar, and her roommate told the president.
But she didn't expect that the other two roommates would be captured by the president one after another.
What's even more tragic is that both of them are pregnant with the president's child.
The sudden reality made Xu Yan's mood drop to a freezing point, and at the same time she calmed down and knew that she didn't like the president.
How could she like such a hypocritical person who should disappear from the world.
Finally, Xu Yan approached the president with her two roommates who were pregnant.
After the president received the call from his roommate, he was already prepared and offered a sum of money for the two of them to abort the child.
Xu Yan was so angry that she wanted to tell the school about it, but when she saw the appearance of her two roommates, her heart softened again.
The roommate of the guitar club quit the guitar club, and accompanied Xu Yan to the hospital for an abortion with the pregnant two roommates.
After the examination, only one person met the conditions for abortion, and the other person was not suitable for abortion because she was more than two months old.
The girl who said that she twisted her foot that day was the one who was more than two months old.
Upon hearing the news, her face turned pale and she left the consulting room in a daze.
When Xu Yan found out that she was missing, she hurriedly followed her out.
Pulling her down, Xu Yan finally took her back to the hospital.
When I came back that night, the four people in the dormitory discussed it, and went to school the next day to tell the teacher about the president.
Xu Yan didn't want this matter to become a big deal, and the two parties ended up changing schools with the president, and the roommate who couldn't have an abortion was compensated, and she kept her student status and went home to wait for the childbirth to end.
In her first year of university, Xu Yan found that she no longer believed in love.
Love makes people blind, love makes people sin, do people really need such a thing as love?
For the next three years, Xu Yan looked at the sweet couples on campus, and couldn't find the answer in her heart.
Soon after graduating from university, Xu Yan found a job without much effort because of her looks.
The company, home, two points and one line have become Xu Yan's daily life.
Because she doesn't get close to men, Xu Yan has once again become a high-altitude flower in men's hearts.
The male colleagues discussed in private, who can take down Xu Yan, that would be awesome.
A few people who thought they had good conditions worked hard to continuously create opportunities for themselves to get in touch with Xu Yan.
Let Xu Yan be very annoying, but she can't offend others.
She asked Dad Xu to learn scriptures, and Dad Xu suggested that she go on a blind date.
Xu Yan hesitated for a long time.
Are blind dates really reliable?Can a marriage be happy without love?Will she, who has never fallen in love with others, ever fall in love with others one day?
Xu Yan finally agreed to Xu's father, but asked Xu's father to do a full investigation, and she only had one blind date.
Seeing that his daughter was so demanding, Father Xu also devoted all his energy to screening his future son-in-law.
This search took another half a month, and someone in the company had already started sending flowers to her by playing straight balls. Xu Yan gave the flowers to the colleague next door, and directly asked the personnel to ask for leave to go on a blind date.
Personnel also had a headache for the male baboons in heat in the company, and agreed to Xu Yan's request for leave.
It was no wonder that the male baboons were in heat. That day happened to be the beginning of summer in June, and Xu Yan was dressed in a cool dress, which attracted countless eyes just by walking on the road.
What kind of person would the prospective son-in-law that Dad Xu carefully selected be like?
Xu Yan actually had some expectations in her heart, so she dressed up a little.
The location of the blind date is a dessert shop.
Before Xu Yan entered the store, she discovered that her blind date had already ordered a sundae before she came.
After eating, I looked around and asked the waiter to take away the empty cup.
Then I checked the time and ordered two more glasses.
This operation made Xu Yan feel funny.
It's a child, if you like eating so much, go to another place to eat before coming back.
Personality is not difficult to accept, and the appearance can be regarded as above-average.
Xu Yan's first impression of her blind date:
Even if the blind date fails, maybe it should be easy to be friends.
The sundae was already served, and out of politeness, Xu Yan decided not to observe outside and walked into the dessert shop.
"Hi, my name is Xu Yan."
"My name is Yang Yang."
"I heard from Uncle Xu that I often played with you when I was young."
At the first sentence after the introduction, Xu Yan was stunned for a moment. She didn't remember anyone named Yang Yang.
No way, there are still people who say "I hugged you when you were a child" to start a conversation.
"I may not have a good memory when I was a child, so I don't remember it."
"That's okay, I don't remember either."
The atmosphere was a bit awkward, and Yang Yang didn't know what to say. He looked up at Xu Yan, trying to find something to talk about from her.
The afternoon sun shines in through the glass wall, Xu Yan tilts her head to look at the sun's shadow distorted by the glass on the ground.
The refracted sunlight also shone on her face, and the breeze brought by the indoor blower let the slender hair spread out naturally.
The 24-year-old Xu Yan has already grown into a bright and charming urban beauty. The experience in her youth made her eyes no longer innocent, and her indifferent eyes revealed a trace of sadness that makes people enamored and distressed.
The fascinated Yang Yang couldn't help saying:
"Can you please marry me?"
"Ah? What do you mean?"
Xu Yan's heart skipped a beat. It was the first time someone said such words to him, and she was moved.
True or false, will not be scared.
Xu Yan forced herself to calm down, pretending not to understand.
"I said please marry me and let me be your husband for the rest of your life."
"why?"
Damn, this person is poisonous, and the one who proposed marriage as soon as he was born made her heart beat non-stop, it was too foul.
"You don't seem to want to chat with me very much, and I don't know you, so I want to spend my whole life getting to know you."
And you are Uncle Xu's daughter, Uncle Xu knows my dad and has a good relationship, so there will be no pressure to say hello in the future, wouldn't it be great.
The marriage proposal was impulsive, but after thinking about it, Yang Yang realized that it would save a lot of trouble, and his wife was still very beautiful, so the more he thought about it, the more he was motivated.
"So you like me?"
"It can also be said that you looked really beautiful just now."
"I don't believe in love, let alone love at first sight."
"I don't believe in love, neither do we, so let's get married."
"What's the reason? You don't believe in love, that is, you don't love me, so why did you marry me?"
"I don't believe in love, that's why I want to marry you. Anyway, we don't believe in love. In the future, it's a life for one person, and it's a life for two people, isn't it?"
"Then I can go to someone else, why you."
"Because there is no one more suitable than me."
"I'm afraid of having children, will you marry me too?"
"I also……"
A blind date almost turned into a debate match, Yang Yang almost slipped his tongue.
"Why are you afraid of having children?"
"My roommate in college had an abortion, and the doctor said it was similar to giving birth, and he would collapse."
"Then don't have children."
"Then you are not allowed to touch me."
The person in front of him was like a child, obviously not very handsome, Xu Yan looked at him very kindly for some reason.
Maybe it should be easy to live with such a person.
But is it really good to delay other people's lives in this way? Let him quit in spite of the difficulties.
"What kind of touch?"
"I heard that it hurts to break that one. You are not allowed to touch me until I am mentally prepared."
This is a big problem. Yang Yang is not a man who does not want women's bodies, but if he has never been in a serious relationship, he can't be a widow like this.
Seeing that Yang Yang was finally stumped, Xu Yan was relieved and couldn't help but feel a little proud.
"If you can agree to this condition, I will agree to your marriage proposal."
"It's a good deal, but in exchange, I hope you can fulfill your wife's obligations."
"Ah, what did you say?"
Because she was so proud just now, the moment Yang Yang agreed, Xu Yan's mind went blank.
"Let's go, you are my wife now, let's go get the certificate."
Yang Yang didn't give Xu Yan a chance to react at all, and dragged her to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and called Xu's father and Yang's father on the way to send the household registration book.
Are there really such stupid people?
On the night when the blind date ended, Xu Yan lay in bed and fell asleep again.
As soon as she closed her eyes, Yang Yang was standing not far away looking at her with a childish smile.
Only two people know about the agreement during the blind date.
When Xu's father and Xu's mother knew that their daughter had finally figured it out, joy overflowed from their brows.
Seeing such parents, Xu Yan really couldn't bear to tell them the truth.
The wedding went smoothly, except that Yang Yang cut Xu Yan's finger on the night of the wedding, leaving a smear of red on the bed sheet, there were no other excessive demands.
In order to find a common topic with his wife, Yang Yang suggested that the two of them go on a wedding trip.
Thinking of her asking too much, Xu Yan didn't object.
During the wedding trip, Yang Yang talked a lot, mainly asking her what she likes.
Xu Yan said very little, either shaking her head or nodding.
How much Yang Yang knew her, Xu Yan didn't know, but she knew that her husband was a very childish, but very committed person.
This made her regret even more what she said that was thoughtless on the day of the blind date.
Also because of this, after the wedding trip, Xu Yan decided to keep her promise and be a perfect wife.
As time passed, Xu Yan gradually felt that she could not balance family and work.
The competition in the workplace is so fierce, either you get in or I get out, Xu Yan gradually thought of resigning.
Regarding this matter, the two families agreed with both hands, saying that five people could not support one big one and one small one.
Parents always thought that Xu Yan and Yang Yang didn't want children because of work, and when they heard that Xu Yan was going to resign and have children, they couldn't be happier.
For this reason, Yang's father and Yang's mother also took out a passbook, telling Yang Yang and Xu Yan that if they feel that the education in their hometown is not good, they can go to the city to buy a house and have children.
The parents' intentions are touching. Yang Yang also has the idea of moving to the city, but it's just a matter of having children...
That night, when Xu Yan threw him on the bed, she realized that the problem was no longer a problem.
Life in the city is not as simple as Yang Yang thought.
The young couple are dizzy and busy with various things.
During the time when Xu Yan was pregnant with the child, Xu Yan vomited in the dark, and experienced the hardships of being a mother for the first time.
During that period of time, she did not fulfill her original promise to prepare breakfast and dinner for Yang Yang.
Yang Yang also began to work overtime every day, gradually getting used to this kind of life.
Sometimes when two people notice each other's embarrassed appearance, they can't help feeling a little distressed from the bottom of their hearts.
But such is life, it's all about the kids.
They don't know if there is love between each other, or neither of them believed in love in the first place.
But he doesn't regret proposing.
She doesn't regret marrying him either.
(End of this chapter)
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