Young doctor induces marriage: ex-wife with amnesia does not want to marry

Chapter 242
After an unknown amount of time, Sheng Xinyan was tired from crying and fell asleep on the floor.

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As night gradually fell, Sheng Xinyan, who was lying on the bed, woke up leisurely, opened those misty eyes, looked at the ceiling, struggled to sit up, looked around, and found that she had returned to the room with an inexplicable expression on her face. She didn't see the surprise that flashed in Bai Feng's eyes the moment she woke up when she just entered the room and stood at the door, but soon, that surprise was covered by indifference.

"Such a big man, he still doesn't know how to take care of himself." The tone was low, with indifference and reproach. The cold voice gradually brought Sheng Xinyan back to her senses. Face, suddenly froze.

It seemed that Bai Feng was very dissatisfied with her blankness, and his face became more and more gloomy, "Do you know how sad Mumu was when he saw you lying on the ground crying, you are an adult, and you are more A mother, think about other people before doing things, don't be too selfish, Sheng Xinyan!"

"If you do this again, I don't mind changing Mumu's mother!" Bai Feng frowned deeply, with deep dissatisfaction in his eyes.

Sheng Xinyan finally came back to her senses, looked at him dully, thought of what her aunt said, bit her lips, a flash of determination flashed in her eyes, then raised her head, looking at him with unprecedented sincerity.

"Afeng, I'm sorry."

Bai Feng was confused by her inexplicable gaze, but turned his head away pretending to be calm, concealing the flash of panic in his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "I'm not the one you should be sorry for."

"Afeng, three years ago, I'm sorry." Sheng Xinyan apologized sincerely, she didn't know what to say, only 'I'm sorry'.

Seeing her mentioning that it happened three years ago, Bai Feng's expression became incomprehensible, his sexy red lips were tightly pursed, and complex lights shone in his eyes.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Sheng Xinyan also breathed a sigh of relief, and closed her eyes slightly, as if she was making up her mind.

"Afeng, although what I say now is a bit ridiculous, maybe you won't believe it, but I still want to say that I have only had you as a man from before to now, and there is nothing between me and Liang Hao. Before I met you, no matter how much I tried to seduce him, he would not be moved. He looked at me calmly, as if looking at a dead fish. Tang Yanran was the only one in his eyes, and he couldn't bear it at all. Other women, let alone any substantive relationship with other women, he... he has a cleanliness."

Bai Feng listened quietly. Although he was unmoved on the surface, his lips had long been pursed into a straight line, and the hand hanging by his side was tightly clenched. The throbbing veins on the back of the hand could be seen The master's extreme forbearance.

Sheng Xinyan didn't care how ugly her heart was back then, she wanted to express her truest thoughts now, so she didn't look at Bai Feng again, but just looked forward, seemingly focused , but there is no focus in the eyes.

"I admit that I am despicable, I am ugly, I am jealous of Tang Yanran, everything about her, her family, her extremely precious friendship, and a person who values ​​her so much, loves her, and protects her The man, from childhood to adulthood, looked at her like a princess who was held in the palm of his hand and grew up.

However, this is not what makes me envy her the most. What I envy her most is her innocent and pure heart. She is very smart and studies well, but she has a gentle personality and never loses her temper. She can feel the emotions of others. I can always give me care when I am saddest, but what I hate the most is her. I really hate her, why she is so perfect, why she has everything, but gave it back. She has such a pure and kind heart, really, really..." With a self-deprecating smile, she thought of Gu Xiaomo's words again.

"I didn't regard her as a friend from the beginning, I hate her, so I want to steal her things, everything, what her parents gave her, what her friends gave her, even what Liang Hao gave her , I want it all. Seeing her reluctantly but still giving me the way, I was so happy at that time, as if this is the only way I can get revenge on her.

But Gu Xiaomo's words let me know how despicable I am. A person's birth is predestined and cannot be changed. No one can choose to be born, and the only person who can make a choice is himself.

I regret it, I regret why I blinded my eyes because of my jealousy and ruined my happiness.

Obviously happiness is close at hand, but I always turn a blind eye to it, but one day when I leave me completely, I realize how stupid I used to be. It wasn't until Mumu was born that I realized that I wanted to What I want is always by my side, I don't need to be jealous of Tang Yanran at all, because I have a man who loves me so much, just like Liang Hao loves Tang Yanran.

And I also don't know when I fell in love with him, he was kind to Tang Yanran and gentle to Tang Yanran, but it made me feel a feeling that I couldn't feel from Liang Hao, not jealousy, but bitterness, even……

I even feel that if, if this is the choice he made, this is his love, I can fulfill him, I...

But thinking about it this way, my heart is crying out again and again, crying out to pull him back to my side, but I know that I have already lost my qualifications. Rao is selfish and wants to get him, but is willing to fulfill him. Maybe, now I seem to be able to understand what Yanran felt back then. Maybe she struggled in her heart more than once, whether she wanted to be selfish or to fulfill me, but I despicably took advantage of her kindness to get revenge on them. Purpose.

I know, I know I'm hopeless, I don't ask to be forgiven, I just want to say what I have always wanted to say in my heart, for three years, I have lived in regret every day, and I even thought about it. Take it to you, but...Afeng, I can't do it, I suddenly want to have a little self-esteem at this moment, I...I don't want to hear your ruthless humiliation, because...I will collapse..."

Bai Feng was a little moved, he knew that everything she did was despicable and shameless, and even she, who was so jealous that she was mad, was also very ugly, but he still couldn't forget her, he still couldn't just cut off his relationship with her. The love between her, he doesn't know why he loves her, and he doesn't know why he is so persistent, but love is love without any reason.

Sheng Xinyan didn't pay attention to his actions, but was still immersed in her own thoughts, her eyes were blurred by tears, her tone was choked with sobs, "I used to, every time I saw you, I would forget my jealousy towards Tang Yanran, I will forget everything and feel like we are the only ones left in the world, and I am just your Yaner.

I didn't expect, I didn't expect that I would do such a thing. Fortunately... Fortunately, you stopped me, otherwise I'm afraid I won't be qualified to stay here anymore. "

(End of this chapter)