Harem Changwu Biography

Chapter 87 She Really Missed You At That Time

I never thought that I would cry so much one day.

Although I came from a wealthy family, I was not loved by my father when I was a child, so my life has been rough since my grandmother passed away.

Like the children of the poor family who headed home early, the premature rough life made me understand early that tears are the most useless thing in this world, because even after crying, the difficulties are still there, and crying can't change anything.

So since I was a child, I seldom cry.

But at this time, as long as I think that Aunt Lu passed away before I knew it, I couldn't even see my own daughter when she passed away, and I will never see the person who is actually called Aunt Lu even though she is called Aunt Lu. My biological mother, after there was no one in this world who could let me call her 'Auntie', I couldn't bear it anymore, and sat there and burst into tears.

Aunt!

Auntie, why didn't you wait for Changwu?

Auntie, why can't you wait for Changwu to see you for the last time?

what to do?Auntie, what about Changwu?If Changwu misses you in the future, what should I do?
Aunt, do you want to grow red?When you go alone, do you want to grow up?
Aunt, do you want to grow red?Have you ever thought about Changwu?
Aunt, aunt, aunt...

The more I cried, the more I cried. Although I didn't wail, the tears kept falling and soon wet the ground.

"You, really don't know?"

And just when I was crying so much that I almost passed out, Changxuan squatted down in front of me and asked hesitantly.

I don't know, I don't know, I really don't know.

I cried so hard that I couldn't speak. After hearing Chang Xuan's words, I could only raise my head to look at Chang Xuan opposite, and shook my head to answer.

After I shook his head, Chang Xuan pursed his lips, not knowing what he thought of, and then fell silent.

Just like that, Changxuan and I, one wept and the other remained silent. I don't know how long it took, and finally my crying gradually subsided.

"Changxuan, do you know where Aunt Lu is buried?" When I was crying a little bit, I asked Changxuan choked up, my voice hoarse because I had just cried.

"I know." Chang Xuan nodded after I asked.

"Changxuan, can, can you take eldest sister to, to see Aunt Lu?" I heard the words and asked.

"it is good."

"Changxuan, thank you, thank you."

I saw Changxuan nodded and was about to stand up, but because his legs were pressed for a long time just now, he fell down before halfway up.

"Sister, be careful." Seeing this, Changxuan immediately reached out to support me.

Seeing that Changxuan intended to call me Eldest Sister again, I realized that his grudge against me was not as deep as before, so I let him support me.

"Let's go." After being supported by Changxuan, I said.

"En." Chang Xuan nodded after my words.

I was helped out of the bookstore by Changxuan, and after hearing from Changxuan that I was outside the city, the two rented a carriage at a horse shop, and finally Changxuan drove the carriage out of the city together.

The Qiu family's ancestral grave is on the east side of the city, but Aunt Lu is a concubine, so according to the ancestral law, she cannot enter the Qiu family's ancestral grave.

However, thinking that these people had also given birth to children for the Qiu family, a piece of land was also circled on the mountain next to the Qiu family, where the people who died in the Qiu family and who could not be like their ancestors' graves were buried there, as well as the children of the Qiu family. concubine.

I thought that Aunt Lu was buried on the mountain next to the Qiu family's ancestral grave, but after leaving the city, Changxuan drove the carriage all the way to the west and stopped after walking a long way.

"Who chose this place?"

After getting off the carriage, I looked at the mountains a few miles away from the Qiu family's ancestral grave, and I couldn't stop the anger in my heart.

"Father chose it."

Changxuan replied after my words, and his face was not good.

"Good, good, good,"

After hearing Changxuan's answer, I said yes three times in a row, but I couldn't stop the hatred in my heart.

I didn't expect that my good father would dislike Aunt Lu so much.

Before Aunt Lu was alive, he threw Aunt Lu in the most remote courtyard of the Qiu family. After Aunt Lu died, he buried Aunt Lu in a place a few miles away from the ancestral grave of the Qiu family. He wanted Aunt Lu to die. Can't see him anymore.

I followed Changxuan all the way up the mountain. When I climbed to the middle of the mountain and looked at the solitary tomb standing there, I hated my father in my heart, and couldn't help but burst into tears again.

"Auntie."

I pushed away Changxuan and rushed to Aunt Lu's grave.

Aunt Lu's grave is an earthen grave, less than half the height of a person, with weeds growing on and around the grave.

The tombstone in front of the grave is a piece of wood that is palm-width and less than three feet long, with the words "Tomb of Concubine Lu Xin" written on it, but the place where the tomb-builder is below is empty.

Qiulu, my good father, not only let my aunt be buried in such a desolate place, but in the end he didn't even want to leave his name on Aunt Lu's tombstone.

it is good!it is good!it is good!
I knelt in front of Aunt Lu's grave, stretched out my hand, and stroked the tombstone that had been corroded by the wind and rain. Tears fell like rain on my face, but I said hello again and again in my heart.

Changxuan silently cleaned up the weeds around me when I fell to my knees.

After clearing the weeds, he also knelt in front of Aunt Lu's grave.

"Auntie, Xuan'er has brought Eldest Sister to see you."

After kneeling down, Chang Xuan said softly, his words were choked up like mine.

Listening to Chang Xuan's words, my eyes were sore again, and my nails scratched a few deep scratches on the tombstone.

"Chang Xuan, why did Aunt Lu die?"

"Dead of illness." Changxuan replied, "Aunt Lu's health was not good. Ever since eldest sister entered the palace, Aunt Lu has missed her every day. In addition, her father never came to the courtyard after you entered the palace. Aunt Lu He was unhappy every day, and after less than half a year, he passed away."

"Do you know? Aunt Lu, she, she really missed you at that time." Chang Xuan asked after answering.

Chang Xuan's eyes fell on the scratch I made on Aunt Lu's tombstone, and said softly.

"Hmm." I choked up when I heard the words.

"At that time, she was so thin that she was out of shape, and her eyes were sunken in so deeply that if she didn't look carefully, she couldn't see it."

"But even so, she stares at the door all day and all night. Every time someone pushes the door and comes in, her eyes will suddenly light up, but they will sink again in a short while."

"Actually, Aunt Chen and I know that Aunt Lu is waiting for you. She wants to see you. Every time someone enters the door, she thinks it is you, so her eyes light up, but every time it is not you, she is disappointed. .”

"At that time, Aunt Chen and I stayed by her bedside. Every time I saw her like this, I couldn't bear to see her. I advised her not to look, but she didn't listen. She still stared at the door all day and all night."

"As soon as Aunt Chen saw Aunt Lu like that, she cried. She ran to beg her father to bring you a letter when she entered the palace, and asked him to take you out to see Aunt Lu."

"Father agreed, and Aunt Chen told Aunt Lu about this, and Aunt Lu was very happy. After that, she kept looking at the door of the room all the time."

"But we waited for several days, but we still haven't waited for you to leave the palace to see Aunt Lu. Seeing that Aunt Lu is getting more and more disappointed, Aunt Chen couldn't bear it again, and went to find her father again."

"But my father told Aunt Chen, he said, he said, "

Chang Xuan stopped at this point, his voice became more choked up because of the memory of the past, and his eyes were unbearably red.

Listening to Chang Xuan's words, I recalled Chang Xuan's appearance when he saw me in the bookstore and said that I was not qualified to mention Aunt Lu, and I had a bad feeling in my heart.

"what did he say?"

In order not to damage Aunt Lu's tombstone, I slipped my hand off Aunt Lu's tombstone, put it on the ground, and dug my fingers deep into the soil.

"He said elder sister, tell him yourself that since entering the palace, your mother is the Qiu Li family. Aunt Lu's life and death have nothing to do with you. Let us stop looking for you because of Aunt Lu's affairs." Chang Xuan said.

"Shameless!"

As for me, after Changxuan finished speaking, I let out a rage, wishing I could rush to my father and kill him immediately.

Tell him personally that you have recognized Qiu Li as your mother since entering the palace?
Aunt Lu's life and death are related to me?

Tell Changxuan and the others not to look for me because of this matter?
Ah?What an autumn record!What a biological father of mine!
When did he visit me?When did you mention Aunt Lu's words to me?When did I tell him those things that Aunt Lu had nothing to do with me?

"When Aunt Chen heard what your father said, she was very angry with you, but she didn't dare to tell Aunt Lu the truth, so she could only tell her that you were in a very bad situation because you had just arrived in the palace. After you're there, you'll come out to see her."

"I couldn't be angry after hearing what my father said, but I didn't want to believe what my father said, so I ran out of the house secretly."

"I ran to the gate of the palace. I wanted to enter the palace to find you, but I was stopped. The guards at the gate of the palace would not let me go in to find you."

"After I was stopped, I still didn't give up. I knew that there would be maids and eunuchs in the palace going out to buy things outside the palace every day, so I bribed one of the eunuchs with money and begged him to bring you the letter I wrote to you."

"At that time, you were already the empress dowager, and I paid out money again, so when the eunuch heard that I was your natal brother, he immediately agreed to me and asked me to take care of him."

"I was very happy after hearing what the eunuch said, and I knew that the eunuch would definitely bring you the letter I wrote to you. So although I was still angry at what you said to your father that Aunt Lu had nothing to do with you, I still I happily told Aunt Chen about this."

"I wanted to tell Aunt Lu at first, but Aunt Chen refused. She said that instead of disappointing Aunt Lu in vain like last time, it would be better not to tell her in the first place, so that when you really come to see Aunt Lu, Aunt Lu It will also be a surprise.”

"After I heard what Aunt Chen said, I didn't object, because I knew that Aunt Chen was still worried. She was worried that she would tell her father that you wouldn't come after reading the letter I wrote to you. Are you really not going to come?" I am willing to recognize Aunt Lu."

"That's it. We waited for another half a month, but we still didn't see you coming to see Aunt Lu. I went outside the palace to stop the eunuch who brought me the letter last time, but I never got him. Warning, saying that I am not your natal brother at all, and that if you go to them again, don't blame them for being rude to me."

"From that day on, I believed my father's words, thinking that in order to become the queen mother, you really recognized Qiu Li as your mother, and you didn't want to recognize Aunt Lu and us. That's why when I heard you mention Aunt Lu to me just now , I will be very angry." Chang Xuan said.

Changxuan was very angry because of talking about this matter, and I was also suppressed and full of anger.

I thought of the nurse in the Qiu family who accompanied me into the palace.

The mother-in-law's surname is Li, and she has some cousin relationship with Chang Ruo's mother, Qiu Li, so I have always disliked her.

So in the second year after I entered the palace, after she took advantage of my status as the empress dowager to domineering in the palace, and finally caused a big incident, I removed her by "righteously destroying relatives", and then personally picked Qi He and Fang Hao. people around.

Aunt Lu passed away in the year I entered the palace, and Changxuan's letter was also sent in that year, so you don't need to think about it. The letter from Changxuan must have been stopped by Nanny Li, but The eunuch who delivered the letter to Changxuan must have been dealt with by her.

Thinking that I missed the last meeting with Aunt Lu because of Nanny Li's acting as a demon, I wished I could pull Nanny Li's body out of the ground and whip her corpse.

Changxuan and I stayed until it was almost dark before leaving. Before leaving, I looked back at Aunt Lu’s grave. When I saw that there was nothing but weeds around her grave, she was left here alone. After that, my eyes couldn't help sore, and I didn't want to leave.

"Sister, the city gate is about to close, let's go." Seeing this, Changxuan came to me, looked at Aunt Lu's grave like me, and said to me with a sigh.

"Ah."

I thought of my father and Qiu Li family in the city, and Chang Ruo in the palace. After Chang Xuan's words, I took a deep breath, then turned and left resolutely.

After entering the city, Changxuan put me at the west gate of the palace.

"Sister, what are you going to do in the future?" Chang Xuan asked me hesitantly after helping me off the carriage.

After I heard what Chang Xuan said, I didn't answer immediately. I looked back at the palace behind me, then at the direction of Qiu's house, and finally looked at Chang Xuan.

"Changxuan, promise sister, as long as you find a suitable opportunity, you will immediately take Aunt Chen out of Qiu's house." I finally said to Changxuan.

And Changxuan shrank his pupils after hearing my words, followed my gaze and looked in the direction of the Qiu family, then nodded heavily: "Okay."

(End of this chapter)