Black Mandala of Forbidden Love

Chapter 53

In the quiet and clear sky, sudden gusts of wind blew up, thunder shook the sky, and countless ferocious silver lightning flashed across the sky, as if they were about to tear the sky apart. Bean-sized raindrops fell. I looked up at the sky, not knowing what was falling. Is it tears or rain.

Drenched all over, he walked into a courtyard where Yingsong and Swallows were singing, but he didn't know if it was a brothel or a restaurant.

There was a storyteller on the stage, who was spitting and telling the story of the white lady.I don't know if this white lady is the white lady I know, I just watched and listened in a daze.

Everything can be passed, but it's impossible to go back to the past.

I was listening to other people's stories and shedding my own tears.

At the end of the song, people disperse, and people go to the empty building.

I lost my mind and lingered in the noisy crowd of fireworks, watching the lonely moon in the sky, accompanied by stars.In front of the water pavilion and terrace, red sleeves danced wildly, and many romantic guests were drunk.With only my shadow as a companion, I have walked through a lifetime of loneliness.

I held the jug and flew to the room.

Passed out.

Look at the moon, the frost is all dyed, and the silver glow is all over the ground. If there is an unexpected situation in the sky, it was obviously raining heavily just now, but now the rain has stopped and the clouds have dispersed. It is more like getting along with people.Gathered, scattered, gathered again, how round and short it is, but it can't change the final perfection.

If life is just like first sight, why is Qiu Feng sadly painting a fan.

Before the story begins, the ending has already been written, every word is blood, every sentence is like tears, meeting by mistake, parting forever.

Right now, I just want to get drunk.

"Which one is so desperate that he drank in my room, come here, catch him for me!" A man with a small mustache waved his hands and stared.Several servants quickly moved out of the ladder and climbed up.

I laughed wildly, and my body flew across the night like a big roc.

The old man in white was so frightened that he exclaimed that there was a ghost, and ran away.

My laughter was even worse, like madness, like madness, and heart-piercing pain.

Leaping unsteadily on the red wall of the building, his feet slipped suddenly, and he fell off the roof.I moaned in pain, but saw a pair of black boots appearing in front of me.I looked up with a smirk.

It's the eight-fingered blood demon who wants to kill me.

"It's you..." I got up unsteadily, giggled, grabbed his black robe, and said, "You can kill me today, do it! There is no joy in life." , don’t be afraid of death, it’s good to die, it won’t be so sad after death, haha…”

I waved my sleeves and laughed wildly.

Sad and indignant, desperate and miserable.

Listening from a distance, it's a little creepy.

The assassin's sword was pressed against my neck, and then retracted suddenly. He turned back and walked towards the city gate without saying a word.

I grabbed him.

"Why didn't you kill me this time? You...you are too unprincipled..."

He withdrew his hand and strode forward.Only one sentence remains. "In my opinion, you are already a dead person. Since you are a dead person, why should I stab another knife? I don't like whipping corpses!"

Then I saw a shadow flashing across the night like lightning, and there was no trace.

Tired, there was a ruined temple in front of my eyes, and I fell down feeling the darkness in the dark.

The curtain floats, and there are many phantoms.

The Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva hiding in the darkness has a majestic and terrifying face. The statues are covered with dust and dust, and two crows occasionally fly out of the temple, adding to the gloom.

I put my hands together and knelt down, closed my eyes and whispered, "Bodhisattva, this disciple has committed a serious crime."

It messes up the principles of human relations and ruins the morality.

"Bodhisattva, how should I cross myself? The hell is not empty, and I vow not to become a Buddha. But the Bodhisattva doesn't know that this world is the real hell. I am a living ghost in the world, but I can't be crossed by others. The disciple just wants to forget the past. Cut off the beauty robbery."

Like water and moonlight pouring down through the cracks in the tiles, I picked up some hay and curled up under the table where the offerings were made, and occasionally a mouse or two crawled over. It rained a little earlier, but now I feel a little bit miserable I feel cold and weak all over, I'm afraid I have a cold.

While feeling dizzy, they could vaguely hear the sound of disputes coming from the front hall.

I was startled and hurriedly pulled down the curtain of the incense table.Look out through the broken hole.This look surprised me again, it turned out to be the eldest brother, Ruan Fengyao and several other fellow disciples.

"Eldest brother, it seems that we can only sleep here tonight." It was Ruan Fengyao who spoke, and I saw that their faces were very ugly, as if they were seriously injured.The corner of the brother's mouth was even bloodshot.

Several people sat cross-legged on the ground, and they all started to heal their injuries.

Ruan Fengyao said angrily again: "Eldest brother, this revenge will be avenged no matter what! I didn't expect the six sects to be so despicable, and now we have lost our vitality and killed countless people. I can't swallow this anger no matter what."

I listened more carefully, listening to what she said, it seemed that something serious happened in Ziyun Villa.

Seeing the brother again said with a serious expression: "This matter needs to be discussed in the long run. Now we only have old and weak soldiers left. How can we fight against them again? But I don't know why they suddenly disregard the trust of the world and bully me too much."

A junior brother interfaced: "Brother, I sneaked into the guest room of the Kongtong faction the day before yesterday, and heard that the old thief who was the leader of the Kongtong said that he wanted to find some kind of martial arts secret book in Ziyun Villa. People from other sects are also for this thing.”

"Rumors in the world should not be trusted. They must be bewitched by others, and they are being used without knowing it." The senior brother's voice was more desolate and miserable.

"Junior Sister Ruan, Senior Brother has something to ask. I hope you can agree to me." He gently opened his eyes, with firmness and loss intertwined in his eyes.Holding the hilt of the sword with his left hand, he took out a white jade token from his bosom. "Senior brother is tired of the life of fighting and killing, and my temperament is not suitable for managing the entire Ziyun Villa. I am very satisfied and relieved by your performance these days. I want to pass on the title of owner of Ziyun Villa to you. With you, and I hope you can carry him forward, and you don’t have to worry about the six sects coming to harass them again, now they are both losing, and there will be no further actions in the short term.”

"Brother, absolutely not!"

"Brother, absolutely not!"

"Brother, absolutely not!"

Everyone exclaimed in unison, and Ruan Fengyao stood up even more excitedly. "Senior brother, are you going to leave us alone? Without you, the villa will be disintegrated. If Master knows about it, he will be very disappointed."

Bai Yuling raised her hand, her eyes were full of undeniable determination.

"I had this intention a long time ago, but I never said it. Now I have seen that it is the right choice to hand over the position of owner to Junior Sister Ruan. This is something I have considered carefully. After today, I will withdraw from the world and live in seclusion. I have made up my mind Absolutely, I hope Junior Sister Ruan will be successful." He put the jade tablet into her hand, and said: "I will have to work hard for you in the future."

Ruan Fengyao was silent for a long time, and it was only after a long time that she heard her say quietly: "I know, senior brother has the heart of retiring because of Junior Sister Qiu's departure. Ever since you went to Liangguo and heard the news of her death, you have been depressed all day long and obsessed with swordsmanship." But when my junior sister has been away for a long time, why do you torture yourself like this, but you don’t know that there are other people around you who also care about you very much.” As he spoke, his eyes turned red, and he looked sadly at Bai Yu who was sitting with his eyes closed. Ling, after all, he didn't say any more.

I finally understood.I feel a little sorry in my heart, Ziyun Villa is like this today, so it should be more or less related to me.

It's just me now, how can I face my fellow disciples.

Meet strangers, and now in this world, I am the only one walking alone.Big brother, you love the wrong person, please forget it, time is the best antidote, it is yours, and it is also mine.

I hugged my paralyzed legs tightly and fell into a drowsy sleep.

What they said later, I didn't hear again.When he woke up again, it was already Yu Rili, the fellow disciples in the temple had already left, but the senior brother was still sitting on the futon with his long eyebrows tightly closed.I wanted to leave quietly, but I saw another person rushing in from outside the door. This person was dressed in light blue plain clothes, and looked familiar, but upon closer inspection, it turned out to be Dr. Mu who had treated me.He came in with a medicine lollipop on his back, and said worriedly: "Brother Bai, I heard that you were injured here, and I happened to pass by this village for medical treatment, so I stopped by to see you."

Bai Yuling said: "The priest is worried, I don't have any big stones in my body, I just need to recuperate for a few days."

But the doctor was very enthusiastic, he took his pulse, and found a porcelain bottle from the medicine betel, and put cold into his mouth regardless of his consent.My legs were numb and painful, and when I stretched out my feet, I kicked the foot of the table.

"Who is it!" Bai Yuling yelled, and with a bang, she drew out her long sword and stabbed at him.

Seeing that the situation was not right, I hurriedly crawled out from under the table and shouted loudly: "Senior brother, it's me!"

The long sword he was stabbing straight at, suddenly retracted when he heard my voice, and the powerful rebound force drove him back a few steps.Before I could stand up, he rushed over with a stride.But when he was a step away, he stopped. "Is it a hallucination again? Junior sister, I know it's an hallucination, but I'm still very happy." She reached out her hand in the air, but didn't dare to touch me.

The nose was sour for a while, and the eye sockets gradually turned red.

"Brother, I'm not dead, I'm still alive." I said softly.

Doctor Mu also interjected, "The dead are not allowed to enter the temple."

The senior brother finally hugged me, I have a lot to say, but I can't say a word.He could only let the tears stain his chest.He didn't say anything, just stroked my hair.I suddenly raised my head and said to Dr. Mu: "Doctor Mu, I have something to ask."

At the foot of Lianshan Mountain, Doctor Muqing's house.

I took out the drawing I had drawn with charcoal and handed it to him.He looked at the realistic sketch on the paper, and wondered: "It turns out that the girl's drawing skills are so outstanding, and this character is drawn so vividly."

"Although this painting is good, the characters are very ordinary. Why did the girl want to... You know, it can't be changed after changing it, otherwise it will cause great harm to the body."

I smiled lightly and looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar face in the painting. This was my appearance in the previous life.

Looking at it now, the state of mind is extremely complicated.

"Doctor Mu, please rebuild according to my drawing, this is my real appearance... Please also erase my past memories, me, I want to live..." It is okay to say that I am cowardly It doesn't matter if I'm weak, I want to live on my own, not someone else's spare tire or substitute.

I can't bear to have such a face, a face that makes me painful and disgusting, even though he is so beautiful that people are fascinated.

The brother just kept holding my hand tightly, and I let him struggle if I couldn't get away. He seemed to be afraid that if I disappeared again, I would be inseparable wherever I went.At this time, he just smiled slightly, and said softly: "No matter what my junior sister becomes, she will always be the most beautiful in my heart. No matter what you do, I will support you, just please don't leave me again."

I looked down and said nothing.

It hurts when the knife cuts your face.

I stopped him from giving me anesthesia, I wanted to feel clearly, the pain of each knife, this deep pain always reminded me who caused me such pain, remember, so that I won't get hurt again.

His face was covered with thick gauze, and he was accompanied by his brother's gentle voice every day. Now he has become more and more gentle, and he is simply pampering people.I am grateful for this man who lost so much because of himself.All I can do is say thank you.

After one month, the gauze on the face was finally removed.

When I looked at the person in the mirror, his appearance was at best handsome.It's just that my eyes have lost their luster, and my eyes are full of indelible melancholy. I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't be like this.In my previous life, I lived wantonly and presumptuously. If I close my eyes, all this will be over.

When Mu Qing's silver needle pierced the back of his head, it was still very painful.The pain gradually moved to my chest, and the image in my mind slowly disappeared. When Xuan Jingyu's last indifferent gaze was cleared, I shed a tear.

The last tear.

I don't cry for anyone anymore.

(End of this chapter)