fish in the financial tsunami

Chapter 36 Su Xiaoyu's One Hundred Thousand Whys? (1)
why are you afraidWhy are you not afraid?why you canwhy can't youwhy can't you
Also, why do I have so many why?
——Su Xiaoyu
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Before Su Xiaoyu had time to find the most correct reaction, Fang Nan who was standing beside her had already strode over, pushed aside the crowd, and had a face-to-face meeting with Chen Sulei and his female companion who were standing in the middle.

Chen Sulei was smiling all the time, but when he saw that he was different, the calmness in his eyes suddenly came together, and he smiled, and reached out to pat him on the shoulder, "When did you come back? Shouldn't Fang Dong come here to go through the motions? Or you guys?" Are they all here?"

Fang Nan didn't answer, his shoulders were stiff, and his eyes were looking at another person. The woman's expression was not right from the first moment she saw him, but when she heard Su Lei's conversation with him, her complexion changed, and she turned paler under the light. Like frost and snow.

There were a lot of people around to talk, Su Xiaoyu quickly lost the figure of the pair of people with double walls, and she didn't want to look any more, she silently turned to face Tang Zhongwen.

With his hand still on her shoulder, he lowered his head and said, "It's almost there, we can go first, you haven't had dinner yet, have you?"

She shook her head and spoke slowly, "I want to go home, sorry."

He didn't speak, and didn't let go, Su Xiaoyu was so confused that he didn't respond to his actions, but he was silent for a few seconds, and finally took her hand, and strode out towards the exit.

There were many people in the hall, it was warm and noisy, and after walking out the door, I felt cool, the coolness hit, Su Xiaoyu woke up suddenly, struggled to stop, and said weakly, "Wen Sen, you don't have to see me off, there is a subway here, I'll take the subway... ..."

With his palm empty, he stopped to look at her, didn't speak, and didn't reach out to hold her again.

There was no one in the place where the clothes were picked up. A middle-aged man wearing a famous brand was standing in front of rows of silver hangers to sort out his clothes. When he heard the voice, he turned his head and greeted them politely.

The number plate is in the pocket of her suit, Su Xiaoyu lowered her head to touch it, her fingers trembled, but there was nothing to touch it, she gradually moved hurriedly, her face flushed, the middle-aged waiter had already delivered Tang Zhongwen's coat When I came over, I saw her look a little bit puzzled, but I couldn't ask more questions, and finally I bowed my head and stepped aside, standing to the side and pretending to straighten my clothes.

"Here, don't look for it." There was a voice next to her ear, of course it was Tang Zhongwen, who bent down beside her, picked up a small white card from the ground, straightened up again, and brushed her shoulder, very warm.

"Thank you." She still didn't look up, her voice was muffled, and he didn't say much. He handed the number plate to the waiter who was waiting on the side, took her windbreaker and turned around.

"Put on, it's cold outside."

It was really cold outside, the wind whizzed through her body, and it was bitingly cold.

Su Xiaoyu never raised his head, put his hands in his pockets, lowered his head and walked towards the entrance of the subway. There were not many pedestrians on the road. The wide avenue in Lujiazui has eight lanes in both directions. It seems that there will never be an end.

The green light was flashing, but she didn't seem to see it, someone grabbed her shoulders suddenly, and then there was a strong belt, her castration was still there, the whole person was brought back, her back touched his chest, dull click.

Horns shrieked, snowy lights flashed, and a car passed quickly in front of her, creating a whirlwind, and then more cars whizzed by in the cold wind.

"Be careful!" Tang Zhongwen's unchanging voice finally brought emotion, a little nervous word.

The street lights in the financial district are brightly lit, and the surrounding buildings are even more brightly lit. The whole avenue is resplendent and bright. Su Xiaoyu's face can't hide under such bright light. But the eye sockets were flushed, and the pupils of the pupils were full of water, trembling as if they would overflow at any time.

Not wanting others to see her like this, but unable to speak, Su Xiaoyu finally stretched out her hands and covered her eyes in vain.

His heartbeat was still not calm, he looked at her silently in the middle of the wide avenue, the sky was high in the winter night, the traffic was rolling beside him, no one stopped for such a small scene, he just felt sad, he didn't know if it was for her or for himself, In the end, it was he who sighed, his hands on her shoulders were tightened, and he spoke slowly, with a low voice.

"Cry if you want, it's always hard to force yourself."

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The cold wind whimpered, the car roared, she suddenly lowered her hands to look at him, and said, "No, I didn't force it, no!"

Su Xiaoyu has a good temper. She usually smiles at everyone she sees. She has never seen her like this. Like a cat that has been teased, she resists guard and her voice is stubborn.

Unexpectedly, she would have such a reaction. Tang Zhongwen was taken aback, and the red light jumped. After she finished saying this, she turned her head to look at the other end of the road, then said goodbye to him, turned around and left, walking in a hurry. In the end, it was almost He started trotting, with no intention of turning back.

The subway entrance is on the other side of the crossroad line, the wind is very strong, and the sparse pedestrians are all forward like Su Xiaoyu. The vehicles on both sides of the wide driveway are neatly lined up, the headlights are shining, waiting for the passage in silence The lights turned green again, and the restless roar of the engines could almost be heard in the wind.

She took big steps, and it took only a dozen seconds for such a long distance. When she stepped onto the street, she did not look back, and let out a long breath.

The street light shines directly on the road, and the street is relatively dark. The light is projected from the subway entrance, and only illuminates a small piece of ground before that. I want to move forward with all my strength, but there is suddenly a snowy light behind me, followed by other pedestrians screamed.

Not knowing what happened, she turned around instinctively. Before the red light turned, a car came out of the sidewalk and made a big circle on the quiet road at a very fast speed. Finally, in full view of everyone, he braked against the curb and stopped, leaning against her side.

Such a thrilling scene, no matter how disturbed Su Xiaoyu was, she was shocked, and the familiar car in front of her was still dazzling in the middle of the night, making her unable to move at the first sight.

The car door was pushed open, revealing Su Lei's face, watching her speak, his expression could not be seen clearly in the shadow.

"Little fish, get in the car, it's cold outside."

His voice was not high, and his sentences were simple, but she felt cold, as if she had become conscious under her feet, and stood still in place, motionless.

There were already people looking around curiously, he frowned, and said again, "Xiaoyu, don't be angry, if you have anything to say, we'll talk in the car."

Occasionally he would speak to her in the same tone as a child, and every time she felt sweet, but today she felt uncomfortable hearing it, because she was actually unhappy and bored, and wanted to cry out loudly, but she couldn't do it under the watchful eyes of everyone. arrive.

Unable to wait for Su Xiaoyu's reaction, Chen Sulei finally gave up waiting, turned his head, and prepared to get out of the car.But suddenly his side sank, it was Su Xiaoyu, and just as he turned his head, he opened the door and sat in.

It's not a place where you can park, she pulls on the seat belt consciously, her fingers tremble, maybe it's because of the cold, a simple movement doesn't work the first time, and then the back of her hand warms up, it's him who reaches out, presses hers, gently With a light "click", it finally closed.

This movement is familiar, remembering the scene a long time ago, she finally raised her head and watched him move his lips, he had already retracted his hand to start the car, and looked at her sideways, his eyes were dark, with faint traces of dizziness .

Chen Sulei has always been driving very fast, and this night was especially domineering. The broad avenue passed by, and the scenery on both sides disappeared instantly. Su Xiaoyu glanced back during this fraction of a second. There was no one, the conversation between her and Tang Zhongwen just now seemed like a mirage, never to be seen again.

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"Going to eat something?" After the car entered the tunnel, the front and rear traffic was dense, and the speed gradually slowed down. Chen Sulei finally opened his mouth to break the silence.

His stomach has been empty for a long time, but Su Xiaoyu didn't feel it anymore, and shook his head silently to express his rejection.

He just looked at her, and when he spoke again, he was still looking forward.

"Why do you want to go there?"

The heating was turned on in the carriage, and the sandalwood scent on his body was faintly visible. Su Lei usually dressed casually, but today he was rarely dressed in a formal one. He wore a black dress, and the shirt cuffs exposed on his wrist were white and scratchy. The silver and black cuff buttons shone slightly with the movement of his wrist. , Just one side is dazzling.

In the comfortable compartment, the man she is most familiar with should be full of warmth, but she feels cold. The chill in the wind just now has not dissipated, and it is still surging around her body. When she opened her mouth, her teeth were sore. Grinding teeth, I don't know when it started.

"What about you? Why do you want to go there?"

"Little fish, answer the question."

"Then will you answer my question?"

The question and answer were short, but his voice was suppressed. When she said the last sentence, her breath was slightly unstable, and she couldn't continue.

The car had already driven out of the tunnel and stopped in front of the ramp lights in front of the elevated road. He turned his head to look at her, his eyes had complex lights, there were tall buildings on both sides, neon lights everywhere, magnificent lights came in from the car windows, and shone on her. On her face, it fell into her eyes, full of ink and color.

The four eyes met, no one spoke, and the atmosphere in the car was stagnant. She had never tried to look at him for such a long time. In the past, those swirling eyes always made her dizzy, but today everything seemed to be under a spell. , she forgot to back down, stared at him, motionless.

He was the one who finally spoke, with no emotion in his voice, just a simple statement.

"It's not what you think it is."

For a moment, her eyes were blurred, and there was a slight cracking sound in her mind, and then another strange voice sounded from the carriage, slightly sharp, and it was only when she fell into her ears that she realized that it was herself speaking.

"You know what I'm thinking? You're wrong, I don't need to think! You've already told me everything, Su Lei, don't worry, I haven't thought about it, I haven't thought about anything!"

She whispered in front of him, her eyes were staggered from his sight, her hands were on her chest, her face was pale, she suddenly remembered the scene a long time ago, she was sitting beside her like this, saying that she didn't want to hear it, Miss Bei had heard it She didn't want to hear what she said, and said that she didn't think too much, and she didn't think too much from the beginning, so let him rest assured, so that he doesn't need to remind him, really!

At that time, she blushed because of his laughter, and she almost cried when she spoke, what about now?When she grew up, she would no longer cry so easily, looking directly at him when she spoke, there was no warmth in her voice, it was just cold, bitingly cold.

The horn sounded from outside the car, at first it was just a short urging, and then it became more and more, one after another, the sound was noisy.

He stepped on the accelerator before the signal light jumped to the last number. Amidst the roar, the car flew out like an arrow, and jumped onto the elevated road in a blink of an eye.

Unprepared, Su Xiaoyu was pushed to the back of the chair by the strong recoil brought by the start again, the foreground in front of her eyes whizzed by like a gust of wind, she couldn't help grabbing the handle of the side door with her hand, her heartbeat was so violent that it almost burst out of her chest fall out.

It's not rush hour, but this is the main road in the city center. Of course, it's impossible to be empty without cars. The headlights flicker around for a while, but his speed is amazing, and he quickly throws them far behind, riding away, In the blink of an eye, several ramp exits have been passed.

The panic caused by Su Xiaoyu's physical instinct passed away, and then another strange emotion rose up, burning hot enough to wipe out the shock he felt after hearing what he said just now.

The chest was burning hot, and a layer of hard things was burned, and many words that had been buried deep in her heart for a long time rushed up, she struggled to sit upright, and a scream came out of her mouth.

"Stop, Su Lei, I'm going home!"

"This is the elevated road." He actually replied, the usual calm was gone in his voice, although it was very low, but a storm was about to come, his eyes looking ahead were pitch black, like splashed ink.

His speed was getting faster and faster, there was no tranquility in the car, the roar of the engine filled every inch of the air, and she began to tremble, not because of fear, but because of anger.

"Why don't you let me go home? Why! I'm not someone to you, you let me get off, I'm going to get off now!"

All his self-control finally disappeared, and he looked back at her while driving at a high speed, with a storm in his eyes. She had never seen him look so angry, and she didn't even feel scared. She even reached out to pull out the seat belt, her fingers trembling, The buckle of the seat belt also seemed to be against her, and it couldn't be opened no matter what.

The hand was held, and it was his palm that fell, and with great force, he pulled her hand away from the lock, and only said a few words in a very cold voice.

"Stop messing around! Little fish."

The skin touched, the fingers of both of them were cold, cold and irritating, she withdrew her hand suddenly, but he clenched it tightly, but still couldn't move, the bright car lights flashed on the side, accompanied by a sharp horn sound, He only had one hand on the steering wheel, and his speed was fast. Su Xiaoyu was sitting sideways, and could clearly see the car approaching diagonally from behind. Involuntarily, his eyes widened again in horror.

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The lane forked in front of it, another car was approaching fiercely, the two cars passed by, the front of the car deflected, and there appeared in front of him a safety barrier with yellow and black slanted reflective roads, Su Xiaoyu was so frightened that Su Xiaoyu even forgot to scream, All that was left was a blank white.

The sound of the tires rubbing against the ground was sharp and piercing. When she opened her eyes again, the car had stopped by the side of the road. The wide avenue in front of her stretched endlessly. The lights of the high-speed gas station shrouded the side road. Throwing it far behind the car, the extreme eye can be vaguely seen.

He was still holding the steering wheel with both hands, using too much force, his knuckles were a little blue, the only sound in the car was his deep and suppressed breathing, neither of them spoke, and there was a car driving past uninterruptedly, it was late, and it started again When it rained, many cars turned on their headlights, showing the huge signs hanging in front of them, with white characters on a blue background, reflecting the light in the rainy night, and each word was clearly distinct.

Shanghai-Hangzhou Expressway!
They actually drove onto the Shanghai-Hangzhou Expressway!Wrong, everything is wrong, the most frightening thing is, knowing that you are wrong, but you can't even look back!
Su Xiaoyu suddenly felt sad, Su Xiaoyu said nothing, lowered his head and pulled off his seat belt, turned around and opened the door.

His breathing still hasn't calmed down, he knew her movement, but he didn't reach out again, just looked at her, his voice was very low.

"Little fish, what are you going to do?"

The door has been pushed open, and the wind and rain outside, the light cast by the arc-shaped street lamps is dim and yellowish, illuminating thousands of fine raindrops, covering the sky like a net, and the whole world has nowhere to escape.

She has never felt so uncomfortable, the feeling in the hyperbaric chamber, her heart is so stuffy that it is about to explode, so painful, she doesn't want to cry, she can't shed a single tear.

"Little fish, sit down." She didn't move, and he called her again, with a heavy breath and a hoarse voice, like a blunt knife, sharpening every inch of her softest, her fingers on the door began to tremble, The body and the will frantically confront each other, and the contradiction makes the whole body tense to the extreme.

what to doWhat on earth is she going to do?Didn't you know what kind of person he was from the beginning?Don't you just think about it at the beginning and do whatever you want, don't think too much about things in the future?Didn't you tell yourself not to have false expectations from the beginning?So now, what is she going to do?
He said that he really hoped that this feeling could last forever. He said that whether it is long or short, there will always be a result. The most important thing is that we can go on together.

Go down, where are you going?Go to the end that he determined, to the result that has no result?I'm sorry, she was wrong, she was useless, she thought she could, but she didn't expect to find out so soon, in fact, she couldn't!

Many, many words were swirling frantically around her lips, but she couldn't utter a single word. What finally woke her up was the dull sound of closing the door, which sounded behind her.

The cold rain fell on her face, and someone in the gas station waved to her. She couldn't believe that she got out of the car, couldn't believe that she had left, and wanted to look back, but didn't dare. I can't escape, and I can't stand up forever.

She didn't answer, leaving him with a back view without looking back.

(End of this chapter)