The rest of my life is only early summer

Chapter 253 Desire and Struggle

Her heart throbbed faintly, as if she was in an extremely cold place, her body felt chilly.

What is she still looking forward to?What are you looking forward to?
How stupid is she to think of that ridiculous idea just now.

Even her joy and excitement just now seemed so ridiculous now.

marriage!

It's not that she never thought that one day in the future, she would enter the palace of marriage with her beloved.

He and she must be together because they love each other.

But she never thought about it, let alone think about it, that one day, her marriage would become a pure transaction, a means for her to protect herself.

Even though the male protagonist in this deal was the boy she had loved deeply for five years, the one she wanted to love and stay with the most in her heart, but she still couldn't pass that hurdle and managed to fake marry him without any grievances. Living under the same roof in the name of husband and wife, they lived as strangers.

She thought about thousands of scenes with him, and also thought about thousands of ways he looked at her when he proposed to her, but none of them looked at her as coldly and alienated as he is now, even more so. There is no boy she likes, such a calm opening is an agreement to marry.

Marriage seemed to him to be a decision he had to make in order to cope with the constant urging of his parents.

That's why, just like now, I randomly find someone I know, get married in a hurry, and after marriage, I still feel like strangers, each living their own lives.

It doesn't matter whether he loves it or not, needs it or doesn't need it.

Could it be that in his heart, no one can really approach his world.

Could it be that in his mind, his marriage was nothing more than a trade-off of interests.

Could it be that in his heart, she is a dispensable and insignificant person.

Could it be that in his heart, he has never really fallen in love with anyone.

Qiao Chuxia didn't want to regard her marriage as a relationship of benefit with others.

Qiao Chuxia didn't want to make the only thing she had left, the only thing she wanted to protect, and the thing she kept, a victim of her perfecting others.

But Qiao Chuxia could not deny that she was cowardly, timid, and even greedy.

She doesn't know what other people will do and what choices they will make when faced with such a choice like hers.

But she is very clear about the longing and struggle in her heart, and she knows exactly how much temptation and attraction Li Jinchen's offer is to her.

The man who proposed a fake marriage to her was the man she had loved, studied, and thought of for five years.

This man had already taken root in her heart, sprouted, and slowly grew into a towering tree.

She was afraid that if she missed this opportunity to spend the rest of her life with him, she would really pass him by forever.

Since he didn't care who he married, maybe after she rejected him, he immediately chose to marry someone else.

Since she knew that it was impossible to fall in love with anyone else in this lifetime, why couldn't she stay by his side in such a half-truth?
Maybe staying by his side in such a humble way, maybe he can wait until a certain day, maybe he will really fall in love with her slowly.

Or maybe she is lucky enough to wait until the day he truly falls in love with her in her lifetime.

Thinking of this, Qiao Chuxia almost blurted out the words "she is willing".

(End of this chapter)