Evil Wife Defying Heaven

Chapter 459 Past and Present (Seurong Part II)
Under her indifferent and quiet gaze, I saw a kind of darkness in those dark and clear eyes, a kind of demonic energy hidden in the calmness, a creepy magical energy that made people fall into the abyss.

It was a kind of bloody and darkness from the accumulation of thousands of bones, a kind of calm terror after the killing.

With a plop, I clearly heard the muffled sound of myself kneeling on the ground, and then I heard my own voice overflowing from my mouth uncontrollably, full of trembling, fear, and a little bit of shyness.

"Jun... Your Majesty... I... I lost my way accidentally... Can Your Majesty... take me to the competition field..."

At this time, I was both afraid and annoyed. That kind of fear was not voluntary, but an unconscious fear that emanated from the depths of my soul.

A natural physiological response to danger and fear.

But I can clearly feel my heart beating, thumping, beating violently like a drum. This heartbeat is not caused by fear, but by nervousness and shyness.

The feeling as if the soul and the heart are separated, and there are two completely different feelings, makes me in a state of confusion and haziness.

Until I heard a sentence: "Let's go."

I just followed behind her in a daze.

At this time, my stomach problem suddenly occurred.

I thought maybe the stomach trouble came at the right time, would she soften her heart?Will you take me back personally?

But when the medical staff arrived, I was carried on a stretcher and taken away. I watched her beautiful figure get farther and farther away from me in a daze of pain, and suddenly I felt a sense of disappointment that I had never felt before.

The feeling of being so decadent that I have no interest in anything, and even feel that everything has no meaning, makes me panic.

At this time, I still don't know how inexplicable and wonderful the so-called love is.

I just thought I was sick, with some horrible disease that frightened me.

That weird feeling of being so hopeless and lazy about everything, not wanting to do anything but just thinking about her all the time, made me more and more worried and panicked.

Until the guard reported my abnormality to my father. After my father came to see me, he told me that all my strange symptoms were not caused by a strange disease, but emotional.

I fell in love with Xia Junhuang, the untouchable king like the stars and the moon.

I was dumbfounded, panicked, and stunned.

After countless days of struggle, under my father's temptation again and again, my feelings for Xia Junhuang became more and more irresistible, and I fell into a kind of obsession completely.

She is so perfect, she is so powerful, even like countless people, I regard her as my belief in life.

It's just that others regard her as a belief, worshiping and respecting her like a god, but I, under the guidance of my father, have the idea of ​​wanting to possess her.

This idea became deeper and stronger as time went by.

Because various countries quietly sent beautiful men to Xia Junhuang, the final result was that those beautiful men disappeared without a trace. Not only did the beautiful men disappear, but even the head of the country that sent the beautiful men was moved forward by Xia Junhuang's four husbands. Giving gifts, sending a room full of beautiful boys and beauties.

He was forced to sing and sing every night, and finally his body collapsed, and he escaped from Jundu by crawling and crawling.

My father didn't want to repeat the same mistakes, and I happened to be weak, so he thought of a way to let me continue to stay in Jundu on the grounds that my weak body was not suitable for long-distance travel.

Xia Junhuang also agreed.

When I got the news that I could stay in Jundu, all my nervousness, worry and retreat were replaced by happiness and joy.

I was so excited that I forgot the heaven and earth distance between Xia Junhuang and me, and I also forgot with joy that with such outstanding four husbands, how could she fall in love with me.

Although my appearance is also very delicate among men.

But I'm so weak, my strength is so weak...

Gradually, I finally discovered that being able to stay here is not the final result, nor is it what I really want.

Especially when I occasionally saw her and her husbands walking on the training ground, the beautiful and harmonious scene under the sunset actually gave me an obsession that I shouldn't have.

I imagined myself among the people walking with her, I imagined the tenderness and tenderness in her eyes, and even imagined the scene of marrying her and accepting the blessings of the world.

The more I look like a bystander watching the tacit understanding and relationship between her and the four, the warmth of walking hand in hand, the stronger the desire in my heart.

In the end, under the instigation of the guards, I still followed the desire in my heart to get close to her, to meet her, to talk to her, so that there was another me in her field of vision.

"Hello... Your Majesty."

That time, I finally couldn't help but went ahead of time to the place where Xia Junhuang and her husbands often walked, pretending to meet by chance.

However, before I could hear the voice of Xia Junhuang whose thoughts belonged to Xia Junhuang, all the fantasies and charms in my heart were interrupted by a mocking laughter from the side.

"It's another random meeting with a toy, an annoying mouse without self-knowledge."

I raised my head, and what I saw was an exquisite face, those long and narrow phoenix eyes were so radiant, that I immediately looked away in fear at the first glance.

Just because those phoenix eyes are seductive, with a sense of temptation that can take away people's souls, it makes people lose their minds in an instant.

This person is undoubtedly one of Xia Junhuang's husbands, Ji Youyue.

That dangerously beautiful and evil existence, the most feared existence.

Not only because he has a pair of captivating phoenix eyes that can control people, but also because he is the most sinister, terrifying, sinister and dangerous existence among Xia Junhuang's four husbands.

Rumor has it that he likes vivisection, and the methods are perverted and brutal.

The fear of Ji Youyue made me forget his words for a moment, and it was not until another cold and harsh voice sounded that my wandering mind regained clarity.

"There is nothing special about such a thing, and it is worthy of your seriousness."

Xi Yanjin's calm and ruthless voice was like an invisible knife, cutting my heart one by one, causing me pain, and making my face flush with shame and anger.

Looking at Xia Junhuang's shoes, at this moment, I wish there was a hole where I could slip in and hide.

This humiliation trampled not only my dignity and personality, but also my love and sincerity for Xia Junhuang.

"You... how can you humiliate people like this... Even if I am not as good as you, my love for the king is true, and I will never be less than you!"

Never less than you!
At this moment, I feel extra comfortable and even more confident when I say such a declaration.

Yes, even if I am not as powerful as these four, my love for Xia Junhuang will not be much worse than them.

At this moment, I thought so naively, so I brainwashed myself like this.

Don't think about those rumors about the relationship between Xia Junhuang and her four lovers who have gone through life and death.

Don't think about the difficulties in those rumors that the five people have gone through life and death to get together.

I just thought that the sincerity of my love would never be inferior to the love Ji Youyue and the others had for Xia Junhuang.

Until the eyes of the four fell on me like a blade, and then Ji Youyue smiled with an inexplicable expression.

A bad premonition suddenly surged in my heart.

"Since you, a little mouse, are so confident, this leader will fulfill you and give you a chance to go through all the tests that the four of us have gone through. Let us take a good look, what you say is no less than us How much love is there?"

It was such a sentence that made me fall into the abyss from then on.

I barely had time to hear Xia Junhuang say a word before I was taken away.

Since then fell into the abyss of hell.

At this time, I still don't know what Ji Youyue's malicious test is, nor what his so-called experience of them is.

Until I was imprisoned in a dungeon.

Watching with my own eyes how the perverted murderer dismantled my parents right in front of my eyes...

I personally experienced everything Xia Junhuang experienced when she fell into the underground palace in the illusion. Although I didn't choose to turn around and run away, I hid in the corner in fear and watched her go through dangers again and again.

Watching her fight side by side with Xi Yanjin with his own eyes.

He even saw Ji Youyue enter the underground palace regardless of life and death, looking for Xia Junhuang in person.

Just the two tests on Ji Youyue almost drove me crazy.

I regret it, not because I regret falling in love with Xia Junhuang.

Instead, he regretted provoking Ji Youyue, a pervert!
He is absolutely crazy!

A complete lunatic!
He was so disregarding his own life, even so perverted and bloody, he liked vivisection.

He was able to love Xia Junhuang so deeply that he could even dedicate his soul!

"Crazy! Crazy...all crazy!"

At this time, I felt that I was going crazy too, driven crazy by Ji Youyue.

I don't know if these really belong to Ji Youyue and Xia Junhuang's past, or if Ji Youyue deliberately made things difficult for me in order to drive me crazy.

All I know is that I won't last long if this goes on.

Afterwards, I entered another illusion, which was a picture of Xi Yanjin and Xia Junhuang walking side by side in the last days.

In the illusion, I am not a bystander, but a survivor, and I also walk with the two, but every time there is a crisis, Xi Yanjin and Xia Junhuang fight side by side.

Not only can I not help, I can only hide in the crowd every time, running around like a weak person.

But this scene didn't last long, and I was swallowed by zombies.

And Xia Junhuang's indifference to people who have nothing to do with her also made me see clearly in the illusion.

It turned out that this girl who I regarded as my faith and the savior of mankind was not a kind person.

Not only is she not kind, she has no compassion, she is even cruel and cold-blooded, extremely ruthless!
She has the mighty power of a king, she also possesses the cruel killing methods of a king, and she also has the cruelty of a king who looks at the overall situation and ignores the small situation, but she does not have the benevolence that a king should have.

Because she was too casual and self-centered, even if she did what a strong person should do and saved the world, it didn't mean she had the kindness of the people in the world.

She only cares about the people she cares about, and the life and death of others has nothing to do with her.

But even if she is so cruel and heartless, I still love her. I can't lie to myself about the frequency of my heart beating, and the disorder is only for her.

However, after going through this test again and again, I can no longer shout arrogantly and ignorantly like I did at the beginning, my love is no worse than Ji Youyue and the others.

But I still don't want to admit it, and I still think that all this is just a matter of strength.

If I had the strength of Ji Youyue and Xi Yanjin, I could also fight side by side with Xia Junhuang, I could protect her, and I wouldn't dare to fight because of the fear that humans naturally react to danger. Go save her!

I wasn't really scared until Ji Youyue brought a zombie that should have disappeared in the new century to the cell.

Not afraid of that zombie, but afraid of those terrible memories that suddenly appeared.

The bloody scenes, the cruelty of human nature, the pain of being torn and eaten, and the appearance of being neither human nor ghost during the time of being a zombie.

"vomit……"

I immediately vomited all over the floor, feeling nauseated in my heart, I couldn't stop it, and in the end it seemed like I was about to vomit out all my internal organs.

"You... What are you going to do...?..."

"The test is not over yet. What Xi Yanjin and I have experienced before, now it's time for you to experience Xu Ziqing's experience. His love for Junhuang is very special~"

Ji Youyue smiled faintly, her sinister smile was full of coldness.

It was simply unforgivable for such a fragile kid to dare to clamor for their love for Junhuang.

Since he is so confident, then he will let this kid experience it!

I saw with my own eyes that the back of my hand was scratched by the claws of the zombies. Slowly, I felt that my memory became more and more confused. I couldn't tell whether it was two years ago or now. It seemed that everything that happened in the last days was related to the present. overlapped together.

later……

I became a zombie, with no memory, like a walking dead, I only know how to eat, and I am only keen on all bloody things.

Forget about everyone, everything, not even a thought.

It wasn't until I became a high-level zombie, and after I advanced to the sixth level, my memory slowly recovered, that I was completely awake, but I didn't have feelings.

"Awake?"

I saw that demon sitting outside the cell, looking at me with a faint smile, his pair of phoenix eyes were unrecognizable in the dark, his exquisite face, at this moment, in my eyes, he was more terrifying than the devil!
"Turning me into a zombie is what you call Xu Ziqing's test?"

I looked at him coldly, if it wasn't for the barrier in the cell, and the metal of the cell was added with a special material for the energy of the supernatural being, so that I couldn't break it at all, I would have rushed over to fight this damn bastard a long time ago. It's all over!

"After Xu Ziqing turned into a zombie, he still had the obsession with Junhuang in his heart. With this obsession, he moved forward in a muddle along the way, and finally found Junhuang. Overcoming zombies have no wisdom, only bloodthirsty instinct."

"Only relying on that sliver of obsession, not only didn't hurt Junhuang, but also stayed by her side obediently, and didn't hurt anyone around her. At this time, Xu Ziqing is not a sixth-level zombie, not yet awake, just a A walking dead without thought, just you, can you compare?"

Looking at Ji Youyue's face covered in shadows, even though I can't see his expression clearly, I can still feel the sarcasm at the corner of his lips.

This time, there was no deliberate ridicule or humiliation in his words, but I felt an unprecedented shame.

Because at this moment, I fully understood the gap between myself and them.

This gap is not a tiny bit, but the difference between cloud and mud!

At this moment, I can no longer find any reason to comfort myself. The reality gap is so naked in front of my eyes, which makes me speechless and ashamed.

"As for Lin, you can't even compare with the three of us, so naturally you are even less qualified to compare with Lin."

Ji Youyue stood up, raised her hand elegantly and noblely, and patted the dust-free clothes.

"This path is your own choice. If you fall in love with Xia Junhuang, if you make a move to get close to her, there is only one result, death."

Ji Youyue's words undoubtedly told me that I had no way out, since I had evil thoughts in my heart and wanted to get close to Xia Junhuang, I was already on the road to death.

I know what Ji Youyue means, originally there should be two paths.

One lives, one dies.

If it is really close to success, if it really falls into Xia Junhuang's eyes, it will naturally be the way out.

But with Ji Youyue and the others, no way out will be allowed, so in their eyes, there is only one way out.

As for me, failure is not even counted, at least failure represents success.

Someone like me who has never succeeded, or even been in Xia Junhuang's eyes, is not even qualified to fail.

Even if she dies, Xia Junhuang won't remember...

Do not……

At this moment, a sense of resentment suddenly surged in my heart.

why?
I don't understand why exactly?
Why did I go through so much pain, and finally got into Xia Junhuang's eyes, and I couldn't even make her remember me.

How can this make me reconciled, how can I just die like this!

Then all the suffering and torture I have suffered for her these past few years are all in vain!

No, I can't just die like this, no!
"No! I am willing to die, but I am only willing to die in Xia Junhuang's hands!"

Ji Youyue smiled coldly: "Wishful thinking!"

"No! Don't go! Come back! Come back! I want to see Xia Junhuang! I want to see Xia Junhuang..."

I roared and exhausted all my strength, but Ji Youyue left so cruelly and mercilessly.

Until a guard here appeared, until my life came to an end, I couldn't wait for Xia Junhuang, and I couldn't even see her for the last time.

I can't rest in peace until I die, I hate it!I blame!
I hate Xia Junhuang for being ruthless. She never looked at me from the beginning to the end. The torture I have suffered for so many years has not left the slightest trace on her heart!
I hate Ji Youyue's cruelty, if it wasn't for his refusal to speak, how could I never be able to see Xia Junhuang again until my death, and finally died with resentment and regret in my heart!

I hate Xu Ziqing, I hate Lin, I hate Xi Yan Jin!
I hate that they can be by Xia Junhuang's side, and why they are so lucky, even though I know all this is great luck in the eyes of others, but secretly, they have experienced trials that others can't imagine and bear!
But I don't care!

I don't care what kind of hardships they have gone through before they can be happy!
I don't care how much they paid for Xia Junhuang, which ordinary people will never be able to match, and finally touched Xia Junhuang's heart.

I don't even want to care that they have also experienced narrow escapes and are willing to give up everything for Xia Junhuang, whether it is life, or the dignity of being a strong man and a man!

All I know is that after suffering so much for Xia Junhuang, I failed to leave a single bit of memory for her, and I failed to leave an inch of space in her heart. It's not fair!

This is not fair!

In this way, I greeted death with resentment and unwillingness.

I thought it was over like this, but I didn't expect that God had eyes and let me be reborn!

Moreover, he was reborn on the body of a young man with strange bones who had practiced ancient martial arts since he was a child, and this young man was also a student of King's Landing Academy.

With a healthy body and a good learning environment, I suppressed the resentment and hatred in my heart, as well as the longing for Xia Junhuang, and worked hard day and night to learn ancient martial arts, study comprehension.

Keep practicing, practicing, and practicing.

This selfless practice lasted for ten years. After ten years, I broke through returning to the void, and started to build my own forces behind the scenes, and I was still studying mutants.

Then, I created a fake death, so that everyone thought that the person I was possessing now was dead, and then I had plastic surgery to change his appearance, and had a brand new face that people could not detect the past.

I established the Soul Eater Society, and when I wanted to find Xia Junhuang and Ji Youyue, I found that they had left this space and traveled to other planes of space, leaving only Xia Junhuang's children in the whole king them.

I was angry, resentful, and barely able to keep my cool.

Everything I did in the past and present life was for Xia Junhuang, but what?I have suffered for more than ten years, but she has completely forgotten me!

I want revenge!

I must take revenge!

I want Xia Junhuang to have a taste of this pain too!

Before I knew it, this became the goal in my mind.

revenge!

How do you take revenge on someone so that it hurts so much?

That is to destroy what she has, what she cares about!
So I let the mutants from the Soul Eater Society constantly harass Jundu's property and assassinate Ji Junyuan's brothers and sisters, again and again, for more than ten years!
But I didn't expect that Xia Junhuang and Ji Youyue's group of people are already more powerful than I imagined. Their children have completely inherited the excellent talents of their parents, and they don't even have the slightest laziness of princes and daughters. On the contrary, they are more powerful than ordinary people. Work Hard.

And one is smarter than the other, cunning and cunning, and even their parents are cruel and ruthless.

This has kept me going for more than ten years, and I have not been able to get cheap from this group of children.

What makes me even angrier is that the Soul Eater has assassinated Ji Junyuan and his group for so many years, when Xia Junhuang and the others came back, they didn't even ask, and didn't even stand up for them!

Such disregard for the Soul Eater Society, such contempt, filled me with even more hatred!
Until the news came out that Ji Junyuan fell in love with a commoner woman, I knew the opportunity had come.

But I still miscalculated, I still underestimated Ji Junyuan's vision in choosing women.

Even if it was just a girl in her teens, she never expected to have such a sophisticated way of acting, and so much strength beyond her peers.

Such a miscalculation led to the destruction of the mutant research base in Shangjing, the destruction of hundreds of mutants, and even inspired Ji Junyuan's murderous heart, destroying countless strongholds of the Soul Eater Society.

This made me have to temporarily stop, re-evaluate the value of the enemy, and re-plan the killing operation.

Until the so-called king of the ghost world came to me, although I was surprised that there are so many wonders in this world, there is really a so-called Yin and Yang world, but I don't care about it, I just know that my chance for revenge has come.

This will be the last time, to overthrow all revenge.

But I didn't expect that even if I united with the ghost world, even if I practiced hard for more than 20 years, I would still lose.

And it was still defeated by Ji Junyuan!

I just find it unbelievable, because the news clearly stated that Ji Junyuan's current strength is in the middle stage of the top-rank God Emperor, which is comparable to himself.

But when I started, I found something was wrong.

Although Ji Junyuan's strength appears to be in the middle stage of a high-grade god emperor, the power of his mysterious skills and techniques, when put into practice, far exceeds the power that a top-grade god emperor should have.

It's as if... It's as if he has broken through the god rank and reached a higher peak, the king rank, and it's not the strength of a low-rank king, it can almost be compared with the strength of a high-rank king...

how can that be……

I couldn't figure it out, even seeing Ji Junyuan's eyes at that time, that kind of strange, scarlet eyes, seemed to be a completely different person.

The vicissitudes in those eyes and the changes that have gone through thousands of years of wind and rain made me suddenly see the God who has gone through the world, experienced the vicissitudes of life, and is immortal!
But all of this, after I lost, doesn't matter anymore.

I don't care what happened to Ji Junyuan, I only care about the person who makes me hate, make me crazy, make me resent, and make me read for two lifetimes.

I looked at her, the face that I used to look at for hours every night through the screen, finally no longer had to be separated by the screen, and it appeared so close, clearly and truly in front of me.

She is still the same, beautiful and cold, her appearance has not changed at all from more than 20 years ago, she is still like a young girl of seventeen or eighteen years old.

Only those indifferent eyes were clear but increasingly unpredictable, like an endless ocean, beautiful but unfathomable.

Two lives, two full lives, five years of torture in the last life, 25 years of forbearance and revenge in this life, a full 30 years.

"Serong, since you're reborn, why bother with her?"

When she said my name loudly, at that moment, something seemed to collapse in her heart.

In addition to the tears pouring out, the wall of revenge that had been built in my heart for the past 30 years collapsed and ceased to exist.

It wasn't until this moment that I belatedly realized that what I was obsessed with in the past 30 years was not resentment, hatred, enmity, or love.

It's just her eyes, affirmation, and simple recognition.

Going round and round, obsessed with past and present lives for 30 years, it is no longer for the original love, nor is it for the person who wanted to be her companion at the beginning.

But because of her indifferent 'Surong'.

All it takes is a memory, a memory that remembers his name, and he is dead without complaint.

I thought I was not reconciled, I thought it was unfair, I thought it would take a lot of greed and obsession to fill it up, but it turned out that it was just a single word 'Serong', such a simple word, it can be easily filled, soothed flat.

"Since you are still obsessed with your obsession, I have nothing to say. In the last life, you wanted to die by my hands, but I didn't fulfill you. In this life, I will fulfill you."

I thought I would be heartbroken, sad, and resentful when I heard such ruthless words, but at this moment, when I really heard her ruthless words, I felt nothing but satisfaction in my heart.

All the hatred and resentment in the past 30 years disappeared without a trace so easily.

As long as I can see my reflection in her eyes, as long as I can hear her speaking to me, the words that belong to me alone, as long as I can die in her hands, everything is enough.

I know that maybe my love will never be comparable to Ji Youyue and the others, but no one in this world knows better than myself that I really love Xia Junhuang.

Even if my love is humble and fragile, incompetent and low in the dust, who can deny that this is not another kind of love?

Everyone loves in a different way, I will never be able to shield Xia Junhuang from the wind and rain, and fight side by side with her, but I can do it, past and present, 30 years of not forgetting.

Isn't this a kind of love born of obsession.

All the resentment, all the resentment, all the vengeance in reliving the first life is actually just to realize the regret that could not be realized in the previous life.

Die at her hands.

According to the strength of Xia Junhuang and Ji Youyue, after I was reborn, how could I not know that, let alone 25 years, even if I were given another 50 years, I would never be able to defeat them and never be able to take revenge.

Everything is just my self-deception, because with these self-deceptions, I can have the opportunity to realize the wish of the last life before I died.

I, Serong, only wish to die in the hands of your Xia Junhuang...

What I want has never been so simple.

(End of this chapter)