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Chapter 23 Tang Qiming, I'm Sorry

Right now, she is sitting in front of me.

"Miss Jiang Hui, I'm so glad to meet you." She greeted me politely.

"To each other." I pretended.

Once a woman becomes hypocritical, she becomes a terrible creature. This kind of creature will change 72 times, and she will hide a knife in her smile. You will never see her true face clearly, and you will even be stabbed all over by her. You even think that she is doing it for you .

"How is the business in the store?" She raised her coffee cup and asked me with a smile on her face.

I clenched my hands under the table, and I could clearly feel the pain of nails digging into the flesh.But I was laughing, "You know it yourself."

"Miss Jiang Hui, don't be stingy when you speak." She looked at me and smiled, "I know what I know, it seems that I have brought down your store."

"Isn't it?" I thought I'd slap the table and jump up, but I didn't.My expression is extremely peaceful, and even my voice is peaceful.

However, no one knew my blood was boiling.They burned me and took away the peace I should have had.

"The shopping mall is like a battlefield. Didn't your mother teach you this? Survival of the fittest, we just adapted to this market." She cleared her throat and strengthened her tone, "So, it's not my fault. You can only blame yourselves. Tell me, why did you ask me out today? Are you begging me?" She laughed loudly.

I spread my hands, "Wang Xinrui, don't forget, what made you so tired to open this milk tea shop at any cost. I know your purpose, you just want to destroy me, and let Tang Qiming see how much I am. It’s so embarrassing to leave me. But you have made a big circle with all your troubles, have you achieved your goal?”

The expression on her face froze instantly, pale as paper.

"Even if you force me to close the milk tea shop, you are just losing your troops. I know it is too much to use this word, because in the end, you are in a business that loses money. You lose not only your money, but also your Your youth and love, how many years can a woman's youth last? You just lost it like this." I sighed meaningfully.I know I'm exaggerating, but I have no choice.If it is not a last resort, I will never expose other people's scars to win, because I have scars all over my body.

As I said, this is the last way, I have no choice.I don't want to owe Jiang Caiwen, any slight debt will make me feel attached to her.

Sure enough, Wang Xinrui's face turned red and white.She picked up the coffee cup and didn't drink it, she just blew into the cup.In fact, she didn't need to, because it was just a cup of iced coffee.

"Tell me, Miss Jiang Hui, tell me why you asked me out."

"It's very simple." I said, "You stop here and leave Zhengzhou with Tang Qiming."

Brown-black coffee overflowed from the porcelain-white cup and dripped onto her skirt.She didn't reach out to wipe it, but stared at me with deep eyes, as if she wanted to see through me, "Miss Jiang Hui, are you joking?"

"No, I'm serious." I remained silent.

"You don't love him." She laughed.I don't know why she is laughing.

"Why do you say that?" I asked back.

"If you love him, how can you be willing to let him be taken away by another woman? Every woman is selfish, and you are just one of them. Let me think about it, the reason why you are willing to give him to me is, After all, you care about something more important than him, and that is money, right?" She sneered.

"That's my business." I reminded her.

"I really feel sorry for Tang Qiming, he would fall in love with a woman like you who regards money as his life."

I didn't speak, just drank my coffee.Even though I don't like the taste of coffee, I still brought the porcelain white cup to my mouth and swallowed it in one gulp. I drank the bottom of the cup.I thought I'd spit it out, but I didn't.I even stuck out my tongue and licked my lips.Those remaining breaths danced on the tip of my tongue, and I couldn't get them out.

I don't have the strength to argue with Wang Xinrui about these issues, so let her say what she wants.So, I reclined loosely on the sofa. The advantage of drinking in a magnificent coffee shop is that the air conditioner is fully turned on and the sofa cushions are also very soft.I think I'm going to fall asleep. How long has it been since I had a good night's sleep?I do not remember.I'm so tired.

However, Wang Xinrui refused to let me fall asleep.She was still babbling on and on.I don't know what made a girl so young to be such a wretch.Later, I suddenly realized that it was love, a love that I couldn't get but was reluctant to give up.Therefore, in the face of love, none of us is a winner, we are all just a victim, a victim who is willing to sink and burn.

So, Tang Qiming, please forgive me.

This is our destiny from which we cannot escape.None of us had a choice but to throw up our hands and surrender.

The world has a way of bringing us to our knees.This is the fate we cannot escape, the sorrow of living in this world.Unless you want everything you want, unfortunately, we are all just mortals.

"Miss Jiang Hui, I hope you are completely honest, without any tricks." In the end, Wang Xinrui still didn't trust me.

"If you think I'm cheating on you, then so be it." I didn't have the strength to speak anymore.I staggered up from the couch and was about to go outside.

She stopped me, "I believe in you! For Tang Qiming, I am willing to believe in you once!"

"You love him, right?" I stared into her eyes.Her eyes are large and sparkling.

She didn't answer me.That's the default.

"But why do you want him to be hurt? If you love someone, you should treat him wholeheartedly, and you shouldn't let him suffer any harm, right?"

"Jiang Hui, I didn't hurt him." She defended, her face turning pale.

"Is the scar on his arm caused by you?" I said, "Actually, I also know that this is a matter between you, but I still hope that you can treat him well. Tang Qiming is a good man, and a good man should treat him well." There will be rewards. Don't hurt him."

After I finished speaking, I left.I was exhausted and I didn't know where my strength was going.When I walked out of the coffee shop, the dazzling sunlight hurt my eyes, and the whole world began to spin in front of me. I tried my best, but it was useless, and my eyes were dizzy.

After that, I didn't know anything.

I thought I was going to die.I even feel that my soul is getting out of my body bit by bit. The whole world is close to me but far away in the sky. I can't touch anything. Everything is just an illusion, even me. It is itself an illusion.Those past times were "hula-hula" dangling in my mind. I saw many familiar faces, and I saw many faces that I have never seen again. There are even the group of people who bullied me in elementary school. They are still the same Like the appearance, it exists in the orbit with time.

This track is the footprint of my growth.And now, I'm coming to the end.

I heard someone calling me. Her voice was very familiar. I always thought I heard it somewhere, but I just couldn't remember.So I wanted to go back and look at her.Just like that, I opened my eyes and saw Jiang Caiwen.

"Xiao Hui, you're awake, are you feeling better?" She put her hand on my forehead, "Thank God, the fever is finally gone." She muttered to herself, with surprise on her face that couldn't be concealed.

I struggled to sit up, but to no avail.I was so weak that it was as if, except for my brain, no other limbs belonged to me anymore.

"Are you thirsty? Would you like some water?" Jiang Caiwen babbled, "Also, what do you want to eat? Have some porridge or chicken soup? I just made chicken soup, do you want some?"

I shook my head, "Am I going to die?" I said.

Her face instantly turned pale and bloodless, "What are you talking about?" she said, "You are still young, how could you die so easily? Your days are still long, you still have to get married and have children , to be a mother is a necessary stage in your life, how could you die?"

"But why do I feel like I have no strength at all?" I said.

"You're still sick. You just got a fever." She said, and put her hand on my forehead again. I could feel the heat from her broad palm. "You'll be fine after a few days of rest. Thanks to your help." That friend, when you recover from illness, you must thank her well and invite her to our house for a meal."

"Who?" I was confused, I don't remember anything.

"I don't know what her name is. I was too impatient at the time and forgot to ask." She said, "Anyway, she is a very beautiful girl. She looks like a child from a rich family. She is well-dressed and polite. She was still calling my aunt on the phone."

"Are you wearing a light pink dress?" I thought of Wang Xinrui.

"That's right... that's the clothes." She said, "I don't know how this girl got my phone number. She told me to go to the hospital and said that you fainted. I was terrified at the time." She The little girl who is still in shock is full of femininity. "Fortunately, there is nothing serious, it's just a high fever. Don't go anywhere these days, and recuperate at home."

I look at her.Except for a few more wrinkles on her face and sagging skin, her appearance has not changed at all, she is still so beautiful and full of charm.But I feel that the Jiang Caiwen in front of me is completely different from the Jiang Caiwen who has lived with me for 19 years. It seems that she changed overnight and made me feel strange and at a loss.

"I'll bring you a bowl of chicken soup." She stood up, "Do you want to add some coriander or green onion?"

Before I could speak, she added as if she suddenly remembered something, "Oh, I forgot, you don't eat green onions, I'll add some parsley."

I was surprised that she remembered my habit so clearly.This is something I didn't expect.She once abandoned me. When I was still a baby, she was willing to abandon me on the bench in the hospital, and let me face the warmth and coldness of the first world alone; she also beat me over and over again, She scolded me and told me that I was an orphan that no one wanted. During so many days when I was resented, she actually knew my preferences, and even remembered clearly that I didn't like chopped green onions.My heart was panting, and I felt like I was going to cry, so I hid under the covers.

Jiang Caiwen, tell me, what do you want me to do.In those times when I had nothing to rely on, I clenched my fists again and again, gritted my teeth, and vowed to hate you for the rest of my life.When you grow old, I don't think I will stand in front of you, chatting with your parents, serving tea and water.But now, what do you want me to do?Jiang Caiwen, are you trying to compensate me?Make up for the maternal love I didn't get?Make up for my sighs when I'm cold?Yeah?

I still cried, tears pattering down on the pillowcase.

Jiang Caiwen was calling me, and she said, "Xiaohui, come, have some chicken soup."

I didn't move.

"Drink some chicken soup before going to sleep." She said, putting the bowl on the table beside the bed.

I still don't move.

She reached out to lift my quilt.I covered my head and clutched the bedding tightly with both hands.

"It's going to be stuffy. Hurry up and drink some chicken soup, drink it while it's hot. It should be cold in a while." When she said this, my hand loosened.So, she lifted the quilt, and my tearful appearance was undoubtedly exposed in front of her.

"Why are you crying?" She helped me wipe the tears off my face, "I said it's just a high fever, and it will be fine in a few days, it's not a serious illness."

Fortunately, she didn't know why I was crying.

"Come on, have some chicken soup. Do you want to try it?" She helped me sit up, picked up the bowl, stirred it with a spoon, and brought it to my mouth.

I am at a loss.

"Drink!" She looked at me with a smile on her face.

"I think, let me do it myself." I stretched out my hand to take the bowl in her hand.

"I'm really confused," she laughed, "I still treat you like a child. How about it, is it good to drink?"

I nodded.

"Then drink more. Chicken soup nourishes the body, drink more soup, and heal faster." She rambled.

"May I ask you a question." I didn't look up.

"what?"

"About my dad."

Her face turned pale in an instant, and even her eyes became hollow, "Jiang Hui, it's all over."

"Now that it's all over, shouldn't you tell me too?" I said.

"There's nothing to say. He abandoned us, mother and daughter, and that's it."

"Is it just because I'm a girl? It's so patriarchal in this age! It's ridiculous."

"This is just an excuse for him. What he wants is not our mother and daughter, but our future. Men are like this, and they don't care about anything for the so-called career."

"Where is he now?"

"I don't know." She shook her head, "He never came back. I don't even know if he's still alive." She let out a long sigh of relief, leaned back on the chair, and stared blankly at someone. direction.I don't know what she is looking at.

"Didn't you find him?"

"Why did I look for him?" She smiled wryly, "I don't owe him anything."

"But you still haven't been able to forget him, you hate him. You transferred all your hatred towards him to me, didn't you?" My voice was gentle, without complaint or hatred.

She lowered her head and said nothing.

I continued to drink the soup, but I couldn't taste the chicken soup, it was as light as water.

After I finished drinking, she took the bowl in my hand, her face was pale, "Xiaohui," her lips squirmed, and I waited for her to continue, "Do you hate me?"

I am silent.

She sighed and stood up from her chair.Before walking out of the bedroom, she turned sideways and closed the bedroom door for me. At that moment, I saw her tears glisten.

She was crying, crying silently.

I leaned back against the pillow and looked around the bedroom with blurred eyes.It has been a year, and the layout of this bedroom is still the same as when I left, even the Liu Ruoying poster on the wall is sticking to the land acquisition.I still remember the surprised look in Jiang Caiwen's eyes when I bought this poster back for five yuan. It was also because of this incident that night that she kept scolding me, scolding me for not being aggressive and impetuous.I kept silent all the time, just lowered my head, holding the poster in my hand.I didn't go to the bedroom until she had had enough scolding and was tired of scolding.I'm going to put this poster on the wall opposite my bed so that every morning when I wake up I can see the person I love smiling at me and she won't hit me or scold me or even ignore me , she only smiles at me and sings nice songs to me, and these are the beliefs of my young life.

But now, after bearing the weight of life and taking difficult steps again and again, I suddenly understand that belief has nothing to do with anyone, it only belongs to us, because belief is ourselves.

I was falling asleep when Yang Shanshan called. I had a terrible headache and felt weak all over.So, I didn't even answer the phone that rang several times. I thought it would automatically shut down after a while, but it still rang.So I turned around and touched the phone, and pressed the answer button.

"What's the matter, Shanshan?" I was confused.

"Jiang Hui, where are you?"

"at home."

"How could it be? Tang Qiming was alone when I ran to your house just now."

"I mean, I'm here with my mother."

"You went back to your hometown?" She was surprised.

"Well, it's right here in Manhattan." My eyelids were involuntarily glued together again.

"Do you have time now? I want to see you."

"I'm sick," I said, "and I'm bedridden now."

"Oh my God, what's going on?" she made a panicked sound.

"high fever."

"Does Tang Qiming know?" She asked me.

I don't know how she mentioned Tang Qiming, I said, "I don't know." Actually, what I mean is that I don't know if Tang Qiming knows.Yang Shanshan let out an "oh".

"Shanshan, what do you want from me?" I changed my posture, "If you have time, come and accompany me, I'm bored at home alone."

"Is it convenient?" she blurted out, "I mean, would your parents mind?"

I feel sore in my heart, I want to tell her that I don't have a father, on the day I was born, he abandoned me and Jiang Caiwen without even looking at me, even Jiang Caiwen, my mother, abandoned me in the hospital on the bench, but I didn't say it.

"Why?" I said, "I haven't seen you for a long time, I miss you."

"I'm an intern in a bank these days." She said, "You tell me how to get to your house, and I'll go there now. Do you want something to eat? I'll buy it for you first."

"I don't want to eat anything," I said. "I have no appetite at all."

I gave her the address, she was silent for a moment, and we hung up.

I didn't feel sleepy at all, so I just played with my phone casually.The black mobile phone rolled between my palms, and sometimes it landed on the bed sheet, making a slight sound.I picked up the phone and continued to play, shaking it around and around.I'm just killing time.Sometimes, the time is really long enough, so long that every second becomes a torment.

I took out the phone book, and my eyes fell on Xiao Jiayi's name.Without hesitation, I called him again, but what was waiting for me was still a gentle female voice.

Xiao Jiayi, where are you hiding?You still won't forgive me, will you?I have let down each other's childhood, I left both the calm and the calm in the sky, and the only thing left is the waves and the turbulence, you will never appear in front of me again, right?You'll hate me for the rest of your life, won't you?Where are you now, are you alone licking your wounds?You are always like this, hiding the deepest suffering in your heart and refusing to tell me.

I heard a crisp sound coming from the door, I thought it was Yang Shanshan, I didn't expect her to run so fast.So, I hastily wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and got up to open the door for her.But before I got out of bed, Jiang Caiwen had already pushed open the door of my room, her head was covered with sweat, "Are you awake?!" She walked up to me and put her hand on my head, in the palm of her hand It's all sweaty and wet. "It's not too hot." She said to herself, "I'll wash the apples for you. I just bought them. They're very fresh."

I didn't say a word and let her do the work.

When she put the fruit plate in front of me, I could clearly see the fine beads of sweat on her forehead.

"Is it hot outside?" I asked her.

"It's hot," she complained. "It's almost forty degrees today."

I ate a piece of apple.

"What do you want to eat for lunch? How about braised pork ribs? I just bought fresh pork ribs, and I will cook them for you later." She sat on the sofa and muttered to herself.

"My classmates will come over in a while." I swallowed the apple.

"Really?" She was full of surprise, "Then I'll cook a few more dishes." She stood up, hurriedly opened the refrigerator, and took out all the vegetables in plastic bags.

"Just a girl," I said, "just do whatever you want."

"How can it be? No matter what, they are customers." She smiled at me, "Sit down for a while and watch TV or something. I'll wash the vegetables."

"Let me help you." I stood up from the sofa.

She hurriedly waved to me, "No, no, I can do it myself, just sit there and watch TV and eat some fruit." Soon, her figure hid in the kitchen.

I suddenly felt a long-lost tranquility break through my heart and spread throughout my body.I have longed for this peace, which I have dreamed of day and night since I was a child.I once thought that this kind of peace would never come to me in this life, but I never thought that 20 years later, it would live in front of me and be within reach.

Jiang Caiwen, do you know that your kindness and love to me are 20 years late.Just when I thought I couldn't wait any longer, it appeared and shone on me like sunshine, and I no longer felt cold and helpless.

Doorbell rang.

I thought it was Yang Shanshan, she should be here after so long.So I went to open the door as if waking up from a dream, I was still in my pajamas.I opened the door without thinking, I was even ready to hug her, but when I opened the door, I panicked at what I saw.

Because it was not Yang Shanshan standing at the door, but Tang Qiming.He was panting heavily, sweat was all over his face, and even beads of sweat were stained on his eyelashes.

Everything was so abrupt that I wasn't even ready to meet him.So, the moment he appeared in front of me, I even forgot to let him in.

"Yang Shanshan called me and told me that you were sick." He said, "Are you feeling better?"

"It's just a fever. It's nothing serious." My face was burning.

"It must have taken a cold shower last night. I was so careless. I should have made you a cup of Banlangen last night." His guilty look made me feel ashamed.

I stood at the door not knowing what to say.We just stood at the door, and the so-called ends of the earth were nothing more than that.

Jiang Caiwen's voice came from the kitchen: "Xiao Hui, is your classmate here?"

Before I could speak, Tang Qiming shouted, "Hello, Auntie!"

Jiang Caiwen came out of the kitchen. She was still holding green vegetables, and the emerald green leaves were shining brightly. "Xiaohui, why don't you let your classmate in? It's so hot outside!"

I turned sideways, "Come in quickly."

He stood outside the door without moving, "I just came to see you. As long as you have nothing to do, I have to go back."

"It's such a hot day, let's go after eating." I said.

"No need." He declined.

I suddenly felt that Tang Qiming was a little strange, and this strangeness was a barrier created by me.

"Come in and have a glass of water before you go," I said.

"Let's forget it." He insisted, "You take care of yourself."

After he finished speaking, he turned and went downstairs. When he was about to walk out of my sight, I stopped him, "Tang Qiming, I'm sorry." I said.

He stopped in his tracks, and within two or three seconds, he turned around the stairs and disappeared before my eyes.

Wang Xinrui must have told him everything, it was a matter of time, and sooner or later I had to face Tang Qiming's contempt and indifference, and the embarrassment of not knowing what to do.This is where I belong.

I stood at the door for a long time, Jiang Caiwen called me for several years and I pretended not to hear.I just stood there blankly, until Yang Shanshan appeared in front of me, I just woke up like a dream.

"Jiang Hui." She stood on the steps and called me.

I noticed that she was wearing the professional attire of a bank teller, with the air of a strong woman. "Have you gone to a bank for an internship?"

"That's right." She walked up the steps and stood in front of me, "Didn't I mention it to you last time when the bank came to our school to recruit interns? I told you to go to the interview to try your luck. You don't go. I will go by myself." I didn't expect it to be really lucky."

"You don't need to be lucky to be admitted. One of the best students in the department, if they don't admit you, it's really a waste of talent." I pulled her into the room.She stood at the door hesitantly, "Do I need to change a pair of shoes?" She looked embarrassed and seemed a little uncomfortable.

"Actually, there is no need to change it." I explained.

"It's better to change it." She smiled, her face flushed, "Jiang Hui, your house is really big and the location is good. Such a big house costs a lot of money, right?!"

"Who knows!" I said, and helped her find slippers from the shoe cabinet, and put them in front of her.Then he yelled into the kitchen, "Mom, my classmate is here."

Jiang Caiwen poked her head out from the kitchen with a smile on her face: "I've met your classmate," she said, "When she was downstairs in the house you rented, she asked me for Xiao Jiayi's phone number."

"Hello, Auntie!" Yang Shanshan said cautiously.

"Sit down and have a rest. Xiao Hui, quickly pour a glass of water for your classmate. There are fruits in the refrigerator, and I have washed them all." She said and went into the kitchen again, "Oh, the dishes are all burnt."

"Is your internship going well?" I handed the water glass to her, "Everyone says it's the most difficult intern."

"I'm fine," she took a sip of water, "I'm not very tired. But you, are you better?"

"Much better." I sighed.

"Jiang Hui, your house is really magnificent, and the decoration is also good." Her eyes turned back and forth. "Honestly, I'm confused."

"What's so confusing?"

"It's just... how should I put it?" She put the water glass on the coffee table, "I always thought that the reason you worked so hard was because of poverty, but I didn't expect that you were not poor. At least, you won't be short of money to spend."

I don't know how to explain it to her, because this question is too complicated, I want to tell the whole difference between me and Jiang Caiwen, and I feel dizzy when I think about it.So, I changed the subject, "Have we set the exam time yet?"

"Next week," she said casually.In the end, she lowered her head, "Jiang Hui, I want to ask you to help me with something."

"What's the matter?" I wondered.

"It's just..." She stammered, "Are you in a hurry, can you lend me some money?"

"How much?"

"Is there [-]?" Her eyes were burning with expectation.

"What do you want so much money for?" I asked.

"Jiang Hui, don't ask so many questions. If you have something, lend it to me. If not, I'll find a way." She lowered her eyes and put her hands on her knees.

"I don't have so much." I told the truth, "The milk tea shop just closed, and during this period of time, there are only losses but no gains, so..."

She smoothed the hair on her forehead and tied it neatly behind her ears. "It's okay," she laughed.I could see that she was lost even when she smiled.But, Yang Shanshan, it's not my fault, I really have no money.

"Xiaohui, clear the table and eat." Jiang Caiwen called me from the kitchen.

"Okay." I stood up in response.

Yang Shanshan also stood up with me, "Oh, Jiang Hui, I have to go."

"Where are you going after eating?" I was not happy.

"I asked for leave from my unit." She explained, "I have to go back to work."

"No matter how urgent you are, you have to eat before leaving, everything is ready." I held her back.

"Jiang Hui!" She pushed me away, "Will I still be polite to you?" She said and went to the door to change her shoes, "In the future, there will be opportunities to eat, but I am afraid that if I come every day, you will kick me out. It's right." She smiled at me, because the angle was unnatural, I could see that she smiled bitterly.

Jiang Caiwen came out of the kitchen. She was still holding a plate. I could tell it was braised pork ribs.She put the dishes on the dining table and walked up to me, "Oh, I said, where are you going after you've eaten?"

"Auntie, I still have something to do." Yang Shanshan had already changed her shoes, "I'll eat the meal made by Auntie some other day."

"Look, I've cooked so many dishes, how can I leave without eating?" Jiang Caiwen was still trying to persuade him to stay.

Yang Shanshan had already opened the door, "It's really unnecessary." She walked outside, "Jiang Hui, see you later." After speaking, she stomped downstairs.

(End of this chapter)