The Wildest Urban Marriages: Contract Couples

Chapter 30 The sad past of homosexuals

At four o'clock in the afternoon, Miao Miao was lying on the bed, feeling a little pain in her stomach. Miao Miao didn't know until she went to the bathroom. She was a little red. According to the doctor's order, Miao Miao lay back on the hospital bed. Miao Miao wanted to call Jie Rui, tell him that you are in the hospital, but when you think that Jerry is Xu Jing's husband, you give up the idea again. At this time, Miaomiao regrets why she has to come to Jianghai City Hospital, so now she wants to call Jerry She didn't dare to call anymore, and when she was regretting herself, she saw someone push the door open, it was Ying Qing, Miao Miao was very happy, and asked Ying Qing to sit in the room.

Seeing that Miao Miao's face was not looking well, Ying Qing asked with concern: "What's the matter, sister, is there something wrong?"

Miao Miao told her that it was just a drug reaction, nothing more.

Ying Qing told Miao Miao that she had been in the hospital for more than two months, and it was very boring and annoying, and she had no friends. Although she had her cousin Xu Jing to take care of her, she had to go to work during the day and did not have so much time to come. To accompany me, it is rare to meet a friend like Miao Miao in the hospital.

Miao Miao was very happy about Ying Qing's visit, but she was worried that she would be bored alone, but Ying Qing came.

The two sat together, chatted with each other about their respective situations, and talked about each other's interests. Surprisingly, Ying Qing and Miao Miao are both literature lovers, and they both like to read novels. They talked about Wang Xiaobo , Talking about his works, talking about Wang Xiaobo's wife, Ms. Li Yinhe, Miao Miao and Ying Jing surprisingly found that many of their views are surprisingly similar.Both of them appreciated some of Li Yinhe's remarks and viewpoints.

Ying Qing asked Miao Miao: "Do you really think homosexuality is not ugly?"

Miao Miao said: "Of course, homosexuality is also a kind of love, but it is different from ordinary love affairs. Homosexuality has not caused harm to the society and third parties. I think it should be recognized by the society. The only difference between homosexuality and heterosexuality is that It cannot prolong future generations, but homosexuality is only a minority, and it will not affect the proliferation of society. There is no need to worry about the phenomenon of human extinction. Some people worry that the legalization of homosexuality will cause the crisis of proliferating future generations. You said, the reason why my country implements family planning is not because there are too many people. If it weren’t for the large population, I wouldn’t have to go to the hospital for abortion, and just have another one. Homosexuality doesn’t mean legalization, and this phenomenon will spread , The emergence of homosexuality has its complicated background and various factors, but I believe that the natural origin is still heterosexuality. Recognizing homosexuality does not mean encouraging homosexuality. I think homosexuality should be recognized and respected.”

Ying Qing was very relieved to hear Miao Miao's remarks. She did not expect that this friend she had just met could understand homosexuality so well. She said that Miao Miao's views were different from those of ordinary people in society.

The two chatted for more than two hours. The bell rang in the hospital cafeteria to eat, but they didn't notice it until Xu Jing went to Miao Miao's ward and asked about Miao Miao's situation. Too speculative, actually forgot to eat.

When Miao Miao, Xu Jing, and Ying Qing were eating together in the cafeteria, Ying Qing said to Xu Jing: "You have to be on duty at night, so I will stay in Miao Miao's ward. The two of you are companions, so we can talk."

"En, okay", Xu Jing patted Ying Qing's head affectionately.

Because the action was too intimate, Miao Miao was watching, Ying Qing lowered her head a little embarrassed.

After Xu Jing went to work the night shift, Miao Miao and Ying Qing lay on the bed and talked.

Ying Qing told Miao Miao that Xu Jing was actually not her cousin, Miao Miao smiled slightly and said she knew.

Ying Qing was surprised and said how do you know.

It was only then that Miao Miao realized that she had slipped her mouth. Miao Miao knew that Xu Jing and Ying Qing were not cousins ​​because Jerry told her, but outsiders didn't know, and outsiders thought they were cousins, so what could she do? May know?Miao Miao hastily concealed that, seeing that the two of them didn't look like each other, they were somewhat similar in blood relationship, Miao Miao said casually.

After hearing Miao Miao's explanation, Ying Qing let out a sigh, and then sighed again.

Miao Miao didn't understand why Ying Qing suddenly became so sad. Ying Qing told Miao Miao that although she and Xu Jing were not cousins, they were better than sisters. Ying Jing told Miao Miao that Xu Jing even She divorced her husband just because she needed to take out her family savings to treat her illness.

Miao Miao was shocked when she heard that, did Xu Jing and Jerry divorce?Didn't Jerry tell himself that Xu Jing proposed to him to return to the family, how could he get divorced?

Miao Miao asked in disbelief, "No, how could they have divorced?"

Ying Qing said sadly, "Leaving, I had to go through the formalities a few days earlier. I'm very sorry for this."

Divorced, Miao Miao was stunned. Why did Jerry lie to himself? Didn't he say that his wife proposed to end the game and return to the family?How could it be possible to get a divorce? Why did he lie to himself about the divorce? How could he lie to himself?
Later, Miao Miao didn't even bother to listen to what Ying Qing said, Ying Qing was puzzled by Miao Miao's dazed state and lack of focus.Seeing Miao Miao's distraught look, Ying Qing asked Miao Miao with concern: "Sister, what's wrong with you, why are you suddenly in a daze?"

Miao Miao murmured, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable and a little tired. In fact, Miao Miao no longer had any desire to chat. Her mind was always thinking about why Jerry lied and why she lied to him. Rui's recent performance, calling him is always very busy, he often does not answer his own phone, and sometimes he presses it off. Could it be that he has changed his mind and has a woman? When Miaomiao thinks this way, she feels very scared , She couldn't accept such a fact, let alone believe such a fact, Miaomiao really wanted to call Jerry and ask her what was going on, she wanted Jerry to tell herself what was going on?But Ying Qing slept on another bed, and it was inconvenient for Miao Miao to make a phone call.

Ying Qing heard that Miao Miao was not feeling well, so she told Miao Miao to lie down under the quilt, go to bed early, and stop talking.

Miao Miao tossed and turned in the quilt, unable to fall asleep, thinking of what Ying Qing said just now, she felt like thousands of ants crawling in her heart, unable to fall asleep no matter what, Miao Miao suddenly lifted the quilt, and said to Qing: " I'm going out for a while, but the sanitary napkins I brought in my bag are not enough."

Ying Qing said with concern: "Sister, don't go down, I'll buy it for you."

Miao Miao rejected Ying Qing's kindness, saying that she was fine, and it was okay to get out of bed and buy something. Ying Qing said that it was too late and she wanted to go with Miao Miao. Ying Qing went out with her.

When Miao Miao arrived at the lobby on the first floor, she took out her mobile phone and called Jerry. Just now Xu Jing said that she was on duty at night, which meant that it should be convenient to call Jerry, but calling Jerry's mobile phone , but the other party sent a voice prompt, "I'm sorry, the number you dialed has been turned off." Miao Miao was very disappointed. I really hoped that Jerry's phone would be turned on in the next second. The phone has been turned off", Miao Miao still did not give up, and called again after a few seconds, but it was still prompted to shut down, repeatedly, standing under a corner of the first floor, Miao Miao dialed dozens of times, until her body was blocked. The night wind was cold, and Miao Miao died of that thought. When she was about to return to the ward on the second floor, Miao Miao remembered that she told Ying Qing just now that she was going to buy sanitary napkins, and now she went back empty-handed. Miao Miao walked to a nearby supermarket. The supermarket was just about to close. Miao Miao took a pack of sanitary napkins casually, paid and went back. As soon as she went up to the second floor, she saw Ying Qing pacing back and forth in the aisle. Miao Miao was very happy, exhaled a sigh of relief, and said: "Thank God, you are finally back. Seeing that you haven't come back for a long time, I thought something happened to you?".

Miao Miao just smiled indifferently, and told Ying Qing that she was only worried about the time delay because she walked far away.

Seeing Miao Miao came back, Ying Qing went to sleep in peace, but Miao Miao was lying in bed and couldn't sleep at all. Thinking of what happened recently, Miao Miao felt very sad, sour tears fell from the corners of her eyes unconsciously. The woman she has never met before cared about her so much, but the person she had always trusted and missed was hard to find. Miao Miao felt her heart sinking little by little.
At dawn the next day, the first thing Miao Miao did when she woke up was to call Jerry's cell phone, "Du-doo--" The phone connected, and Miao Miao was looking forward to it.

"Hey, Miao Miao, what's the matter?" Jerry seemed very busy.

"Jerry, I have something to ask you." Miao Miao glanced at Ying Qing who was still sleeping soundly, then quietly got out of bed, walked out the door, and walked to the corridor outside.

"Miao Miao, I'm in a hurry right now. I'll call you when I'm free, beep—" After finishing speaking, Jerry hung up the phone.

Hearing the sound of "beep - beep -" from the mobile phone, Miao Miao was extremely disappointed.When Miao Miao returned to the ward, Ying Qing woke up. Seeing Miao Miao, Ying Qing said, "Sister, why did you get up so early? What's the matter? You look very preoccupied?"

"Oh, it's nothing." Miao Miao forced a smile to hide her lonely expression.

At this moment, Miao Miao felt a piercing pain in her stomach, and felt a large amount of blood gushing out from her lower body.

Seeing Ying Qing, she hurriedly got up and helped Miao Miao, and asked what was going on with concern?Want to call a doctor?

Miao Miao shook her head and said, no need, it was just a reaction to the medicine, but Ying Qing still called Xu Jing.

After Xu Jing came, she asked Miao Miao to go to the bathroom to observe, and handed Miao Miao a small plastic box, and asked Miao Miao to show her the fallen objects.

Miao Miao handed the things to Xu Jing. Xu Jing observed for a while and said, "Fortunately, the reaction to the medicine is quite fast. After coming down, just pay attention to rest and stay for another night before going back."

After hearing Xu Jing's words, Miao Miao also felt a big stone in her heart.

After Xu Jing left, Ying Qing said to Miao Miao, you lie down here for a while, and I'll go out for a while.

After Ying Qing went out, Miao Miao lay on the bed, looking at the scenery outside the window, the weather was still clear, blue like a mirror, and the sun was shining brightly, but Miao Miao's heart felt dark, and after nothing happened to her body, Miao Miao's Thinking about Jerry's divorce again, Miao Miao couldn't understand why Jerry lied to her?Miao Miao really wanted to call Jerry again, but she didn't want to hear his impatient tone. A trace of Jerry's impatience could chill Miao Miao to the bone. Miao Miao was afraid of being hurt like this. What happened these days The situation made Miao Miao feel unconfident. She felt that she was a person forgotten by the world, and no one cared about her existence.

Just when she was very sad and sad, Ying Qing came back with a large casserole bowl in her hand, steaming from the gap in the lid, as soon as Ying Qing came in, she handed the casserole to Miao Miao and asked Miao Miao to drink it while it was hot Yes, she told Miao Miao that this is ginseng black chicken soup, Miao Miao took a look and said, no, ask Ying Qing to eat it by herself, Ying Qing said that she just ate it outside, this bowl was specially brought for Miao Miao to drink, When Miao Miao saw the steaming bowl of chicken soup in front of her, she had mixed feelings and tears flowed down her cheeks. Miao Miao's sudden loss of control left Ying Qing at a loss. Ying Qing asked with concern, what's wrong with you, sister?What's wrong?
Miao Miao choked up for a while before she stopped crying. Ying Qing took the paper and handed it to Miao Miao. Miao Miao wiped away the tears on her face with the paper. The chicken soup on the table was handed to Miao Miao again, Miao Miao couldn't bear to thank Ying Qing for her kindness, and drank the chicken soup gratefully.

When Miao Miao finished drinking the soup and put the bowl on the table, Miao Miao said to Qing with a little embarrassment, thinking of some feelings, she felt sad, and she really lost her composure just now.

Ying Qing reassured: "What are you talking about, I don't know what sad things happened to my sister, seeing you yesterday was fine, but today—"

Miao Miao told Ying Qing that she just got divorced.

After hearing this, Ying Qing asked, "Sister, is it because of this that you are sad?"

Miao Miao shook her head, saying it wasn't true, seeing Miao Miao's expression, Ying Qing knew that Miao Miao still had something sad, so she didn't want to tell herself, so she stopped asking.

Ying Qing said: "Actually, I am quite envious of my sister."

Miao Miao smiled wryly, "How could you envy me?"

"At least my sister is a normal person"

"A normal person?"

"kindness"

"Ying Qing, don't be discouraged, I believe your illness will be cured"

"Sister, I'm not talking about my body, I'm talking about my psychology, I'm a mentally abnormal person"

"Psychologically abnormal? No, I think you are normal."

"Sister, don't you believe me, I'm gay"

"Ah—" Miao Miao heard this, and didn't know what to say. In fact, Miao Miao knew it a long time ago, but she just didn't explain it. She didn't expect Ying Qing to trust her so much, and told her the secret that she didn't want to be treated by outsiders.

"Will my sister look down on me?"

"Of course not. As I said, homosexuality should be recognized by society. Homosexuality and heterosexuality are both a kind of relationship, but the gender orientation is different."

"I believed in my sister, so I told my sister about you. In this world, it is rare to meet someone as enlightened as you." After Ying Qing finished speaking, she sighed.

Seeing Ying Qing like that, Miao Miao forgot her own sadness, and instead comforted Ying Qing, saying, "Don't be discouraged, one day your relationship will be recognized by the world, in fact, there are many people like me , although I am not gay, but I also approve of homosexuality and think that homosexuality is nothing. Teacher Li Yinhe's remarks have revealed the tip of the iceberg of human nature, and I believe that more and more people will support her remarks in the future."

Ying Qing was very moved, and told Miao Miao about her growth experience.

"I am an orphan. I don't know who my biological parents are. I only know that I have stayed in the orphanage since I was sensible. The director of the orphanage told me that when I was three months old, I was abandoned in the orphanage. At the gate of the welfare home.

That morning, the weather was very cold. Three-month-old me was wrapped in some torn cotton wool and put it in a basket. I didn’t know whether it was cold or hungry. I cried desperately. Weeping, opened the door, the dean saw that I was pitiful, and took me in, because there was no note left in the basket, only my birth date was left, so apart from knowing the year and month I was born, other I don’t know anything, I don’t know where I am from, I don’t know who my parents are, and I don’t know why my parents hate to abandon me. Some people say that it may be because I am a girl. The family wanted to have a son, so they had no choice but to throw me away. Some people said that I might be the child of an unmarried girl, because they didn't dare to disclose their pregnancy and childbirth, so they threw me away, but what is the reason? , I don't know, and have no way of knowing.

The life in the orphanage is poor and monotonous. Fortunately, the director is very concerned about us orphans, but we still long to be pampered by our parents like other children. Every time we go to school or leave school, we see other children, our parents come to pick them up. But we walked out of the orphanage alone and returned to the orphanage alone. The children in our orphanage are very eager for the day that we can act like a baby in the arms of our parents like other children.But it's only one of our dreams
When I was 14 years old, an aunt named Zhang came to the orphanage and said she wanted to adopt a girl. Somehow, after going around the welfare home, she told the director that she liked me. Became the adopted daughter of this family.The reason why they wanted to adopt me was because their son went to study abroad half a year ago. Only Aunt Zhang and her lover Wang Rong were at home. There were only two people in the family on weekdays. They always felt lonely, so they wanted to adopt a girl.

After I arrived at her house, after half a year of happy time, Auntie Zhang treated me well, but I feel that Wang Rong treated me better, but Wang Rong’s kindness to me always made me feel scared, especially when Auntie Zhang was not at home Wang Rong always looked at me strangely, because Aunt Zhang was away from home more often, and Wang Rong and I were the only ones at home. Wang Rong, that night, when I was taking a shower, Wang Rong asked me to open the door. I thought he wanted me to pass something out in the bathroom, so I opened the door. Unexpectedly, as soon as he came in, he tightly hugged me. Holding him in his arms, no matter how much I cried and how I resisted, he still raped me. I cried all night that night. Later, as long as Aunt Zhang was not around, Wang Rong forced me to have sex with him.

One time, Zhang Ajie came back early from a business trip and saw Wang Rong riding naked on top of me, beating her husband and me angrily. Auntie said I was mean, and beat me hard that night. After that, Auntie Zhang's attitude towards me also turned 180 degrees. I brought bad luck to her family, saying that I was born to be a broom star, and I only brought disasters to others.Then, I was sent back to the orphanage.

My personality was originally quiet. After this incident, I became more quiet and introverted. Since then, I have found that I have a natural resistance and rejection towards the opposite sex. The more times I violated, the deeper my rejection and antipathy towards the opposite sex.

When I was 21 years old, I was a sophomore in the Academy of Fine Arts. I went to visit the dean of the orphanage on weekends. On the way back, I met a few hooligans. They saw that I was alone and wanted to rape me forcibly. Sister Xu Jing just arrived. Sister Xu Jing He has practiced Taekwondo, and he is also tall. Those gangsters were no match for Sister Xu Jing, and they were beaten and fled by Sister Xu Jing in no time. At that moment, I was full of infinite admiration and worship for Sister Xu Jing, and It was that night that I had a qualitative relationship with sister Xu Jing.

We are happy, but we are also in pain, because Xu Jing’s family background is very good, and her family will never allow her to find someone like me, nor can she accept the fact that her only beloved daughter is gay, Xu Jing dare not tell her family about this Everything, our relationship is also hidden. As sister Xu Jing is getting older, her parents are desperately helping Xu Jing find a partner. Because I always try to make the man quit in various ways, for this reason, sister Xu Jing's mother At that time, Sister Xu Jing and I were in great pain. Seeing Sister Xu Jing’s contradictions and struggling with pain, my heart ached. In order for her to find a man to marry with peace of mind, and to fulfill her parents’ wish, we I left Sister Xu Jing without saying a word, because at that time there was a boy with a very good family background in the Academy of Fine Arts who pursued me desperately and promised to take me to the United States. Because I wanted to break off the relationship with Sister Xu Jing, I agreed to the boy at that time and let him go. I went to the United States, but when I got there, the boy thought I was not enthusiastic and warm, so he turned to other girls, because without his financial support, I would soon face the crisis of dropping out of school and be alone. Shake, in order to earn my own tuition, I worked as a lead dancer in a club there. There, I met all kinds of men, and all these men wanted to take advantage of me. The violations of these men, the years of dancing there, I always think about sister Xu Jing, but I know that I can't contact her, because I know that once I contact her, all my hard work will be in vain. I don’t know if she’s doing well or not, and I don’t know if her thoughts have been diverted to others. I hope that she will be diverted, and that she can enjoy the happiness that a normal woman should have like many people, but from the emotional point of view In the end, I couldn't accept that she fell in love with someone else. I was contradictory and vented. My dance was more hearty than anyone else, and I danced harder than anyone else. No one knew. It was my full of thoughts, and others were just performing. , and only I am expressing my emotions, I am using my body language to express a thirst, a madness, my dance makes every customer who comes to this club extremely amazed, they like me, but they are constantly You are inferior to me. As a dancer in a club, you cannot get angry at customers' violations. I smile and dodge, but every night, there will always be some customers who are kneaded and blue. silt.During the few years there, countless bruises pinched by them were left on my chest, body, buttocks, and thighs. I completed my studies in the United States with a whole body of bruises.

? ? ? ? ? ?Not only did I finish my studies, I also saved a small amount of savings, but soon, I found that my body was getting weaker and weaker. I went to the hospital for an examination and found that I had uremia and couldn’t dance. The hospital is almost exhausted, so I can only rely on painting to earn a living. I know that my health is getting worse and worse, but I really want to see Xu Jing again before I die. I want to know how she has lived these years okay?

In April of this year, I went back to Jianghai City and met Xu Jing. I thought she might have forgotten me, but from the moment I saw her, I knew her pain these years. We hugged each other, laughed and cried , crying and laughing, when she found out that I had uremia, she never told me to give up, just like that, under her arrangement, I was admitted to this hospital, and I was going to have an operation soon. I don't know what the result will be, but I am satisfied to meet Sister Xu Jing in this life, to know and cherish her."

Miao Miao listened quietly to Ying Qing telling her own story. Miao Miao found that the corners of Ying Qing's eyes were all wet. Miao Miao was deeply shocked by Ying Qing's story. Suffering, suffering, and catastrophe, it is really insignificant to people who suffer from catastrophe. Ying Qing's words diverted Miaomiao's attention. These days, she no longer thinks about Jerry's divorce. She wants to take care of herself first. Go to him, meet him and hear him for yourself.

After staying in the hospital for two days, Miao Miao's body is basically fine.

Ying Qing arranged for surgery on Friday, but Xu Jing told Ying Qing that she had to go on a business trip for a week. Before Xu Jing left, she made an appointment with Miao Miao alone and begged Miao Miao to take good care of her when she was away. Ying Qing, Miao Miao saw Xu Jing's sincere eyes and comforted Xu Jing that she would definitely take good care of Ying Qing.

In order to take care of Ying Qing, Miao Miao called the president and asked for a few more days off. She also called her ex-husband and told herself that she had something to do on the weekend and couldn’t pick up her son. I called my mother and asked her to help pick up my son from school. Miaomiao’s parents, both in their 60s, were former employees of a state-owned enterprise. They are now retired and live in the suburbs of Jianghai City. live together.Miaomiao's mother's house is not far from the Harvard school where her son is studying, and his son Lili likes to visit her grandmother's house on weekends.

Because Xu Jing couldn't be seen before the operation, Ying Qing's mood suddenly became very unstable. Seeing Ying Qing like that, Miao Miao worried that Ying Qing's mood would be bad for the operation. Miao Miao temporarily forgot about her sadness, Patiently and meticulously comforting Ying Qing, and accompanied Ying Qing every step of the way, because of Miao Miao's care and care, Ying Qing's mood was a little more stable.

Ying Qing's operation went smoothly, and Ying Qing didn't see Xu Jing until the seventh day after the operation.

Seeing that Ying Qing was safe and sound, Xu Jing touched Ying Qing's face and smiled slightly. She looked very weak and her face was bloodless, as if she had suffered a serious illness. After reacting, she suddenly understood the reason for Xu Jing's weakness, because Jerry had told her about Xu Jing's thoughts, and Miao Miao was deeply moved by Xu Jing's nobility and Xu Jing's devotion without complaint or regret.

Seeing the pair of infatuated lovers cuddling each other, Miao Miao quietly exited Ying Qing's ward, although their relationship was like a flower blooming silently in a dark corner, without everyone's blessing and admiration , but Miao Miao felt that this flower was the most beautiful and the most colorful flower in the world. Miao Miao thought to herself: How many couples can be found who are as infatuated as they are even if they are heterosexual?
(End of this chapter)