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Chapter 169

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After school, my father began to pick up Shi Jiu on time. Since my sister-in-law was admitted to the mental hospital, my father continued to work.

Realistically speaking, without a car, Dad really has no money to repay the bank loan, not to mention, Luoluobei's land reclamation.

Why not have to live.

I sent Shi Jiu home first, and after handing over the car, my father looked at me and said, "Okay, your mother is back."

"Ah."

I nodded, feeling complicated in my heart, "That's good."

"Your third uncle should be at our house too. He knew about these things and persuaded me. Life is still going on. Is it possible that we can really get a divorce?"

Dad muttered, letting out a breath of cold air, "For so many years, Hongxia has worked hard for this family regardless of credit. Indeed, it is not easy... Well, are you talking about what Dad said?"

I hummed and didn't say much.

Correct!
Everything in the world is judged by people, only likes and dislikes, how can there be absolute right or wrong?
Mom has also been in an emotional turmoil for a while, and everyone knows that she will definitely not divorce Dad.

Perhaps the passage of time has caused Ye Hongxia to lose her mother-daughter affection for me, but she has a true affection for her father, which can be seen from heaven and earth.

From the time I came back to my home in Harbin, every day, no matter what time my father came home, my mother would always serve him hot meals. Whatever I ate and used, I would follow my father first.

If her father has a headache, she can take care of him all night long, urging him to pay attention to his body over and over again, even if it is the younger sister she loves the most, she will not listen to Ye Hongling say something wrong with her father!

From father's point of view, mother is really a good wife.

Just think about it, if it weren't for me, my parents and Zhu Hao would still be in harmony...

A family, even if life is a little bit difficult, is it considered to be in the same boat through thick and thin?

I listened to what my father said all the time, and my third uncle was sitting opposite my mother when I entered the room.

I don't know what the third uncle talked with my mother, but my mother still had tears all over her face, and she didn't say anything when she saw me.

He said hello to the third uncle, and then said in a low voice, "Mom, you're back."

I was born with a calm tone, as long as I saw my mother's face, I would think of her gritted teeth and said, you think beautiful...

I really can't forget every word, and I can't let it go.

Mom lowered her head and wiped her tears, wondering if she didn't hear me, and ignored me.

"Third brother, let's go out for dinner, I'll treat you..."

Dad felt helpless seeing this situation, he was about to go out, "I haven't been to a restaurant for a long time, what do you want to eat, third brother, let's have a good meal today..."

"What kind of food do you want to eat, what economic conditions do you still pretend to be this big... Dashan, I just said to come and see, I'm not an outsider, so don't be polite!"

The third uncle stood up as he said that, and patted his mother on the shoulder silently to comfort him, then looked at me in a blink of an eye, "Girl, uncle is going back to Mohe now, you are well, don't let adults worry about it."

"Third Uncle, you should leave tonight!"

Too hasty!
"Didn't I tell you on the phone all the time, I'll just leave in a few days. If the owner is not busy this time, I should have gone back."

The third uncle said, picking up the cloth bag that he carried with him, "I just don't trust your parents, so let me tell you a few words... okay, Hongxia, don't cry, the third brother knows that it is not easy for you, but so Haven’t you been here for a few years, the children are grown up, let me put the words here, wait for a few years, you will be able to enjoy the blessings, and Jingwei will be able to be filial to you in the future, the days are beautiful, you have to be happy just thinking about it... ..."

Mother lowered her face, raised her hand and kept wiping her tears, but didn't speak.

feel oppressed!

The third uncle didn't say much, and looked at Dad in a blink of an eye, "Dashan, don't keep arguing with Hongxia in the future, the couple, isn't it just you coaxing me, I coaxing you, life will go on, don't keep quarreling, I don’t know about you, is it because you taught gymnastics in the early years that your limbs are well-developed and you don’t have to turn your muscles, forget about good noodles, and speak straight, and quarrels will be quarrels in the future, don’t keep talking about divorce, it hurts people’s hearts!”

"No, third brother, it's mainly because Hongxia..."

Dad groaned, but swallowed the rest of the words!
Obviously!

The third uncle only knows that my parents quarreled, but I don't know the inside story, what did my mother say to me, why did my father want to divorce her after arguing with her...

But those things don't matter now. My mother is back, and I can live a good life with my father. If some bad things can be turned over, it will be a harmonious and beautiful one.

"Stop talking, it's all over!"

The third uncle waved his hands, looking like he was having a headache, "I think it's good for Xiaoying to stay in the hospital. After treatment, she can calm down a little bit, otherwise those who catch whoever bites will be easily beaten when they go out. Sooner or later Something went wrong, by the way, this is for you..."

While talking, the third uncle took out a thick cowhide envelope and put it on the coffee table, "There is 1 yuan in it, and I have a little heart."

"do not!!"

When the father saw this, he would put the envelope back to the third uncle, "Third brother, I can't ask for your money, and you have helped me a lot with family affairs, I..."

"For the kids!"

The third uncle emphasized his tone, "There is no need to call me! Dashan, both of your children have to go to school, and now you have a bank loan, and Xiaoying spends money on hospitalization. Although I am not related to you, but why? It is said that they are all Jingwei's masters, this is just my little thought...

But there is one thing I have to tell you clearly, if you encounter similar things again, if, if, don't think I'm unlucky, don't look for some messy gentleman outside, just listen to Jingwei, she That ability is beyond the reach of most fledgling gentlemen, I can guarantee it!Did you hear me? "

"..."

Dad nodded in embarrassment, "I know third brother, that kind of thing will be remembered long after one time, so there will be a next time."

"Success! Then I'm leaving!"

Dad wanted to send it off when he saw it, and the third uncle waved his hand, "No need to send it away, Dashan, you stay at home to coax Hongxia, don't think that old couples don't need to be transferred, you have to adjust this life, otherwise what's the point of living... ..."

"Third Uncle, I'll see you off!"

I went out with my third uncle with my schoolbag on my back, and my father was left at home by my third uncle, comforting my mother who was still sobbing softly.

……

In the alley, it was dim and dark, only Bai Xue was shining white, and it creaked when stepped on.

The third uncle kept looking at me, hesitant to speak, and after a while, he tentatively asked, "Girl, did your mother say something ugly... to make you feel wronged."

"No."

I smiled with the corners of my mouth open, the snow cotton is so good, it keeps the cold out, warms my feet, kicks the floating snow, and smiles seemingly heartlessly, "Third Uncle, I have a big heart, it's okay! Besides, I'm a little Baby, you have a lot of forgetfulness, it's not normal for parents to scold you a few words, small things..."

As I said that, I raised my eyes and said hey to him, "Third Uncle, where did you get that 1 yuan, you won't come back these few days, and I went to the park by myself to go around in circles, persisting for seven days and seventy-nine days Alright."

"Go away!"

The third uncle scoffed at me, "You haven't been in shape all day!"

Putting the cloth bag on his shoulders, the third uncle held the corner of his lips. He walked quietly all the way, and stopped at the entrance of the alley, "Girl, third uncle told you...your mother loves you very much, loves you very much..."

I was stunned for a moment, I didn't expect Third Uncle to say this suddenly, I nodded instinctively, "Yes, I know."

I can't tell what I feel in my heart, but of course I believe that my mother loves me.

only……

This love, probably has been pitiful.

In other words, she now only hates me.

I'm not good at covering things up. If I could see the truth, I would be desperate.

But with my mother, I really didn't even see the truth.

From the first day I arrived in Harbin, the feeling she conveyed to me was superfluous and contradictory!

Even if she smiled at me, it gave me a very polite feeling. I tried my best to get closer to my mother, but the sense of distance was still like an invisible gully, which I couldn't get through, but she didn't reach out.

It seems that they can only be neither far nor near, with their eyes facing each other, how can they be intimate?

The third uncle was not in a hurry to take a taxi, as if he had been trying to figure out what my heart was saying. After a while, he said ruthlessly, "Girl, let me tell you something. In fact, your mother has really paid a lot for you. Your father I also love you very much, do you know why there is Zhu Hao?"

"?"

I opened my mouth, "Raise a child to guard against old age."

"Just wish that kid Hao?"

The third uncle snorted, "Who can he provide for? I'm afraid it will be a problem for him to support himself in the future."

I lowered my eyes, "That's because of me. When I was young, I was in poor health. Aren't you afraid that I won't survive? Parents, it should be..."

"It's because of you!"

The third uncle emphasized his tone, "But it's not that you won't survive, no one will provide them with pensions, but your brother is here just so that you can survive!"

I didn't understand a little bit, listening to Uncle San continue——

"...Jingwei, when you were young, you had a fever twice every three days, and it didn't help if you sent it to Aunt Hei. The doctor said that you might suffer from a disease called thalassemia, and Aunt Hei said that you must get another one to keep the umbilical cord blood. , give you a rush! Your grandma got anxious when she heard it, and that's why... Some Zhu Hao, it's so strange. When your younger brother came out, although you were still sick, Aunt Hei gave you a local prescription It's fine if you take it under control, at least, it won't hurt your life, so you can grow up, understand?"

"It's because they are afraid that I will get seriously ill, so my parents..."

"It means you understand it!"

The third uncle sighed, "Hongxia, I really paid a lot for this family...Jingwei, uncle knows that you have grievances, but this is your home. Aunt Hei always said, if you can't stay anymore Go back, but I thought, even if you don’t succeed, let’s just be a little gentleman, so what if you don’t succeed? Who doesn’t feel bad when you go back and see you get whipped seven times and see you broken? But then again, you now… ...Do you still want to go back to Mohe?"

"..."

I hesitated for a moment, trying to talk back because of family affection, but it's different now, there is Lian Jun here.

Looking down at the snow cotton, can't go back!
"Look, there is still something you miss here!"

The third uncle seemed to understand me completely, "Girl, don't care who you want to stay here for, your parents are your important people, when your grandma is alive, the most fearful thing is that others will say that you are hard-pressed." , what she wants to see most is your family, happy... Do you understand what Uncle means?"

"Ah."

I whispered softly, with mixed emotions, "Third Uncle, tell Grandma to rest assured... I will definitely be filial to my parents. They have paid so much for me, and I will do my best to repay..."

"it is good!"

The third uncle sighed with some mixed feelings, didn't say much, turned around and stopped a taxi and left.

……

I went home full of worries, my mother must have been coaxed by my father, and she was cooking in the kitchen. White smoke came out of the chimney, warming slightly, and the small courtyard had been chilling for days.

Lifting my spirits, I walked into the kitchen and helped my mother peel the green onions, "Mom, if you need help, just tell me, I should learn to cook..."

My mother squinted at me, her eyelids were still swollen, and she didn't answer with a blank expression.

"Good?"

Dad came over to take a look when he heard the sound, and when he saw it, he showed a rare smile, "Why, are you going to learn how to cook?"

"It's time to learn."

I pulled the corners of my lips and smiled, "By the way, Dad, our teacher said that the school has a progress scholarship. As long as you can enter the top three in the class this final exam, there will be a cash reward, five thousand for No.1 and four thousand for No.2." , the third is three thousand..."

"Really, that's a good feeling!"

Dad glanced at my mother who was still turning the spatula, and watched me continue, "Then work hard and try to get into the top three! Our eldest girl will be fine!"

"Well, I'm definitely trying!"

My smiling face was a little stiff, and I didn't know if the range hood had been in disrepair for a long time. Here you are, you just keep it for my sister-in-law to pay the hospital bill."

"No, okay, you just..."

"Cats cry mice fake mercy."

Dad was chatting with me, and my mother threw out a sentence while frying the vegetables, and I paused when I was peeling the onion. Dad didn't hear clearly at the door, and looked at my mother in a daze, "Hongxia, what are you talking about?"

"Nothing."

My mother turned to look at me, "Well, don't you want to learn how to cook, I'll fry it for you..."

"Ah, okay."

I was patient and took my mother's spatula to stir fry. I was so stupid that I almost didn't turn out the dishes! !

Mom was not in a hurry, she just stood beside her, commanding with a blank expression, "Half a spoonful of salt, yes, don't put MSG, your father doesn't like that taste, and it's not good for your health... you can put green onions... Come out...hold it up, if you spill it, it will be fried for nothing..."

"Hongxia, take your time!"

When my father saw that my mother really let me go, he was a little anxious, "That thing can't be learned in a day!"

"I'm not teaching slowly."

My mother responded in a flat tone, and then began to direct me to wash the pot and prepare the next dish, "Don't cut the eggplant, it's better to break it and stew it, your dad doesn't like to eat cut... put oil in the pot, don't eat it." Hide, that bit of oil won’t kill you... Stir fry for a while and add water! Hey, it came out... so stupid... Gently flip up and down, don’t turn left and right..."

"Hongxia!!"

Dad wants to stomp his feet, "You still..."

"It's okay, it's okay!"

I was panicked to deal with this pot, and I had to grin my mouth wide to see my father smile, "I just like cooking! Mom is going to train me as a chef! I will definitely not be hungry in the future! Hehe, right, Mom! "

"..."

My mother didn't speak, she turned her body towards me, holding one side of her mouth weirdly, and the way she looked at me coldly made it uncomfortable for anyone!

I think she is angry...

it is good!
no problem!
I am willing to take all the responsibility!

As long as she is comfortable and satisfied, she has passed that hurdle, everything is just a matter of time!

Ah!
At least I think so!
……

However, many things cannot be solved by my wishful thinking.

I thought that if I try my best to get along and please, my mother will at least return to the way she was polite to me in the first place if she doesn't say that she will be a good person with me.

No.

She didn't seem to have changed anything with her father. After reconciliation, she was still the wife who loved Dad deeply and could share weal and woe with him.

To Zhu Hao, nothing changed, only to me.

Of course, she won't be scolding me, she won't be accusing me of being a loser, most of the time, her face towards me is numb and cold, as long as she talks to me, it must be housework, cooking...

The work that can be seen at home, gradually, is done by me.

"Okay, I have a little backache today. After dinner, go clean the dishes and clean up the kitchen..."

"it is good!"

"Well, your dad came back late tonight, just in time, you washed his work clothes after finishing your homework, the washing machine has broken down recently, you should put it a few more times, otherwise the washing powder will leave marks, which is ugly..."

"Row!"

"Well, you just have a rest today, and the stove is blocked again. If you have nothing to do in the afternoon, I have to go shopping. If you don't turn it on, it will be cold at night."

"but I……"

I wanted to say no, but I nodded vigorously, "Okay!"

That afternoon, I didn’t even recognize myself after I passed the stove. It was so dark that the brothers in Congo were ashamed of themselves!

Facing the mirror, I opened my mouth to amuse myself, looking at the teeth that had turned white several degrees, I wanted to cry but had no tears!
Zhu Hao didn't think he would help me with the work, and my mother didn't stop me, but I'm sorry. If I do some tasks by myself, I'll be done. As long as Zhu Hao intervenes, I'll be worthless!

After washing the dishes, you have to sweep the floor, and after sweeping the floor, you have to stack the small dry wood for the stove. If it is still early after stacking, then go to wipe out the kitchen hood. It must be clean !

It's like turning on the spinning top mode, and I want to nickname myself Xiaobingga!
As long as mother's soft-spoken little whip whips, the girls will have to spin non-stop immediately! !

Until Zhu Hao couldn't bear it anymore, he directly asked his mother if Zhou had stripped his upper body!

"My sister has caught up with the long-term maid, Mom, you are going too far..."

When he said this, my mother was still 'instructing' me how to handle a live fish braised in soy sauce, and when I heard Zhu Hao's words, I looked at him, "I haven't seen you love me so much before, if you don't want your sister to do it, then... Why don't you come? Do you cook dinner?"

Zhu Hao choked, "Mom, where can I cook, I think you..."

"You go back to the house!"

I threw out four words to tell Zhu Hao to stop. In fact, it’s okay to do more work. I just think of myself as a combination of work and rest. I just need to learn to use my brain, and I have to move my body!

Don't talk about it, after a period of exercise, my sister's physique has been greatly enhanced. You can climb trees with bare hands, mount flowers with a single knife, and have hydroelectric argon arc welding. As long as you open your mouth, I dare to talk to you!
As long as I exercise a little for a few days, I will be able to make it all by myself for the New Year's Eve dinner!

"What house am I going back to!!"

Zhu Hao held his breath, "Mom, how long has it been since the matter of the second aunt, and a hundred days will pass, even if you have a fire, you should let it go. Besides, does the matter of the second aunt have anything to do with my sister? You always..."

"What's wrong with me?"

My mother signaled me to clean up the fish scales, and she still looked at Zhu Hao, "Your sister is a girl, I am cultivating her self-care ability. If you don't know anything, you will have to suffer when you go to your in-law's house. If you are a girl , you have to learn these things, don’t treat my kindness as a donkey’s liver and lungs all day long, I’m not doing it for your sister..."

After finishing speaking, my mother put her hands on her knees, got up and went back to the house to watch TV. At the end, she lazily threw me a sentence, "Good! Watch the fire while stewing fish, it's delicious!!"

"Hey, mom..."

Zhu Hao was devastated, "Sister, I don't know my mother anymore..."

I didn't answer, I was still working on this fish seriously, and I had to go back to my room to study after I was done, and the final exam was about to happen, that was a big deal!
"Hey, sister..."

Zhu Hao came to me and knelt down, "How about I help you, you don't wear gloves, your hands are..."

"Don't be confused."

I motioned him to look at my mother's house, and I kept aiming, "I don't want to go to the courtyard gate to sweep snow and sprinkle soot, or to yard briquettes after finishing the fish. Your sister and I have to hurry up and study!"

Zhu Hao pursed his lips, knowing why I said that, he didn't dare to move his hands, "Sister, how about I talk to Dad?"

"Say what."

After I cleaned up the fish, I started to simply change the knife so that it could be marinated to taste. By the way, I cut up the onion, ginger and garlic. Zhu Hao followed me, "I said that mom is too much, and he can control it when he is at home. When he's not at home, Mom will tell you to die, it's a bit..."

"To die?"

I laughed, the word used, big ah!
My mother is worried about my father. If my father wants to be at home, I will wash the dishes and mop the floor. In my father's eyes, this is a job that a big girl can do normally.

If Dad is not at home and it happens to be my school holiday, then I will basically be useless during the day. Who would have thought that such a small house would have so many tasks that require you to work on!
Fortunately, it's not summer, otherwise the glass would have to be cleaned once a week!
Sometimes I am tired, and I really want my father to rest for two days. He should not be so busy, so that I can rest too.

Let's think about it later, forget it, in my eyes, that life is just drizzle, who are the sisters?

The reincarnation of Suzaku Xingjun, born with rigidity and incomparable strength!

Come on, I'm afraid of this? ! !
"Zhu Hao, you are too serious. Your sister and I are still alive and well. I have practiced for me for the past two months. As long as you give me the ingredients, there is no dish that your sister and I can't cook! Hey~嘿~"

"be careful!!"

Zhu Hao looked at my finger cut by the kitchen knife and exclaimed, "How many times is this! The apprentices in the back kitchen are not as miserable as you."

I calmed down, first rinsed my fingers under the water, took out a Band-Aid from my pocket and wrapped it on my fingers.

The edge of the knife is folded, and the Band-Aid has not been broken since learning to cook!
SO~ This thing must be carried with you.

"No, I have to tell Dad, why just..."

"Don't make trouble."

After I dealt with it, I continued with a dull head, "It's not easy for our family to return to calm these days, and Dad has a smile on his face now, so don't make trouble for you."

"But……"

"But what?"

I looked straight at Zhu Hao's brows and eyes, and pulled the corners of my lips, "I said it myself. If I want to learn to cook, my mother will teach me normally. Besides, it's normal to help my parents with some work, otherwise If it’s not, Mom has to do it herself, or Dad has to do it, and it’s not a big deal for me to share this.”

After I finished speaking, I turned my face away and continued. During this period of time, I called my grandma and my third uncle and said that the atmosphere at home is getting better. Dad can drink some wine and tell two jokes at the dinner table!

The third uncle and the eldest grandma were also very happy after hearing it, and they said, don't worry, this is what I want to see.

"Sister, don't you feel wronged..."

Zhu Hao suddenly asked, I stopped pouring the cooking wine, my eyes suddenly became sour, and the corners of my lips were still smiling, "Why are you wronged, your sister and I are enjoying ourselves, hey, look at this fish, this cooking wine is a bathing Water, scallions and ginger are its bath towels... I wash it, I wash it~ oh~ I will give it to Poet Zhu after taking a hot bath, I wash it..."

"...Walls separate us, windows connect us, and we need bigger windows, but don't want to get out of the walls."

Zhu Hao said steadily, indifferent to my actions, turned around, and he went back to his hut directly, "I want to become as easy as ashes in the transparent flame."

"Hey hey!"

I yelled at him in the kitchen, "Just remember, don't think about those miscellaneous things!"

I did the work, it's enough to make him depressed!

After adjusting my emotions, I understand Zhu Hao's thoughts, but this is life, and all I can do is continue!

That night, my father came back and praised my craftsmanship. I pursed my lips and smiled, trying to cover my cut fingers as much as possible, and obediently asked my father to eat more.

The bright lights in the house shone on the faces of a family of four with different expressions, and I was suddenly in a trance. This is what I want 'happy family? '

Where is happiness?

It is said in "To Live" that to live, as a word, is full of power in language, and its power does not come from shouting or attacking, but to endure, to endure the responsibilities given to us by life, to endure the responsibilities given to us by reality Happiness and misery, boredom and mediocrity.

Third uncle, I really tried my best to maintain the relationship with my mother through experience, but why, I am becoming more and more powerless to live.

(End of this chapter)