Reborn Totalitarian Queen

Chapter 775 Allow me to marry the woman I like! (4)
As Yin Zhan spoke, he suddenly laughed at himself.

Reflecting the dim candlelight, there seemed to be some undulating water in his eyes, which contained great pain.

He raised his hand and touched her cheek lightly with his warm fingers, but he still said slowly as if he was talking to himself: "Tell me, did he deliberately deceive me while I was young and ignorant? He was afraid I went to fight with Lao Liu, fearing that I would disturb the world and destroy the century-old foundation that the Yin family has painstakingly managed, so I made such a condition to stabilize me?"

"He is your father." Song Chuxi said.

It has to be said that at this moment, she panicked.

She has never seen Yin Zhan like this before. This man seems to be calm and self-possessed no matter what. In his heart, he seems to have a clear direction anytime and anywhere. He will never be confused and always know what he is doing.

But this dazed and helpless man in front of him also caused Song Chuxi to be in a mess, and he didn't know how to appease him.

"Because he is my father, he knows me so well, so he can manipulate me more conveniently." Yin Zhan said, and then he smiled uncontrollably, "At that time, he asked me if I wanted this country, Would you like to be the lord of the world? I was only young at that time, and I was really unwilling to be bound by that, so he promised me that if I don't want this throne, then he will allow me to marry you in the future He will never interfere with the woman I like."

"At that time—" Song Chuxi knew where his resentment came from, but he didn't expect that he would directly blame the first emperor for this.

"Yeah!" Yin Zhan smiled wryly again, "He actually didn't intend to deceive me with empty hands, he planned two ways for me at that time, even if I told him that I If he wants to be the emperor, he will immediately send an order to the Cheng family, who holds a heavy army and guards the important area in the western border, to appoint the daughter of the Cheng family as a concubine for me in exchange for the Cheng family's support. At that time I just don't want to, I just don't want to put myself into that cold cover, why? Why does he want me to wrong myself and guard his country for him? At that time, I always felt that something was wrong It is worth my compromise and struggle. For so many years, I have never regretted that I missed this throne, but now, why am I suddenly confused, and suddenly I don’t know that I chose this path in the first place? For what."

His palm lightly touched her cheek, that kind of careful touch, as if he was afraid of breaking a precious glazed treasure.

Song Chuxi met his eyes, but when he opened his mouth a few times, his throat felt congested and he couldn't speak.

She knew exactly where Yin Zhan's deep resentment came from, but——

She couldn't give him any guarantee and response.

"Then what do you want to do now?" Finally, Song Chuxi reluctantly asked.

"I don't know." Yin Zhan blurted out, paused, and rubbed his palm against her face again, "I can no longer see the road in front of me clearly, I don't know where to go, and I don't know where to go." I know where I will go all the way. Shaorong, maybe you should tell me now, what should I do next, or what should I do?"

What should he do?
The only thing he wants to do is to get close to her and get her.

But she didn't agree, didn't cooperate, and suddenly, the road ahead was vast, and he completely lost his direction.

He looked at her, almost unable to hide the pain in his eyes.

Song Chuxi has always known that since he sticks to it until today, she already has a huge obsession with this matter in her heart. Seeing him like this, she also feels a lot of embarrassment and guilt, but——

She didn't want to lie to him.

"Then—what do you want me to do?" Finally, Song Chuxi said.

He took his hand, grasped his fingertips in his palm, and raised his head to meet his gaze without avoiding it, "Why me? Why do you have to make yourself so painful? You knew from the beginning, except My mother and Su Lan, I don't have the extra energy to put anyone else in my heart. Whether it's your identity or your love, I don't deserve it and I can't pay it back. Why do you have to fall headlong without hesitation? Come in?"

"It's been 12 years, and I've asked myself this question countless times, but the situation in front of me is still like this." Yin Zhan let out a sigh of self-deprecating, and looked at her with deep pain on his face. Helpless, "When you married Yin Shao, I was determined to let go. Six years ago, the news of your death spread, but I knew that I would never get out. I don't know why I let myself become It looks like this, but every time I think about the old things, I am glad that when you followed me to the battlefield for the first time, I didn't let you die under the cold arrows of the enemy's spear."

He would rather bear the pain all the time, than she didn't exist from the beginning, even if he only regarded her as a burden from the beginning.

During those three years, they supported him through life and death, and never gave up. This woman's courage and tenacity shocked him little by little, and moved him. He never thought of taking her under his wings and protecting her thoroughly. , I just feel that it is very enjoyable and wonderful to have her by my side and to be able to do something together.

It was obviously a purgatory battlefield with blood-stained yellow sand, but what I cared more about in my memory was the smoldering smoke when two people sat in the tent and played chess games every day at dusk.

To be honest, although Liao Rongsha was also beautiful at that time, she was not the kind of woman who would surprise people at first glance. It's just that he had never met another woman who could be like her in the prosperous and prosperous world. There is always a bright and beautiful woman in high spirits between her brows.

He likes her stamina and stubbornness, sometimes even arrogant.

I always feel that this woman is extremely special, once aroused the desire to conquer in his blood, but in the end it gradually evolved into a crazy obsession.

He doesn't care whether she is dignified or not, and doesn't care what kind of background and burdens she carries, just because he has already identified her among all living beings, and at a glance, there will be no one else.

He had never had the chance to tell her all these things, but now that he had the chance, it seemed that the time had passed and the situation had changed.

It's just that his words have reached this point, but Song Chuxi has nothing to say, and is blocked speechless.

She lowered her eyes, not to touch the crazy flood of eyes in his eyes anymore.

"Why can't you try to love?" Yin Zhan asked: "Not everyone who can be related to you will become your burden, why make yourself so tired and take everything on you, Do you carry it on your own shoulders?"

(End of this chapter)