Steal Sheng

Chapter 41 Where to Go
The sky was slightly bright, and the sun shone through the window, hitting the left half of Xiao Sheng's face.Her eyebrows frowned slightly, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and she stretched out her arms to cover her eyes.

At Zhen's house, as soon as the egg whites appeared in the sky, Mama Bai had already stewed chicken soup, and Xu Ning also bought a thermos.When the sixth watch arrived, they had prepared three dishes and one soup and put them in the thermos that Xu Ning had just bought.

"Ning, I'm going to work. These, and these, are all ready and packed. Hurry up and send them to Sheng'er and Chuan'er while they're hot." Mother Bai was already changing her shoes and getting ready to go out while giving orders.

"Okay! I'll see you off, it's time." Xu Ning reached out to support her.

"No need, I can take the car in time, you hurry to the hospital and bring them some daily necessities on the way." As soon as she finished speaking, she had already hurried out.

Xu Ning stood at the door of the house and watched her sister's background gradually fade away, and the red sun in the east was already shining brightly.He raised his head and glanced at the direction of the light, the light that shines on the world seems to be trying to compete with it, the dazzling light is getting hotter and hotter, so hot that he can't open it at all and doesn't stop, it continues to shine on him crazily .

Light represents light; it is the opposite of darkness, it always represents hope and the future; but is it really so?Why is it not allowed to look directly?

Xu Ning stood there blankly for a while, then went into the room quickly, picked up the thermos, and went out.

On the morning of June, the weather was hot and uncomfortable, Xu Ning opened the car window, and a breeze blew by, messing his hair and heart.In the days to come, how should he face the sweet people in front of him every day, a strong irritability suppressed his whole heart, as if he was tightly grasped by a big hand, and the gap between his fingers was already Bleeding, but the heart is still beating wildly; the hand is fighting against the heart, the hand wants to hold the heart to death, but the heart is beating desperately, even faster and faster, so fast that it makes the hand feel numb pain.

The car soon came to the gate of the hospital, but Xu Ning didn't get out of the car directly to go in.He silently lit a cigarette and sat in the car to smoke it, looking out the window towards the direction of the hospital.As if staring at the window of a certain ward, just staring intently like that, the eye sockets became moist again.With a wry smile, he wiped the corners of his eyes, picked up the thermos and strode towards the ward.

Bai Yu woke up early in the morning and saw Xiao Sheng frowned, sat up gently from the accompanying bed, and pulled the curtains, the dazzling light was completely blocked behind a thin layer of curtains.It turns out that pulling up the curtains is more direct and effective than covering our eyes with our arms, just like when we encounter annoying things or people, we choose Jedi resistance and don’t give bad things any chance to breed; it’s more childish than choosing to suffer in silence Those who think that they can influence them have a much better effect.In fact, one is indulgence and the other is punishment, it depends on your choice.However, sometimes the people and things we face make us unable to be cruel enough to punish, and we are too physically and mentally exhausted to indulge. The deep sense of powerlessness may only be felt by those who have experienced it personally!

One thought of heaven, one thought of hell; one thought of life, one thought of death.She had no choice, she was exhausted, her whole body was riddled with holes; she didn't want to let herself rot in the mud and let others trample on her.There is a good saying: If you are weak, everyone can step on you and spit on you; if you are strong, everyone will fear and fear you, and treat you with care.In fact, she doesn't like to be the kind of person who is carefully guarded by others, but she still chooses the latter.

The door of the ward was gently opened, and at a glance, two people under the bed were seen.The air conditioner was on in the room, and they lay face to face, she with her arms over her eyes, and he with his arms under his neck.

"I'm sorry, you two slobs," Xu Ning frowned slightly when he saw such a warm scene, but was shivered by a gust of air-conditioning wind, and immediately woke up.

"Ah, uncle is here, what time is it?" Bai Yu pulled out the arm under the neck, raised half of his body and looked towards the door.

"7:50," he said, glancing at his watch.

Xiao Sheng also gently removed the arm covering his eyes and said in doubt: "It's already 7:50? Why didn't I feel the dawn at all?"

"Because you slept in a secret room," Xu Ning pointed to the window.

Xiao Sheng looked at the window, and suddenly thought of that dazzling light, and knew that it was Bai Yu who pulled up the curtain.It turns out that only a thin layer of cloth curtains can cover all the light, can it also be possible to use a thin layer of cloth to cover all the darkness?

Bai Yu had already gotten up and went to the bathroom to wash up, Xu Ning was serving rice there with his back to Xiao Sheng, still talking about how long the chicken soup had been boiled, the vegetables were from his own vegetable garden, and the rice was very soft.

He helped him roll up the hospital bed, lifted the dining table, and put all the meals in front of her one by one. The instant aroma of the food rushed to her nose along with the heat. She took a deep breath and exhaled again. He looked at her and said with a smile, "It smells so good! So happy!"

Her smile was bright and sweet, and her hair was a little messy, but she looked like another kind of beauty, which made people want to protect her.Xu Ning stared at her blankly, the heart started again, beating wildly again, as if it was about to pop out.With the rice bowl in his hand, he leaned over and looked up at her smiling face. She straightened her body and greeted his warm eyes heartily; at that moment, he wanted to freeze time forever.

The strong beating of the heart pulled him back from the distant fantasy.He moved his eyelashes in embarrassment, put down his rice bowl, raised his body, and slowly retreated to the accompanying chair behind him.Said: "Eat it while it's hot, you'll feel sick to your stomach if you eat it when it's cold."

"Yeah!" She still looked at him with a bright smile.

"Why are you looking at me?" Xu Ning's heart, disturbed by her smile, couldn't beat normally. Coupled with the damn hot eyes, he was almost unable to breathe, and subconsciously unbuttoned a shirt.

"I won't call you uncle from now on, I'll call you Teacher Xu Ning!"

'Boom' a thunderbolt from the blue.Xu Ning opened his mouth hard, but couldn't say anything.Could it be?Can't!He looked at her bitterly and smiled, lowered his head and covered his eyes with the palm of his hand, and inserted his fingers deeply into his hair. No one knew how much bitterness and unwillingness were in his cloudy eyes, and there were tears all over his body. Tired feeling of powerlessness.

"Hey, what's the matter? Didn't sleep well last night?" Bai Yu asked after seeing him bury his face in his hands after washing.

Hearing Bai Yu's voice, he rubbed his eyes with his palms and raised his head.

"Oh my god, your eyes are so red? Why did you go last night?" Bai Yu looked into his eyes in surprise.

"Maybe I didn't sleep well, I had a dream all night."

She also looked up at him, her suspicious eyes made him flustered: "I'm leaving first, there will be classes later, you eat slowly, you must finish eating. Huh?" He fled in despair.

He ran downstairs to the hospital in one breath, looked back at the direction of the ward, took out a cigarette and sat in the car for a long time.Buried her whole face on the steering wheel, the car sang the single [Rangling] that she wrote for her when she won the championship on a loop:
breeze caresses the clouds
The heart is rippling and the jade is clear

All day floating layer
Enthusiastic Sound Dream Seeker

leading edge meeting
There is a doomed soul

Draw a circle to stop the hand and circle the heart
Play a song and sing it to you, sing it to me
breeze caresses the clouds
look how frivolous that young

All day floating layer
Say goodbye to the past and talk about the future
edge scattered
Sincerely paid for my sweetheart

Draw a circle to stop the hand and circle the heart
Play a song and sing it to you, sing it to me
Tears filled his eyes, wet the steering wheel, and greasy on his face. He looked up and laughed out loud, took out a piece of tissue and wiped it in front of the mirror.Seeing himself in the mirror with red eyes and a bitter face like a poor little daughter-in-law, he laughed again.

"I was in the bathroom just now, what did you talk about with your uncle?" Bai Yu raked the rice into her mouth hungrily, asking her casually.

She groaned, drinking the chicken soup back to normal in an instant, and said: "I told my uncle why the food was delivered. We can go to the hospital cafeteria to get food by ourselves. It's very convenient. I don't want him and my godmother to take care of me so hard. I am already very sorry that you are here with me."

"Oh!" He was eating seriously without looking up.

While in the bathroom, he clearly heard her telling him that she would stop calling him uncle and call him Teacher Xu Ning.Why?Could this be the reason why she refused to confess herself in the first place?The person she likes is actually Xu Ning, not herself?Two tears fell into the rice bowl, he looked at the two tears on the rice in a daze for a moment, then vigorously mixed it with the rice with chopsticks, and ate it in big mouthfuls.

She glanced at him secretly, and saw the corners of his eyes glowing with white light, his cheeks were wet, and his heart throbbed violently, as painful as if being hollowed out by a big hand.All along he and he, the warm current they gave her has been gathered in that heart, and now it is leaking out.

"Brother Bai Yu." She put down her rice bowl, looked up at him, and called out to him, but he stopped him: "Huh? Finished eating? Okay, I'll take it and let you lie down and rest."

"not me."

"Oh, that's right, that, I have a class this morning, it's about that [Yue], they are going to compete on stage in half a month, I have to hurry up and help them rehearse well to ensure that they can get good grades. "

"Oh, that"

"Then I'll leave first. You have a good rest. I'll take these dishes and chopsticks away. Let Xu Ning take them back when I get off work at night. I'll come to see you after get off work. You should obediently listen to the doctor and take a good rest. Get out of bed and run around, you know?"

"Okay, Brother Bai Yu, I"

"See you tonight, bye!" Bai Yu quickly disappeared into the ward with the thermos in hand.

Xiao Sheng opened his mouth wide and looked at the door that was closed with a 'bang', but couldn't say anything.She just wanted to say to him, 'Thank you for your hard work! 'He kept preventing her from saying it.She knew what was thinking in his heart, she knew what he was avoiding, but he didn't know what was thinking in her heart.

They all left, leaving her quietly alone in the ward.In fact, she has been in the hospital for several days. She just drank a few sips of water, and she was not terminally ill. She should have been discharged from the hospital yesterday, but it was only because they found them and brought those people over, which delayed the whole day.Now, she should go!
A person has lived in that family for so many years, and a person has lived under their care and care for so many years.Now that she suddenly decides to leave, she still has a lot of reluctance; she doesn't want to part with her grandparents, her godmother, her brother Bai Yu; she doesn't want to part with Xu Ning, brother Xu Ning.However, no matter how much reluctance she has, she still has to leave; she said that she wants to be herself, no matter how much she pays, even if she still lives in a mess after leaving, even worse than now, She is leaving too.

Moreover, she had to leave too!She couldn't just watch either of the two of them suffer because of herself.Xu Ning's performance today once again verified his guess that he could no longer stay by their side.She loves Bai Yu very much, but she doesn't want to hurt Xu Ning, let alone the two of them hurt their feelings because of her.

Goodbye, brother Bai Yu.

Goodbye, Brother Xu Ning.

Goodbye, godfather and godmother.

Goodbye, grandparents.

Farewell, Xiao, Sheng!
She changed out of her hospital gown and put on the white dress that Bai Yu bought for him.After Xu Ning and the others left that day, he found that her clothes were stained with a lot of dirt from drowning, and he couldn't wash them off. Knowing that she didn't like hospital gowns, he went out and bought her his favorite white dress.

Tie a ponytail and look at your face in the mirror.I have gained weight in the past few days, and my face is flushed again. It is because of their good care.In addition to eating and sleeping every day, how can I not gain weight!Coupled with the release of a lot of mood, this face is no longer the same as before, and now it is really a lotus, white and red, beautiful!She laughed!

If life is only as it was first seen, why is the autumn wind sadly drawing a fan.The sun outside was scorching hot like a ball of fire, shining on her body was burning hot, what should she do?

(End of this chapter)