Steal Sheng

Chapter 34 There is no more sorrow than death

Xiao Sheng's tears swayed recklessly like beads with a broken thread, blurring both eyes and heart.She could still hear Bai Yu's calling clearly behind her, and could feel his disappointment and sadness, but what could she do?Now I am determined not to soften my heart, determined not to look back, determined not to fly into his arms.She can't do anything, she can only run away like this, can only cruelly make her beloved brother Bai Yu sad, and can only leave him alone in the restaurant like this, because she is just a clown, and one has not been found yet. The ghost of the soul.

There was a severe colic in the heart, shortness of breath and discomfort, numbness in the palms of the hands, and tremors all over the body.She can't run anymore, she can't catch her breath, she feels like she is about to die, is it the reason for running?She stood still and tried to calm herself down. After about 2 minutes, she found that not only did she not get better, but her breathing became more uncomfortable, just like standing on the top of Mount Everest.

I have never been so desperate like today, even if my parents told me to leave, I was never so desperate.She let the night devour herself bit by bit, sitting outside the factory area, reluctant to go in.Did I suffer from some kind of terminal illness, why did I feel so uncomfortable to breathe, and when I thought of this, big drops of tears rolled down my eyes, crying like a fool.I haven't lived a day for myself, I haven't really realized my dream, I haven't felt the beauty of love, I still have too many things to do, why the world treats me so unfairly.

"Brother Bai Yu, brother Bai Yu, what will you do if I die? You must live well. Sheng'er loves you too, very much, very much. From the first sight that year, I was sure that the person in front of me was my sweetheart."

When she returned to the dormitory, she covered herself completely in the quilt. The dormitory was not as good as her brother's house. It was hot in summer and cold in winter, and there were so many people she didn't like.Her heart was already overwhelmed, and her face was still pretending to be nonchalant. She hated herself and the environment so much. Why couldn't she have a place where she could let herself vent? Why?She wanted to yell hysterically, to yell out all the pain and unwillingness in her heart, she felt as if her chest was being pressed by a mountain and she couldn't breathe.

I don't want to die!Even if I live like a maggot, even if I live like a puppet or a puppet, I don't want to die.

Why should my life be at the mercy of others?Why should my life obey fate?I want to resist, even if I am an enemy of the whole world!I want to be myself, I don't believe they really don't love me at all!If it is true, I will leave here forever!

I'm sorry, brother Bai Yu!
The night came silently, gently hugging the city into his arms.The lights like fireflies flow endlessly, illusory and flashy, more ethereal and disturbing than the city in the daytime.

The food stalls on the side of the road were full of men and women taking supper. Bai Yu sat alone in the corner and shouted: "Wine! Waiter, drink!"

"I'm sorry, sir, you've already drank a case of beer, and you can't drink any more." The waiter saw beer bottles all over the table and on the floor, and the young man just drank a whole case of beer without eating. He was really worried.

"Are you afraid that I won't give you money? I have plenty of money!" As he spoke, he went to find his wallet and threw it on the table.

"No, no, sir, you really drank too much. You, give me your mobile phone, and I'll make a call for your family to pick you up!" The waiter looked at his mobile phone and stretched out his hand.

"Marry? Well! My family, man, man, married, can't drive! There is only one alien, crooked, who can drive, so call him, an outsider!" He said incoherently. It took me a long time to speak clearly.

"You mean to call an outsider? Yes, tell me which number it is, and I'll call it for you." The waiter finally straightened out what he meant.

Bai Yu tapped a number on his phone and asked the waiter to pick it up, and then he got down on the ground.The waiter glanced at the phone and looked up at him with a surprised expression, but he was completely unconscious, so he dialed the phone bravely. When he hung up, the word 'rival in love' was displayed on it.

The moment Xu Ning received the call, the one who just wanted to scold him for confessing his love didn't want to go home?But when he heard a stranger's voice on the other end of the phone, and then heard that Bai Yu got himself drunk and lay unconscious in someone's shop, he couldn't help worrying, he couldn't know anything from the waiter's mouth.Grabbed the key and got into the car quickly, and the car drove out at a high speed with one kick of the gas pedal.

With the sound of disc brakes, Xu Ning quickly got out of the car and trot into the store: "Hello, I'm that one, someone from your side called me just now! Come pick him up!"

The waiter looked at Xu Ning who was so anxious and nervous, and thought to himself, this is not like a rival in love, it is clearly a good friend.

Seeing the waiter rubbing the top of his head, Xu Ning looked at himself suspiciously, and suddenly realized: "Oh, maybe it was not you who called me just now, but another waiter. In this way, you are busy with your work, so I will go in and look for it myself." Can!"

"Oh! It's me, it's me. I called you. Your friend is at table 7. I just wonder why you are worried about a rival in love, and why would he find a rival in love to pick him up." The waiter still rubbed desperately. Tilting the top of his head, as if he wanted to rub his head out to have a look.

"What? Rival in love?" Xu Ning frowned strangely.

"That's right! When I called you on his mobile phone, the name saved on it was: Rival in Love!" The waiter explained seriously.

"Stinky boy, what do you know?!" Xu Ning glanced at the waiter and motioned for him to pick him up, muttering to himself.

From a distance, he could see Bai Yu lying on his stomach on table No. 7, surrounded by beer bottles, he looked like a dead dog.He shook his head and went forward to shake him: "Bai Yu, Bai Yu! Wake up, go home." But he couldn't wake up at all, he was still muttering drunken words, and there was vomit residue on his white shirt. Disgusting.Who would have thought that this drunk sleeping on the street was a suave, handsome Henry who was in hot demand a few hours ago.

Xu Ning simply dragged him up. Seeing this, the waiter hurried forward to help, and with the support of two people, he dragged him into the car and threw him on the back seat.He thanked the waiter and got in the car to go home. Bai Yu woke up suddenly, grabbed his arm from behind and said, "Don't go, don't go! Why do you want to go, why?"

Xu Tran sat quietly, and saw Bai Yu crying from the rearview mirror.

When he got home, he helped Bai Yu take off his dirty clothes, slowly put him on the bed, covered him with the quilt, poured another glass of water and put it on his bedside table before going out.It was early morning after returning to the room, but he was no longer sleepy, so he poured a glass of wine and drank it.After so many years, I have never dared to confess, because I was afraid that I would have the same experience as Bai Yu today.Maybe you can't even be friends after you refuse in person, it's better to be friends for a lifetime, so that you won't lose it for a lifetime, which is another kind of happiness.But why should she reject him?Obviously everyone can see that she likes him, isn't it to the point of love?This night is destined to be sleepless.

The morning light is faint, and the protein is slightly exposed.The clouds gathered in the sky like they were going to a market, as if soaked in blood, showing a faint red color.

Mother Bai was cooking breakfast in the kitchen as usual. Bai Yu, who had just woken up, paused when she saw her mother's busy figure. Sheng'er in front of her was wearing her mother's apron, making breakfast quickly in the kitchen, while looking at her. Feel free to yell 'I'm all up, if you don't get up, you will be late! ' She saw that she was already standing at the door of the kitchen, she rolled her eyes and said, 'Why don't you go wash up, what are you doing there stupidly? 'Suddenly happily stepped forward and hugged her tightly.

"What's the matter with you, brat, what's wrong with you this early in the morning?" Mama Bai said, patted his back, almost out of breath from being hugged by him.

Only then did Bai Yu realize that the person in front of him was his mother: "Mom?! I'm sorry, I, I just feel sorry for you when you work so hard every day to make breakfast."

"Come on! Get out!" Bai Mama said with a petting smile.

Xu Ning watched Bai Yu go to the bathroom to wash up in a daze, and followed him: "What happened last night?"

He slightly raised his head to look in the mirror, with a toothbrush still in his mouth, and said, "What's the matter?"

"Last night, I was drunk at the roadside stall and shouted 'Don't go!'" Xu Ning said with a deadpan expression.

Bai Yu was obviously taken aback for a moment, and then said casually: "As you wish, the confession failed! Next, you go! I have already cleared me, who is in the way, for you."

"Don't make trouble!" He still looked at him blankly: "Don't be too sad, I can see that she likes you very much, it must be that you confessed too suddenly and scared her, give her some time."

"Xu Ning, tell me honestly, do you like her!" Bai Yu took out the toothbrush from his mouth and spat out a mouthful of foam.

"I told you not to make trouble, it's nothing!"

"Then why are you so nice to her?"

"because of you!"

"because I?"

"Yes, because she is the one you love deeply."

"Really?"

"Of course it's true. Do you think I'm lying? People call me uncle as you like. Don't I want to show the love of my elders!" Standing there like a recorded robot.

"But she rejected me. She said no, no, and ran away. No matter what I called her, she ignored me." Bai Yu said dejectedly.

"She may not be ready to reply to you. All this is carefully arranged for you, but it is too sudden for her."

"I hope like you said, I don't know how to face her anymore!"

"As always, don't bring up what happened last night and give her time to digest."

"All right!"

A sharp bell rang all the girls, and the pool and dormitory became busy in an instant.Xiao Sheng appeared in front of everyone again with big red and swollen eyes. As usual, no one cared whether she had red eyes or green eyes. What everyone cared about was time, eating, and going to work.She washed up in a hurry and continued to work as if nothing happened.

"Dinglingling" a sharp cell phone rang when she was about to go to the workshop.

The two characters 嚚字 are displayed on the mobile phone.

"Hey!"

"Damn girl, why didn't you send the money back? Do you want to see your brother dead before you are reconciled! You, now, immediately, bring the money back to me!"

"I don't have any money, I gave all the money to you, how can I have any money!"

"Damn girl, your wings are stiff, right! So many of your colleagues have borrowed them, and you just want to see your brother die, right? Let me tell you, if you don't come home by noon today, I will go to your factory to find you The leader borrows your salary."

"You are so ruthless! You wait for me, I will go back!"

"Wouldn't it be better if I said that earlier? It's cheap, I'm looking for scolding!"

Sadness is greater than heart death, what Xiao Sheng is talking about is Xiao Sheng's mood at this time, her eyes are red but she can't see a single tear.Immediately dialed a phone call to the director to ask for leave, the director cursed on the phone and refused to approve the leave, so she left anyway.

Sitting in the car and looking at the scenery along the way outside the window, it seems that I haven’t walked this road many times in so many years, so that I don’t know how beautiful its scenery is.The sycamore trees that retreat all the way as the car advances are so beautiful, the dark green leaves are very lush, and the leaves of the sycamore trees on both sides of the road facing each other overlap together, like a pair of inseparable Couples are generally close.Together, they keep out the stinging sunlight, like a couple protecting a child, trying their best to keep the tyrannical villain away.Plants understand love and affection, why don't her parents understand?Her eye sockets were red again.

As the car drove all the way, her heart became colder and colder. The closer the road ahead was to her destination, the more desolate she became.

Do you still want to do this?Do you want to continue like this?Does she really want to be wantonly deprived by them for the rest of her life?
Living like an ant every day is better than dying.

(End of this chapter)