Mysterious country

Chapter 529 Liu Yanmin's Decision
(This month, Yixiao will still try to update 3 times. In the last hour of last month, the monthly pass was exceeded by the people behind. To be honest, I was very unhappy. I have written a book for four years, and I have nothing to say. But for this monthly list of supernatural beings, if I want to compete, I will fight for this month. I want a monthly ticket this month, please vote for the country. Please support my friends.)
As the saying goes, if there is the first time, the second time is inevitable, and if there is the second time, then it will be natural.

Xia Qi had always had a string stretched before him, and there was a firm principle standing there, but after he ate the fat man and the monkey successively, it can be said that his principle has been completely destroyed by himself.

Although he didn't regret what he did, the desire for blood, for human flesh and blood, has become his "drug addiction", which has been bothering him these days.

He used to eat two apples and two bites of tomatoes when he was hungry, although it was not as good as big fish and meat, but at least it tasted a little bit, so that he would not be eating like now. Not only did his mouth feel dry, but his heart was very conflict.

Resistance, to put it bluntly, means that he is no longer willing to accept the status quo of being a vegetarian in his heart, or in other words, he can no longer resist the desire to eat human flesh and blood with willpower alone.

If this is just a spiritual need, then he can still press it down with his own perseverance, but in fact this is no longer a mental problem, but a problem related to his body.

After swallowing the monkey and the fat man, he obviously felt that his strength had increased a lot, and even the ghost energy reserves in his body had increased to a certain extent.

This undoubtedly shows that devouring flesh and blood has greatly promoted his strength. If he continues to develop like this, he can complete the strengthening of himself without even needing honor points.

There are huge benefits here, but the disadvantages are equally obvious.

Because he kept suppressing that desire, he still insisted on eating tomatoes and apples every day. However, he felt that his physical strength had dropped rapidly in the past few days, and he was out of breath even after walking a few steps.

I was listless every day, so sleepy that I couldn't keep my eyes open, it was really like quitting drugs, not only mentally tortured, but also physically resistant.

If monkeys and the others encountered his situation, then all the problems would not be a problem. After all, it is hard to find three-legged toads, but the world is full of two-legged humans, so if you want to solve this problem, catch a few toads. Just eat it personally.

But Xia Qi is not a monkey or the like. He is not the kind who will kill innocent people by all means in order to make himself stronger or to satisfy his own desires.

His body has become less like a human being. If even his behavior and thoughts have become less like a human being, then what is the difference between him and ghosts, and monkeys and those vicious scum?
This can be said to be his moral bottom line. He cannot cross this line, but this line is pressing against him step by step.

This is no longer a question of whether he can control it, because he finds that whenever he encounters danger, this desire to kill will become stronger, and even reach the point of dominating his body.

So now he is very afraid of facing this reality, and he can't accept it at all, so he has been in a strong struggle recently, and he can't extricate himself.

Inserting the remaining cigarette butts into the ashtray, Xia Qi sighed with a headache, looked at the gray sky outside the window, and explained to himself:

"Let's take one step at a time, otherwise... so what?"

Xia Qi has Xia Qi's worries, as for Liu Yanmin, he also has a knot in his heart that he can't get around.

Except for today in the shopping mall, when he coyly said something from his heart to Leng Yue and Xia Qi, at other times, he didn't mention anything about what happened last time.

It's not that he feels that the incident last time didn't affect him, it's just that he's fine just being rescued, but he feels that he has no face to talk to Xia Qi and the others about the incident last time.

Because in retrospect, the role he played in it was really embarrassing.

Everyone is fine, but he was taken away. If they weren't lucky enough, they would have died because of his incompetence.

At that time, Zhao Jingshu used magic potion to recover his injuries, but the monkey attacked him sneakily, and he almost had no chance to resist, so he was seriously injured by the monkey. If Xia Qi hadn't come to rescue in time, I'm afraid Zhao Jingshu would have died tragically in front of him. maybe.

He and Xia Qi can be said to be the first to know each other among these people besides Leng Yue. Thinking that Xia Qi was still protected by him back then, he was still one of the indispensable fighting forces among the crowd.

But now?As a ghost, he can't be a pioneer, can't be a pioneer, can't be an assistant, and his mind is still very average. He can't do everything. Apart from whining and complaining about Xia Qi to make a sense of existence, he is no longer among the crowd. There is room for it.

In other words, he could no longer find his value among the crowd.

In a team, if even the minimum value is lost, what's the point of staying?
Although Xia Qi and the others don't think he is a burden, they completely regard him as Liu Yanmin's friend, as long as he is in trouble, everyone will help him, but is this meaningful to him?
Ah, it turns out that Liu Yanmin and his only value in this small team is to make trouble for others?The only value is to be responsible for dragging others down?

Maybe someone else would think it doesn't matter and wouldn't think so much like him, but he is not someone else, he is Liu Yanmin, he is a dignified and principled person.

With his current bear appearance, although he is very close to being able to completely transform into a ghost, he is still weak compared to others.

Of course, he may be a little stronger than Zhao Jingshu, but what is Zhao Jingshu? Much stronger than him.

He is incomparable to Zhao Jingshu, and even more incomparable to others.

What if the same thing happens again?Is he still hopelessly waiting for everyone to do everything to save him?Or do you think of a way to directly end your own life?

His Liu Yanmin's family is gone, his lover is gone, and he finally made a group of friends, is he going to cheat them to death?

Do you want them to pay for their own weakness?
Perhaps his thoughts are hypocritical to others, and there is no need to think so, but still, he has his dignity, he has his bottom line, and this has nothing to do with how other people see him, think of him, or It doesn't matter whether you care or not.

It is he himself who feels that he has lost the value of continuing to exist in this team.

So instead of relying on him for security like a dog, it is better to choose to leave alone, leave the protection of everyone, leave this gentle town, and try his best to train and improve himself until he finds the value of his existence again.

(End of this chapter)