Mysterious country

Chapter 1236 Meeting
Zhao Jingshu took off the raindrop-stained sunglasses, her face showed a bit of excitement and joy, and of course, a bit of inexplicable anxiety.

After a brief silence, Zhao Jingshu inadvertently walked a little closer to Xia Qi, and then suddenly stopped in place as if she had suddenly realized something.

Slowly said a word to him in a complex tone:
"Tian Qi, you've lost weight."

When Xia Qi came here, he thought about countless things in his heart, what was the first thing Zhao Jingshu said after seeing him.

I thought that Zhao Jingshu would smile melancholy, and then reply lightly like him, "Long time no see."

I also thought that Zhao Jingshu would hammer on his chest hard, asking him why it took so long to come like a friend.

He even thought that Zhao Jingshu would look at him strangely, or nod, or shake his head, making him so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say.

But obviously even though he thought of countless things, he never thought that Zhao Jingshu would use such a worried greeting as the opening remark of their meeting again.

"Recently, I don't have enough oil and water, so my figure has shrunk a bit."

Xia Qi smiled, but the smile on his face was really complicated.

Because his heart began to waver, he actually questioned himself again, and he was getting more and more restless.

Zhao Jingshu didn't speak, the rain outside was still pattering, making the atmosphere extremely silent.

It was not until quite a while before Xia Qi asked with some difficulty:

"Jingshu, how are you doing?"

"What about you? I have heard some news about you, but very little, because I dare not ask more, I am afraid. I am afraid to hear bad news about you, about Leng Yue and the others."

When Zhao Jingshu said this, she suddenly said to Xia Qi:
"Come out with me for a walk."

"it is good."

The two of them walked slowly onto the somewhat shaky long bridge, a trace of coolness came from his face and body, which didn't calm Xia Qi's mind much, but made him feel a chill from the inside out.

He and Zhao Jingshu are too familiar, and he also knows Zhao Jingshu too well. Zhao Jingshu must have her own reasons and plans for choosing to stay in this inner domain and choose not to go to them.

They have been together through life and death, and have been with each other for so long. It can be said that they have experienced all kinds of ups and downs. He doesn't believe that Zhao Jingshu is that kind, because the relationship between the two of them changes, and everyone will be forgotten and alienated. people.

So he never blamed Zhao Jingshu. When they were in the most difficult time, they stayed here and refused to return. In fact, even if Zhao Jingshu went back, it would not be able to calm the danger at all.

If even people in their relationship need to rely on so-called explanations to make each other feel that both parties have difficulties, then he doesn't have to be full of complicated factors in his heart like he is now.

"How does Yang Zhongpeng treat you?"

As the two of them walked, Xia Qi asked this question inexplicably.

"He treats me very well, I can survive in this inner domain because of his protection for me.

He thought of everything for me and did everything he could for me. He said that the two of us are very destined.

Since I was both his dead fiancée and an enchanter like him, he was very willing to help me improve. "

Having said that, Zhao Jingshu fiddled with her wet hair, then smiled at Xia Qi and said:

"At first I thought it was what he said, but recently I can feel that he likes me."

"When I said I was coming to you just now, he was very panicked. He was afraid that you would leave me."

"But Tianqi, will you take me away?
In fact, for a long time, I was quite confused. I didn't understand why I liked someone and always subconsciously wanted to give everything for him.

Even if there is no return for all this, even if you know that the more you put in, the more scars you will leave on yourself.

My dad said to me, this is stupid.

Because only a fool would know this, but still do it.

I told him at the time that it is difficult to like someone, and it is even more difficult to like someone deep down. I can't even pay for the person I like, so I don't deserve to talk about liking.

It wasn't until I had been in contact with Yang Zhongpeng for a long time, when I knew Yang Zhongpeng's intentions, that I really understood this matter.

All the giving out of love comes from one's own fantasy.

Thinking that doing this will make the person you like happy, thinking that by doing this, the person you like will become like yourself, thinking that by doing this, you can let yourself taste the illusion of possession. "

"Jingshu..."

Xia Qi subconsciously interrupted Zhao Jingshu.

Zhao Jingshu turned her head to one side, then covered her face with her hands and began to cry, the crying became more and more depressing.

At this time, Xia Qi came to Zhao Jingshu's side, and then slowly helped her up, and then took her into his arms:
"Jingshu, I understand what you mean for me, it's all my fault, I've been pretending to be stupid, it's because I dare not really open my heart to welcome this feeling.

Because I'm afraid, I'm worried about losing, and I really naively feel that since I accept a relationship, I have to give everything to the other party with my life, and I have to bear the vow you made when you made the choice.

Including Wu Di, they all said that my brain is twitching. It is precisely because the future is unpredictable that I cherish the present more, but why do I insist on perfunctory myself?

In fact, what I think is very simple, friends can leave me, but it is difficult for my lover to accept my departure.

There are too many secrets in me. Every time I take a step up, I can feel more clearly that it comes from the unknown vortex hanging over my head. "

Zhao Jingshu raised her head to look at Xia Qi's resolute face, then stretched out a finger to stop Xia Qi's next words.

"Take me back, back to everyone.

The moment I saw you again, I found that all the things I thought were disrupted by you.

Instead of being alone and choosing to forget, it is better to go back to everyone and return to our original beauty. "

Zhao Jingshu is actually a woman who is very persistent in love. She thought she could calm down, but when the topic was suddenly brought up, she couldn't help but crazily reveal her love for Xia Qi.

Now she has even forgotten what she likes about Xia Qi. At first, she knew that she liked Xia Qi's willfulness, his humor, and his responsibility, but now all these things have disappeared.

She just likes Xia Qi, not his so-called advantages.

As for what she just said, it was not what Xia Qi thought. What she wanted to express was that she didn't like it or didn't like it, just like how Yang Zhongpeng gave her, all she had in her heart was gratitude and gratitude , but didn't like it.

Just like she did to Xia Qi at that time, so she can understand Xia Qi's feelings.

Maybe people are like this. They obviously care about and are vulnerable, but they often paralyze themselves because of reality, making themselves think that they are strong and disdainful. When it's a tiny piece, all your pent-up emotions explode out of it.

(End of this chapter)