Hunter and Hussar

Chapter 33 The Wall

The surroundings were shrouded in gloom, and the dizzying white lights were struggling and swaying, like a body under the gallows.Guards in uniform lead us up one by one, and they will soon be transformed into a firing squad.On Gu Feifei's head was a huge black military cap, and the golden eagle emblem shone dazzlingly.She wears a red armband on her arm, a row of crossed spears, which reveals the chill from the abyss just like the more familiar ** swastikas.

go!Li Baichuan viciously pushed us in front of Gu Feifei with the butt of his gun.The handcuffs collided with each other, making a subtle ding ding dong dong, forming a weird ensemble with the dull footsteps.She held an unlit cigarette in her hand, and the shadow from the backlight sized us up from top to bottom, and the flickering eyes under the army cap also shot us once, like a sharp knife.

"What's your name?" She pointed the cigarette at Ye Ruiyang, with a voice so majestic that there was no doubt about it.

"Sol."[1]
"Ever participated in the International Column?"

Ye Ruiyang didn't say a word.

"Speak!" She poked the cigarette butt into Ye Ruiyang's face.The unburned fire burned him.Ye Ruiyang replied, but he didn't deny it, saying that the documents had already been found.

"Child, what's your name?" Gu Feifei walked up to Mi Le and pointed his chin with a finger.

"Rahmiel."[2]
She put down her finger and was about to walk to me when Mi Le turned to her suddenly, shouting at her as if trying to grab a straw, saying that he was wronged and that his brother was the one who resisted.My brother ran away, and he had never joined any party and never understood politics, so he couldn't be punished for his brother's affairs.Mi Le almost cried, squatting down weakly as he spoke, like a frightened little animal, who was about to kneel on the ground and beg her.Gu Feifei didn't turn her head back, her order came from the scarlet spear armband on her arm, to put this brat down.As soon as the words fell, Li Baichuan and his accomplices emerged from the shadows like ghosts, and captured Mi Le and Ye Ruiyang into the darkness on the other side.

It's just me and Gu Feifei.

"Your name is Correa."[3]
"Yes."

My voice seems to be less warm than hers.

"Where is Lennon, your leader's son, hiding?"[4]
"do not know."

"From the 7th to the 25th, he hid in your house."

"Nothing." Really nothing.

She waved her hand in disgust, and the silent ghost of the terrorists carried a gun and dragged me into the shadows.Under the only light in the interrogation room, Gu Feifei's smoke was still burning invisible. She coughed twice, spit out a piece of non-existent phlegm from her throat, and then stepped on the dark ground with her leather boots.

"Is this an interrogation?" Ye Ruiyang asked the guard in a place where I couldn't see clearly.

"This is judgment."[5]
"What do you... want to do to us?" Mi Le's voice trembled not far away.

"The sentence is pronounced in the cell."[6]
A short to long silence followed.After an indefinite amount of time, we were pushed into the light.There was a cold bench and we sat down, I was in the middle.The chains of the handcuffs finally stopped a little.Behind the chairs and lamp is a long brick wall.

"We're done." Ye Ruiyang didn't seem too scared, but Mi Le was trembling and trying to get closer to me.

"That's right. Don't be afraid, they won't do anything to you." I patted Mi Le's shoulder with my handcuffed hands.Like a drowning man finding a piece of driftwood, he snatched my arms away, tugging at them convulsively, trying to float himself up.I had to pull away from him.

"Lamir has never done anything, just has a brother who is a soldier, that's all." Ye Ruiyang said.

Mi Le leaned his head on my waist and continued to tremble.Out of the corner of my eye I caught him, staring straight ahead, not listening to us.

"It doesn't have to be shot. In Zaragoza they make the prisoner lie on the ground and run it over with a truck to save bullets."

"It's a waste of gas," I said.Mi Le trembled even more, Ye Ruiyang's words really disgusted me. "Enough, stop talking."

"It not only saves bullets, but also makes the prisoner die more slowly and painfully." The more he talked, he raised his legs, as if he was talking about an unimportant matter, or he was looking forward to ending like this, this way of dying In his mouth, becoming a man is the most important thing to try, "They threw the run-over prisoners on the road to expose them to the sun, their lungs were crushed, and they couldn't die, and they couldn't make a sound, so they yelled in a low voice. It took an afternoon to die."

Mi Le moved his legs to the bench and curled up like a hedgehog with its spines shaved off.

"That means the *** is about to lose, and the bullets are almost used up." I think I was comforting myself, and Mi Le made me start to tremble, "They won't play this game here."

No one spoke again.The pale light was exposed on the faces of the three of us. These faces must have lost their color, like the tired wings of moths.Dust floats before our eyes, the only thing that is alive at the moment, they are all dead.

"Why am I shivering, this damn place is too cold."

After speaking, Ye Ruiyang started radio gymnastics in handcuffs.Every part of his body trembled as he twisted, trying to keep himself warm.Stretching first, followed by small trots and jumps in place, bringing up dull clouds of dust.He blushed a little, but gasped when he stopped.He slumped to the ground.

No one spoke.Ye Ruiyang gasped, Mi Le trembled, I stared blankly into the darkness, thousands of pairs of eyes watched our every move.

Li Baichuan and two other prostitutes appeared behind us without warning.

"What are they called?"

"Soller, Correa, Lamir."

"Soller." He silently walked up to Ye Ruiyang who responded, squatted down, and pressed his ears against his ears, dressed in black like the impermanence of the underworld, "You are sentenced to death, and it will be executed here tomorrow morning. "

Before Ye Ruiyang could speak, his ghost appeared in front of Mi Le and me.

"You two too."

"Impossible, there would be no me!" Mi Le yelled, almost fell off the bench, and hugged Li Baichuan's leg tightly, "Without me, without me!"

"what's your name?"

"Rahmiel Rice. (Rahmiel Rice)"

"Your name is on the list. Death penalty, shooting, immediate execution."

"I didn't do anything!" Mi Le's screams echoed hollowly, which was really creepy.

Li Baichuan shook his black military cap, he shook Mi Le off his lap, and walked towards me.

"Did you cry at your mother's funeral?"

Shaking his head.

"That's right. You definitely don't need a priest and a confession. A doctor will come soon, so tell him what you need." He gave us a military salute, as if he was a serious soldier.

he's gone.

I saw that Mi Le's face was as pale as an old wall, almost cracked by the years, peeling off little by little.This extremely familiar face was irreversibly distorted and deformed. I was afraid and pulled his arm involuntarily.Ye Ruiyang was supposed to go, and then Mi Le would leave him.

Miller didn't shake my hand.I broke the plan during the improv, so he didn't come as rehearsed?
"Have you ever killed someone?" Ye Ruiyang asked from the side.

I didn't answer.Now it's time to get back to writing the script.

"You did, I know. I did too."

I looked back at him in amazement, trying to tell him with my eyes that you misremembered, that's not the case.But his eyes were empty, like a dark night sky that had been stripped of its stars.The same pale face is reflected in the light, and I believe that my face is exactly the same as theirs at this moment.

I am a doctor. [7] A shadow floated in front of us.It's Li Lu, she will be dressed in a military uniform to play the cruel lackey of the Communist Party.But what appeared in front of us was a man in a white coat, whose face was completely unclear.There was a red cross on his hat, no, a black cross, weirdly askew, anyone could recognize it, it was the German swastika.

"What are you doing here?" I really wanted to ask.

To ease your pain.

"No, you're a ****." I found my voice trembling.I have to be brave. In the script stipulated by the adults, I must be the strongest person in this performance.But I was scared, especially when I knew I was going to stare into the doctor's eyes as described in the script.I couldn't find his eyes. There seemed to be no eyes on that pitch-black face.It was a face made of steel and concrete.

Haven't you noticed that everyone here is shivering with cold? [8] His words were still in accordance with the script, and his skin also turned purple like in the novel, but immediately flashed a transparent green, as if he was carrying a cold will-o'-the-wisp that was about to go out.

"I'm not cold."[9] I replied.I'm sweating.I usually sweat easily, and my body is already on the hot side, but today it was because of the cold, I was so cold that I was sweating, and the thin and old prison clothes were wet, which made me feel the cold surrounding me.

You have to light the lamps.He said.I want to answer that there are lights here, although there is no such line.However, the white lamp went out when he finished speaking.It was pitch black.My first instinct was to squat down and hug my knees, like before, but I can't, I have to be the brave one, I have to be calm.Why did you temporarily change the script without notifying us?I can only act as written in the script.Are you trying to see our reaction on purpose?Mi Le, Boss Ye, why don't you say a word?I can't feel you guys anymore.

The reappearing light came from a candle the doctor had pulled out of his sleeve, which flickered weakly and might go out at any moment.The darkness receded a little suddenly, and it seemed that candles were lit all around me.Looking around, the surrounding walls turned into mirrors, and the only light from the candle was refracted repeatedly, making the place brighter.

"Are you a doctor?" Miller asked dully.His eyes were glazed, and I suspected that was an expression that only appeared on my face.His trembling made the shadows in all directions in the mirror tremble, as if the mirror itself was shaking.

Yes.

"Will it hurt? How long does it take for a person to die?" He shook his head subconsciously and corrected the question, "How long does it take for a person to die?"

It will be over soon.

"But I heard that it's going to be played twice..."

Sometimes it will, the first time may not be able to hit the nail on the head.

Mi Le's voice was exactly the same as usual, and this kind of question almost broke me from his mouth.No, we rehearsed so many times that we were still giggling at first.Why did you turn off the lights on this damn stage?Why didn't you tell us that's how it's going to end up?I was about to lose control of myself, so I wanted to hug Mi Le quickly, or push this inexplicable actor away, who the hell is he?I can't ask, and I can't do what I want.I suddenly hated acting, whether it was theater or film.I can't do anything, like a machine, doing meaningless things according to the designed program.

I should read one of my long monologues.I didn't, I think I remember them, and it's a beautiful, long memory.But I couldn't read it.I saw Ye Ruiyang give me a disgusted look, is he blaming me for forgetting my words?But according to the script, he really wanted to stare at me like this at this time, because the me in the script scared him.

"Do you understand? You," he said, "I, I don't understand."[10]
"Why, what's the matter?" [11]
"We're about to meet something that I don't even understand."[12]
"You'll see right away."[13]
"It's not quite clear," he said stubbornly. "I'd really like to take courage, but at least let me know . lined up in front of them. How many are there?"[14]
I have no idea.There must have been five or eight, not more. [15]
"Okay. Even if there are eight of them, the leader will shout to them: Aim, and I will see eight muzzles pointing at me. I think, by then, I must want to go into the wall, and I will use my whole body I can't get through that wall with all the strength of my back, it's against me, it's like in a nightmare. I can imagine it all. Ah, you don't know how I can imagine it all .”[16]
……

He takes up all the monologue.It stands to reason that I would interact with him, interrupt him impatiently, and say something almost teasing.He didn't give me a chance, and I couldn't say those words.I am really scared.I can't be afraid.In the script I was only allowed to be strong.

"It was like being in a nightmare... I actually saw my own dead body. It was not impossible, but it was me, my own eyes, who saw my dead body. It seems that I must Do it and think, and think that after that I can see nothing and hear nothing, and the world continues to exist for the living."[17]
"Shut up!" [18] There should be some lines behind me, but I can't say it, I just want to say these two words.

He grabbed my hand with such force that it nearly dislocated my arm.Damn, he's going to play the day after tomorrow, doesn't he want me to play?

"I asked myself...I asked myself, is it true that people will perish?"[19]
I tried my best not to look at him.Then in the mirror wall, I can't escape the twisted face that catches my eyes.Not just his, but mine too, but none of the doctor who was stroking Miller's head.I still can't see his face clearly.His hands were indeed as red and generous as his father's, and he touched Mi Le's chin.He opened his mouth to bite down. According to the script, the doctor would back away in horror.He didn't, Mi Le's teeth were deeply embedded, he bit so hard, I wanted to bite him too.But the guy didn't respond at all, as if the remaining tooth marks had nothing to do with him.

"That's a big lie."[20] Here comes my monologue again, and I've only said the first sentence.

My friends, I can undertake - as long as the military authorities agree - to bring you a letter or a souvenir for your dearest and dearest friends.The doctor said. [twenty one]
"I don't have any close relatives or friends." [22] Ye Ruiyang said.

Miller said nothing.

I felt that my clothes were getting wetter and colder.The teeth are constantly chattering.Hope the audience didn't notice.It's been too long a show, and I want to end it quickly.

It is 03:30 clock.The doctor told the time cruelly. In the novel, I hated this plot very much, but now it seems like the countdown to relief.

Miller finally broke down, running around the wall with his arms up, yelling I don't want to die I don't want to die.I saw countless copies of him running in the mirror on the wall, and then fell to the ground, crying loudly.Crying is contagious, but it shouldn't be contagious while performing.I had to sit still and almost watch it all happen.I want a heart of stone, hard enough to say that line: I want to die with a bit of backbone.

"You hear them move."[23]
"I heard it." [24]
A person walked out of each of the four mirror walls that surrounded us, none of whom I knew.All I saw were cloth strips wrapped around their heads, which read "Wu Yun is long", and in the middle is the rising sun that scatters bloody light, a symbol that I have felt ominous since I was a child.

"Who is Ye Ruiyang?"

what did they say?
The doctor pointed it out to them.

"Where's Miller?"

what are they doing?
That's the one that fell on the ground.As soon as the doctor finished speaking, they stood up Mi Le, saying that he was not the first person who couldn't stand it like this.

"Let's go." The leader said to Ye Ruiyang.

I also got up and followed them.Not just as scripted, my movements were almost subconscious.It seems that it is safer to be dragged to the execution ground and shot than to stay here alone.

He stopped me.

"Are you Copeway?"

"Correct."

"You wait here, someone will come to you after a while."[25]
I'd rather they kill me right away. [26]
The candles were extinguished, and they dragged them into the dark mirror.I heard gunshots ringing in the world of mirrors.It's not a background sound effect playing in the background, it's real.When I heard the first sound, I seemed to hear someone calling my name, as if asking for help, as if saying goodbye.So I rushed desperately to the mirror where they disappeared, but it was a wall, an impenetrable barrier.I hit it hard and fell to the ground, my head smelled of dampness, blood, and I don't know whose.

"Now, we want to exchange your life with his life. As long as you tell us where he is hiding, we will let you save your life." [27] After falling down, the black earth as solid as a wall said to me, " Where is Paul?"

"I don't know, what Paul, who is Paul?"

"Stand up and have a look."

I tried my best to get up, and saw the blurred shadows on the four mirror walls, and the light coming from nowhere, I suspected that it came from the mirrors.We haven't studied physics yet, but I know mirrors don't emit light by themselves.But my four shadows appeared with the light in the mirror.Those are four completely different shadows.One is my usual appearance, one is my miserable face now, the other seems to be me a few years ago, shorter and thinner than now, but very energetic, and the last one is the black shadow I have seen in my dream, look Unclear faces.

"See clearly, Pavel, your accomplice, your brother."

"Since you know everything, why do you still ask me? No one will betray his brother."

It's not words at all.For some reason, I felt a lot more relieved after saying this.

They might hit me, I don't know if I can take it.

The sound went out.I finally squatted down as I wished, hugged my knees, closed my eyes and stubbornly wanted to fall asleep.I seemed to really fall asleep, no one came to disturb me, and I even forgot the tragedy that just happened in the mirror, so I felt at ease.

"Have you considered it?" The ground below me woke me up. [28]
"I know where he's hiding. He's hiding in the cemetery. In a grave or in the gravedigger's hut." [29] I was almost raving, but I felt so lucid that I just wanted to Say the line.

"We're going to the cemetery."[30]
I heard the wall of mirrors fall limply backwards, and the earth convulsed and broke away from itself.When I opened my eyes, I found myself in a boxy space, with blue sky and white clouds above my head, and yellow land under my feet. Although the outside world was still dark, the things above my head and under my feet were all real. Same.

I saw Taotao walking towards me.

"Lucky fellow, I never thought I'd see you alive."[31]
"They sentenced me to death, and then they changed their minds, and I don't know why."[32]
"They arrested me at two o'clock."[33]
"Why are you arrested?"[34]
"I don't know, they want to arrest everyone who thinks differently from them."[35]
He said again in a low voice:

"They caught Paul."[36]
what?
"This morning. He did a stupid thing. He left his cousin's house on the 5th because they had an argument. There were plenty of people who would hide him, but he didn't want to trouble anyone. He said, I would have I hid with my brother, but since he was arrested, I hid in the cemetery."[37]
Why?No, he was in the cemetery, yes, he was there.Everything was true, whether it was a shooting or an interrogation.Mi Le and Ye Ruiyang are gone, and I didn't say a word to them before they left.And I just told the truth, hurting Xianxian, again.Everything around me was spinning, and when I regained my senses, I found myself sitting on the ground, laughing so hard that my eyes filled with tears. [38] Yes, I was doing this, when I heard a loud noise, Taotao had disappeared in front of me, and this bright space was closed: six mirrors flew out like a mechanism, closely fitting , covering me in this cubic container that resembles a coffin.This time, the image in each mirror was exactly the same: it was me two years ago, no, not necessarily me.That's probably Xianxian, we both look almost exactly the same, I can't remember what I looked like two years ago, and I can't remember his, but I saw the person in the mirror crying, and one eye was bleeding Tears, blood from the other eye...

"Ke Ke, Ke Ke, wake up."

"Have you had a nightmare? Don't be afraid, I am here, I am here. I will accompany you."

When I woke up, I found myself in a cold sweat again.It was one of the scariest dreams I've ever had, far more realistic than our performance this afternoon.Fortunately, Mi Le heard an abnormality from above and woke me up in time.I must have been crying and screaming and talking nonsense in my dreams.I was terrified of him, especially when he woke up and hugged him tightly, just like he hugged Brother Chuan on stage today.After leaving this nightmare, the fear it brought still haunts me.I saw the time on my phone, 03:30.For some reason, I desperately swiped open the phone screen, found my emergency contact from the address book, and frantically poked open the number with my fingers.So, Mi Le and I heard that gentle female voice together:
"Hello, the number you dialed is an empty number, please check and dial again. Sorry"

The number was canceled two years ago.I just wanted to call Xianxian and tell him to run, run quickly.

[1] Ye Ruiyang's jersey number.

[2] Miller's jersey print number.

[3] Kopeway's jersey number.

[4] Huang Minxue's jersey print number.

[5]-[38] are all quoted from Sartre's "The Wall", and [37] is slightly modified.

　A bit of a scary nightmare~ The omitted part is the word fascism

　　Since the script was adapted from Sartre's "The Wall", the lines quoted a lot of Sartre's original words, which have been marked in the text one by one.The names of the children at the beginning, Soler, Lamir, Correa, and Lennon, are all their jersey numbers, so in the last chapter, my sister felt a little out of play, because at the theater festival that afternoon, they That's really what they call each other.However, in the nightmare, when the firing squad entered, their names changed to their real names, except for Xianxian.

　　All the words of the doctor are without quotation marks.

　　I also played with Camus' "The Stranger".

　　In fact, this nightmare is the haze that has been shrouding Ke Ke's heart.People's inadvertent choices will not only change themselves, but even affect the fate of others.Chance brings absurdity, which is presented in front of children with a tragic reality.Ke Ke is responsible for Xianxian's death, and the mistakes he made when he was too young can never be made up for.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)