give you joy

Chapter 9 Gao Yueyan, I like you, I like everything about you.

On the third day after her grandma's ashes were buried, Li Huifen called from Hangzhou to urge the two children to return to Hangzhou to go to school.Gao Zhiming didn't say anything, but he was also anxious. No parents would show a sense of righteousness in front of the college entrance examination, so he booked a return ticket early in the morning, and let his sister-in-law and father pressure them to board the plane to Hangzhou.

Due to the grief of losing a loved one and the several days of travel, Yueyan fell ill on the night of returning to Hangzhou.

Illness is indeed overwhelming.

Li Huifen went out to meet friends, but there were no adults at home.Yueyan swallowed two antipyretics, thinking about drinking some hot water, and went through it. Unexpectedly, the medicine didn't work, and the temperature still burned up in the middle of the night.

His whole body was on fire, his throat was swollen and painful, as if he had swallowed a piece of hot coal, and it hurt like a knife cut every swallow.The surroundings were drowsy, as if falling into a thick black dream.In the dream, someone called her Yan Yan, and she followed the sound and cried all the way to find her. She was so tired after walking, and wanted to stop and sleep for a while, but the man not only refused to let her rest, but also called her Push, and grabbed her without any explanation. He grabbed her arm and told her to wake up.

The voice came from beyond the chaos, and a small hole was torn in the dream, and the light of reality shone in.

Someone really was calling her.

She struggled to open her eyes. In the chaotic white mist, the light suddenly became dazzling. The man stood beside her bed with his backlight, bent down to look at her, pressed his cool palm against her hot forehead, and called her nickname: "Yanyan..."

How could it be him?Where's dad?
Propping her body on her elbows, Yueyan forced her head up, and asked hoarsely, "You...why are you in my room?"

Shen Ziqiao's hand passed through her armpit, and half pulled and half hugged her to help her sit up, and kept saying, "I left my things here with you."

Yueyan didn't have any strength in her body, she reacted drowsily for a long time before she remembered and asked, "What... what is it?"

Shen Ziqiao was wrapping a down jacket around her body. Under the bedside lamp, his drooping eyelashes trembled slightly. He said, "I haven't made up my excuse yet. Be obedient and put on the clothes first."

She sat on the edge of the bed in a daze and let him play with him. In an instant, everything she had lost came back to her.

The sad past was like a tide, submerging her again, and tears fell in pieces without excessive.

Shen Ziqiao squatted on the ground to put socks on for her, and when she touched her, she instinctively hid, her exposed skin was scorching hot, her ankles were red from the heat.

He was anxious and didn't ask her if she could walk. He put his hand on the crook of her calf, picked her up from the bed, and turned directly downstairs.

Street lamps were dimly lit on the side of the street, but it was still very dark.Coming out of the warm room all of a sudden, the temperature dropped sharply, making her shiver from the cold, and she became a little more awake, struggling to get down to the ground.She is not heavy, and he is not weak. Just a short distance away, I still heard him panting heavily, and a few drops of sweat dripped onto her face, which was scalding hot.

"I can go..." she said hoarsely.

The taxi I called couldn't figure out the north and south gates of their community, and before it arrived, Shen Ziqiao refused to let him go up, and tightened his grip: "Don't move around, I can save some energy."

There were quite a lot of people in the emergency room in the middle of the night, and they all sat in the corridor.Shen Ziqiao registered to get the medicine at a price, and led her to the infusion room to hang the water. After finishing this work, when the nurse finished adjusting the medicine in the indwelling needle, Yueyan had already fallen asleep leaning on his shoulder.

He asked the doctor on duty to find a blanket to cover her.

When the nurse was changing the medicine in the middle, Yueyan woke up once. When she moved, Shen Ziqiao woke up too. After moving her numb neck a few times, she heard the joints creaking.

Looking down at her, he raised his hand to touch her forehead to see if the fever had gone down.She stretched out her hand, but she turned her head to avoid it.

The fingertips brushed the side of her face, and it felt warm and cool to the touch.

He was funny and angry: "What are you hiding?"

Yueyan's voice was low and hoarse, half because of waking up, half because of illness: "Hands are dirty."

Shen Ziqiao snorted and laughed: "It's difficult to serve."

"hungry?"

Yue Yan shook her head.

"Thirsty? I see there is a vending machine over there, do you want to get you a bottle of Fanta?"

After all, boys are rough and have no experience in taking care of patients, especially when the patient is still a delicate girl, I think she likes to drink, so it must be appropriate.

Eyelashes lowered, eyelashes fanned a few times, the redness that had just been burnt faded a little, revealing the skin like jade, like the light-colored patterns blooming on the white porcelain of the new cellar.She shook her head appetizingly.

The Adam's apple moved a few times, he looked at the end of the corridor, looked back a few seconds later, and asked, "Do you want to call your father?"

Yue Yan thought for a while and said: "No, he must have just slept."

Without much persuasion, Shen Ziqiao put away his cell phone.

After a minute or two of silence and not talking much, Yueyan suddenly leaned over to him and whispered something in his ear.

There was wind in the corridor, and the fragrance swayed under his nose for a while, and his chin brushed against some of her hair blown by the wind, and some of them stuck to his face. He shook his head, leaned over, and subconsciously asked, "What do you mean What?"

She goes ahead.

Holding the drip bottle, he followed behind him loosely.

At the door of the women's toilet, he handed her the drip bottle, and tilted his head to look behind her: "Can you do it alone?"

A gust of cold wind blew past the half-closed toilet door at the right time, and there was a bang from a certain cubicle, and the girls in front of them trembled together.

A slight smile appeared in Shen Ziqiao's eyes.

She couldn't really let him go in with her, the girl thought very clearly, anyway, she just closed her eyes and then opened her eyes, she gritted her teeth and passed.

Leaning against the tiled wall of the toilet door, Shen Ziqiao watched the girl's back disappear behind the door, took out the phone from his pocket, pressed the light to unlock it, and let out a feed.

Of course it is impossible for anyone to answer him.

He said to himself: "What song do you like?"

……

"Do you like Li Yuchun's?"

……

"How about See You at the Next Crossing?"

……

In the next second, a familiar melody sounded to Yueyan in the quiet corridor outside the toilet door.

As a qualified corn, Gao Yueyan has bought all of Li Yuchun's albums and listened to every single she released, at home, at school, on the way to tutoring, in her father's car... Li Yuchun has been left behind in all these places The singing voice constituted the main theme of her youth.

It was the first time she heard her song in this kind of place, and it was also the first time she discovered that the music of a favorite singer had a soothing effect.

Li Huifen didn't show up at the hospital until dawn.

As Yueyan's mother in name, Li Huifen dutifully asked her about her physical feelings, keeping her distance properly.She is no longer young, and she can no longer use the methods she used to treat her when she was a child. She is polite where she should be polite, and alienated where she should be distant. The relationship between the two stepmother and daughter is emphasized between the lines.

Shen Ziqiao stood aside, watching coldly.

"Okay, I asked auntie to cook some white porridge. Just tell me what you want to eat." Li Huifen stood up, looked at the medicine bottle at the same level, knocked the transparent glass with the crystal armor that she just made, and her voice was crisp, she turned her head Smiling, "It looks like it's getting better soon."

Yueyan nodded in fear, for some reason, she was afraid of her.

In case Gao Zhiming came back from Sichuan and asked about his daughter's fever, Li Huifen went to check with the doctor on the time of follow-up consultation before leaving.

Shen Ziqiao sent her down, and the private car that brought her was still parked at the entrance of the flower bed of the hospital.Seeing the mother and son going downstairs from a distance, the driver jumped out of the car, stamped out the cigarette butt, and came over to open the door for her with a nod and bow.

Not their car.

After getting in, Shen Ziqiao didn't walk away immediately, he held the car door and bowed his head to call his mother.

In the morning, the first ray of the morning sun spread delicately on her face. Under the smudged makeup, there was a face that was no longer young. The fine lines at the corners of the eyes were clear, and the bloodshot eyes were particularly obvious.

She must have drank a lot last night, it's already this point, and the alcohol on her body is still not gone.

"I'll send Yanyan back later, you don't have to come pick us up again."

Li Huifen raised the corner of her lips, looked at her grown son and smiled: "Got it."

He raised his hand to pull the door, but Shen Ziqiao didn't let go. Li Huifen looked up with confused eyes.

He stood there tall and tall, and slowly continued the above sentence: "Mom, Dad is actually very good to me and my sister. In the future, you should also treat Yanyan a little bit..."

Li Huifen's complexion suddenly changed, but to prevent her son and the people outside from having a fit, she removed his hand that was pressing the car door, and said coldly, "Don't worry about adults' business."

Shen Ziqiao moved his lips, but didn't speak, and she slammed the car door open from the inside.The car didn't start immediately, and the window in front of him was lowered by two inches. Li Huifen looked up again, and after putting on the sunglasses, her eyes were pierced, shamed and annoyed: "Don't think that you can't treat yourself as an outsider if you call me dad a few times. , you figure it out, in the eyes of that surname Gao, only his daughter is a baby bump, and the two of you are oil bottles!"

Twitching the corner of his mouth, Shen Ziqiao smiled nonchalantly: "That's what it is..."

Choked by her son and speechless, Li Huifen quickly darkened her face: "You're just going to be so mad at me!"

As soon as the car window was raised, he didn't bother to look at him anymore. The luxury car carrying Li Huifen quickly disappeared in front of him and merged into the morning rush hour crowd.

The second half of the third year of high school seemed to pass faster, and when I looked up, the countdown countdown was reduced by more than half.

The daily life is becoming more and more monotonous. Students do the memorization and do the questions, and the students no longer complain that they can’t finish the test papers and fill in the blanks. Children of this age don’t understand too much in their hearts. One more question to do right now is An extra chance of winning in the college entrance examination, and an extra line of ancient poetry memorized are all olive branches thrown out by the ideal university.Everyone is working hard for their future.

In this fast-paced atmosphere, Gao Yueyan, who returned after a short three-day absence, seemed out of place.

Some teachers also reported to the class teacher the girl's emotional depression.

Han Xiaoyan learned about what happened in the student's home and did not put too much pressure on her. After communicating with Yueyan's father, she chose to observe for a while.I also called several class leaders in the class, and asked them to pay more attention to Gao Yueyan's emotions and take care of her, especially Sun Weiwei, who is at the same table and also the school committee.He didn't need to ask the teacher specifically, he was already doing this.

But in everyone's eyes, Gao Yueyan's behavior was very normal. Except that she didn't come to class for three days, she went to class, reviewed, did questions, and took exams as usual.

She buried all the pain deep in her heart, and wrapped those sharp and painful thorns with the natural softness of a girl.

You can comfort a tearful person not to cry, so how to comfort a girl who can't even shed tears not to be sad?

Such fragility and extreme strength, hidden under such a well-behaved and weak appearance, this contrast makes people feel distressed.

Sun Weiwei saw it, and the only thing he could do was to do nothing.

After the high fever, Yueyan's body has always been weak. When it was cold in the spring, she was unfortunately caught, and she caught a moderate flu, and she kept running nose and tissues for several days.After dinner in the cafeteria, Yue Yan realized that she was running out of draft paper, so she went to the Chenguang stationery store next to the school to buy it. As soon as she entered the door, she was attracted by the gaudy fountain pens on the shelf, and her feet walked over involuntarily.

I chose a few good-looking ones, and tried to write on the white paper. Not many students came to the store, and the surroundings were quiet, and the voices became more prominent.

This world is like this, the more you don't want to see a certain person in your heart, the figure of that person is everywhere around you.

"Does this look good?"

"It's fancy, but it's also called good-looking?"

"What do you know, as long as it's a girl, they like this kind of thing. If you don't believe me, I'll show it to you."

"Okay, I'll take a picture with my phone."

"No, don't shoot me."

"Being passionate, who wants to shoot you..."

Yueyan stood quietly between the two rows of shelves, not moving for a long time, and the light cut out the slender silhouette of the girl, also not moving for a long time.

Eyelashes trembled twice, Yueyan raised her hand, inserted the few pens she just picked back into the pen holder one by one, turned and left.

The glass door shook slightly, and the electronic doorbell sounded as farewell. Shen Ziqiao glanced at the door subconsciously. In the deep twilight, there was a figure of a girl leaving. He looked away indifferently, and asked Xu Pan in front of him: " You girls really like this kind of stuff?"

Xu Pan rolled down the hair tie with her backhand, and her dense hair loosened. She looked up at him while combing her hair with her fingers, and said with a smile, "Of course."

Shen Ziqiao nodded, and seemed to believe it: "Okay, then you can help me choose two more things."

Xu Pan casually looked at the things on the shelf, continued to search for the gift that suits him, and said casually while scanning his eyes: "Why don't you let Yueyan pick it for you?"

During the two or three seconds of holding his breath, the boy looked long and smiled slightly, and his voice was deep, intimate, and a little conniving, when she mentioned those two words.

"She knows shit..."

After pausing his hands, Xu Pan lowered his head and took down a hairpin, his face was normal.

After picking and choosing some, Shen Ziqiao took it to the bar to check out, and when the waiter was scanning the code, he glanced aside inadvertently, pulled off a candy-colored ball-shaped hair tie, and threw it into the shopping basket casually.

Xu Pan looked at him and said nothing.

He didn't expect the girl's jewelry to be so expensive. Looking at such a small pile of things, it cost him six or seven hundred.

He paid without blinking, and the waiter packed it in a special gift bag for him, and welcomed him back with a smile.

Carrying the bag out of the store, Xu Pan walked down the steps in front, and he called out to wait, she turned her head and saw him rummaging in the bag for a while, took out the hair tie and threw it to her: "Your reward."

Xu Pan caught it and looked down.

A black hair rope with two candy-colored plastic balls strung together, the balls held in the palm of the hand are shiny and soft, showing a delicate and delicate character that does not match her personality.

Xu Pan's heart beat wildly twice, he collected himself, and asked casually, "Just dismiss me like this? Isn't it too petty."

Shen Ziqiao didn't ask her if she looked good, or if she liked it, but just smiled: "Next time, I will ask Gao Yueyan to treat you to dinner."

Xu Pan's smile faded away: "Okay..." After a pause, he raised his head, the sparkle in his eyes moved slightly, "Then I'll go first."

"Wait." He hesitated to speak.

She gestured back.

Only then did he withdraw his gaze from the side, and it fell on the girl. He spent the day talking about other things, and finally asked, "Yan...Gao Yueyan, how are you doing?"

The news of her grandma's death has become an open secret in the class. Although everyone does not discuss it publicly, the emotions are connected. During this time, the students in the class have taken good care of Yueyan. When a relative passed away , no one will feel good.

But Xu Pan's mouth was dry, and he couldn't even smile: "It looks normal, nothing wrong."

He listened carefully and nodded his head: "She has such a character, she is stubborn, sometimes she can solve the problem by crying, but she insists on it, sometimes it is inexplicable, and I don't know what she is crying thing……"

If he had a mirror in his hand, Xu Pan really wanted to show it to Shen Ziqiao, so that he could see his defensive and stubborn side.

Xu Pan didn't think much of him when he was playful, promiscuous, and scandalous rumors were flying all over the sky. No one would believe that if a boy grows up like this, if he is not flirtatious.The worse he was to girls and the more heartless he was, the happier Xu Pan felt.If she doesn't have luck, of course hope everyone is treated this way.

It's not that no one in the class has rumored that Shen Ziqiao is interested in Gao Yueyan. To be honest, judging by her appearance, she really looks like the type he would like.

But that's all, Xu Pan never thought that Gao Yueyan would be a special case, so special that Shen Ziqiao could make an exception.

It first came to light when Shen Ziqiao and the others finished their experiments and came down from the science and technology building during a recess in the second year of high school. He came to her class and borrowed her Chemistry Compulsory Fifth. He caught up with her to go to the bathroom, and he waited for a while.When Xu Pan came back from the bathroom, he was standing in the aisle, talking to someone inside through the open window.

The man's face was just blocked by the curtains, and the curtains moved in waves, making his face even more unclear. Xu Pan didn't recognize the side face until he walked to the fast door, which was Gao Yueyan.Putting his hand on the window sill, his fingertips tucked halfway into the sleeves of his school uniform, he kept nodding, looking very obedient.

There was a wind in the corridor, and the branches and leaves that grew to the height of the building swayed wildly with the wind, messing up the girl's bangs.

While Shen Ziqiao was still talking, he reached out and brushed away the strands of hair that blocked her eyes naturally, as if brushing her hair and talking to her were of the same nature.

He didn't intend to eavesdrop on purpose, but when he got closer, a few words still fell into his ears.

"Then it's settled, take my car after school, if you have already been waiting for me in the carport after class..."

……

The candy-colored plastic ball was cold on the palm of her hand, and she pretended to be relaxed and asked: "You care about her so much, why don't you ask her yourself?"

He glanced at her and smiled, with a tone of true and false, making people wonder whether to believe it or not: "Fart, who cares about her?"

The girl immediately became sad.

Every time he mentioned Gao Yueyan's duplicity, Xu Pan couldn't stand it.

Evening self-study is about to start in 2 minutes, and everyone hurried to the classroom.

The surrounding sky was gloomy and the wind was blowing hard, a bit like it was going to rain.

It turned out that the weather forecast was accurate. It rained heavily at night, and after self-study, I could still hear the sound of pattering rain, hitting the trees, leaves and an umbrella of different colors.

Yueyan stood in front of the dripping rain teaching building and faced a difficult situation.

She moved slowly, and by the time Yueyan finished packing up, the girls who were close to her in the class had already left.

Seeing the continuous rain curtain down the corridor, she gritted her teeth, put her book on her head, and just wanted to go out in the rain, but before she took two steps, an umbrella covered her in time.

Turning around in surprise, there was the sound of rain all around, the boy's face was hidden in the flickering night, his skin was cold and his temperament was calm.

It was him.She was about to speak, but the next second there was no sound.

Cao Bin held the handle of the umbrella and looked into the rain, with a normal tone: "No umbrella? I'll take you out."

The words of refusal had already reached his lips, but he gradually lowered his voice because of a guilty conscience.

The person still didn't move.

what is this?
Cao Bin lifted his foot and went down a step. He didn't feel the girl following him. Looking back at her, to be honest, he didn't feel very good.

Across a layer of rain, the two silently looked at each other without speaking.

She was indeed angry at the moment when she was ashamed, the question is how long Yueyan was angry with him, one day, one week, one month... But Yueyan will not be angry with a person for a lifetime, it is the same for Cao Bin, and it is not the same for Shen Ziqiao.

This kind of character also keeps her in a passive situation again and again.

Cao Bin's slightly tense face gradually relaxed, and the corners of his mouth raised.

The girl finally let go, and lowered her head into the rainless sky he had created.

The two of them didn't speak on the way to the door, only the sound of rain hitting the umbrella surface, and the road surface was reflected by the rain.

There was a bus stop not far from the school gate. The evening bus hadn't arrived yet, and some girls were already waiting there. Cao Bin avoided suspicion and didn't send her there. Instead, he put her in a rain-proof place at the school gate.

After taking off the umbrella, her body was dry without a trace, but the clothes on his shoulders were mostly wet.

Yueyan moved her mouth a few times, her voice was so low that she could hardly hear it: "Thank you."

"It's okay." Cao Bin had no expression on his face, shook the raindrops on the umbrella and said, "Give me the umbrella, my house is very close."

"No need," Yueyan gradually recovered her voice, her attitude was as calm as talking to other boys in the class, "my father will come to pick me up right away."

"That's fine." Looking at her, seeing that she seemed to have nothing to say to him, Cao Bin took the initiative to say, "I'll go first."

"See you."

"Goodbye."

Cao Bin opened the umbrella and walked a few steps into the rain. The crisp sound of rain water hitting the umbrella surface came back to his ears in an instant.He stopped and turned his head, looking at Yue Yan who was almost shrunk under the rain eaves.

On a rainy night, the girl's face was so white that it seemed to reflect light, her eyes were gentle and bright, hiding a bit of natural timidity.

It turns out that there are really talking eyes in the world.

The first time he met Gao Yueyan was at the welcome party for freshmen in high school.In order to show the importance attached by the school leaders, every class has a program. The class that Yueyan was in at the time had a group dance for girls, and six girls with basic dance backgrounds were found to temporarily catch and rehearse a folk dance. The time given was very short. Tight, even the dance clothes are rented by the head teacher from an outside studio.On the day of the party, Cao Bin went to the backstage to deliver things to his classmates. In the turmoil, he saw her at a glance. The girl's own skirt hadn't been arranged yet, and she hung up one by one, and squatted on the ground to sew skirts for other girls. , The sewing was almost done, Yueyan lowered her head and bit the end of the thread with her teeth, then stepped back a few steps to see the effect.

Hearing someone calling her, she turned her head with pointed eyes.

Cao Bin followed her to see a boy standing crookedly behind the hanging curtain, with a tall figure, his hands in his trouser pockets, his expression was cold and smiling.

After explaining a few words to the girl next to her, Yueyan put down her needlework, went out, and came to that boy.

Cao Bin's gaze subconsciously followed her footsteps.

The boy is very familiar. He is the most recent topic in the first year of high school. During the military training, there were already a group of girls around him. On the one hand, he is handsome, and the family conditions are also good. It is said that any pair of shoes on his feet are Adidas limited edition. , I can't get it without a small three thousand.

"Why are you here?" the girl asked.

The dress is a tube top style, revealing a deep collarbone and thin right-angled shoulders.The boy looked at her, his eyebrows gradually frowned, and he mentioned the invisible transparent belt on her shoulder, displeased: "What are you wearing?"

The girl slapped his hand away, lowered her head to tidy up: "Dancing skirt."

"What dance is going to be dressed like this? A striptease?"

The girl frowned: "Shen Ziqiao!"

Being addressed by first and last name, the boy smiled instead, put his legs together perfunctorily, stood up straight for a few seconds, and shouted to tease her.

She was speechless: "Nervous."

"No swearing."

Yue Yan said: "Then don't talk nonsense yourself."

The boy was still smiling, lazy and naughty, tilting his head, his eyes gliding across the girl's face: "Okay, I won't talk nonsense, I'll talk about something serious."

"what?"

The boy's serious look also revealed a bit of evil: "Do you want to go together after school this afternoon?"

Yueyan thought for a while: "Let's see the time, I have a study group to attend tonight."

Shen Ziqiao snorted and said, "If you study every day, you won't be able to imitate you."

The boy really can't speak, and the girl seems to have gotten used to it, so she left a sentence to ask you to take care of it, turned around and ran away.

That day Cao Bin not only met Gao Yueyan, but also Shen Ziqiao.Later, the two met again on the basketball court and played wild ball several times.Shen Ziqiao is precocious and sophisticated, he handles things like an adult, and he has never been short of money, so he has always been able to handle things with ease in campus life, and even the seniors buy into him.It doesn't seem so difficult to recognize Cao Bin as a friend.

The problem lies in Cao Bin. He has a withdrawn personality and has always been alone. How much of being friends with Shen Ziqiao is because of that one glance. Even Cao Bin himself can't tell.

But no matter what, ever since I got closer to Shen Ziqiao at school, I even saw Gao Yueyan more frequently.

Knowing her, being familiar with her, and gradually becoming aware of the girl's intentions... It was also from then on that Shen Ziqiao became vigilant and deliberately distanced himself from him.

No one said anything, after all, no one is a fool.

Cao Bin turned his head and looked at those shining eyes through the rain curtain.

Maybe what Shen Ziqiao said was right, he was just being cheap.

The note to Gao Yueyan was discovered by other girls, who happened to have a feud with Shen Ziqiao again, she didn't want to take revenge on him, but instead focused on Yueyan, so there was a scene of asking her out to meet.

Afterwards, Cao Bin asked himself more than once, why didn't he admit it?What was stopping him from admitting that he liked her?Is it the inferiority complex in your bones, or the pessimism in your nature?
Maybe everything is, maybe God's will is like this.

Think about it later, that's fine too.

He smiled at her: "Gao Yueyan, can we still be friends again?"

She was stunned at first, then her expression relaxed, and the corners of her mouth raised: "Haven't we always been friends?"

The two laughed again.Cao Bin opened his umbrella, waved to her, turned around and disappeared into the growing rain.

Yue Yan watched his leaving back, and when she looked back, she inadvertently walked across the street.

After seeing the figure on the opposite side clearly, the smile gradually disappeared from his mouth.

She was stunned there.

Across a narrow road, the boy stood alone under the tree, the branches and leaves were blown wildly by the wind, the hat of the black sweater was pulled up, the rain was hitting the top of his head unscrupulously, and the drenched bangs were hanging softly. on the forehead.

Looking at this side quietly with a pair of eyes, the eyes are as cold as water.

Occasionally passing private wheels on the road run over the splashing water, and the whistle that suddenly sounds in the middle of the night is harsh and sharp.

Everything that exists is so absurd and full of drama.

What didn't match this dark night was a pink gift bag in his right hand, with an exaggerated bow tied on the handle.

In astonishment, Yueyan watched a car pass by in front of her, and the next second, the boy walked towards her facing the splashing water.

The heart beats at an abnormal frequency, viciously showing its presence.

In the dark night, the heavy rain, the dripping road, and the branches and leaves blown down by the wind, he walked in front of him step by step.

Confusion and embarrassment, words that can be used to describe him, can also be used to describe Yueyan's mood at the moment.

He was already drenched from head to toe, as if he had just been fished out of the water. He raised his eyes, his eyes were complicated and deep, and he just looked at Yue Yan.

One is under the eaves and the other is still in the rain.

Her heart was beating faster and faster, causing her chest to numb slightly, as if she was dizzy, and even her voice was affected, trembling slightly like a fine violin: "Shen Ziqiao, why are you..."

She has eyes, so she can't speak.

People's memory is very strange, it will specially process certain fragments of our youth, a shot, a smile, a cheer, a touching moment.No matter how bizarre and novel encounters we have as adults, these images will not take a backseat.

like now.

The sound of the rushing rain was so loud in her ears many years later.

The boy's voice, after countless years of baptism, is still so direct and domineering.

And girls, no matter how many people and things they have passed through, they will still think of their shock and grievance at that moment.

"You just like him that much?" The young man was still so naughty, his words and the way he looked at her were not in the right shape at all.

The rain poured into his mouth, which gradually made Shen Ziqiao's words less clear, but when he talked about Cao Bin, he still couldn't help but bend the corner of his lower lip: "What do you like about him? He's not as good as me. Not as handsome as me..."

Rather than questioning, Yueyan realized after many years that what she said was more of a grievance.

The helplessness of loving others deeply but not being able to get a response is like a sharp sword that has been pulled out, and it has been too long to find the sheath to take it back.

But how could she be ignorant of his kindness to him.

only……

The boy's hand hanging on his trouser leg moved, as if he finally realized the almost negligible weight on his hand, lifted it up, and brought it in front of Yueyan.

Her puzzled eyes fell on it: "What?"

Shen Ziqiao raised his hand to wipe the water off his face, and smiled: "It's for you."

A vague intuition drove her to take it, and pulled off the exaggerated bow a few times, and the contents inside were finally fully presented before her eyes.

Her heart slowly cooled down, she raised her head and said calmly, "Did you choose it yourself?"

Shen Ziqiao said, "What else?"

Yes, he was still the same him, what made Yueyan uncomfortable was that she cared so much, cared about such a bad boy, he was playful, casual, promiscuous, and gave different girls the same gift.

Yue Yan returned the things to him.

He doesn't answer.

Her hand was also kept between them.

He raised his eyebrows and asked, "Don't you like it?"

Yueyan took a deep breath, raised her big dark eyes with long and curly eyelashes.

His heart beat slowly.

To be honest, Shen Ziqiao didn't know why he liked her so much. They had a lot of beautiful girls who came in that year. Gao Yueyan was not very beautiful among them, but she had fair skin and big eyes. She looked obedient and obedient. Boys eat this one.During the night chat in the dormitory, some boys discussed that if puppy love brings this kind of girl home, you don’t have to worry about being scolded by your parents, because even your parents like this kind of appearance, and it’s actually pretty good to be able to get this type of girl sense of accomplishment.

"Maybe I didn't speak clearly, so I keep giving you such misunderstandings, Shen Ziqiao, I want to say sorry to you."

The way she said these words was mature, her tone was calm, and she seemed to be several years older mentally, which made Shen Ziqiao feel strange.Those boys who talked about her being obedient behind her back, did they ever think that Gao Yueyan would have such a side?

Girls pretend to be stupid occasionally, thinking that boys may just be on a whim, and when they meet a more beautiful girl, they will divert their interest.Sometimes because of the relationship of face, they don't want to speak too badly.

Seeing her pause, Shen Ziqiao even smiled: "Say it, why don't you say it, listen."

Yueyan's voice was calm: "I should say thank you for the things you helped me with, but Shen Ziqiao, I don't treat you like you think. The college entrance examination is coming soon, and I don't want to be disturbed anymore. I don't mean to wait for the college entrance examination. After we finish, we can try dating, we are not the same type of people, you will find a girl who suits you, and the one I like is not your type."

His gaze forced her very tightly: "Then what do you like, Cao Bin?"

Dazed for a moment, Yueyan avoided his gaze, and nodded in a subtle way.

In order to win the heart of the person he likes, no matter how proud a boy is, he can have no self-esteem.

"I can become just like him," Shen Ziqiao said quickly, with intense eyes, "I can pretend to be whatever you want."

Yue Yan felt sore: "You don't have to do this, you are different from him."

Shen Ziqiao was stunned, and sneered, and said with a hint of sarcasm in his voice: "Yeah, how can a person like me deserve to be compared to him."

Yueyan watched him say this, her eyes immediately turned red: "Don't belittle yourself like that, you know that's not what I mean."

She doesn't want to hurt him.In fact, there is no more direct harm than rejection. His expression and the pain in his eyes are the most direct manifestation of this kind of harm.

Today is not the day to tell the truth, Shen Ziqiao didn't intend to confess to her tonight, the original purpose of buying this pile of things was very simple, just to coax her.There are always too many inconvenient places at home.

Didn't expect it to be coaxed like this.

Seeing the kind of smile she gave Cao Bin, all plans were disrupted.He can't take it.

Does Yueyan feel better?

If she didn't know Shen Ziqiao, she could just tell him to fuck off, or say something ugly, or even tell her teacher or her father.

But what she faced was a boy who almost grew up with her. She watched him wear all kinds of shoe sizes and school uniforms; the first sanitary napkin when she had menarche at school He bought it, and every time he failed an exam, she imitated his parents' handwriting and signed it for him... The two had quarreled, had cold wars, cried, laughed, he had protected her, and she had also protected her , how can the relationship between the two be explained clearly and cleanly in a few words.

Is there only one way out for men and women in this world to get along with each other?

Yueyan's eyes gradually turned red, her chest swelled like a tide, and she just stared at him blankly.

The two looked at each other without speaking.

The late late bus took away the last group of students on the platform.In each other's world, there is only the sound of rushing rain, covering the world.

When he spoke again, his voice was low and hoarse: "Why are you crying..."

Subconsciously, she raised her hand to wipe her face, the back of her hand was cold, and it was her tears.

Yes, why is she crying?

"sorry."

She was the one who cried, and she was the one who said sorry to him.

Shen Ziqiao pulled the corner of his lower lip, as if he was smiling, but the smile was forced: "What are you sorry for me, I was the one who committed the crime..."

Before she finished speaking, she saw her mouth moving, as if she wanted to say something, Shen Ziqiao paused for a few seconds, and there was an inexplicable sense of longing in her eyes when she looked over.

Yue Yan said softly: "Come here, don't get caught in the rain."

Not to mention the shoes, he looks like he just got out of the water, the wet trousers stick to his calves, and there are no exaggerated muscles on them. Yueyan always thought he was tall, but now she knows that he is actually thin, Tall and thin for a boy.

The hot air hit his eyes, sour and swollen, and he still couldn't get used to it after a long time.

He didn't move, so she pulled him, and naturally, she burned him through the fabric of the clothes.

The lights in the security room opposite were on, and the light shone through the windows, a glimmer of light in the dark night.The guard who had been watching them for a long time looked over curiously through the glass.

Heavy rain, good-looking boys and girls, girls seem to be still crying...

Everything that happened on a rainy night was like a poem, and everyone who reads it will have their own understanding.

...Is there a quarrel, or is there a quarrel between the young lovers?Do you want to report to the school leaders?
In the security room of more than ten square meters, two security masters who are fifty years away also gossip and discuss softly like young people, but they are limited to this because of the constraints of the rainy night.

Shen Ziqiao stood next to her, less than half a meter away, the rain was still falling, and the atmosphere was not harmonious.

Yueyan's eyes drifted into the rain, she pursed her lips, and asked, "Shen Ziqiao, how long have we known each other?"

He really counted the time in his mind: "Twelve...almost 13 years."

She was startled, and whispered to herself: "It's been a long time, how did time go by so fast?"

An underage girl solemnly sighs how quickly time goes by, which makes people feel funny.

But he didn't dare to laugh, he was afraid that if he laughed, all the suppressed emotions would flow out along the lung duct.

"Shen Ziqiao, you keep saying you like me, but I don't seem to know what you like about me." Yueyan turned her face, her eyes were slightly red, "Shen Ziqiao, what exactly do you like about me?"

The Adam's apple rolled a few times, and Shen Ziqiao followed her to look at Yuli: "Want to hear the truth?"

"Truth."

"You are obedient, pure, and obedient." The boy answered quickly, as if the answer had been turned in his mind hundreds of times.

Yue Yan was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously asked: "Where are the lies?"

Only then did Shen Ziqiao turn his head to look at her, his eyes were dark and complicated, and when he looked carefully, there seemed to be a slight glint of water in his eyes: "The lie is what I said just now."

"Gao Yueyan, I like you, I like everything about you."

Yueyan smiled, her eyes turned red again, and her voice lowered: "You think too well of me, I also have many shortcomings..."

"I know." The boy raised the corner of his lower lip.

Yue Yan shook her head: "You don't know, what can be seen by others is not called a defect, it's just some innocuous little problem, and the real shortcomings are invisible to others."

She is still so gentle, even when talking about her shortcomings that cannot be shown to others.

"My temper is not as good as you said, and sometimes even my father can't stand it... I also have people I hate, and I will judge them with very harsh words in my heart... I am used to being comfortable and can't stand it Frustration, even if someone tells me that there are many treasures hidden in the mountains ahead, but I have to walk a long way and suffer a lot, I will give up without saying a word... I am a person who is very afraid of trouble and has no sense of security. I have to be taken care of by others, so I dare not go abroad, and I dare not even choose a university that is farther away. I think I will not survive if I leave my father and home..."

Yes, there is still half a sentence left behind what the girl omitted.

Because I don't feel safe, I don't dare to accept love proposals from people with a low safety factor.

This person is also like a treasure in the mountains, beautiful, luminous, and well-known. People who have seen it and heard it have been coveted for a long time.Suddenly, Tian Shan told her, come here, I will keep all my treasures for you alone.

But the girl only glanced at it on the way before departure, and still chose to give up.

Because of too much uncertainty, because she has to suffer too much, she is greedy for comfort, she can't do it.

Shen Ziqiao's voice was difficult: "You are a girl, even if I am exhausted, I will take good care of you and not let you suffer..."

Yueyan looked down at the toe of her shoes, her lips trembled slightly, and her eyes were foggy: "But I have always been a girl, from the first day you saw me, why do you have to love me to be able to love me?" Take care of me? If one day you feel troublesome and suddenly don't want to love, what should I do if I'm used to being taken care of by you?"

Shen Ziqiao was speechless.

He didn't think about any of the girl's worries, and any oath seemed pale in the face of those doubts.

He found powerlessly that the girl had created a predicament for him, and he was successfully entangled in this predicament, in a way of attacking his own shield with his own spear.

"Yanyan, you never believed me, you always thought that I just wanted to play with you... did you..." His voice was so sour that he couldn't even speak, he had never been so submissive.

Yueyan suddenly didn't dare to look at him, her voice lowered down: "But... I don't think you really like me, maybe it's because you can see me all the time, so you think it's like you..."

Humans are inevitably attracted to those who are close to them.I'm too familiar, so I don't think it's a big deal when I hold hands, talk and bite my ears. The difference between boys and girls is born there. Boys feel warm and heartbeat, and girls sometimes don't think about it at all.

Probably thought it was funny, Shen Ziqiao hooked his lips, and smiled lightly: "Do you think I'm stupid? I can't tell the difference between familiarity and liking?"

The rain gradually turned light, and the water-logged road reflected light under the dim streetlights.

The two of them finally stopped talking, he took a deep breath, suppressed the rising and falling sourness in his throat, and called her: "Yanyan..."

She slowly raised her head and looked over.

"Are you annoying me... think I'm annoying? Don't want to see me for a day?"

Yue Yan immediately shook her head: "No."

The tense spine suddenly relaxed, and Shen Ziqiao felt like he had gone through heaven and hell during the few seconds waiting for her answer.

He wiped his face and smiled: "That's good."

Yue Yan turned her face to look at him, her eyes were still the same as before, her eyes were clean, no impurities could be seen.

Shen Ziqiao pulled up the hat of the sweater, took a step forward, and then stopped, "Yan Yan, I will do what I say. I said I won't bother you, and I will never bother you in the future." Looking at her for the last time, her hand Putting it into his trouser pocket, he smiled at Yueyan, "Fool, why are you crying? Didn't I promise you? Let's take the college entrance examination well."

Did she cry?

Gao Zhiming's car was parked quietly at the intersection of the street. This is an enlightened father. He talked to Shen Ziqiao for a long time with a cheerful face, and he didn't come to bother him.

When he finished speaking, the boy walked away.Only then did Gao Yueyan slowly walk towards her father's car.

Ever since her grandma passed away and she was seriously ill, Gao Zhiming came to pick her up every night after self-study, and today is no exception.

After his daughter fastened her seat belt, Gao Zhiming pulled off the handbrake, adjusted the position of the rearview mirror, and asked casually, "Is that Ziqiao?"

"Um……"

"What are you talking about, so long?"

"It's nothing."

Holding her schoolbag, Yueyan shrank into the back of the chair, looking extremely tired.

"Are you hungry? There are biscuits and yogurt in the car..." After babbling for a long time, I didn't hear my daughter speak up. Gao Zhiming took a look while waiting for a few seconds at the red light. Yueyan closed her eyes and leaned against the car door, as if she had fallen asleep up.

"I'm tired..."

The drizzle drifted past the car.

Dad's voice gradually drifted away, and the car became quiet.

Yueyan moved on the seat, found the most comfortable sitting position, pressed her forehead against the cold car window, raised her hand to rub her eye sockets, and a coldness spread on her face.

Yes, why is she crying?
(End of this chapter)