give you joy

Chapter 6 Because I want to cherish her, I can't see her being wronged a bit

The beginning of school means officially entering the battlefield of the third year of high school, which is self-evident for everyone.At the flag-raising ceremony on Monday, the elderly dean specially prepared a mobilization speech that lasted for half an hour. The central meaning was nothing more than two, study hard and don't fall in love early.

Just when they were in high school, a man and a woman were caught by the teacher because they were in love, and they hired their parents, which caused a bad influence.

"Puppy love is sinful," the dean said loudly, "Sometimes when I see those boys and girls in pairs on campus, I feel heartache, especially painful. You are so old to fall in love, you are worthy of yourself parents?"

The playground was crowded with people, and the phalanx of students in blue school uniforms looked like a blue ocean. A corner of the ocean hit a rock and a small storm suddenly set off.

The sound of the waves was so close to her, Yueyan raised her head, and unexpectedly found that there was an extra person in their class.

He mixed in the boys' team, put his hands on the shoulders of the people in front of him, arched his back, and turned his face to talk to Xu Pan, who was in the girls' team, after a short aisle.

It is Shen Ziqiao.

Under the watchful eyes of everyone, Yue Yan couldn't figure out how he got here.

Just when the dean mentioned the dangers of puppy love, all the boys in class nine desperately waved and shouted.

"Come back, Ziqiao, it's dangerous there!"

"Shen Ziqiao, come back, you will be arrested!"

Guys have a sense of humor...

Yue Yan lowered her head and smiled.

What Shen Ziqiao said, as if aware of it, he glanced back quickly, raised his eyebrows, and asked her in a low voice: "What are you laughing at?"

When she raised her head, there was a pair of eyes of a boy with a faint smile. Before she could answer, she turned her head back.

Are all boys this awkward?

A small group of shouts gradually spread and turned into a commotion in the entire playground. Seeing that something was wrong, the teaching director was afraid that he would not be able to suppress it, so he hurriedly ended it and asked these students to dismiss them and return to the classroom.

Yueyan was walking back with a girl who was having a good time in the class, passing the students downstairs, someone caught up with them, Xu Pan ran out of breath, just to come and say hello to Yueyan: "Hi."

Yueyan also naturally hid with her.

Xu Pan has a hearty personality, even his steps are bigger than ordinary girls, and he talks as fast as a machine gun, but his eyes are sizing her up carefully.

At first glance, she is the kind of girl who listens to the words of the family very much. She looks pure, has white skin, and her eyes are as clean as water, looking at the speaker quietly.

In everyone's adolescence, there should be very few boys who can't be attracted to this type of girl.

He kept talking, and his expression was still very lively, but Xu Pan's heart gradually filled with a faint astringency.

"Gao Yueyan, a few people in our class are having dinner at Fumanlou outside at noon, do you want to come together? You want to come, Ren Mengyan, you go too, many people in our class are here..."

The girl forced Yueyan to nod before leaving.

It was only at noon that I realized that not only the few in their class, but also those in other classes, some of whom Yueyan recognized, and some of whom Yueyan couldn't even call out their names.

Shen Ziqiao opened the door and came in when it was time to eat. He had just taken off his coat when someone eagerly pulled the chair away for him.

All the men, women and children at the table stood up and greeted Shen Ziqiao. He called people one by one, like a real adult, sophisticated and capable.

Under his coat was a short black T-shirt. It was September, and it was the season when the autumn tiger was domineering. The neckline was slightly wet, and the black leather chain was exposed. It was very ruffian but still handsome.

When he sat down next to her, Yueyan felt quite dumbfounded.

It's not that I don't want to eat at the same table with him, but after all, there are so many people, some I know and some I don't know, it's exhausting to think about it.

With boys around, the atmosphere will never be dry.

Everyone talked and laughed, made jokes, and after the meal, the few girls were all praised very happily.

Gao Zhiming always kept talking about sleeping and eating, and when there were too many people, Yue Yan lost his appetite, so he ate soup one mouthful at a time from the small bowl in front of him.

Shen Ziqiao put his elbows on the table, looked at the several dishes in front of him, and asked quite naturally: "What do you want to eat, I'll ask someone to make it again."

The people next door winked, and those who knew the inside story looked at each other and smiled.

Just say, well done, why did he come suddenly.

Yueyan's personality is quiet, and she doesn't talk much when there are many people. This kind of personality is originally unpleasant, but it is strange that she will unconsciously get the love and care of the group.

She shook her head.Shen Ziqiao filled a bowl of soup for her, then turned to talk to the person on the other side.

After eating, the boys went to pay the bill. Yueyan and Xu Pan were chatting at the door. Out of sight, a thin and thin figure also came down from the second floor slowly. Because she was so thin, people couldn't help but follow her Walking together, it seems as if an arm can grow out of the eyes, holding the girl so that she doesn't fall off.

Yueyan didn't recognize her at first glance, but after several more times, she realized that it was Shao Min.

She was so thin that she was out of shape, her cheekbones were prominent, and her skin was thinly attached to the bones of her face, giving her a shockingly bony appearance.

Yueyan was also shocked when she saw it: "Why does she..."

In my memory, the girl standing in the shadow of the mottled tree under the light seemed to be still smiling at her, asking her if she was Gao Yueyan.

Xu Pan then took a look there, and the talkative girl lowered her voice all of a sudden, faltering: "It is said that she failed the exam, her parents are both teachers, and the pressure on her is also great..."

Teachers' children are already delicate and sensitive.Everyone deliberately didn't mention the fact that she suddenly lost weight after breaking up with Shen Ziqiao.

16-year-old Gao Yueyan felt a kind of unspeakable pain for the first time. The words of the dean in the morning were quickly verified by the current situation of a girl at noon. A failed relationship would end so tragically, which is very difficult for any adolescent girl. It is a harsh warning.

What did Shao Min do wrong again, he was provoked, and because of his studies, he was easily left behind.

So, is puppy love evil, or is it because of Shen Ziqiao that puppy love becomes evil?
That whole afternoon, Yue Yan was a little out of shape, and she was absent-minded when Sun Weiwei gave her a lecture, thinking about Shao Min, and she frequently lost her mind.

Sun Weiwei turned his pen and changed the subject: "Yueyan, where do you want to go in college?"

Although there is still one year to go before the college entrance examination, many people are already choosing the pre-enrolled colleges and universities.

Yue Yan held her cheeks and thought for a while: "I should stay in Hangzhou."

The family has considered sending her abroad. Many of Gao Zhiming’s business friends are sending their children abroad, some even in middle and high school. Those who are promising are both domestically and internationally. day.It's not that Gao Zhiming has never thought that if his wife is still there, he will also send Yueyan out, let her mother go abroad to accompany her to study, and stay in China to take care of the business.But after all, girls don't have mothers, and they go to a foreign country alone, and the outside world is so chaotic, why let their daughters take this risk.

Gao Zhiming is just an old-fashioned and conservative father most of the time.

Wealth cannot be exposed, good cars don’t need to be washed, just drive in such a dirty state, others will treat them as second-hand cars, and will not be missed by others.Yueyan's actual birthday is two days older than what is written on her ID card, because Gao Zhiming asked the master in the temple to calculate it when she was born, and a person born in the year of rabbit will be cheated emotionally on that day, even her own mother I didn't really believe it, Gao Zhiming insisted on changing it to the day when the horoscope was the smoothest.

And all these are all the heart of a father who loves his daughter.

"Hangzhou is great, it's close to home."

"how about you?"

Sun Weiwei spoke calmly, with faint confidence: "Beijing."

As long as a person has a goal and someone to look forward to, everything is like a broken bamboo, and all difficulties are destined to be solved.

The future is still a white paper for Yue Yan. She has no idea who she will meet, what will happen, what kind of parting and reunion there will be.

There is fear without knowing, so Yueyan has always envied these courageous people.

No matter how hard the third year of high school was, the years passed by as before. In the blink of an eye, it was October, and the temperature dropped sharply. The camphor trees on the roadside were blown by the autumn wind, and their leaves had already begun to fall, which added a little bit of desolation to the school.It started to rain lightly in the evening, the sky was gray, and the sound of rain rustled in the self-study classroom. Looking at the fine raindrops floating outside the window, the students struggling in the sea of ​​questions were able to catch their breath.

The weather is getting colder, and the school does not force senior high school students to wear school uniforms. Yueyan wears a knitted cardigan with butterfly sleeves over the long sleeves, and a red and blue ribbon on the collar. These are new clothes brought by her father from Hong Kong. It made her soft and delicate, and many girls came to ask her what brand she was.

Holding the pen in her hand, she was carefully calculating a math problem. She might have made a mistake in the direction, and she couldn't get the final answer after filling two sheets of manuscript paper.

The head teacher appeared at the door of the classroom, causing a little commotion. The students raised their heads from the question room in twos and threes, and she just called Gao Yueyan away.

It wasn't the office either. After passing the administration building, the head teacher led her into the nearest empty classroom with anxiety, closed the door, and a middle-aged woman sitting by the window put down her purse, stood up and nodded to them.

Yue Yan was a little at a loss.

The woman looked at her carefully, from her hair to her face, to the little coat she was wearing. For some reason, there was a faint smile on her face, as if she already knew girls like her very well.

"Gao Yueyan, right? Hello, I'm Shao Min's mother, surnamed Zhang."

Yueyan's heart skipped a beat for no reason, she looked at her, and said hesitantly, "Ms. Zhang..."

Zhang Huihui also looked at her, turned around and smiled at the head teacher: "Okay, Xiaoyan, go get busy, I'll just chat with this child."

The head teacher and Zhang Huihui graduated from a normal school and are close classmates. Hearing that she wanted to meet a girl in her class, she brought Yueyan out.

Han Xiaoyan went out and closed the door for them.

Zhang Huihui picked up her bag and put it aside, said with a smile, "Sit down."

Yue Yan sat down slowly.

"Actually, I wanted to come over to meet you before, but because I just started school, there are many things in the class that I can't get away from. Like you, Mr. Han, I am also the head teacher. I lead a junior high school, and I meet all kinds of children every year. , A student’s personality and parents can be seen from their dress. I believe that teachers will have this intuition after working for a long time.”

"So my requirements for Shao Min have always been very strict. You can't make mistakes in what you eat, what you wear, what you say, what you say and do. No tutor."

Yueyan struggled to listen to one set of rhetoric after another, her heart gradually sank.

"You may have heard about Shao Min. You can't say who is right and who is wrong when it comes to young people's feelings. It's just that this child is too innocent, and it's too naive to deal with emotional problems. Boys in adolescence are uncertain, but today they like This, like that tomorrow, when you meet a few girls who are not self-respecting and deliberately sabotage, it is easy to change your mind."

No matter how stupid Yue Yan is, she can hear the voice-over, and she is such a smart girl.

The pinnae of the ears gradually became hot, the whole face seemed to be on fire, and a thin layer of water vapor rolled back and forth in the eye sockets.

Sometimes a person feels aggrieved, not because she has done anything wrong, but because she has no mother.

Because there is no mother, no one will take sides with her and protect her.

"I heard Shao Min talk about you before. In the impression of her father and I, you are a very special child. I heard that your mother passed away very early. Thinking like this, many things are understandable. "

Zhang Huihui's tone and attitude are like treating those students who have made mistakes in her class. She seems gentle, but her wording is very ruthless.

"I shouldn't say these words, but the road of life is not long. It doesn't matter if a girl takes a few wrong steps. The most important thing is not to make mistakes again and again. Do you think I'm right?"

Yue Yan didn't know how she left this classroom, nor how she got back to her seat.By the time she realized it, she had already sat at the desk, holding a pen and quietly continuing to calculate the math problem.

Oh...it turns out that I added the wrong auxiliary line...

The pen rustled away, and the tears fell drop by drop, slamming on the paper, blurring the numbers I just wrote.

Embarrassment, grievance, and that menacing sadness, like autumn rain, dripped untimely on the girl's heart.

There are voices all around, some are chatting, some are doing questions, some are discussing the scores of the simulation, and some are reviewing the results of the quiz.

And she sat where she was, turned the manuscript paper over, and raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face as if nothing had happened.

In the self-study class that night, I heard that Shao Min fainted in the dormitory because of a fever, and was rushed to the hospital after being discovered by the teacher who checked the dormitory.Although the school explicitly prohibited everyone from discussing this matter, almost the entire self-study class was discussed by everyone about Shao Min.

During the break in the middle of evening self-study, a slender figure appeared in the corridor outside their classroom as usual, leaning against the wall and looking down at the phone.

Shen Ziqiao's frequency of running to their class recently is unusually high.

Everyone gradually got used to it. The students in the front row by the door didn't even look at it and called in, "Xu Pan, someone is looking for you."

After a while.

The voice of speaking gradually became lower, and all the eyes seemed to converge towards one place, and a small gray-black shadow fell on the test paper that Gao Yueyan spread out.

The hand holding the pen stopped writing.

A boy's faint voice floated from above his head: "Come out, I have something to tell you."

Sun Weiwei stood up obligingly: "Are you okay?"

Shen Ziqiao looked away and smiled: "None of your business."

Yueyan didn't want to have friction with him in full view and be talked about by others, so she put down her pen and followed him out.

The boy led her to the end of the corridor a little further away from the classroom. The utility room next to it was locked, and the moonlight came in from outside the corridor, making the surroundings faintly reflected.

Yueyan looked down at her watch, there were still 7 minutes before the next self-study class started: "Is there something wrong?"

He asked directly: "I heard that Shao Min's mother came to see you?"

It's okay if he doesn't mention it, Yueyan can still pretend that nothing happened, but when he mentions it, Yueyan feels even more wronged, that kind of embarrassment and humiliation, she doesn't even want to recall it again.

Zhang Huihui's words clearly didn't contain a single dirty word, but Yueyan had never heard anything worse than this. Frivolity, frivolity, lack of self-respect, and lack of self-love are all words that hurt girls deeply.

She turned her head away, as if she didn't care at all: "So what?"

He came closer and looked down at her: "what did she tell you?"

"It's nothing."

"Nothing, why are you crying?"

Yue Yan raised her head abruptly, her eye circles were already red.She was very imposing at first, but her words were still soft when she spoke: "Do you want me to cry?"

Shen Ziqiao's heart was also sore, hurt by the girl's tears.

Because I want to cherish her, I can't see her being wronged a bit.

But he made her suffer enough.

He raised his hand to wrap the entire back of her head, trying to pull her to his chest, but the girl didn't move, raised her hand around his wrist, trying to pull his hand from her hair, her fingertips were cold.She shook her head in his palm tiredly: "Don't touch me..."

Shen Ziqiao stroked her hair twice, but he really didn't move her.

Yueyan adjusted her mood and looked at him: "No matter what her mother told me, there must be some misunderstanding in it. Can you find a time to visit Shao Min and explain the matter to her clearly?"

Shen Ziqiao stared at her non-stop, feeling that the girl in front of her was a little different, as if she had grown up all of a sudden, she was smarter, more sensible, and more distressing.

"I know, I planned to visit her in the hospital this weekend."

"Also, don't come to class to look for me anymore. I want to have a good class and don't want to be talked about by others."

With raised eyebrows, he asked, "What did they say about you?"

"Anyway, it's all fake, so don't ask me. Don't come to me. If you meet me at school, it's as if we don't know each other."

In the dark moonlight, the corners of Shen Ziqiao's mouth slightly lifted.

Do girls know that there are some words that cannot be said during adolescence, such as hate, such as breaking up friendship, such as pretending that we don't know each other, because these words are like splashed water, and often hurt a sincere heart.

In the darkness, Shen Ziqiao's voice was low and deep: "Okay."

The class bell rang suddenly at that second, and Yueyan turned around in a panic to leave, but Shen Ziqiao held her arm for the last time: "Then you also promise me one thing..."

She looked back anxiously: "What's the matter?"

"Don't think about it, go back to the dormitory and have a good sleep."

Pulling his hand away, Yueyan forced a smile at him: "Nonsense, what else can you do if you don't sleep in the dormitory?"

Things did not develop in the direction these young children expected.

A week later, a new gossip circulated on the campus where the first mock exam for the third year of high school was over. Shao Min was diagnosed with myocarditis in the hospital. It can be large or small, some chronic may have no symptoms, and severe ones will suddenly die suddenly.

The last time Yueyan saw Zhang Huihui was in the small office on the first floor of the administration. She took the relevant documents to go through the procedures for her daughter to suspend school, and took Shao Min home to rest.

There were many teachers standing by the dean's table, surrounded by a middle-aged woman with a haggard face and reddish eye circles, all feeling sorry for her.A female teacher brought a cup of hot tea, put her hand on her shoulder, and whispered something.

Yueyan went to hand in her homework, but when she passed by the English teacher's desk, she was stopped again and asked her about the progress of her review.The English teacher has just graduated from university and is young and energetic. This is the first class of students she has led, and she has put a lot of energy and ideas into it. Perhaps because of her pleasant and correct learning attitude, the teacher has given her a hard time among this group of students. Pay extra attention.

Zhang Huihui's sobbing sound gradually spread to their side, and the crying sound was full of a mother's grief and despair.

Her daughter was ruined, but she couldn't find anyone to explain it to.

There was another sound of footsteps in the corridor, and the sound died down after approaching the office, followed by a report from the door.

Several teachers raised their heads one after another and saw Shen Ziqiao appearing at the door, including Zhang Huihui.As soon as he finished his physical education class, he was called by the head teacher to the office to pick up his homework.

No one can imagine the reaction of a desperate mother.

The second Shen Ziqiao appeared, Zhang Huihui had already recognized him, and before everyone could react, she rushed over and gave him a firm slap, grabbed his collar, slapped and pushed him he.

"You ruined my daughter's life!"

Zhang Huihui cried until she was completely dumb, her lips trembled, and the tears in her eyes trembled drop by drop.

The zipper of Shen Ziqiao's coat was ripped crookedly, but he didn't resist. Seeing her crying and kneeling on the ground, she shrugged her shoulders and said in a hoarse voice, "You ruined our house..."

Seeing this, the teachers in the office swarmed up, a few went to help her, and some pulled Shen Ziqiao away. There were a few comforting words mixed in with their haste, and some people said: "What's the matter with you, parent? What are you doing with a child?" hand?"

As the client, Shen Ziqiao only tilted his head when she slapped her hand, and remained motionless for the rest of the time, standing on the spot, straight like a tree. No one can embarrass a tree. This is the last thing Shen Ziqiao tried his best to maintain. dignity.

Yue Yan looked at the scene in front of her with some trepidation.

The gaze may be warm.

The next second, as if feeling something, he turned his head hesitantly.Facing Shang Yueyan's slightly trembling gaze, Shen Ziqiao was obviously taken aback.Subconsciously raised his hand and touched his forehead, he turned his face away in embarrassment.

The matter finally got to Li Huifen. She had heard about her son's little girlfriend before, and she was the one who forced them to break up.In terms of emotion and reason, she didn't think her son had done anything wrong, but instead felt that the other girl's parents were messing around.But Gao Zhiming doesn't see it that way. There is no absolute right or wrong in matters of relationship, and it doesn't matter what anyone says, but in terms of etiquette, people can't feel that the couple has not done their job properly, and then give others a chance to make excuses.

Li Huifen can't say a word about her son, and Gao Zhiming is even more inconvenient to discipline the children there. The couple discussed it all night and decided to take advantage of tomorrow's rare weekend to buy something and go to the hospital to see this girl. , the parents of both sides also met by the way to see how this issue can be resolved peacefully without harming the two children.

When they drove downstairs to the hospital, Li Huifen was afraid that her son would be wronged again, so she left Shen Ziqiao alone in the car, and took the elevator with Gao Zhiming and Yue Yan to go up first.

The ward was on the sixth floor. Because it was not yet visiting time, the whole floor was very quiet. There was a smell of disinfectant in the corridor. Occasionally, one or two patients in hospital gowns could be seen chatting.Gao Zhiming originally did not agree to bring Yueyan here, at such a critical moment in the third year of high school.It was Li Huifen who felt that girls of the same age could chat more openly, so Gao Zhiming had already said in the elevator: "Yan Yan, when you enter the ward later, don't sit anywhere, don't touch anything, remember ?"

Yue Yan lowered her head, and the toe of her shoe lightly touched the ground.

Gao Zhiming raised the volume: "Gao Yueyan, do you hear me?"

The voice was muffled, "I heard you."

Zhang Huihui was not there, and the roommate was a man of medium height. After introducing himself, he realized that it was Shao Min's father.

A taciturn middle-aged man, wearing square-frame glasses, because of working at a desk all year round, the cuffs of his white shirt are not very clean.

Gao Zhiming used almost all his skills in the business field, from the failure of his parents to the current incident, with sincere and reasonable words.Shao Min's father listened to him, nodded occasionally, and didn't say much. When Gao Zhiming stopped in the middle, he interrupted: "If you have anything to say, go outside and let Shao Min rest for a while."

The three adults left the ward and closed the door from the outside.

Yueyan was left alone, holding a bunch of violets loosely in her arms, looking a little cautious.

Shao Min greeted her: "Sit down..."

Looking at Shao Min who was weak on the hospital bed, Yueyan pulled a square stool from the next bed and sat down, with the flowers across her lap.

Shao Min was half leaning on the white pillow in the hospital, her hair was hanging thinly against her cheeks, the quilt was pulled up to her chest, and the infusion tube fixed on the back of her hand was connected to the IV stand next to her, looking at Yue Yan, Said a little apologetically: "I know my mother went to you, and I apologize to you... She was just mad, not on purpose."

Yue Yan felt as if a huge rock had been crushed in her heart. Since entering this ward, the rock became heavier and heavier, making her unable to breathe.

Maybe she should say it's okay, but she can't open her mouth no matter what.

Does it really have nothing to do with her?

The ward became quiet, and a ray of sunlight fell on the sunny window sill.Flowers received by other patients were piled up on the window sill, and the fresh flowers and leaves shimmered in the sun.

In the silent ward, Shao Min's voice trembled slightly.

"He's really bad...how could he be so bad...I promised him everything, but he said he couldn't read books in the classroom, so he asked me to go to the library with him, and I went without saying a word...in the library When he said he wanted to kiss me, I agreed to him...I almost became not me because of him...Why, why did he break up with me..."

Tears filled her eyes and hit the back of the girl's hand one after another, hitting Yueyan's heart.

"When we broke up with me, he said that he didn't like girls clinging to him too tightly... But kissing and watching him play were all proposed by him, and he asked for it. He said that other people's girlfriends are like this..."

"Gao Yueyan," Shao Min murmured, wet eyelashes, nose flushed from crying, "this boy is really amazing, he has never told me the truth, never...but he made me into a So... I really hate him..."

It was she who said hateful words, but cried.

When we were young, we often said a lot of insincere things because we were eager to get rid of a relationship, and these words eventually became a past that we couldn't face with time.

What have we done wrong all these years?
Lying, changing grades, skipping self-study, and cheating in exams have hurt anyone. Can you expect forgiveness from others, or is it too late to regret it?

Every word of Shao Min is like a slogan prohibiting traffic, standing heavily on every road leading to Shenziqiao.

When she left the ward, her father and Li Huifen went to the doctor's office to understand the situation, and Yueyan took the elevator down alone.

Approaching the parking space, Shen Ziqiao had already got out of the car, leaning against the car and listening to music, wearing earphones.

Seeing her coming, he pulled down the headphone cable with one hand, and Shen Ziqiao looked at her without saying a word.

Yue Yan stretched out her hand to pull the car door on her side, Shen Ziqiao pressed the door with one hand, lowered her gaze, and fell on her face: "What are you doing?"

If one had to use one word to describe the mood facing Shen Ziqiao at this moment, it would be confusion.

Even though she told herself countless times in her heart that this boy was good, Shao Min's word of hate smashed all assumptions to pieces.Recalling her long study career, what she heard and saw were all the hateful things about this boy.

"you see me."

Yue Yan doesn't move.

Then her chin was pushed away by the boy with one hand, and her face finally turned towards him. Shen Ziqiao narrowed his eyes and looked at her, and suddenly smiled lazily: "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Yue Yan lowered her eyelids in avoidance.

The smile on his face gradually disappeared, Shen Ziqiao's eyes turned cold, he looked down at her, and asked the sentence just now: "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Yue Yan raised her face suddenly, her eyelashes were coated with a layer of golden yellow by the morning sun, her eyes were like a clear lake surface, rippled layer by layer due to inexplicable emotions.

Cold, light.

Shen Ziqiao roared: "Gao Yueyan, why are you looking at me like that?"

Yue Yan is not very afraid of him, what she is more afraid of is that her cognition will be judged as wrong and deviate from the mainstream track.

If Shen Ziqiao is not as good as she thinks, if Shen Ziqiao is full of destructive desire in essence.

Yueyan has watched a movie called "Bad Seed", and there is a short comment in it that once shocked her: At the beginning of human beings, nature is evil, and innocence is like a blank sheet of paper, so it is easier to write evil.

She used to believe in him the most, so, can he understand her loss at this moment?

Yueyan's eyes were wet, because she was confused, she whispered: "Why, why can't you take a girl seriously..."

Why, why can't you be what I want you to be?

"I'm serious enough about you!"

He roared with red eyes.

If the second year of high school is a watershed, then the third year of high school is a cliff.Every candidate is one of the climbers who help the rock, and no one dares to take it lightly. The consequences of a small mistake may be irreversible.

And these consequences have to be borne by all candidates themselves.

"Calm down, pay attention to the rhythm, grasp every step of the review, and don't fall behind. The third year of high school is no higher than the first year of high school. If you fall, no one will care about you." This is a sentence that often hangs on Han Xiaoyan's lips.

These lessons are firmly imprinted in their hearts without repeated reminders from teachers.

The mathematics teacher analyzed a test paper to the end, and the problem-solving steps have been written on the blackboard, rubbing the chalk dust in the palm of his hand, he propped up the podium with both hands, raised his eyes from under the glasses and asked the students below: "What else is unclear? "

Rarely, some people raised their hands to ask questions. The teacher singled out a few that he thought were important and explained it again. In order not to delay the time of other students in the get out of class, he asked the remaining students to go to his office to ask alone after class.At the end before get out of class, the key points of the review were emphasized again.

When the bell rang for the end of class, more and more students walked around the classroom.

The girl in the front row turned around with the test paper, and asked Sun Weiwei who was on the right back: "Student committee, help me see, how did the teacher get this step?"

Sun Weiwei glanced at the step on her hand and asked her, "Why didn't you ask Teacher Shan in class?"

The girl pouted: "That's so embarrassing..." She looked at Yueyan next to her, "The school committee is partial, and she gives Gao Yueyan lectures every day. I don't think she ever raises her hand in class."

Their front and back tables are full of lively and cheerful girls. Sun Weiwei is the only male in ten miles and eight towns. He is fat and has a good temper. The girls love to tease him. Yue Yan would not feel embarrassed, and would make the joke back: "Don't laugh at me, the topics I don't know are all advanced, okay?"

But this time, Yueyan didn't speak, she took a pen to write slowly, the light and shadow of early autumn sprinkled lightly on her face, her skin was as clean as jade, and the hair hanging by her ears swayed gently with the shadow of the sun.

After Sun Weiwei finished explaining the questions to her, he waited for the girl to turn back before going to see Yueyan.

She writes thoughtfully on the paper.

"Gao Yueyan."

She was called so that she turned her head, her eyes slightly puzzled.

"Yueyan, have you been worried recently?"

She shook her head and smiled: "No..."

Generally good in mathematics, physics and chemistry, the brain is bright, Sun Weiwei looked at her, and asked tentatively: "Is it related to Shen Ziqiao?"

She suddenly lost her mind, and for that long second, Sun Weiwei mistakenly thought that her eyes were fixed in the amber together with the time... The long eyelashes drooped slightly, and she smiled restrainedly: "How could it be?"

Gao Yueyan was really out of shape these few days, and Han Xiaoyan asked her to talk to her. Yueyan was thoughtful, so she hid secretly and cried several times.

After Sun Weiwei found out, he borrowed the notes she had sorted out by herself, and took her to the study room for self-study at noon every day, gave her lectures, and picked up the key points of the review. Only then did she catch up with the progress little by little.

There is such a kind of person, the closer you get to him, the better you become, like the rising sun that shines on all things.

What is on the back of the sun?
Is it an invisible vortex?Or the moon alone?
After class, Yueyan came back from the toilet in a hurry. After finishing the stairs, she was blocked by someone when she was almost at the back door of her class.

A man and a woman, leaning against the two ends of the corridor separately, where people come and go, they are the only ones talking blatantly.

Yue Yan paused for a second.

Feeling something, Shen Ziqiao turned his head to look, his eyes gliding across her face indifferently, and after seeing that it was her, he retracted without excessive, and continued to talk to the girl opposite him.

But the girl seemed to feel it too, looked critically at Yue Yan's direction, and smiled at her.

Yueyan was very impressed with her. At the freshman welcome party, the girl led the dance to the most popular dance song by Korean girl group at that time. All the boys in the audience were screaming, and the atmosphere was so hot that the roof of the auditorium was almost toppled.

Without squinting, Yueyan quickened her pace and passed between them.The surroundings were quiet, only the wind outside the porch rustled the leaves.

Shen Ziqiao put his arms across the railing, tilted his head, looked ahead lazily, and followed the girl for a short distance.

She had just washed her face, her face was clean and fair, the hair on her temples and forehead was still wet, twirling and curled up there.

He looks very good, but he also has his own temper and principles.

After walking far away, there was a sudden sound of footsteps behind her, Yue Yan's heart subconsciously tightened, her back was stiff, and her palms were gradually sweating.

This is Shen Ziqiao's usual reaction every time he approaches her.

The girl trotted over from behind: "Hello."

Inexplicably, Yueyan breathed a sigh of relief, slowed down, let the girl catch up with her, and walked side by side at a distance of half a meter.

The girl turned her face to look at her.

It's the kind of girl who is so glamorous and so beautiful that even the seniors have come to ask her name.Seeing Yueyan's expression seemed to be thoughtful, she raised the end of her eyes and smiled a lot: "Don't get me wrong, I have nothing to do with him."

Yueyan took a light breath, raised her eyelashes, and the water in her eyes was quiet.

"You don't need to explain it to me, I have a normal classmate relationship with him."

Without waiting for the girl to say anything, Yueyan pushed open the back door of the classroom, leaving her behind, and walked in directly.

There was an hour's lunch break after lunch. The students who were resting in the classroom pulled up the curtain of the classroom window, the volume decreased along with the light, and the voice of speaking fell down.

In order not to disturb her classmates' rest, Yueyan packed up some review materials and went to the library for self-study alone.

Walk out of the teaching building and pass the flower beds and playground full of tulips.

The originally crowded stadium was lonely and empty.

The boy was wearing a thin black hooded sweater, standing loosely under the frame and shooting shots. Some balls went in, some hit the backboard, and the quiet playground echoed with the muffled sound of impact.

The wind was very strong, and the sun could not be seen at noon on a cloudy day.

Yueyan stopped in her tracks, hugged the textbook in her arms tightly, and looked over.

Unsurprisingly, he was also looking at her.

The basketball rolled over and didn't stop until it reached his sneakers.The boy paused for a second, bent down to pick it up, passed it around the palms of both hands, and suddenly, reversed the ball and pushed it towards her.

Greetings like a prank, only he can do it.

Yue Yan was a beat slower and didn't dodge.

The ball brushed against the back of her hand holding the book and fell back to the ground, bounced and rolled a few times, and finally stopped quietly between them.

Boys look at her.

Behind the few strands of hair hanging down in front, the eyes are like the sea, with black waves secretly surging.

All of a sudden, it seems to be already very big, far away from the youthfulness, recklessness and impulsiveness of yesterday, and the setbacks and depression experienced have externalized into all kinds of personality.He is more like a man than yesterday, becoming forbearing and silent.

Time flew by, and the scene in front of me was hurriedly brought back to the day of the hospital.

The car behind him, the tree beside him, and the old man returning from a walk in a wheelchair by the path constituted the main background of that conversation.

"I'm serious enough about you!"

Yue Yan kept hiding, kept hiding, and every time she was about to get close to the truth, she passed by deceiving herself, like a tourist escaping the death, who escaped the air crash, but may not be able to escape the water disaster.

Finally, the boy had had enough fun, and resolutely brought the tsunami back to her, forcing her to see, think, and face her intuition that she had repeatedly avoided.

Rather than avoiding this intuition, it is better to say that it is Shen Ziqiao who Yueyan has been avoiding.

Perhaps because of her single-parent family and being brought up by her father, her aesthetics has been deeply influenced by Gao Zhiming. Since she was a child, she is more likely to be attracted to people who are gentle, have high moral values, and are emotionally stable.

Is that Shen Ziqiao?
He is playful, sentimental, and half-hearted, and every word used to describe Shen Ziqiao has made Yueyan avoid it.

The boy's straight-forward questioning method will only make an underage girl feel ashamed in the end.

Yueyan bit her lower lip, and said the only three words she could think of: "I'm sorry."

Shen Ziqiao took a step closer, his voice almost rang above her head, low and deep, strong and domineering: "Don't tell me you're sorry, tell me exactly, do you like me or not?"

In their previous relationship, Shen Ziqiao would not treat her so contemptuously. Thinking of this, Yueyan's eyes gradually turned red: "Don't talk to me in such a tone..."

As soon as she looked like crying, he couldn't help it. He raised his hand to push the broken hair behind her ear, and when he retracted, he naturally touched her warm and cool cheek with the back of his finger: "Why are you crying?"

He hasn't said anything more presumptuous.

She still avoided him: "Don't touch me either..."

Ok.

Putting his hands back into his trouser pockets, Shen Ziqiao lowered his volume, changed his tone of discussion, and looked down at her: "Then tell me, what do you think?"

Yueyan's heart was in a mess: "I have no idea."

"That means you agreed?" The boy's eyes lit up, testing her.

Yueyan was choked, and asked instead: "And then?"

"What then?"

"I said if I promise you, then what will happen?"

His heart suddenly lit up, and the momentary ecstasy made him a little incoherent.Shen Ziqiao laughed, feeling happy: "Then I will treat you well, Yan Yan, and I will treat you well for the rest of my life."

Are all boys like this?There are so many words to lie to girls that you don't need to write a draft, just open your mouth.Yue Yan suddenly felt sad, and it turned out that Shen Ziqiao was also the same.

Yueyan raised her head: "Then, we'll go out with adults behind our backs, kiss in the library, our grades will plummet, and finally make my father mad..."

No matter how young a girl is, she still knows to be responsible to those who really love her and care about her.

Listening to the "then" in her mouth, Shen Ziqiao put away the smile little by little, and his eyes darkened.

The girl's voice lowered, thinking of Shao Min lying on the hospital bed, what Zhang Huihui had said to her, she hadn't tasted the sweetness of love yet, but she had already tasted enough of the bitterness of love.

Misunderstandings, sadness, resentment, anger... are all side effects of unexploded love, some are as mild as allergies, and some are hurting.

"Maybe a few months, maybe a year or two, you are tired, you feel troublesome, and you break up with me by saying ugly words..."

His eyes were red, and his voice trembled: "Yanyan, I won't...I..."

"Yes, you will," Yue Yan looked up at him, giving what she thought was the most direct judgment, "Because you have always been this kind of person, and you have always done this kind of thing."

This is a very hurtful sentence.

What you see with your eyes and hear with your ears must be true, right?

Shen Ziqiao looked at her, just watched her say these words, did not clarify a word for himself, twitched the corners of his mouth, smiled coldly and casually, turned his eyes away, and looked to the side.

"is it?"

(End of this chapter)