just like you

Chapter 6 Sometimes we fall in love with people we shouldn't love, and we also separate from people we can't separate from. Is it her?

Is it really her?
But, how is it possible...

He doesn't believe it!It must be because of missing too much, so there will be such a real hallucination.

It must be so!
Guan Luochen laughed at himself, a bitter smile appeared on his lips.

But in the next second, the familiar voice resounded in his ears again.

"Luochen..." There was a hint of caution in the voice.

This...it was clearly her voice...the voice that lingered in his ears in so many midnight dreams.

Guan Luochen opened his eyes suddenly as if he was frightened.

The next second—

The familiar and beautiful figure of the girl was reflected in his dark eyes.

Her eyes are as clear as spring water, her small nose is slightly wrinkled, her delicate eyebrows are tightly frowned, there is an imperceptible melancholy cloud between her brows, and her pointed chin is slightly raised. At this time, she is opening her eyes, looking intently at Looking at himself, the apprehension and tension in his eyes loomed.

original……

it's really her...

Really are……

Yan Xirui...

The name in his mind was uprooted from his memory, and his heart suddenly ached sharply.

It was a piercing pain.

She raised her face cautiously to look at him.

His complexion became paler and paler.

"Luo Chen..." She hesitated, but after mustering up her courage, she subconsciously called out his name.

The surroundings were extremely quiet, as if falling into a emptiness in an instant.

Yan Xirui's eyes were filled with tears.

How many times have I been looking forward to this, that I can stand in front of him and take a look at his long-lost face.

At this moment, all this has finally come true...

Her shoulders trembled slightly.

She is waiting for his answer.Huge apprehension filled her whole heart, she didn't know how he would treat her...

he is still...

hate her?

She raised her face and carefully observed his expression, as if she was afraid of missing the slightest clue.

What awaited her was a long, suffocating silence.

A momentary illusion struck, and Yan Xirui was captured——

She seemed to hear the sound of cicadas and frogs again.

It's like going back to two years ago.

He stood motionless under the tree, and the beautiful petals rustled under the breeze.

It fell on his thin body and short black and shiny hair.

He smiled gently towards himself, and at that moment, his eyes seemed to be filled with moving and twinkling stars.

At that moment, my heart was easily moved...

But at this moment-

The boy in front of him didn't react at all, just stood motionless.

As if he didn't hear her call, he stood there expressionlessly.

Yan Xirui's heart ached slightly, and the tears that overflowed her eyes seemed to burst out in the next second.

Her body trembled slightly, and she looked at him without blinking.

The boy's eyes are as deep and beautiful as a lake, but no one can see what kind of emotions are hidden deep in this beautiful lake, and what kind of rough waves are hidden under the lake's surface.

Yan Xirui felt that her heartbeat almost exceeded the load her heart could bear, she had to cover her heart with her right hand to calm herself down.

In the suffocating silence, she called out his name again: "Guan Luochen."

She paused every word with a solemn and careful expression.

However, what answered her was still a strange silence.

It was still his expressionless face that greeted her.

He looked at her, just looked at her quietly, with a calm expression as if he was looking at a mass of empty air.

There seemed to be nothing in the eyes.

That empty and indifferent look deeply hurt her heart...

Indifferent, his eyes were indifferent, his expression was indifferent, as if she was a stranger.

At this moment, Yan Xirui felt as if the air had frozen, which made her feel suffocated.

Do not……

she can't give up...

She wanted to call out his name again, and wanted to say a few more words to him, even if it was just to ask how he was doing in the past two years!
Even if he was silent and he ignored him, she still didn't want to miss such a rare opportunity to meet him!

Thinking of this, she seemed to gather all the strength in her whole body before making another sound: "Guan..."

"Please don't call me by my name anymore, because your voice will only make me feel very uncomfortable and annoying..." Guan Luochen said suddenly.

Yan Xirui's words twitched on the tip of his tongue, but he stopped him indifferently.

It turned out that her voice made him feel uncomfortable and annoying...

Intense pain screamed in her body, and even her breathing became stagnant.

Yan Xirui's eyes became empty and confused, her lips trembled slightly, as if she had used a lot of effort to make a sound.

She continued on her own, with a trace of sadness in her expression: "You know Luo Chen, I used to not believe in fate, but now, now... this idea has changed, and sometimes we fall in love with someone we shouldn't. Those who love will be separated from those who cannot be separated..."

"Please stop talking." Guan Luochen's indifferent voice sounded again.

"I know that, you will hate me. At that time... At that time, it was my life to have to be separated from you, but what you don't know is that I suffer as much as you. My pain will not be more painful than You lose half a point, but I have to accept it..."

"Can't you understand me? I want you to stop and stop talking!" Guan Luochen's voice became high-pitched, and he roared at her.

In the sound of his stopping, Yan Xirui's tears could no longer be restrained from rushing down the corners of his eyes, and big tears flowed down to his cheeks.

"What do you think there is any point in saying these words now? These words will only remind me over and over again how unforgivable mistakes I have made. I would actually believe you and believe that you were sincere to me, but All of that can be bought with money, isn't it worth money at all? Yan Xirui, what you have done will only make me feel extremely stupid and pitiful." Guan Luochen's indifferent voice contained Indescribable irony.

No...it's not like this...Yan Xirui shouted loudly in her heart, she shook her head heavily, but couldn't say a word.

"You say these words now, nothing will change. Two years ago, everything, including the relationship between me and you, has been rewritten. The moment you make a choice, it has changed, and Once some things are changed, they can never be undone." His voice was extremely cold, as cold as ice in a deep pool.

Big tears fell, Yan Xirui looked at Guan Luochen in front of him with a sad expression, his expression was so indifferent, so ruthless...

"No...Luo Chen, don't do this...I had no choice but to..."

"Please don't say any more, I don't want to hear a word. I feel disgusted at any explanation, any words you say...all of them are disgusting..." Guan Luochen's voice was extremely calm, and the expression appeared on his face. Show disgust.

Yan Xirui's heart was stabbed deeply, the pain almost made her unable to breathe!
She tightly covered her heart with her hands.

Yes, she knew, she clearly knew how much he hated herself back then, but what she didn't expect was that after two years, this hatred has not diminished at all...

He still hated her so much, and couldn't forgive her for her forced choice at that time...

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry, Luo Chen!" Yan Xirui apologized, choking on her sobs.

"Please don't call me by my name, Luo Chen..." The corners of Guan Luochen's lips rose slightly, and there was a hint of mockery in his eyes, "Isn't Luo Chen such an intimate name reserved for close people? And you... Not worthy at all..."

Yan Xirui's eyes widened, and she seemed to have forgotten to cry at that moment.

She stared blankly at the indifferent Guan Luochen in front of her, her body trembling violently.

After a moment of silence—

He looked at her with deep eyes, as if he had fallen into a deep memory...

But after a while, he raised his eyebrows lightly, and said ruthlessly: "Yan Xirui, it's your turn now, I can no longer see you in my eyes."

never see you again...

Yan Xirui stood there dumbfounded, this ruthless sentence seemed to break all her hopes, and shattered her fantasy dream...

It seems that because of being too excited, the increasingly unbearable pain is screaming in her mind twice...

head……

It really hurts...

The unbearable pain invaded her cruelly...

Looking at Guan Luochen with an indifferent face, she felt desolate, and after staring at him for a while, she ran away crying.

Her back is so sad, an unconcealable sadness...

The sound of thumping footsteps resounded in the air, and the hollow sound was extremely bleak.

After an unknown period of time, the surroundings became quiet again.

Guan Luochen silently watched the girl's receding figure turn around the corner and disappear into the distance...

And the position just now——

Already empty.

Nothing at all.

It was very quiet all around.

As if she had never been here.

It seemed that everything just now was just a beautiful illusion, just an illusion of his own subconscious.

It's like countless sleepless nights, her figure clearly lingers in his mind... It's just that after waking up, he will feel more and more empty.

The light in his eyes went out in an instant.

At that moment, it seemed that something important in my heart was emptied out.

She's gone, and he just hurt her in such a cruel way...

However, what she didn't know was that perhaps his heart was more painful than her being hurt.

The pain is ten times, a hundred times...

Guan Luochen clenched his hands tightly.

Everything in front of him became nothingness, he couldn't control his own moving steps, a thought was clamoring strongly in his mind, he actually didn't want to hurt her, didn't he?

He missed her so much and wanted to see her...

But now, she is no longer in his sight...

There is only loneliness.

The sun is shining.

It's so shocking that it makes me want to cry...

Except for Yan Xirui herself, no one can understand how deep sadness is in her heart now.

But such sadness cannot be eliminated in a short time.

That kind of sadness lingered in her heart, lingering for a long time, like a festering wound, as long as it was touched, it would cause unbearable pain.

The sadness was so overwhelming that even the nervous Liu Xinran felt it clearly, even though she didn't know what happened to Yan Xirui.

After lunch, there were very few people in the classroom, and everyone ran to the playground to breathe fresh air.

Empty and silent classrooms seem especially suitable for conversation.

Yan Xirui sat on the seat reading a book with a blank face, with an indelible melancholy appearing between her brows.

Liu Xinran looked back at her, sighed slightly, and looked worried.After a while, she reached out and counted the numbers: "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7..."

The earnest and solemn appearance and the word-by-word pause caught Yan Xirui's attention. She frowned slightly, turned her head and asked in puzzlement, "What are you counting?"

"Time, I'm counting the time." Liu Xinran replied solemnly.

"Count the time? What time?" Yan Xirui was a little surprised, feeling that she couldn't understand the words of this eccentric Liu Xinran at all.

"It's the time when you haven't laughed. You haven't laughed for a whole week, don't you realize it yourself, classmate Yan Xirui?"

"Ah? Is there any?"

"What do you mean? It's obviously okay!" Liu Xinran looked worried, "Not only that, but in the last week, you didn't even say anything, okay?"

"Huh? Probably." Yan Xirui answered absently, avoiding Liu Xinran's gaze.

"Xi Rui, what happened? If you are unhappy about anything, please tell me, we are good friends." Liu Xinran patted her chest, "If someone really bullied you, then He is dead!"

"Yeah. I know." Listening to her concerned words, Yan Xirui was very moved, but she still couldn't get her spirits up and just forced a smile on her face.

"Xi Rui, you really have to tell me if you have anything...or you will definitely regret it!" Liu Xinran chased after her, and asked cautiously, with a slightly threatening tone.

"Have you said it all? It's just that I've been feeling a little inexplicably depressed recently, maybe it will get better in a few days." Yan Xirui avoided her examining eyes, picked up the book on the desk, and pretended to continue reading.

But Liu Xinran did not intend to let her go easily.

She mischievously snatched the book from Yan Xirui's hand: "Don't study any more during the break time. A student like you with so good grades works so hard, we simply don't want to live."

Yan Xirui smiled, and turned her head obediently, a gleam of light finally shone in her eyes.

"Then Miss Liu, what exactly do you want to do?"

"How about...let's go eat ice cream together." Liu Xinran suggested.

"Ice cream?" Yan Xirui's eyes widened, "Please, the weather is not so hot now, won't it be chilly to eat ice cream? It's better not to go..." She looked resistant.

"Xi Rui, don't you like sweet things the most? You don't want to eat ice cream?" Liu Xinran was confused.

"But it's autumn now, don't you think it's weird to eat ice cream at this time? Maybe you will have a stomachache." Yan Xirui shook her head.

"Xi Rui, don't you know that there is a new ice cream shop in front of the school, and it's the event period, all ice cream is half price. I heard from the students who went to try it yesterday that the taste is very good!" Liu Xinran mentioned "ice cream "Three words, it is a look of longing.

Yan Xirui's face was completely filled with an expression of "I really can't do anything about you".

Liu Xinran held her hand reluctantly, pursed her mouth and said coquettishly: "Xirui, good Xirui, just go with me."

Yan Xirui didn't speak, but looked thoughtful.

"Xi Rui, I heard that the rum-flavored ice cream in that store is very delicious. I really want to try it, and the vanilla flavor is also good. Well, what should I order? It's so contradictory..." Liu Xinran said. With a conflicted face, he paused and said, "Why don't you order the vanilla flavor and I'll order the rum flavor, and it would be perfect if we exchanged it!"

She seemed to be very happy that she had come up with a way to get the best of both worlds, but Yan Xirui who was opposite was still silent.

Unable to get a response from the other party, Liu Xinran seemed a little depressed, and complained dissatisfiedly: "Xirui, did you listen to me, Yan Xirui!"

Yan Xirui seemed to have recovered from the daze just now: "Xinran, did you call me?" Seeing the slight anger on Liu Xinran's face, she smiled apologetically.

"Xi Rui, are you thinking about something?" Liu Xinran frowned and asked.

"No, no." Yan Xirui waved her hands and hurriedly covered up, "Did you just say to eat ice cream?"

"That's right." After successfully changing the subject, Liu Xinran had a smile on her face, and she held her arm coquettishly, "Xi Rui, why don't you accompany me to eat ice cream, can I treat you to eat?"

I have to say that Liu Xinran's pestering skills are absolutely top-notch, Yan Xirui really can't hold her back, her heart softened, she hesitated for a moment, then nodded and agreed: "Okay, then I'll accompany you after school."

"That's great!" Liu Xinran cheered, her bright eyes filled with surprise, "I knew Xi Rui that you would not reject me, because you are my best friend!"

Seeing her excited look, Yan Xirui really didn't want to spoil her interest, so she reluctantly smiled at her.

But the sadness between the brows still lingers...

The school bell rang in my ears, and the day passed quickly.

Outside the window, the sunlight gradually weakened, casting faint shadows on the ground.

Immediately there was the sound of tables and chairs being moved around, and after a while, the students in the classroom almost left.

Liu Xinran hastily packed up her things, put the last book in her bag, raised her head and urged Yan Xirui, "Xirui, let's move faster, there are many people going to that ice cream shop, we will be late, but It will take a long time." She reminded, with a worried look on her face.

"Yeah. I'll pack it up right away...Okay, we can go now..." Yan Xirui responded lightly, tidying up the books on the desk, still showing no joy on her face.

Afraid that it would be too late, Liu Xinran walked out of the classroom door, took Yan Xirui's arm, and rushed to the door of the ice cream shop in one breath.

After the words "Coral Island Ice Cream Shop" appeared in her eyes, Liu Xinran let go of her hand, gasped slightly, and tried to keep her breathing steady, "This is it!" She pointed at the shop's door. The signboard said, "Xi Rui, let's go in quickly!"

The evening in early autumn has a bit of coolness.

The two walked into the ice cream shop, as Liu Xinran said, the shop was really overcrowded.The melodious music flows in every corner of the store, making people feel happy.

Yan Xirui looked around this store. The layout of this store is very ingenious and unique, with pink as the main color, conveying a princess-like dreamy feeling.

The pink floral tablecloths give a warm feeling to the eyes. In the middle of each table, there is a fiery red rose blooming delicately.

Yan Xirui was looking at the environment of the store in a daze, but Liu Xinran pulled her arm suddenly: "Xirui, let's sit by the window, the sofa over there looks very comfortable."

"Okay." Yan Xirui nodded.

But what she didn't expect was——

When she followed Liu Xinran's footsteps, she actually saw him——

Guan Luochen.

Her heart sank heavily, and even her breathing became short of breath.

"Xi Rui, why don't you leave?" Liu Xinran asked suspiciously, and when she saw her dull eyes, she followed her line of sight suspiciously.

"Guan Luochen!" Because she was too excited, Liu Xinran exclaimed.

"Oh my God! It's actually Guan Luochen! Xi Rui, did you see that? The boy sitting by the window is the legendary genius prince Guan Luochen, my God! How can I be so lucky to be here? Met him!" Liu Xinran was so excited that she kept shaking Yan Xirui's arm.

Of course she saw...

Not only did she see him at a glance, her heart also stabbed fiercely in an instant.

Such a handsome and handsome face, as if the whole body is emitting holy light, so eye-catching.

Yan Xirui clearly saw that the girls sitting around him were all peeking at him shyly.

"Xi Rui, let's go sit there too, because we can see Guan Luochen, he is really a shining and pleasing prince, isn't he?" Liu Xinran excitedly took her hand and walked forward.

One step, two steps, three steps...

She finally passed by his side——

A heart was beating wildly.

It was like losing all consciousness for a moment.

The brain is blank.

Yan Xirui turned her head uncontrollably, and cast her eyes on the seat where Guan Luochen was sitting, feeling uneasy and joyful.

And the next moment-

Huge disappointment filled her eyes.

The heart was stabbed in an instant!
Yan Xirui's lips trembled slightly.

Because she suddenly saw a beautiful and noble girl sitting opposite Guan Luochen, and that girl was smiling and looking at Guan Luochen opposite, with intoxication and joy on her face.

That smile cruelly stabbed Yan Xirui's heart.

A's honey, B's arsenic.

A heart still hurts, and even the consciousness has become trance.

She didn't even know how she was pulled to the seat by Liu Xinran, until Liu Xinran called out to her several times, she just broke free from such daze and trance.

"Xi Rui, are you listening to me? Xi Rui!" Liu Xinran waved her hand in front of her eyes exaggeratedly.

"I...I'm listening..." Yan Xirui came back to her senses and hurriedly responded, "What happened?" She seemed to wake up from a dream.

"Please! I should be the one who asked you! Your trance-like expression just now really scared me!" Liu Xinran said with lingering fear.

Yan Xirui shook her head lightly: "No, I'm fine, don't worry."

Liu Xinran heaved a sigh of relief, and then a big smile appeared on his face: "I just ordered rum and vanilla ice cream."

"En. Okay." Yan Xirui replied lightly, a little absent-minded.

Liu Xinran lowered her voice, with a mysterious look: "Xi Rui, did you see it? When we passed by just now, the beautiful girl sitting opposite Guan Luochen..."

Yan Xirui suddenly raised her head and looked directly into Liu Xinran's eyes: "She...who is she?" Even though she tried her best to hold back, her voice was still a little trembling.

"She is Lin Lin, the little princess of music, I told you the other day!"

Lin Lin, the little princess of music.

It turns out that she is the little princess of music...

Yan Xirui's mind resurfaced the scene she just turned her head to see...

She is really a beautiful and noble girl.

She has fair skin like a porcelain doll, bright and clear eyes, and a slender and white neck like a swan. Her gestures and movements reveal an elegant temperament. One can tell at a glance that she is a girl from a wealthy family and a good family background.

He and Guan Luochen... are really a good match.

Yan Xirui's slender fingers were clasped together, she pressed her lips tightly, and a trace of sadness flashed in her eyes.

When she passed by them just now, she clearly saw that the girl had a big smile on her face, like a blooming rose. That smile, as sweet as honey, pierced her heart deeply.

She could clearly see that they looked so close, as close as boyfriend and girlfriend...

Thinking of this, her heart ached violently.

The chest was so stuffy, and a strong sense of suffocation swept over her!
"Xirui, what's the matter with you? Why don't you eat the ice cream?" Liu Xinran obviously didn't know that Yan Xirui, who was opposite her, was already in turmoil.

She looked at Yan Xirui suspiciously, and exaggeratedly said: "Otherwise, you can try the rum-flavored ice cream, it's really delicious. This sweet feeling really makes people feel that the world has become a better place." gone."

But at this moment, Yan Xirui couldn't experience the slightest bit of beauty, she only felt chills in her heart, an uncontrollable chill.

"No, I'm fine, then I'll have a taste of the sweet ice cream." She lowered her head, concealed her emotions, and ate the ice cream in the cup.

Sent a mouthful of ice cream to his mouth.

The cool touch comes from the tip of the tongue.

Is it a sweet feeling?
But why, she felt so bitter...

She smiled wryly, then took a second bite.

It's still a bitter taste.

The inescapable bitterness seemed to engulf her.

But at this moment, there was only one thought in her heart clamoring strongly!

She wants to get out of here, get out of here now!

It seemed that in the next second, she would cry out of control...

The suffocating pain in my heart intensified!

Yan Xirui put down the small spoon in her hand: "Yes, I'm sorry Xinran, I'm not feeling well, I'm going back to school first." She stood up hastily as she spoke, and staggered out of the ice cream shop quickly.

Her back is so embarrassing, she even left as if fleeing...

"Xi Rui..." Liu Xinran's shout behind her gradually disappeared in her ears.

Yan Xirui fled out of the ice cream shop in a panic, her footsteps were so fast that she didn't even notice that Guan Luochen watched her leave from the seat near the window.

Guan Luochen decisively let go of the hand of the pretty girl opposite.

"Brother Luochen..." Lin Lin was extremely surprised, how could the boy who was so gentle one second changed back to that cold look the next second.

"Brother Luochen, what happened?" Lin Lin asked cautiously.

On the opposite side, Guan Luochen didn't seem to hear it, and just stared blankly ahead.

Lin Lin couldn't help but followed his line of sight, only vaguely seeing the flustered back of a girl, and then disappeared at the corner of the street.

Lin Lin turned around, feeling an indescribable boredom in her heart.

She also couldn't explain the reason why Guan Luochen, who was always indifferent, suddenly became intimate with her just now.

Could it be related to this back view?
A trace of suspicion floated in her eyes.

"Brother Luochen, I'm done eating, shall we go now?" Lin Lin frowned, her voice was gentle, her small nose was slightly wrinkled, and she looked charming.

Still silent.

Guan Luochen didn't respond to her words, and seemed to be in deep thought.

damn...

He clenched his hands and furrowed his brows.

The pretended intimacy with Lin Lin just now was just to anger Yan Xirui. Was the back of her running away in embarrassment just because of herself?

But why... After he deliberately and deliberately hurt her, his heart hurts more than hers?
Guan Luochen clenched his fist tightly, with such force that his nails were almost embedded in his flesh...

(End of this chapter)