happy apocalypse

Chapter 88 The First Killing Feels Bad

When I was drowsy and about to fall asleep, I felt that Jiang Zhi was still tossing and turning on the bed, not going to sleep. I have finished complaining about my sufferings, why is he still not sleeping. "What's the matter, why aren't you sleeping yet?"

Jiang Zhi was silent for a while, then rubbed my small hand with his big hand, and said, "Daughter-in-law, I...I seem to have killed someone today."

"Oh, I killed someone, kill me if I kill someone." I closed my eyes and answered vaguely. After a while, my brain realized what I said, what Jiang Zhi said.

Immediately opened the eyes that were closed immediately, looking at the back of Jiang Zhi's head.

It's not that I didn't think that in the last days, in order to survive, I might be forced to kill people.But I didn't expect this to happen so early, so suddenly, and I was not by Jiang Zhi's side yet.

I felt that Jiang Zhi's body became more stiff because of my silence, I put my face on his back, and hugged his arm tightly.

"Sorry, I wasn't by your side."

After listening to my words, Jiang Zhi was also silent for a while, turned over and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"Fool, I said I killed someone, what are you doing by my side?"

"If I was by your side at that time, I could comfort you. You must be very sad. Although I can't help you, I hope I can share your sadness." I really feel sorry for Jiang Zhi.

Jiang Zhi buried his face in my hair, took a deep breath, "Fool, you are such a little fool, but I love this little fool very much."

I twisted in Jiang Zhi's arms, and said coquettishly: "You haven't said you love me since you got married, I thought you didn't love me anymore."

There was a little embarrassment in Jiang Zhi's voice and said: "Look at a reliable man, a man who lives a life, who talks about love and love all day long, and expresses it with practical actions. Do you know?"

I laughed when I heard it, "I know, I know, a reliable father of the child."

After being teased by me, Jiang Zhi's negative emotions eased a lot. He hugged me for a while, and when I thought he was going to sleep like this tonight, he spoke.

"Today, I punched those robbers one by one. I was worried that if the delay was too long, Brother Qi would be in danger, so I used a lot of strength. I didn't care where it was or where I caught it. But I know I hit a few people on the ribs and stomach, and I think they probably wouldn't survive, even if they didn't die at the time, they wouldn't have survived for a long time in this kind of weather and under that kind of environment."

I didn't say anything, just hugged his arm tightly again.

"I feel a little apprehensive, a little guilty, and a little scared. A life has disappeared in my hands, and I have an unspeakable feeling in my heart. But I don't regret it. If things can start again, I will definitely start over. Just be ruthless, I can't harm others because of my own reasons, that's the benevolence of a woman. Although I have figured it out, I still can't get over this hurdle, I seem to feel it now, my fist The touch of hitting those people." Jiang Zhi then said jokingly: "Maybe it will be good to kill two more people in the future, are you used to it?"

I ignored his words and said, "You should have heard what the four old people said today. I think it is very true. If you don't kill them, think about how many people they will attack, and how many people will they kill?" ?You are killing harm for the people now, so you shouldn’t feel guilty at all. It’s just the first time to kill someone... You also said that this is a hurdle. It’s impossible to be alone, there must be many such things. Besides, aren’t you used to killing pigs, cattle and sheep in space, and you just treat those scum as animals.”

"I understand. Am I a man? I still want to protect you, my son, and..."

The night was spent in Jiang Zhi's nagging.

This night, there was another blizzard outside, as if it wanted to purify the world again, and it seemed to be paying homage to Grandma Li's death.

In the early morning of the next day, Jiang Zhi wanted to call Brother Qi and tell him that he would go to his place later, but his mobile phone was disconnected. It seems that the heavy snow last night also submerged the signal transmission tower. It depends on roaring.

There is no other way, we decided to finish the matter here first, and go to Brother Qi's house together, after all, Brother Qi's injury is not very serious.

Everyone in our family is fully dressed and ready to send Grandma Li for the last time.We prepared two pieces of white cloth for An An, and asked him to tie one on his head and one around his waist. It can be regarded as An An wearing sackcloth and filial piety for Grandma Li. Can make do with it.

Before leaving, Weiwei asked me for some white cloth, and said to me slightly choked with sobs: "Grandma Li treats me like a granddaughter, and now I want to send her to die."

I didn't say anything, and gave Weiwei a few pieces of white cloth. I was very sad that Weiwei had lost another relative.

Then there is the issue of transporting the body. Now that there is no car, how can we transport Grandma Li's body away?This question stumps us all.

Or I used my ingenuity.I tore down a door and put Grandma Li on the door panel. I took another light-weight amulet on the door panel and asked Jiang Zhi to drag the door panel in front.

As for the location of the cremation, we didn't have many choices. The weather is bad now, and it is not easy to find a really open place, so we found the nearest small forest next to the building area, which is now an open space.Spread the dry firewood prepared in advance under Grandma Li's body, and pour a little gasoline on the dry firewood. Before lighting the fire, let An An come to say goodbye to Grandma Li.

An An was very strong today, her eyes were red since she returned home in the morning, but she never cried.At this time, I finally couldn't help crying, and said while crying: "Grandma, you have to keep your word, you must look at An'an in the sky, and I will be obedient, I will wait obediently at home." Bring daddy back."

We were heartbroken after hearing this, and we all shed tears with An An.Weiwei also hugged An An beside An An, crying bitterly.

No matter how reluctant we are, when the moment of separation comes, we are still burning wood.

Looking at Grandma Li who was gradually being engulfed by the fire, I silently assured her in my heart: "I'm sorry, Grandma Li, I don't know if it's because of the things I gave you that hurt you, but don't worry, we will find you sooner or later. The murderer who killed you, the one who avenged you. And An An, whom you are most worried about, I will love him as my own son, don't worry."

The fire brought out billowing thick smoke, and I felt it sensitively. Many people in the building area behind me were watching here, secretly watching us cremate Grandma Li.

I don't know how they felt when they saw this scene. Will it awaken the conscience of some people who did evil?It has been just over two months since the snowstorm, and some people have given up some of the basic moral bottom lines of being a human being. Are they still worthy of being a human being?
If everyone knows what I think, some people will definitely say that I don’t have a backache when I stand and talk, and a man who is full doesn’t know how a man is hungry. But as far as I know, none of us in this building are foreigners, and everyone can Zhou went to the square to receive relief food. Although the food could not feed the whole family, the people would never starve to death. So what reason would there be to hurt others, and there was no reason to easily give up the most basic conscience, to hurt the weak, to become a beast.

When Jiang Zhi felt something wrong with me and took my hand, I woke up from this resentment.

Jiang Zhi looked at me with dull eyes, and said: "Don't think too much, it's not our fault, you can't punish yourself with other people's mistakes."

"Well, I know, I just don't quite understand why some people's moral bottom line collapses so quickly." I came back to my senses.

Jiang Zhi didn't say anything, just held my hand tightly.

We spent a whole morning cremating Grandma Li. In the end, Jiang Zhi collected some ashes with gloves and asked An An to bury her in the ground with her own hands.

This morning everyone was very cold and tired. Standing outside for a whole morning, no matter how thick the cotton clothes were, they were frozen through, and they were both physically and mentally tired.Qu's mother, Jiang's mother, Weiwei, and several children cried all morning, and the tears were almost dried up, so we made a simple meal after we got home, and went to bed after eating.

Last night, An An slept with Weiwei Xuanxuan. After returning today, An An very firmly proposed to go back to her home to sleep and wait for her father there.

I wonder why this child is so persistent and persistent about this matter. He has said several times that he wants to go home by himself, and it is impossible for me to let him go back to that cold home with a child, so I don’t know done.

"An'an, you are too young to go back and live by yourself. If you are afraid that your father will not be found when he comes back, we can write a note at your house and tell your father that you are on the fifth floor. I'll find you soon, okay?" I didn't say that someone just died at home, wouldn't he be afraid to go back and live alone?

An'an didn't answer my words, she just pursed her lips tightly and looked at me with tears in her eyes.

My heart trembled when I was looked at by his little eyes, and I shouted in my heart, who will save me and tell me what to do?

At this critical moment, Weiwei stepped forward and said to me: "Cricket, let me take Xuanxuan and An An back to Grandma Li's house."

I didn't expect that Weiwei would still want to live in Grandma Li's house, "Aren't you afraid?"

Weiwei understood what I was referring to, and said: "Don't be afraid, Grandma Li is so kind to me, I hope she can come back to see us. From now on, it will be the same as before, we will live there and eat Still come upstairs."

After hearing Weiwei's decision, I have no objection. Maybe this is the best way I can think of at the moment.

(End of this chapter)