happy apocalypse

Chapter 72 The First Killing Feels Bad

When he arrived in Qibao State, his wife and children were very nervous when they saw him come back covered in blood.After getting Qi Baoguo's assurance that nothing was wrong, he felt relieved. Jiang Zhi also realized that there were still many things on the tricycle downstairs, so he turned around and went downstairs.

Fortunately, no one is strolling outside now.The tricycle is still there, and the things in the tricycle are still there.Jiang Zhi and Qi Baoguo's son Qi Chenyu moved all the things in the car upstairs.

Jiang Zhi saw that there was nothing serious about Qi Baoguo, and it was getting dark, so he said, "Brother Qi, then I'll go back first, and I'll bring you some anti-inflammatory drugs and gauze tomorrow."

Qi Baoguo lay on the bed and said, "Don't come. In this world, the roads are not safe. If you can stay at home, don't come out. I'm fine. The one you just gave me is very good. Don't worry, I'll die." No."

Jiang Zhi smiled and said: "I haven't had a chance to say thank you from the beginning to the end. Today, I really thank Brother Qi for blocking that blow for me."

Qi Baoguo laughed at himself and said, "Don't bury me. If I thought I was saving you before, after this time, I don't dare to use an axe in front of capable people. Just your strength to knock down one And the moves, I am far behind. And yours... In short, this time I am playing big swords in front of capable people. Ha~ha~"

Qi Baoguo's 16-year-old son heard his father say that Jiang Zhizhi knocked down a man with a punch, and immediately turned his polite eyes into adoring eyes.Adolescent children have an inexplicable worship of the strong.

"Brother Qi, don't say that. I'm not a capable person. I just learned a little martial arts since elementary school, and I'm stronger. As for those yellow papers...Brother Qi, you should have heard of talismans. It's a kind of Taoism." Spells. My daughter-in-law has some connections with Taoism, and learned some simple talismans, which are usually not very useful. The talismans given to you are not as good as anti-inflammatory drugs, but now when the medicines are in short supply, I can only take them out for emergency. "Jiang Zhi said modestly.

Jiang Zhi didn't stay long at Qi's house, and rode a tricycle back home after getting Brother Qi settled.

After listening to Jiang Zhi's explanation, I understood that the blood belonged to Big Brother Qi. Regardless of whether it was unnecessary for Big Brother Qi to save Jiang Zhi this time, I am grateful to him, really.Brother Qi is really nice, he only met us a few times, and we haven't really known each other for a long time. He was willing to block the knife for Jiang Zhi when he was in danger. Jiang Zhi is really lucky.

Afterwards, the family asked many questions about these robbers, and Jiang Zhi answered them one by one.

After listening to Jiang Zhi's narration, Father Qu sighed, "I didn't expect the world to change so quickly, and now there are people robbing people blatantly."

Father Jiang also said: "Yes, according to Jiang Zhi's description, these robberies probably did not want to keep alive. People's hearts have changed."

Jiang Ma held it in for a long time, and finally couldn't help but said: "Actually, I think the government also wants this matter. They distribute disaster relief food to the people of D city, why don't they distribute it to the outsiders? If all of this is distributed, they will As for that?"

Jiang’s father analyzed to Jiang’s mother: “I’ve told you all about it. If it’s all distributed, can the government start it? And if there’s no food, people who want to steal other people’s money and even want to kill people, do you think such people can Are you willing to live a life of not getting enough to eat and not starving to death every day? It will be a matter of time before they take this step, but it can’t be so early.”

Mother Qu also agreed with Father Jiang's words, "Yes, I agree with my in-laws. We can't sympathize with those people. They are all inhuman people. If they dare to kill with a knife today, they may dare to eat human flesh tomorrow."

While the four old men were discussing, Jiang Zhi ate his dinner in silence.I felt some changes in Jiang Zhi's mood, but I didn't ask about it in front of everyone.

I then told him about the cremation of Grandma Li tomorrow. After Jiang Zhi finished his meal, Jiang Zhi asked me to stay at home and watch the children. The rest of the people went to the first floor to put on the shroud for Grandma Li. , and clean up the house by the way.

After everything was done, Jiang Zhi and I lay on the big bed in the space. I looked at the carvings on the top of the bed and said to Jiang Zhi, "Old Jiang, do you think I did something wrong?"

Jiang Zhi didn't answer, just turned over and hugged me in his arms.

"Tell me, is Grandma Li killed by me? If I didn't give her those old things, maybe she wouldn't..."

"Stop, have you ever thought that if you hadn't sympathized with them, An An might have thought she had died of a fever and a cold. Do you think that if An An died, Grandma Li would still be alive?"

After listening to Jiang Zhi's analysis, I thought maybe this was fate.

"So now it's meaningless to say who is right and who is wrong. Things cannot be changed by us. It happens as it happens, and it cannot be undone. The most important thing now is that we have to live a good life and change the guilt towards Grandma Li. Cheng's concern and love for An'an, I think this is what Grandma Li hopes for most. Also, I also hope that we can all learn from this incident, the experience of helping others, not after we tell about this incident. I can no longer help others, but we must think twice and be cautious in doing things in the future."

I nodded in his arms.

"You said that we gave Brother Qi so many things today, isn't it wrong? If there were not so many things, those bad guys would not be able to rob you, and Brother Qi would not be able to get hurt." I thought again, does this count as us? Indirectly, Brother Qi was injured again.

"If you think about it in reverse, it should be thanks to the fact that we gave him so many things that I had to take him in a tricycle to take him home. Otherwise, Big Brother Qi might not be able to get home alive." Jiang Zhi analyzed it for me.

"Think about it, if I hadn't sent him off, he would definitely have to go home by himself, so would he be able to deal with more than 10 big men with murder weapons by himself? Moreover, these people didn't just come for supplies. It is estimated that today If they subdue us, neither we nor those things can come back."

"Can they still eat people?" Jiang Zhi and the others are real people, I don't believe it, they are so fat.

Jiang Zhi didn't speak, and I asked uncertainly: "Can they really eat people?" It seems that I still haven't fully entered the state of the end of the world. Some people can't make common sense inferences.

"Hey, we still need to re-understand human nature in the last days." Jiang Zhi sighed.Our understanding is all theoretical, and we have not yet been able to connect theory with practice.

Finally, I turned the topic to the Grandma Li incident.

"When I saw Grandma Li was killed today, I have been feeling guilty in my heart. No matter what, I also indirectly killed her."

Jiang Zhi wanted to refute me when he heard me say that again.

I didn't give him a chance, and then said: "You don't need to say, I know, although I am very sad, but I hate that murderer even more, if I have a chance, I will definitely avenge her." After I finished speaking, I sighed again "The matter of Grandma Li sounded the alarm for me. Helping people does not necessarily have to give a lot of supplies. Sometimes if people don't have the ability to protect themselves, then we may harm others. I will definitely remember in the future This lesson, you have to remind me from time to time, don't let me make mistakes again."

"Okay, we will all learn this lesson in the future and always remember that we are now in the last days."

I chattered a lot about my feelings with Jiang Zhi, trying to describe the guilt in my heart in words, and then sought comfort from Jiang Zhi.

When I was almost in a daze, I felt that Jiang Zhi was still tossing and turning on the bed. I had finished complaining about my sufferings, so why didn't I go to sleep.

Jiang Zhi was silent for a while, then rubbed my small hand with his big hand, and said, "Daughter-in-law, I...I seem to have killed someone today."

"Oh, kill me if you kill me." I closed my eyes and answered vaguely. After a while, my brain realized what I said and what Jiang Zhi said.

He immediately opened his closed eyes and looked at the back of Jiang Zhi's head.

It's not that I didn't think that in the last days, in order to survive, I might be forced to kill people.But I didn't expect it to be so early, so suddenly, and I was not by Jiang Zhi's side yet.

I felt that Jiang Zhi's body became more stiff because of my silence, I put my face on his back, and hugged his arm tightly.

"Sorry, I wasn't by your side."

After listening to my words, Jiang Zhi was also silent for a while, turned over and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"Fool, I said I killed someone, what are you doing by my side?"

"If I was by your side at that time, I could comfort you. You must be very sad. Although I can't help you, I hope I can share your sadness." I really feel sorry for Jiang Zhi.

Jiang Zhi buried his face in my hair, took a deep breath, "Fool, you are such a little fool, but I love this little fool very much."

I twisted in Jiang Zhi's arms, and said coquettishly: "You haven't said you love me since you got married, I thought you didn't love me anymore."

There was a little embarrassment in Jiang Zhi's voice and said: "Look at a reliable man, a man who lives a life, who talks about love and love all day long, and expresses it with practical actions. Do you know?"

I laughed when I heard it, "I know, I know, a reliable father of the child."

After being teased by me, Jiang Zhi's negative emotions eased a lot. He hugged me for a while, and when I thought he was going to sleep like this tonight, he spoke.

"Today, I punched those robbers one by one. I was worried that Brother Qi would be in danger if the delay was too long, so I used a lot of strength, and I didn't care if they all hit there. But I know a few people I was hit on the ribs and stomach, and I don’t think they would have survived, even if they hadn’t died at the time, they wouldn’t have survived for a long time in this weather and in that environment.”

I didn't say anything, just hugged his arm tightly again.

"I was a little apprehensive, a little guilty, and a little scared. A life was lost in my hands, and I couldn't explain the feeling in my heart." Jiang Zhi then said jokingly: "Maybe I will kill two more people in the future." It's fine, are you used to it?"

I ignored his words and said, "You should have heard what the four old people said today. I think it's very true. If you don't kill them, think about how many people they will attack, and how many people will they kill? You are killing harm for the people now, so you shouldn't feel guilty at all. It's just the first time you kill someone... You should practice more in the future. This world has become like this, and we can't be alone. Such things must still happen. There are many. Besides, aren’t you used to killing pigs, cattle and sheep in space? Just treat those scumbags as animals.”

"I understand. Am I a man? I still want to protect you, my son, and..."

The night was spent in Jiang Zhi's nagging.

This night, there was another blizzard outside, as if it wanted to purify the world again, and it seemed to be paying homage to Grandma Li's death.

In the early morning of the next day, Jiang Zhi wanted to call Brother Qi and tell him that he would go to his place later, but his mobile phone was disconnected. It seems that the heavy snow last night also submerged the signal transmission tower. It depends on roaring.

We decided to finish the work here first, and go to Brother Qi's house together.

Everyone in our family is fully dressed and ready to send Grandma Li for the last time.We prepared two pieces of white cloth for An An, and asked him to tie one on his head and one around his waist. It can be regarded as An An wearing sackcloth and filial piety for Grandma Li. Can make do with it.

Before leaving, Weiwei asked me for some white cloth, and said to me slightly choked with sobs: "Grandma Li treats me like a granddaughter, and now I want to send her to die."

I didn't say anything, and gave Weiwei a few pieces of white cloth. I was very sad that Weiwei had lost another relative.

Then there is the issue of transporting the body. Now that there is no car, how can we transport Grandma Li's body away?This question stumps us all.

Or I used my ingenuity.I removed a door and put Grandma Li on the door panel. I took a light-weight amulet on the door panel and asked Jiang Zhi to drag the door panel in front. We didn’t have much choice. It is not easy to go to really open places, so we found the original grove next to the building area, which is now an open space.Spread the dry firewood prepared in advance under Grandma Li, and let An Anlai say goodbye to Grandma Li before lighting the fire.

An An was very strong today, her eyes were red since she returned home in the morning, but she never cried.At this time, I finally couldn't help crying and said: "Grandma, you have to keep your word, you must watch An An in the sky, and I will obediently wait for Dad to come back at home."

We were heartbroken after hearing this, and we all shed tears with An An.Weiwei also hugged An An beside An An, crying bitterly.

No matter how reluctant we are, when the moment of separation comes, we are still burning wood.

Looking at Grandma Li who was gradually engulfed by the fire, I silently assured her in my heart: "I'm sorry, Grandma Li, I don't know if the things I gave you hurt you, but don't worry, we will find out sooner or later. The murderer who killed you, the one who avenged you. And An An, whom you are most worried about, I will love him as my own son, don't worry.

The fire brought out billowing thick smoke, and I felt it sensitively. Many people in the building area behind me were watching here, secretly watching us cremate Grandma Li.

I don't know how they felt when they saw this scene. Will it awaken the conscience of some people who did evil?It has been just over two months since the snowstorm, and some people have given up some of the basic moral bottom lines of being a human being. Are they still worthy of being a human being?
If everyone knows what I think, some people will definitely say that I don’t have a backache when I stand and talk, and a man who is full doesn’t know how a man is hungry. But as far as I know, none of us in this building are foreigners, and everyone can Zhou went to the square to receive relief food. Although the food could not feed the whole family, the people would never starve to death, so why would they hurt others? There is no reason to easily give up one’s most basic conscience , to hurt the weak, to become a beast.

When Jiang Zhi felt something wrong with me and took my hand, I woke up from this resentment.

Jiang Zhi looked at me with dull eyes, and said: "Don't think too much, it's not our fault, you can't punish yourself with other people's mistakes."

"Well, I know, I just don't quite understand why some people's moral bottom line collapses so quickly." I came back to my senses.

Jiang Zhi didn't say anything, just held my hand tightly.

We spent a whole morning cremating Grandma Li. Everyone was very tired, both physically and mentally.Qu's mother, Jiang's mother, Weiwei, and several children cried all morning, and the tears were almost dried up, so we made a simple meal after we got home, and went to bed after eating.

Last night, An An slept with Weiwei Xuanxuan. After returning today, An An very firmly proposed to go back to her home to sleep and wait for her father there.

I wonder why this child is so persistent about this matter. He has said several times that he wants to go home by himself, and it is impossible for me to let him go back to that cold home with a child, so I don't know what to do.

"An'an, you are too young to go back and live by yourself. If you are afraid that your father will not be found when he comes back, we can write a note at your house and tell your father that you are on the fifth floor. I'll find you soon, okay?" I didn't say that someone just died at home, wouldn't he be afraid to go back and live alone?

An'an didn't answer my words, she just pursed her lips tightly and looked at me with tears in her eyes.

My heart trembled when I was looked at by his little eyes, and I shouted in my heart, who will save me and tell me what to do?

At this critical moment, Weiwei stepped forward and said to me: "Cricket, let me take Xuanxuan and An An back to Grandma Li's house."

I didn't expect that Weiwei would still want to live in Grandma Li's house, "Aren't you afraid?"

Weiwei understood what I was referring to, and said: "Don't be afraid, Grandma Li is so kind to me, I hope she can come back to see us. From now on, it will be the same as before, we will live there and eat Still come upstairs."

After hearing Weiwei's decision, I have no objection. Maybe this is the best way I can think of at the moment. (To be continued.)
(End of this chapter)