atypical prostitute

Chapter 56

It is far more difficult to persuade a person to give up than to persuade a person to accept.

The latter only needs the courage to move forward, but the former is a heart-breaking debt.

But Li Ci voluntarily jumped into the trap of Mrs. Wei Guogong, because she knew that there was no possibility between her and Erlang of the Liu family.

Most importantly, not worth it.

Not far from her, Liu Jia Erlang was standing with his hands behind his back in the Banyue Pavilion. He had black hair and was wearing a filial piety dress with lake blue flowers on his cuffs. , Li Ci felt gloomy and hesitated.

Always cut the mess quickly.

If you stop and stop, it will only increase the pain.

What's more, his love has always been given to jade.If it continues like this, it will only make everyone suffer.

After searching for reasons to convince herself, she finally mustered up the courage to shout.

"cousin."

Liu Erlang had already got the news that Fourth Lady asked him to meet in the gazebo and had something to say to him, when he heard a familiar voice behind him, he hurriedly turned around, with a smile on his face, he bowed and said, "Fourth Lady."

Li Ci approached with a smile, and asked the accompanying maids to stay outside the pavilion temporarily, and said to Liu Erlang, "Cousin is getting thinner."

"Si Niangzi has also lost weight."

"So many things have happened at home recently—"

Li Ci sighed, she didn't know how to start this hurtful topic, so she could only look at Lin Lin Qiushui.

Liu Erlang probably thought she was thinking of the first lady, and said caringly: "The jade garland is really...she...why can't she think about it and go to a dead end..."

Li Ci was startled when he first heard about the first lady, and immediately realized that he had misunderstood.But she didn't know how to mention the lady of the Lu family. Seeing his misunderstanding, she secretly liked it in her heart, but she lowered her eyes and said: "Because she has no choice. There are only two roads in front of her, death, or the ancient Buddha of Qingdeng For the rest of my life. People in the world are ignorant, and they always follow what others say. And the position of the Fu family is also embarrassing. The first lady once told me that the family name of loyalty is always maintained by human life..."

"But you don't have to use death to maintain it! If you die, you really have nothing."

Liu Erlang said sadly, looking at Li Ci pretending to be natural.

"Actually, when I knew that my uncle sacrificed his life to protect the orthodoxy of the royal family, my father told me that the Fu family would be in a very embarrassing situation in the short term. He said that for a smart person like my uncle, suicide would have deep meaning. Only his move It's a far-reaching plan. Ten years later, the Fu family's current situation is... I naturally don't believe it, but I just arrived in the capital... The royal family battle is really terrible. I only regret that I couldn't catch up sooner. Until... maybe the tragedy of the first lady can be stopped..."

"Stop? How to stop?"

Li Ci subconsciously asked back, she was 100% sure that the person in Chu Niangzi's heart was not Liu Erlang.

But seeing Liu Erlang's eyes flicker with regret, he suddenly became confused again.

Liu Erlang said softly: "I will promise her that I will marry her after she has served for three years. I am only the second son, I cannot inherit the title, and I have always been a scoundrel. I am not afraid of being poked in the back and cutting off my official career."

"Have you really thought about it that way? Mrs. Wei Guogong will definitely not agree."

In terms of relationship, he called her aunt, but for some reason, Li Ci only wanted to call her Mrs. Guogong.

"I made up my mind early, but she can't help but disagree."

"Because...you...like her, or...sympathize with her?"

Li Ci felt sad for a while, she felt that she was a lowly person, when she knew Liu Erlang and Yu Ci were childhood sweethearts earlier, although she didn't intend to accept this kind of affection, she took it for granted, until Mrs. Wei Guogong conspired against her and pushed her When persuading Liu Erlang to accept the Lu family's marriage, he also had a sense of superiority and guilt coexisting in his heart.Now when he learned that Liu Erlang planned to marry the jade garland, he was indescribably jealous.

"Because you told me... nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in the world, how can everyone be like that Marquis of Jinyang, lovers will eventually get married." Liu Erlang said casually, but the soft notes were scraped like iron pieces Li Ci's heart.

"But... if everything I do can make the person I like a little bit happier, that's fine too."

original……

Li Ci opened his mouth, but he couldn't pronounce a single note.

She felt that she was very despicable, despicable to the point of shame.

"And if the jade garland were to marry me, my aunt and mother wouldn't have any talk."

"But you are not happy, and she doesn't like it either."

"I am the same kind of person as her. We will try to get along in the days to come and learn to make do with it."

Liu Erlang sighed quietly, every word was very soft, but it was the thunder that exploded in Li Ci's ears.

She couldn't take it anymore.

She pretended to be cold and said: "It is useless to say these things now. The jade garland has gone, and you are not young, it is time to consider marriage. The Lu family's wife is very good, her family background is good, and she is virtuous and virtuous. -"

"Sure enough, it was mother's intention that you asked me out."

Liu Erlang interrupted Li Ci calmly, his hands were shaking, trying to restrain his displeasure.

Li Ci lowered her eyes and did not answer.

He sighed again, and said: "I don't like the lady of the Lu family, I won't marry her."

"But you don't like jade garlands either, but you plan to marry her."

Li Ci questioned, looking very coquettish.Surprise flashed in Liu Erlang's eyes, and then it turned into a weary sigh, saying: "The jade garland is the jade garland, and the lady of the Lu family is the lady of the Lu family."

"Is there any difference?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Li Ci couldn't help but slandered and laughed at himself. These words were really hurtful, and it was clearly "you just rely on me to like you"!But what can she say, that I have feelings for you?
Since you can't afford the promise, why show mercy and let him be lucky!

It's better to be pampered and domineering at this moment, making him resentful, and when he thinks about it in the future, he will only feel that his appearance is disgusting.

"You can marry her even if you don't like the jade garland. Why don't you like the lady of the Lu family, but you can't do it? Marriage is the order of the parents and the words of the matchmaker. If you can't do it, you can't marry. What are there so many couples in the world?" ?”

Li Ci pressed on every step of the way, and Liu Erlang's face became more serious.

He watched the leaves curling up and turning yellow and red, and remained silent for a long time.

Li Ci gritted her teeth and continued: "Loving and being loved, if you can't be consensual, there will be only suffering. Knowing that you can't do it, it is brave, but it is also a great suffering. People in the world are lazy, and they tend to be sweet and afraid of hardship. You are not a big Wise man, why do you want to fall into the sea of ​​suffering?! I had a relationship with the lady of the Lu family once. Although she is a little too noble, she is a first-class lady. In the future, I will manage the family business and tidy up the inner room for you. What's more, Fan Yang and the Lu family are the first-class giants, and now the government is unstable, and both the Fu family and the Liu family are in dire straits. If you marry her, it will be beneficial to both... "

The in-law relationship between the Fu family and the Liu family was originally dependent on each other.This point, even if Li Ci didn't mention it, Liu Erlang knew it.

Now that she has made the point clear, he can no longer pretend to be confused.

It's just that at Li Ci's age, Liu Erlang was surprised to be able to say these words.

He pondered for a long time, then snorted and said: "Mother is really determined to want me to marry a lady from the Lu family, but she told you all the difficulties of the two families, and forced you to persuade me to accept the lady from the Lu family for the sake of the future of the two families. Si Niangzi, Si Niangzi, I underestimated you, if you were a man, the Fu family might not be where it is today."

"If I were a man, I'm afraid things would be worse."

Li Ci vaguely said that in ancient times, men were superior to women and women could not inherit power, and everything they got was dependent on male power.But it is also because of this that her illegitimate daughter can enjoy the benefits of royal status.If it was a man, he would have been strangled long ago.

Bastards living outside will always make people feel uneasy.

Especially in the royal family that advocates establishing a successor and a virtuous person.

It's a pity that Liu Erlang is young, and he doesn't know the twists and turns in it. He was spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, but he always behaved submissively in front of Li Ci, and never thought that he would be hurt so badly in the end.Feeling hopeless, he said without hesitation: "Suddenly I remembered that I haven't congratulated you on successfully climbing the high branch of the eldest princess. In the future, I'm sure you will be able to marry the vassal king as a concubine, and honor your ancestors."

"cousin……"

Li Ci knew that she had hurt him deeply, so she didn't argue, she just called out softly, hoping that he would shut up.

Liu Erlang was burning with anger, how could he appreciate her bitterness, he couldn't help but grabbed her wrist, and said ruthlessly: "You are just a concubine, why do you do this for your aunt! What good does the Fu family treat you! My aunt rewards you with a few fleshy bones, and you will give her your whole life back! You... are really exquisite, but extremely stupid!"

"You think I'm stupid and loyal, maybe it's true. But the kindness that the Fu family treated me really deserves to be repaid by me."

Li Ci said gently, Liu Erlang should not know the truth in the dark.

"You...are you willing to wait for me for two years! I swear, I may not be able to surpass the eldest princess after two years, but...it is more than enough to shelter the Fu family from wind and rain!"

He said resolutely, with the remnants of the childish face of a teenager, showing determination like fire.

Li Ci couldn't help being moved for a while, such a young man should have been entrusted to Yu Ci for life.

but--

I am not Yu Ci, and Li Ci is not Yu Ci.

Li Ci reached out and opened his fingers, one by one, slowly and firmly.

"...Fu's family... I can't wait for two years. Cousin, you treat me well, I know. But people change. The me standing in front of you is no longer the Xiaoyuci I used to be. I choose with you Two different roads, reluctantly walking together, destined to have one side covered with bruises. You... are the few people I met after I came to this world, who are kind to Yuci from the bottom of my heart. I... can't bear you and me Let’s walk the hard road together.”

However, when she broke off the last finger and was about to take her hand away, Liu Erlang burst into tears.

Two lines of clear tears overflowed from the corners of the eyes, and the eyes were as hot as fire.

"Si Niangzi, even if it is Asura Dao, as long as you choose, I will accompany you!"

Every word was paused, as heavy as Mount Tai, and she couldn't breathe under the pressure.

Li Ci turned her face to the side, not daring to face up to the blazing heat that was about to melt her.

"Cousin, you are wrong. It is impossible for me and you."

Sigh, a sigh more bleak than the autumn wind, is a look Liu Erlang has never seen before.

Have I forced you to this point?

Unable to feel palpitations, Li Ci took the opportunity to withdraw his hands.

But she didn't leave immediately, instead ordered Bilian to bring fish food, grabbed a handful and threw it into the water.

Immediately, hundreds of koi flooded in, and Li Ci waved a few more fish food, and more and more fish gathered beside the pavilion. For a while, the water surface was clear, and the scales shone like clouds.

So he turned his head and said to Liu Erlang: "The child is not a fish, nor is it me."

"But I know you're not happy."

Li Ci was at a loss for words for a while, and could only sigh: "There are seven sufferings in all living beings: birth, old age, sickness, death, separation from love, resentment and resentment, and not getting what you want. You and I are strangers, if we are forced to be together, it will only be more painful. "

"really?"

Li Ci nodded.

Liu Erlang was suddenly angry, and punched the wooden pillar, blood spattered everywhere, but he didn't know the pain, he just said angrily: "Even if all the men in the Fu family and Liu family are dead, it's not your turn to be a woman. Go!"

"But I've already taken on the burden, and it's impossible to let it go! Cousin, if you really pity me and can't bear to see me struggling in the whirlpool, then follow the wishes of Mrs. Wei Guogong and marry the lady of the Lu family. Okay? ?”

"You...you really have to... goug out my flesh before you're willing!"

Liu Erlang spoke bitterly, even though he rose up fiercely, he couldn't hide the helplessness of exhaustion.

Li Ci just looked at him, with silent eyes.

He was silent, and finally... nodded.

"I... If my mother promises not to interfere with my taking a concubine after marriage, and if the lady of the Lu family can really help the Fu family and the Liu family get out of the predicament as soon as possible, I will accept this marriage!"

Li Ci turned around and said softly, "Okay."

The Buddha said, everyone suffers.

I said, all life is suffering.

(End of this chapter)