Wandering

Chapter 72
The allowance has increased, but the prices have risen even faster. It is 100 yuan per month. Asking me to do this kind of work is just like a joke.I was about to say goodbye to Director Gu, but Director Gu stopped me and asked, "One of your coats is torn? That should be considered as a loss of mission performance. You can go buy a new dress and bring the invoice to this research institute." Come to reimburse me, don't be polite to me."

"Clothes? Are they the same as the original ones? How much is the invoice!"

Director Gu smiled: "It doesn't matter, you can do whatever you want, as long as it's a piece of clothing, even the most expensive clothing in Wucheng, I can report it to you.... Our organization has many rules that are very strange. In fact, many other The same is true for the state agencies. The allowances stipulated by the state are very small, but the funds for carrying out tasks are not strictly controlled. Boy, you can subsidize subsidies in this regard. I only tell you this because you are too honest. No one else needs me to remind you."

So there is such a good thing?If I had known I would have torn my pants and shoes when I hit a tree!The most expensive clothes?I don't like to buy extravagant things, but I can buy things for others!After thinking for a while, he asked Director Gu: "Are there any requirements for men's and women's styles?"

Director Gu looked at me with a funny expression on his face: "Does it have to be male and female on the invoice? As long as you don't order me a mink coat! I never thought you would have such thoughts."

……

When I went back to school, five days had passed.Feng Junzi kept his word and really let Axiu back.Axiu's expression was a bit haggard, it seems that the feeling of confinement for a while is not good.Ji Xiaoyu kindly asked her how the situation at home was?Axiu just shook her head with a melancholy face.

When Axiu saw me, she called out, "Brother Shiye—" and almost threw herself into my arms.I quickly reached out to help her, this girl, don't forget that this is in a classroom.Axiu looked at me with watery eyes, like a wronged child seeing a relative.I looked at Axiu with complicated emotions, and I didn't know what to say.At this time, I heard someone coughing loudly, it was Mr. Feng.Axiu heard the sound of coughing, lowered her head and sat back in her seat obediently.

For the next two days, Axiu was still the same as before.Wipe my seat clean every morning, put away the soy milk and wait for me to have breakfast early, and bring me a cup of tea in the afternoon, so that I can be refreshed before class.If there are changes, there are two points.The first is that she brought not only a white porcelain cup, but also a purple clay pot, which is the purple clay pot that Feng Junzi often carries in his hand.This girl finally learned how to be good, and took the initiative to make a pot of tea for Feng Junzi every afternoon.When Feng Junzi took the teapot, he was always smiling, and his expression became more and more satisfied.Another change is that the way Axiu looked at me was pure and shy, and her eyes always wanted to talk. Even when she called Brother Shi Ye, her tone of voice changed and became limp.

There is a feeling how to describe it?It's just an itchy heart, an indescribable sprouting feeling.There were a lot of things a few days ago, and I didn't have time to think about it. Now that I suddenly calmed down, I couldn't help recalling what happened in the recent period.Seeing Axiu in the past few days, I always think of the beautiful spring scenery that night. It was the first time in my life that I experienced the love between a man and a woman. What I saw in my eyes was the Liu Feier I thought in my heart, but that person was Axiu .This day, I was flipping through the ancient books "stolen" from the memorial hall in the Jingwu Cave. I half understood the boring numerology, and gradually lost my mind.

I thought of Axiu, and then of the night when I "lost my virginity", and gradually I thought of the matter of men and women.Looking at the book in front of me again, I suddenly remembered that night in the memorial hall, the naked Miss Jin who seduced me. I don't know why, I feel a little confused in my heart, and my body can't help but feel a little hot.

Are real people without desires?The alchemy Tao taught me by Feng Junzi is not the way of abstinence, not to mention that he himself lost his virginity on Zhaoting Mountain, and then he often ran up the mountain. I can guess that he went to see that woman without even thinking about it.If the master is like this, what about me as an apprentice?I have experienced the catastrophe of lust and delusion. This does not mean that I have no sex or desire in my heart, but on the contrary, I have a more real and thorough understanding of this.For a practitioner like me, true feelings and desires are unavoidable.

The entanglement of the mind is not suitable for practicing here, so I simply walked out of the Jingwu Cave and sat down on the red fat stone wall.Some people think about desire because of love, and some people have love because of desire.But at this moment, I want to meet Teacher Liu, and then go to her dream.

……

This time her dream was actually sitting on the grass by Qingyi Lake, very similar to the scene during the spring outing, the outline of Qiyun Temple on Qiyun Mountain could be vaguely seen in the distance.I walked towards her along the lake, and when she saw me, I raised my left hand and pointed to my heart with my middle finger.She was stunned, and then suddenly, as if she had figured it out, she smiled at me: "Shi Ye, I'm dreaming again, right?"

"Yes, we met again in my dream." I also sat down on the grass, facing Qingyi Lake side by side with her.

Teacher Liu said thoughtfully: "People's dreams are really amazing."

"Yes, someone told me that everyone has a lot of dreams after falling asleep, but most of them can't remember."

Teacher Liu: "I have seen you many times in my dreams. I want to ask you, which time did you really come, and which one was just my own dream? You tell me, you walked into my dream, this is How many times?"

"Counting today, it's the third time."

Teacher Liu: "So it was only three times, but I dreamed of you more than three times. The strange thing is that I can tell the difference now! As soon as you appeared just now, I knew it was the real you."

"How did you know?"

Teacher Liu: "That's a feeling. When you came, everything around you seemed ethereal, and only you were so real."

I laughed, this is exactly how I felt when I saw Junzi Feng in my dream for the first time.She already understands this state and can tell.If Teacher Liu is still in a dream, it is also a strange dream, not any of the three dream methods taught by Feng Junzi to me.Speaking of it, this is not a dream, not a reality, nor an illusion. It seems that the various realms in the world are magical, and I have to study more when I have the opportunity.Thinking of this, I suddenly wanted to make a joke with her, so I turned my face and asked her, "Miss Liu, do you want to fly in the sky?"

"Fly? Can I do it?"

"Don't forget this is a dream, yes, give me a hand."

I took one of her hands, stretched my body and flew into the sky.Teacher Liu's face was full of surprise and surprise. I felt her hand was tightly held, as if she was afraid that she would fall if she let go.I didn't let go, and took her to fly over Qingyi Lake. The lake was very calm, like a mirror, printing our reflection across the sky.We flew for a long time, like two free larks, shuttling in the ethereal.Gradually, Teacher Liu's expression relaxed, revealing an innocent smile, like a little girl, very happy.

"Since we can fly in the sky, can we stand on the water?" she asked me.

"Of course, come with me."

I took her hand and gently landed on the water surface of Qingyi Lake. The water surface was soft and elastic, supporting our feet, like a big water bed without edges.She stood on the water, just like Fairy Lingbo, I was a little crazy.

"Shi Ye, this is just a dream, isn't it?" Teacher Liu didn't avoid my eyes, but met my eyes and asked.

"Yes, this is a dream, but this is not an ordinary dream. Someone told me that this is a fairy art."

Teacher Liu: "In my eyes, you are already a fairy!...But I don't like fairy, I only like Shi Ye in my dream." When she spoke, her expression was very gentle, just like the gentle waves of Qingyi Lake.I heard my heart pounding, because it was the first time I heard the word "like" out of her mouth.

"You, really like me?" I lowered my head and asked in a low voice, not daring to look her in the eyes, as if I had done something wrong.

"You treat people like this, I can't be unmoved... You don't need to say it, I actually understand all your thoughts, don't talk about the things you did for me, I just need to look at your eyes to know. It's just that we... ...No. But, since it is in a dream, who can't have a dream that is absurd and that he likes?" She leaned on my shoulder as she spoke, turned around slightly, and was already lightly involved in the dream. in my arms.

The feeling of happiness almost filled my whole body, and my mind was agitated for a while, and I almost didn't return to my place!I really didn't expect that she would be like this, she chose to accept me like this in her dream.Although I have imagined this scene countless times, and even lingered with her in my delusional world, when this moment actually happened, I felt at a loss.I put my arms around her slender waist and embraced her quietly on the lake.I didn't even dare to hug her hard, as if that would be a kind of blasphemy to her.

"Shi Ye, if you miss me, come to me in your dreams from now on, you know how to come. In reality, I can't...do you understand?" Teacher Liu seemed to be muttering to himself in my arms .So she thought so!In this way, I am already very satisfied, and I don't have many demands on her, or even nothing.

That night, we just hugged each other quietly, without doing anything else.She didn't speak any more, just lying in my arms tenderly.

……

When I stood up in front of the Chizhi Cliff, it was still dark, but I felt that the stars in the sky were much brighter.This may be the anniversary of my meeting with her in my dream.Anyway, that's what I thought.I sat there reminiscing for a long time, reminiscing about the feeling of flying with her hand in hand, and suddenly I thought of a person and a thing.

This person is Sister Ziying, and that incident is Sister Ziying's wish to fly to the sky hand in hand with me.At this time, I suddenly thought of Miss Ziying. I felt that I shouldn't have done it, but I still thought of it.Hand in hand with Feitian, I have already done it.The first time was in Liu Yiyi's delusional world, with Liu Yiyi; the second time was in Liu Fei'er's dream, I took the initiative to hold her hand and fly together. (Xu Gongzi's note: Shi Ye, you remember wrongly, you only think about beautiful things! In fact, it was Feng Junzi who dragged you into the sky for the first time, why can't you remember this?)
If you want to join hands in flying, it is not necessary to use Ziying clothes. It is also possible to turn wishes into dreams and realize them in dreams.It's just, should I fulfill Miss Ziying's wish?Is Liu Feier worthy of doing this?Also, I searched for gods in my dreams, but I couldn't find Miss Ziying at all, let alone enter her dreams?Maybe I should ask Feng Junzi....When I was thinking wildly, I suddenly heard the sound of a woman sobbing softly in the distance.

It was already midnight, who would cry in such a remote place?Could it be that he was bullied by the bad guys, or is there something he can't think of going to the riverside... the riverside?Could it be that someone wanted to commit suicide!I have to check it out.

The direction from which the sound came was the pebble beach where I used to practice the "Earth Magic".I walked over and saw the back of a young girl sitting on the river beach from a distance... I recognized it immediately, it was Axiu!Axiu didn't turn her head, but she noticed me coming, she stopped crying, and asked, "Brother Shiye, is that you?" She could recognize me by the sound of footsteps.

"It's me, Axiu, why did you come here at night without sleeping? I heard you crying just now, what's wrong with you?"

Axiu stood up and looked at me, with tears still on her face: "Brother Shiye, I'm fine... I just thought of a sentence, and I cried after thinking about it."

I walked over, couldn't help but reached out to wipe away her tears, my hand stopped in mid-air, supported her shoulder and asked, "What words did you think of that made you so sad?"

Axiu: "Brother Shiye, sit down, and I will talk to you slowly."

I had to sit with Axiu on the river beach, she leaned on my shoulder, and I didn't move away.She just looked at the stars in the sky and said: "A few days ago, Junzi Feng went to the Shenmu Forest and asked sister Luxue a word."

Why are you talking about Feng Junzi again?I quickly asked, "What?"

Axiu: "He asked sister Luxue—is the grass and trees ruthless?"

"Then, how did Luxue answer?"

Axiu: "Sister Luxue said—in the eyes of grass and trees, people are ruthless."

"why?"

Axiu: "Junzi Feng also asked the same question."

"Then what did Luxue say?"

Axiu: "Sister Luxue said—the spring breeze turns into rain, the fallen leaves turn into mud, and the vegetation nourishes all things in the world. This is love. But you came and wanted me...not only my body, but also my heart. I am still not satisfied, but I want all my love. I am the elf of Zhaoting Mountain. I have been rooted here for 600 years and integrated with mountains and rivers. Now you want to take it all away. Is this what you call human love? I have nothing It can be given to you, but you can't take it away."

*************************************
The end of the month is also the end of the year. Thank you readers for your support in the past six months. I wish you all a happy new year!Also, don't forget to vote, give me a monthly ticket for this month and the new year :)

(End of this chapter)