Wandering

Chapter 4

(Inscription: Planting flowers intentionally or planting willows unintentionally, which event has a greater probability of happening? In fact, in the world, only planting flowers with intention can accidentally plant willows. The content of the next few chapters may be boring to read, because I used a large paragraph of text to describe the protagonist’s experience of groping before he started to practice Taoism. If only from the perspective of the novel, this paragraph can be summed up in one stroke. But from the perspective of "Dan Shu", I still want to introduce as much detail as possible to make it more clear. It is close to the possibility of reality. Friends who like to watch the plot can skip it.)
"Lu Xun said that Zhuangzi is the best among the pre-Qin scholars." Feng Junzi ignored my astonished expression and talked to himself.What does this have to do with Lu Xun?The more I listened, the more confused I became, and the more confused I became, the more enthusiastic Feng Junzi said: "Zhuangzi is profound and difficult to understand. Fortunately, the book I bought is bilingual. If you don't understand it, you can read the vernacular translation at the back. But I want to tell you that many things in the translation are wrong, and you need to understand the real meaning. I don’t expect you to read this book thoroughly. You only need to read the formulas. It's been folded..."

I opened this "Zhuangzi".The book has been turned by Feng Junzi very old, and there are crooked "notes" written in many places, and some unfamiliar words are marked with pinyin, so you can tell it is Feng Junzi's handwriting at a glance.What's more interesting is that some places in the original text were crossed out, and then other words were written below. It seems that Feng Junzi thought that the book was printed wrong, and corrected it on his own initiative.The lined area has been folded, and there are three sections:
The first paragraph is in the "Human World" chapter. "Yan Hui said: 'I have no way to advance, dare to ask the way.' Zhongni said: 'Zhai, if my general speaks, if he does it with his heart, is he prone to evil? If he changes it, Gaotian is not suitable.'Yan Hui Said: "The family back home is poor, but those who don't drink alcohol or eat meat have lived for several months. If so, can it be fasted?" Zhongni said: "If you have a will, if you don't listen to it with your ears, you can listen to it with your heart. If you don't listen to it with your heart, you can listen to it with your breath! Listening stops at the ear, and the heart stops at the talisman. The one who has the breath is also the one who treats things with emptiness." Also. Only the Tao gathers the emptiness. The emptiness is the heart.'”

The second paragraph is in the "Great Master" chapter. "It's easy to tell the talents of the saints in the way of the saints. I still keep it and tell it. After the day, I will be able to conquer the world; I have conquered the world, and I will guard it. After seven days, I will be able to conquer the world; I have conquered the world, and I Keep it in mind for nine days, and then you will be able to regenerate from the outside; if you have been born from the outside, you will be able to go to the thorough. If you go to the thorough, then you will be able to see independence. Seeing independence, then you will be able to have no past and present. No past and present, and then you will be able to enter the realm of immortality and life. Those who kill life will not die , what is born is not born. It is a thing, everything will be, everything will be greeted; everything will be destroyed, and everything will be accomplished. It is called Yingning. Those who are born after cherry blossoms are also born after cherry blossoms."

The third paragraph is also in the "Great Master" chapter. "Yan Hui said: 'Returning to benefit.' Zhongni said: 'What do you mean?' Said: 'Returning to forget benevolence and righteousness.' Said: 'It is possible, but it is still not yet.' See you again in another day, and said: 'Return to benefit. He said: "What do you mean?" He said, "I have forgotten the rituals and music." He said, "It is possible, but it is still not yet." See you again in another day, and said: "Return to Yi." He said: "What is it?" ’ Said: ‘Go back to sit and forget.’ Zhongni Curan said: ‘What do you mean by sitting and forgetting?’ Yan Hui said: ‘Falling off the limbs, throwing away the intelligence, leaving the body to know. It’s the same as Datong. This is called sitting and forgetting.’”

When I flipped through the book, Feng Junzi was still talking: "Have you heard of the Three Classics of Taoism? "Laozi" is called "Tao De Jing", "Zhuangzi" is called "Nanhua Jing", and "Liezi" is called "Qingxu Jing". Chuang Tzu is more suitable for mind adjustment. In the beginning of meditation practice, many people pay attention to starting with body adjustment, then breath adjustment, and finally mind adjustment. We are not monastic disciples, and we don’t talk about rituals. That's the right way..."

"Aunt ghost?" I had to interrupt Feng Junzi: "Wait, is this "Zhuangzi"? Why do you have two dialogues between Confucius and Yan Hui in the place where you underlined? Is this also a formula? Or Just give me a copy of "The Analects of Confucius."

Junzi Feng stared at me like a monster, "Why do you want "The Analects of Confucius"? What is wrong with Confucius' words? From 'Xinzhai' to 'Yingning', and then to 'Zuo Wang', there is no problem? You have an opinion before you even started. Who did you learn from? Each school of Taoism has its own formulas. I am too lazy to make up those jingles. No, you need to have a mental method. The mental method you want to learn now is also very simple, listen carefully..."

The "mental method" mentioned by Feng Junzi is indeed very simple.He asked me to spend two hours before going to bed every day, neither falling asleep nor thinking.Feng Junzi told me: Once a person calms down, many distracting thoughts will arise one after another, and it is impossible to force them down.You can have all kinds of thoughts, but don’t think about them. For example, you may suddenly think of something in class, but you can’t think about what the teacher is talking about or how to do the topic, or you can think of a person, but you can’t think about what this person is doing or you How is your relationship with this person.There can be all kinds of distracting thoughts, but the consciousness cannot go with the thoughts.In short, it is like placing a glass of muddy water in a quiet room, allowing the water to settle naturally.

After listening to this, I couldn't help asking: "Isn't this just being in a daze for nothing?"

"Daze?" Feng Junzi almost cried out, "This is not the same as being in a daze. You can't dream with your eyes open. You must stay awake and not drowsy! Eyes can see but not see, ears can hear but not hear. First you must be able to See' and 'hear', and then experience 'not seeing' and 'not listening'. Only you have to find out the subtleties, and no one else can tell you. As for the posture, you can do whatever you want, and you can breathe freely... ..."

I asked again, "Then how long will I last like this?"

Feng Junzi: "No one knows, you will know when you reach the point. But I don't have time to wait too long. Since the old man Zhuangzi made it very clear in the book, I will give you nineteen days."

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Feng Junzi said a lot, but I still think it's just a daze.If you are in a daze, just be in a daze, so I embarked on a journey of "being in a daze" every midnight.Feng Junzi told me that the posture is casual, but if I lie down, it is difficult not to fall asleep. If I stand for two hours, it may be enough, so I can only sit.In the middle of the night, my classmates were all asleep, and I couldn't sit on the stool, which would scare the roommates who woke up at night, so my only choice was to sit cross-legged on the bed.I don't know how to sit cross-legged. I can only recall the postures of those "heroes" practicing kung fu in martial arts film and television works, pretending to sit cross-legged on the bed.

It's easy to say, but it's very difficult to do it. The first problem is not that my mind is messy, but that I can't hold on for two hours at all.Fortunately, I was very narrow-minded, and I almost sat for two hours on the first day, and I kept yawning in class the next day.Why?Didn't sleep well!Feng Junzi saw it, but said lightly that Song Jing was not natural, so he felt insufficient sleep, and he would not be sleepy when he relaxed and became quiet.

On the third day, I was not only sleepy, but also felt backache and leg pain. Feng Junzi also said that I don't have to sit stiff all the time, but I can relax occasionally and take it step by step.He let me try how to relax, but he didn't care about anything.But it's strange to say that I gradually found that the posture of sitting upright seems to be very tiring, but the longer the time, the more relaxed I feel.I'm not used to cross-legged, and it's much better to fold the quilt into a cube and put it under my buttocks.

A week passed and I didn't feel any other changes.But there are two changes that are not easy to detect. One is that my waist and legs are no longer sore, and the other is that I am no longer sleepy during the day.No one explained to me why. I thought that my waist and legs were not sore. It might be the result of getting used to it and exercising.As for the improvement of spirit during the day, that is the effect of meditation.When I was meditating, I gradually became less drowsy and became very awake and sensitive.I can hear extremely small sounds in my ears, even the sound of cars on the road far away from the campus.When I closed my eyes, I actually saw everything in the dormitory in the dimness.Of course, this may not be a supernatural power, because I have forgotten whether my eyes are open or closed.Feng Junzi said that I am simple by nature and have not suffered any pollution (I am not a vegetable!), so "Xin Zhai" is not a difficult thing for me.

While I was in a daze every night, I was not idle during the day, trying to get close to the three "experts".Some things are difficult before you do it, but once you do it with your heart, it is often a matter of course.

It was not difficult to get close to the old man who played Tai Chi. I first met Feng Junzi’s primary school head teacher, an old lady surnamed Cui. Every morning, I mixed with a bunch of old men and women to learn Tai Chi.A bunch of old people were very curious and enthusiastic about me, a new "kid", and taught me every trick.I will soon be able to keep up with the rhythm of gestures and strokes.The old man's surname is Gao, and he is a retired veteran cadre.Since I have long known that Mr. Gao is different, I tried to stand by his side when boxing, and gradually discovered a little beauty: whenever I stand behind Mr. Gao and follow his movements, I feel very Relaxed, very comfortable, every movement is driven by an involuntary force, which is much better than doing radio gymnastics at school.As for the innate vitality mentioned by Feng Junzi, I haven't the nerve to ask.

The fortune teller at Qiaotou was surnamed Zhang, and I later called him Mr. Zhang.Mr. Zhang is very interesting. I pretend to watch the excitement every day to see his fortune-telling, but he doesn't care about me and does his own thing.Later, the face of the gangster became familiar, and occasionally nodded to me as a greeting, which seemed to mean: "Are you here again?"

After going there for a few days, I found that the Fenghuangqiaotou area was rather messy, and people littered garbage such as melon peels and fruit cores every day.And this gentleman likes to be clean. When I went there, I found that the surrounding area had been carefully cleaned. It must have been cleaned up by the gentleman himself.So every morning after Taijiquan, I did one more thing before Mr. Zhang came out to set up a stall.I took the broom and watering can from the classroom and went there, first carefully cleaned the vicinity of Mr. Zhang's booth, and then sprinkled a layer of water (the dust on the side of the road is heavier).

After a few more days like this, I just finished sweeping the floor that morning and was sprinkling water, and Mr. Zhang had already come over with his back.He didn't come so early in the past. When he saw me sprinkling water here, Mr. Zhang smiled and said, "I said who is so kind every day. It turned out to be you. Thank you."

When I went there again at noon, Mr. Zhang didn't say anything, but handed me a small Maza and asked me to sit beside him.In this way, we got to know each other well, and chatted together when no one was around.Mr. Zhang didn't ask me why I came to see him for fortune-telling every day, but talked with me about everything from the north to the south.His knowledge is very profound, compared with the little thing in my stomach, he can't keep up with a fraction of his.Listening to his light talk, he should be a very educated person. I don't understand why such a person makes a living by setting up a fortune-telling stall every day?I asked him and he always laughed and didn't answer.

As for the proprietress of the noodle shop, the process of getting acquainted with her was the most dramatic.I ate wontons in the noodle shop for a week, but I had less than three words with her other than ordering and paying.And a week later, an accidental opportunity came to my door.

It was dusk, and it was still dark. I had finished my bowl of wontons and two pancakes, and was about to pay the bill and go out.A cart came outside the door, pulling a cart of briquettes.At that time, liquefied gas was not popular in Wucheng, and the kitchen of small noodle restaurants like this still burned briquettes.It is not a car that delivers coal, but a local rickshaw.The coachman was unlucky today. He slipped on the road and his hand was cut and bleeding.The proprietress found out when she was paying, and quickly brought gauze and water from the back, and asked the driver to wash and bandage the wound.

The driver's injury was not serious, but the truckload of coal was in trouble.Usually, the driver would move the coal to the back kitchen one by one, and the wife of the proprietress would pay two yuan more, but it was not possible today.When the driver was washing his hands, the proprietress frowned at the truckload of coal, so now she had to move it by herself.I saw all this in my eyes, maybe because of pity and sympathy, because I couldn't imagine that the proprietress's white and tender hands were connected with this cart of dark briquettes.Naturally, I stood up and said, "Miss Boss, let me help you carry this truckload of coal."

"Oh, that's so embarrassing, you are a student." The proprietress didn't expect that I would help, so she quickly declined.

"You're welcome, I'm from the mountains, and this kind of work is nothing." As I spoke, I rolled up my sleeves and went to move coal on the cart. I lifted eight briquettes at a time, and it felt a little heavy.The proprietress saw that I had already started, so she didn't say anything, but hurried to open the kitchen door.It was more than half an hour after I finished transporting this car of coal. Although I was not very tired, I was still sweating.The proprietress thanked me repeatedly, and brought me water and a towel. The towel probably belonged to the proprietress herself, and it smelled very good.

That's how I got to know the proprietress, and we got to know each other more.The proprietress's surname is Han, so I call her Sister Han out of shame.Sister Han is a foreigner, and she has opened a noodle restaurant here for three years.I've always wanted to ask how old she is, but I've never had the nerve to ask, because Mr. Feng said it's impolite to ask a beautiful woman's age.Unknowingly, I become familiar with it after coming and going, and there are more opportunities to get in touch, and there are more things I can do.In addition to moving briquettes, I also often help Sister Han to buy flour (the thing is also quite heavy, and the noodle shop uses a lot of it, so I have to buy it every two days. Sister's work), clearing the table, boiling water and fetching water and other heavy work, and occasionally helping her make noodles (the big dough in the noodle shop is a laborious job to make).

Sister Han likes that I can help her with these things.One day I moved the flour to the back kitchen, and my hair was covered with white. While brushing my hair, she said, "I really need a helper like you in this noodle restaurant. Sometimes I can't be too busy alone. Come on, you can go to the school next door, or you can come to work with me. This is a small business, and the salary is not much, but you will eat here in the future, and you don’t have to go to the school cafeteria. Otherwise, I would feel ashamed if you always help me!"

Unintentionally, there is such a good thing!I was polite for a long time, saying that it is right to help, and I am determined not to get Sister Han's wages, and I still have to go to class, so I can't always help her here.Later, it was settled in such a muddle-headed way. When I was free, I would help out in the noodle shop, and I didn’t need wages for meals.But I don't always eat three meals a day there, just one dinner every now and then.In fact, I eat three meals a day in Sister Han's noodle shop, and Sister Han doesn't mind, but I feel embarrassed.I'm going to do Tai Chi in the morning, and I'm going to see a fortune teller at noon. I can only come to help at night and on weekends, so I can't take advantage of her too much.

As the saying goes, there is nothing difficult in the world if you have a heart, or if you are not afraid of thieves, you are afraid of thieves.There are some things that you can always find a way if you put your heart into it.After half a month, I have gotten along very well with the three "experts" Feng Junzi mentioned.Help out at Sister Han's noodle shop.I have become friends with Mr. Zhang who have nothing to say, and I often listen to him talk about fortune-telling.As for Gao Lao, he took the initiative to teach me a new boxing technique.

Mr. Gao heard that I came here to practice Tai Chi because of my infirmity, so he took the initiative to teach me a boxing method that is said to be able to strengthen the body.I don't know what the name of this set of boxing is, it was taught by a comrade-in-arms of Gao Lao before liberation.The movements are not too complicated, there are five sets in total, and it takes 10 minutes to practice one set. Mr. Gao told me that it is enough to practice one set each time.It was only when Mr. Gao taught me this set of boxing that I realized that practicing boxing also requires regulating the mind and Qi, and just having movements is not enough.This set of boxing actually has a mind method, and it also has the kung fu of becoming calm while moving. As for adjusting the mind to calm down, it is similar to what Feng Junzi said, the difference is that it also guides the movement of Qi channels in different parts of the body along with the movements.But I can't understand what is called Qimai movement. Gao Lao said that there is no need to force it, and it will come naturally when the skill is reached.He told me that I don't even need to memorize the route of the qi channel, the qi will be activated naturally after proficiency.

After I learned boxing, I went back and demonstrated it to Junzi Feng from beginning to end. Junzi Feng shook his head while watching and said that it didn't look like boxing.The next day he came to me again, and excitedly said that he had found it in the book, and that I was practicing Wu Qinxi.It is said that the Wu Qin Xi was created by Hua Tuo imitating the movements of the five animals, but Feng Junzi said that the Wu Qin Xi I practiced is not the same as the Hua Tuo Wu Qin Xi that is currently circulating. Practicing in this way can indeed strengthen the body, but if you want to practice Innate vitality is probably still very early.I think it is indeed very early. Mr. Gao started practicing in his 30s, and he is 78 this year!
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It has become a pleasure to get along with the three "superior people", but I still have no experience with Zhuangzi's "Ying Ning" and "Zuo Wang".Now I can understand what is "extreme emptiness and tranquility", but I don't know what the state should be when I go further.During this time, Junzi Feng didn't teach me anything, but Shang Yunfei was always a little ghostly.One night when I was going back to the dormitory after self-study, Yunfei stopped me on the road and asked, "Are you learning Taoism from a gentle gentleman? What did he teach you?"

Junzi Feng didn't tell me that these things cannot be told to others, and from my point of view, he didn't teach me anything other than giving me a copy of "Zhuangzi".So I replied, "I really wanted to learn from him, but he didn't teach me anything."

"How is this possible? I've seen it all. You think I don't know that you meditate every night? Everyone in your dormitory has told me." Yunfei's tone obviously didn't believe it.

Yunfei didn't believe it, and I didn't have any scheming, and I never thought that a "savvy person" like Shang Yunfei would inquire about some secrets from me.So I told Shang Yunfei everything Feng Junzi taught me.Yun Fei frowned after hearing this: "It's just nonsense, how can you be so irresponsible, put a duck in the water and it will swim naturally, but people can't do it. He just let you go as a duck. No, no, I have to take care of you." Control. Ishino, I will teach you a little meditation practice, would you like to learn it?"

(End of this chapter)