Maid's Survival Manual

Chapter 104
Manman dare not talk about the right to life and equality now.

In front of life, she is so humble and timid, but also so fragile, when the wind of life blows, she will be unstable.How should a girl who is at a loss for her own life bear the burden of another life?

It stands to reason that no matter how the child came about and who the father of the child is, since he exists, he should have the right to live.If this happened to someone else, while Manman sighed with emotion, she might be filled with righteous indignation to defend the child's right to live.

But for her, this is such a difficult decision.

She can ignore fame.

Pregnancy before marriage is a thing that pokes people's spine in modern times, let alone this era?Even if she has no roots and no relatives, if someone in the village provokes her and suppresses her on the charge of infidelity, she may be expelled from the village, and if it is more serious, she will be burned or killed. sink pond.

Not just in this village, but in any place, a situation like her may not have a foothold.

Even if she endured this humiliation, how would she support herself and her children?It's not about adding a bowl of water or drinking an extra bowl of porridge. She is responsible for him.It is not only necessary to give birth to him, but also to raise him. Life does not need to be rich, but he must have a stable home and the opportunity to be able to read and write. If he wants to, he must have the qualifications to stand out.

In the future, will he complain that she gave birth to him without authorization?How much ridicule and bullying will a "wild species" without a father receive?She is just a weak woman, how much sky can her thin shoulders hold up for him?

Thinking of all kinds of difficulties in the future, Manman felt powerless.

She slowly caressed her lower abdomen with her hand, thinking sadly, maybe he himself knew it was not the right time, otherwise how could he see red?In modern times, this is the harbinger of miscarriage, right?
If she didn't take the medicine and let it go, would he disappear?

A child who is not blessed and expected, a child who has not yet formed, has no consciousness, cannot be called a living body, a child who is born only to suffer, maybe it is his blessing to disappear?
Just having such a rudimentary idea made Manman feel heartbroken.Only now did she have to admit that she was really a cowardly and cold woman, a cruel and ruthless woman.

It was her own flesh and blood, but she could have the idea of ​​killing it.That was an innocent life, but she wanted to impose her own fear of difficulties on him, that was a young life that needed to be pitied, but she shrugged off responsibility completely.

What a shame.

Manman felt that her cruelty for a while was the kindness to him and her life, and at the same time she felt that she was really not worthy to be called a mother. Her cowardice made her even despise herself.Just like the battle between heaven and man, she stood in the yard for most of the day before she knew it.

The arrival of Niu'er broke the silence.

He was carrying the food box, and said to Manman in a somewhat awkward manner: "You are hungry too, eat first, and forget about the past."

An honest man does not comfort others, he only speaks plain words.But it's the vernacular that is the most stinging.Manman woke up suddenly, wiped her face subconsciously, trying to wipe away that decadent and gloomy air, pinched her cheeks, forced herself to have some energy, took the food box and said: "How is Uncle Zhang?" Already? Are you awake?"

Niu'er shook his head, and comforted Manman in turn: "Life is a matter of life and death, so don't think too much about it."

It was only now that Manman realized belatedly that she had received assistance from the Zhang family again.

She put down the food box a little discouraged, even though her stomach was empty, she had no appetite at all.She blamed herself and said, "It's all my fault. If it wasn't for me, the uncle wouldn't be hurt."

She is the legendary mourner star.She shouldn't have come here, her existence has no meaning except to cause trouble for others.Even Chen Yunzheng, who was living a good life originally, was because of her being at odds with her parents, being beaten and scolded by her father, and rejected by her parents...

Niu'er couldn't understand Manman's self-abandonment, so he picked up the food box and put it on the table of the Little Eight Immortals, took the little mazza and asked Manman to sit down, opened the food box, took out the porridge and vegetable pancakes, and said, "Don't do this, How can I blame you? It's those villains..."

Manman smiled bitterly, and said, "It's not that I suddenly became an upstart, and I won't let the thieves think about it."

Niu'er glanced at her hesitantly, then quickly lowered his head, and said, "That's not your fault, don't blame yourself... No one blames you."

It would be better if someone blamed her. The Zhang family treated her so kindly without asking for anything in return, which made her feel even more guilty and uneasy.It's really unrewarding.

Manman didn't look for Chen Bo again.She let her waywardness go without doing anything to remedy it.She thought about it, so be it, let nature take its course, if he can survive, it is destiny.If not, it can only be said to be God's will.

Probably because she was still looking forward to this child, and there was no change in the next few days.Except for a little blood left that day, there was no abnormality after that.

Manman was a little sad, but also a little relieved.No matter what, the child's vitality is still quite tenacious.That's good, I hope he is braver than her, otherwise she really doesn't know what to do.

Just imagine how a weak mother and a weak child can live in this dark world that eats people without spit out bones?

Uncle Zhang next door was not so lucky.

After being in a coma for two days, he finally woke up, but he couldn't speak, he couldn't move his legs, he could only blink, and the corners of his mouth were dripping with cloudy white saliva.

Aunt Zhang cried into a ball holding the Zhang family's younger sister, Qian'er, who was less than ten years old.Men are the sky, once a man leaves, the sky will collapse.Aunt Zhang cried and cried, she didn't touch the water, and she lost weight immediately.

Manman often came here to help.She couldn't comfort Aunt Zhang, so she helped cook and boil water, chatting to express her guilt.Chen Bo came several times, finally shook his head and said, "Let's prepare for the funeral."

Manman helped the aunts and aunts in the village make shrouds for Uncle Zhang.

I didn't dare to do it in Zhang's house, so I simply moved to her courtyard.Seeing that it was about to end, suddenly the younger sister of the Zhang family ran in crying, took Manman's hand and said, "Miss Su, go and see, my father is dying."

Manman hurriedly followed Zhang Qian'er over, and sure enough, he saw that Uncle Zhang's complexion was pale and lifeless.She was ashamed and sad, knelt down on one side, and said: "Ma'am, I'm the one who brought you the disaster, if you want to beat or scold, do it."

When Uncle Zhang saw Manman, he suddenly let out ahh.

Aunt Zhang stopped crying and said, "You mean you don't blame Manman?"

Uncle Zhang nodded vigorously.

Manman burst into tears.

Uncle Zhang looked at Niu'er and Qian'er again, and Aunt Zhang also cried: "I understand, I know, my family is poor, and Niu'er can't afford a wife, so let Qian'er change marriage. Don't worry." , the palms and backs of my hands are full of flesh, I dare not treat the girl badly, I must find a safe family for her, and just keep her from suffering."

Qian'er also cried mournfully.This is fate, and she will not accept it. The elder brother has always been important in the family. Who made him a man?
Uncle Zhang looked at Manman again and sighed.Aunt Zhang seemed to understand what he meant, so she spit and scolded: "Damn old man, I understand your thoughts, but how can our cow be worthy of Miss Manman? Isn't that a flower stuck in cow dung? She is so charming and charming, marrying into our family will have to endure hardships... You should give up on this, not to mention that Miss Manman doesn't agree, even if she agrees, I don't agree."

Manman froze there for a moment.

Only then did I understand why Qian'er asked me to come when Uncle Zhang was dying.After talking for a long time, Mrs. Zhang's words are the meat of the show.

Confused, Manman looked up at Aunt Zhang, and said, "It's not that I don't want to. I can't repay you for being so respected and cared for me. If you don't mind, I..."

She didn't ignore the joy in Aunt Zhang's eyes.

But Manman only felt extremely sad, and she slowly said: "I have long been innocent, and I am a rootless weed, and..." There are other people's children... Manman laughed at herself: "I It is true that he is not worthy of Big Brother Zhang."

Aunt Zhang took Manman's hand and said, "Don't be modest, Niu'er is not good enough for you. Don't talk about it, it's our family's wishful thinking. You, your uncle, and your brother Niu'er have always liked you, It’s just that I don’t dare to climb high. To be honest, I hope you can have some stains, so that you won’t dislike Niu’er..."

Manman's face flushed red.Are there fewer stains on her body?Even if Aunt Zhang didn't know about her past with Chen Yunzheng and the inside story of the child, she was disheveled the night the robbers robbed her. In Aunt Zhang's eyes, she was considered a woman who had lost her virginity.

The hot-tempered one has already saved his innocence by death.

Only she has a thick skin.

Aunt Zhang sighed: "Ma'am can't talk, don't take it to heart, ah, we never dislike you, we will treat you as our own daughter and love you for a day. Your uncle's business, don't blame you, don't blame me Damn thief, you must not have a psychological burden... Niu'er is stupid, has no strength, can't speak, and can't love others. He deserves to be so old that he can't marry a wife. It doesn't matter, After another two years, when Qian'er has grown up, it's not too late to tell her about marriage, and it's not too late to replace her brother with a sister-in-law..."

Qian'er covered her face and ran out crying.

Niu'er said in a muffled voice: "Mother, what are you talking about? Isn't this a repayment of kindness? If I have the ability, I will say it. If I am not able, then I deserve to be alone. Don't talk about it again."

Aunt Zhang nodded, wiped her eyes and said: "Yes, I'm confused, I won't say it, don't say it, Manman, don't take it to heart? Although the Zhang family has been passed down for three generations since his grandfather's generation, but in this family And the Zhang family, if it doesn't work, just adopt one..."

Having said all this, Manman has no way out, she stood up, and said to Aunt Zhang: "Mother, I understand what you mean, now I want to have a few words with Brother Aniu alone, as long as he If you don't dislike me, I, I will be his wife."

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