Gu Erbai's Pastoral Life

Chapter 254 The Spring Garden Is Unstoppable (Part [-])
After arriving at the Gu mansion.

The family began to visit the mansion frequently, and sister Xiao Taozi often received them on her behalf, and she never showed up.

Every time Sister Xiaotaozi came back from the reception, she would always tell her some dirty words that her family felt guilty and sorry for her with a lot of emotion.

She couldn't listen.

It's not a deliberate disregard, it's just that I don't feel anything anymore.

Sister Xiaotaozi said that no matter how much suffering a person experiences, he cannot become insensitive.

She was indifferent, but she had a soft spot for huanghuali wood.

So many years in the Gu mansion.

She and sister Xiaotaozi supported each other, along the way, things gradually became more and more chaotic.

In his teens, he was lucky enough to be able to serve by the old lady's side, and his status in the mansion gradually increased, and his monthly money was getting richer day by day.

Up to now, even the wealthy can be compared to an ordinary merchant outside.

She knew that ninety percent of all this was thanks to elder sister Xiaotaozi, counting on her, she might not be able to get this position in her whole life.

Although she usually doesn't go anywhere, she is still deliberately saving money.

Because of this, she can replace the material of all the objects around her with yellow rosewood.She loves this kind of wood so much, you have to ask her to tell the reason, she doesn't know.

Sister Xiaotaozi is the best at reading people's hearts in order to match her preferences, so she is often lovable.

It's the same for her, so every year she gives herself ornaments, there will be cast huanghuali.

She knew she liked it, almost obstinately.

It's just that it was different that year, because of these four words, everything became different.

Consciously or unintentionally, she always began to think again, who wrote such a domineering and deeply penetrating thin gold body?
Thinking about this has become an indispensable thing for her every night.

She thought about... the owner?
But it's funny, how could the host write a birthday message for a servant?
She also thought... maybe Xiao Taozi asked someone to bring it from the East China Sea, and paid a lot of money for it to be written by a highly accomplished calligrapher.

If possible, she would like to meet this calligrapher.

No one knows how much darkness these four words opened to her narrow life.

Later, she saw it.

That day, sister Xiaotaozi ran into the house from the grove behind the mansion for some reason. She didn't say anything and just cried under the covers.

She didn't say a word when she asked her anything, only kept choking and sobbing.

She felt very distressed when she heard it, so she had no choice but to step forward and gently tuck the corner of the quilt for her.

At that time, a white veil fell down.

It was an ordinary veil used by the servants of the Gu family, but the only difference was that the veil made her pupils shrink instantly.

Like a dying person seeing the hope of life, fiery and longing.

She pulled the corner of the quilt tightly, her whole body was stiff and unable to move, looking at the veil, only a heart in her chest was beating faintly.

The unprecedented heartbeat was accompanied by faint sparks in the eyes, and everything was getting faster and faster and crazier.

On the veil are five profound and beautiful thin gold bodies, the aura of the previous arrogance has been restrained, and it is full of meekness and humble apology like the pronunciation of the written characters.

But even so, it was still enough to attack her heart, as if it had already lived in it, and it beat without any reaction.

Those five big characters, including a symbol in the middle, brightly colored, 'Peach, I'm sorry'

……

"Xingzi, I, just now...in the small woods, I heard Ah Shen revealing herself to the princess. It turned out that he lied to me. He never liked me. The person he liked has always been the princess, but Nianqing That night, he didn't say that, he said he would always guard me..."

At that time, sister Xiaotaozi didn't know whether she had cried enough or what, she stopped sobbing intermittently and told her why.

She listened and listened at first, but gradually she couldn't hear anything.

Those four characters were originally written by Ah Shen.

Shen...

"Is he with the princess?"

I don't know where she was talking, but when she stopped, she only asked such a sentence.

"No, no, the princess rejected him."

……

She didn't know why she laughed then.

That kind of laughter is sinful, shameless, depressing, bitter...

Fate tricks people, she knows.

At the age of six, she only stayed in the merchant's house for half a year before escaping.

In fact, it wasn't considered running away, she was severely scolded by his wife that night, and then sent someone to throw herself into a random grave overnight.

Merchant is a pedophile.

She crawled out of the rotting dead, in the middle of summer, reeking, small, surrounded by flies and wriggling...

She doesn't want to remember.

In the days when the dirt was so dark that she was in the mud, she was just a lump of mud, ready to be trampled upon.

At the age of six and a half, she was a beggar, stole rations, was hung up and beaten, trampled on by a drunk, bitten by a wild dog...

Sister Xiaotaozi once asked me why I refused to forgive Father.

If there is such a reason, let me forgive him.

I remember that there was a girl who saved me, sister Xiaotaozi.

She is one year older than me, and she was also sent to be a maid by my father, but she is completely different from me.

Sister Xiaotaozi was sent to the Gu residence by her family.

Jiacheng's Gu Mansion, like the imperial palace, will shine.

People like her dare not mention it.

If someone is selected as a maid there, firecrackers will be set off at home.

Because that's no less than the young lady whose worth will soon surpass that of a plump merchant's family.

That's a place where there are field owners. Ordinary people, where can they go.

She may be dying.

Bitten to death by wild dogs, when she curled up on the corner of the street, it was Sister Xiaotaozi who saw her.

Sister Xiaotaozi quarreled with her father and wanted to take her to a doctor.

When she woke up, Tao Zi touched her head with her small hand, and she said, "Daddy said, children should grow up well, you can go to Gu's mansion with me."

It was the hand that touched her forehead, and then pulled her up from the mud to the clouds.

……

Some people may be really lucky to let the heavens reward them with food.

She and sister Xiao Taozi entered Gu's mansion together, served the old lady together, grew up together, and came out gracefully together.

She is her dearest person.

But it is the most distant.

She thought they were the same and would grow up together, but they weren't.

She thought she was completely redeemed at the age of six, but fell into a deeper abyss again.

It's just that it used to be the body and now it's the soul.

Imprisoned, imprisoned firmly, pick up the hot tongs, branded in the depths of the soul.

When someone began to discuss in private how sister Xiaotaozi was willing to stay with her;
On the day when the whole world celebrates, everyone completely ignores her in the corner and praises her;
Even when the old lady was looking for her husband's family again and again...

She was wondering if she was superfluous.

Always superfluous, father, Gu Fu...

It seems that no one is willing to step into her world and try to warm her. She can also be as active as sister Xiaotaozi, but no.

When she was emotionally extreme, she would even think that if she had died of dog plague that year.

Xiao Taozi told her that children should grow up well.

But when you grow up, how do you grow old slowly?

In the long, long loneliness, a person walks a long, long way, accepting countless strange comparisons, eyes and abuse, which is endless.

So, should we go down?
When she felt uncomfortable, she endured it desperately, and looked at sister Xiaotaozi without saying a word.

She was laughing mostly, witty laughs, heartless laughs, sly laughs, funny laughs.

She thinks that she must have many things to be happy about, and a person who is worth being happy, so she often laughs.

Facing the bronze mirror, she didn't know who else to smile at except thinking of the pile of cold silver in the cabinet.

She squeezed it with her hands, and it seemed that it was difficult to squeeze out a completely sincere smile, but it was hypocritical, polite, and perfunctory.

Little sister Taozi, everything is better than her.

Everyone likes her, hates themselves, and feels that they are not worthy of standing by her side, all because Sister Xiaotaozi is so kind.

She said to herself in the mirror like this, she knew that it was extremely selfish and ungrateful to face her savior with such thoughts.

But you know what?friend……

We are the closest friends, but we are not equal.

I hid in the dark, watched her shine, and voluntarily acted as the supporting green leaf, cheered for her, and laughed for her, that is the supreme friendship.

But I also want to be recognized once. If I can't get it, then the one and only thing I want, do I have to give it up?

Elder sister Xiao Taozi likes Ah Shen, she knew it a long time ago.

Ah Shen was the one in charge who accompanied the owner since he was a child, so it is needless to say that he is of high status, ordinary maids would not dare to think of him.

But little sister Taozi can do it, everyone in the whole house likes her, her temperament is so simple, her smile is so innocent, she even deserves all the best things.

She thought so too.

She is clear about the entanglement between sister Xiaotaozi, Ah Shen and even the princess.

Like a bystander, watching all this calmly from a distance, giving Taozi advice from time to time.

Until one day, she discovered the handwriting that lived in her heart, and the person who wrote the handwriting was Ah Shen.

Can she bravely pursue what she wants like those four ostentatious fonts?
She asked herself countless times, and there was only one answer.

Of course not.

Who is Little Taozi?
The one that gave her a second life and let her experience the difference between life and death.

From the filthiest hell, pull her up to heaven and earth.

How can she?

Contrary to luck, some people are doomed to tragedy as soon as they are born.

However, if the increasingly distorted and depressing seeds under the tragedy are not completely dug out, they will grow wildly like a disease, stretching vines until they are out of control.

Father came to look for her again a few days ago, as usual, Xiao Taozi still sent her away.

But this time, the family members were very difficult to dismiss.

I thought it was asking for money, but it wasn't.

Dad said that my brother had been working too hard and had a tumor in his brain. The doctor said that it won't be long.

Dad came to beg me, brother wanted to see me before he left.

He said that for most of his life, the one he felt most guilty about was his sister.

He wanted to say sorry to me face to face before leaving.

I refused.

(End of this chapter)