The Biography of Concubine Xi of Yongzheng

Chapter 417 The Truth
Yinzhen's heart tightened, he didn't say anything, he just hugged Yanhua in his arms.

He did deliberately avoid her for a long time because of Xiaoxiao.Every time he saw the anticipation on her face, he couldn't bear to say it.But the longer he kept it from her, the more guilty he felt.

Sometimes he felt that it was ridiculous for him to be Prince Yong. There were so many things that he could only watch as they happened, but he was helpless.Back then, he watched Shisan being wronged and imprisoned. Nine years later, he still couldn't rescue Shisan.How many tragedies has he seen in front of his own eyes?Honghui, Hongyun, Qianxuan, Xiaoxiao...

Sometimes it gets too tight, and he himself feels breathless.

He has never been a mother-in-law, even if he regrets a good decision, he will not allow himself to regret it all the time, but will find a way to remedy it as soon as possible.Only about Xiaoxiao, he had doubted for several times whether he really should do this, and he didn't solve it after dragging on and off for so long.

It was originally a very simple matter, but after he spoke to her, it was over.But he has hesitated until now, not daring to tell her.

"Master... Is Xiaoxiao not born well? Six fingers? Or... missing an arm..." Yan Hua couldn't hold back the longing in her heart any longer, and asked tremblingly in his arms.

At eight months, she felt she had had enough patience.She knows that he is very hard, he knows that he has great ambitions to pursue in his heart, and there are many important affairs of the court that she doesn't understand. Distracted and worried him.But she couldn't take it anymore, she had dreamed about Xiaoxiao several times, sometimes she cried and sometimes laughed, but she couldn't find where Xiaoxiao was.

She clearly remembered that she woke up crying twice.The first time was during the confinement period. She couldn't control her emotions because of too many thoughts. When she woke up crying, Hongli was by her side somehow, holding a handkerchief and wiping her tears.When she saw Hongli's eyes were red, she didn't want him to worry about her, so she quickly stopped.

The second time was the day when Yinzhen came back with Jiahui in her arms, she dreamed that she was smiling again, and a small figure ran over, but the fog in the sky prevented her from seeing clearly.When the child ran to her feet, she hurriedly squatted down to hug her, but in the blink of an eye, Xiaoxiao suddenly disappeared.When he woke up crying, Hongli was still by his side, sucking his nose and wiping his tears.

The longing for Xiaoxiao is very strange, and it gets stronger as time goes by.The child she had been pregnant for so long was a piece of flesh that had fallen from her body. She didn't know where Xiaoxiao was, but she always felt that something was missing in her heart.

So she couldn't bear it anymore, she couldn't see Yinzhen when she went to the study room, and she couldn't meet Yinzhen when she went to the Yonghua Palace. Now that he finally took the initiative to come to see her, she never wanted to miss this opportunity.So, she asked, picking out the doubts that had been buried in her heart for so long.

Even though Xiaoxiao lacks arms and legs and is a freak in the eyes of others, she doesn't dislike her.On the contrary, if it is really what she thinks, then she will put more attention on Xiaoxiao.

When Yinzhen heard this, his body froze obviously.She felt the person in her arms tense for a while before slowly relaxing.

This discovery made her already worried heart jump into her throat. It turned out that her intuition was not wrong for so long. Xiaoxiao is really not good, otherwise he wouldn't let her see him.In fact, she had doubts a long time ago, but she didn't dare to admit it. She would rather believe that Yinzhen's words were true, because he hadn't really lied to her.

"Chanchan..." He sighed softly, something quietly came out of his sigh and floated into Yanhua's ears, making her tremble.

He rubbed his chin against her forehead, with endless affection: "Chanchan, if I tell you the truth, you won't be angry, okay?"

Like a child who did something wrong, he discussed with her softly, the anxiety in his voice was unprecedented.

She burst into tears, and before he could continue speaking, an inexplicable fear seized her heart, swallowing up all her hopes: "Master... You didn't lie to me, did you? Xiaoxiao is still in the palace for treatment..."

"No, she's not in the palace." This time, he finally clenched his teeth and told the truth with all his strength, "Chanchan, listen to me, smile at her... she will never come back again ... We will have another one, many more smiles... Right now you will treat Jiahui as Xiaoxiao, and Jiahui is Xiaoxiao, our daughter..."

It was as if she had been struck by lightning, her body and mind were numb, Hun'er seemed to leave her body suddenly, and Yinzhen whispered in her ear for a while, but she couldn't hear anything.

How can it be?He has been keeping promises that Xiaoxiao will come back, so she has already prepared for the worst-that is, Xiaoxiao has missing arms and legs, and is not born well.But even so, she still thinks that Xiaoxiao is alive in her heart!But what does he mean by these words now?
"I can't come back again?" Her tears stopped abruptly, and her face and voice stopped shaking, "What do you mean by this sentence? Where did Xiaoxiao go, and why didn't she come back again? She was willing to save Me? From her birth to the present, I haven't even been able to catch a glimpse of her..."

"Chanchan, the child has gone. He's gone." Now that he had told the truth, he stopped coddling it. It was better to say it clearly than to let her have another meaningless dream.However, he still decided to hide that Xiaoxiao was a stillborn child. He knew that Chanchan was concerned about the life and death of the child. As for other details, he could keep them as long as he didn't. If he said too much, it would be too cruel.

The little man in his arms suddenly fell silent, and cuddled in his arms without crying or fussing, which made him even more flustered.He withdrew his body and raised her face, but saw that she was looking with red eyes, her whole soul seemed to be lost, and she suddenly lost half of her energy.

The next moment, her body suddenly slumped down like a kite with a broken string.With sharp eyes and quick hands, Yinzhen hurriedly pulled her into his arms and carried her to the bed.

This scene was not at all what he had expected, he had thought that Yanhua would cry and make a fuss, even if she beat him up and down, he would not pursue a single word.But the current situation made him feel at a loss, but her eyes that were still crying just now suddenly became dry, and her tightly pursed red lips were unwilling to utter a word.

None of them slept that night.She was so stubborn that she didn't close her eyes all night, and he also worriedly stayed by her side all night.At dawn on the second day, she suddenly said a word quietly: "You lied to me."

His voice was hoarse, as if he hadn't drunk water for several days.

Yinzhen felt pain in his heart when he heard it, and hurriedly hugged her a little tighter: "Chanchan, I... just kept it from you because I was afraid that you would be sad. We can have another child. If you like a daughter, we will have two more daughters." , if you like your son, we will have a few more sons... Don't do this, I feel bad."

He talked a lot that night, as if he wanted to make up for all the things he had said to her less in the past eight months, talking intermittently.He didn't go to court that day, and stayed by Yanhua's side all day, but she didn't look at him at all.

He looked at her with a cold face as usual, but she was unmoved; so he coaxed her with warm and soft words, but she was also unmoved.In the end, he had nothing to do, so he held her by his side in silence, and he didn't speak when she didn't speak. She made her paintings, and he read his books.

It was as if three feet of ice had been frozen between the two of them, and it would not melt for a while no matter how warm they were.He asked her to write a small letter, but she turned a deaf ear to it and completely broke the small letter, so he didn't even know how much resentment she had in her heart.

He was angry but there was nothing he could do, and then he wanted her hard day and night, but even though it made her emotional, she still refused to look him in the eye.

"When will this awkward situation last? Chanchan, are you going to stop talking to me?" He gently bit her soft lips, his hands kept fanning the flames on her body, the villain under him clearly Unable to bear his provocation, she was trembling delicately, but still stubbornly bit her lip and refused to make a sound.

It was a bad feeling, and it made him more anxious than ever.

Not long ago, that is, in mid-February, the Imperial Academy reviewed Zhu Tianbao Shangshu and asked to restore the second elder brother Yinfeng as the crown prince. In the end, not only was the emperor's affirmation, but he was severely reprimanded.Zhu Tianbao was also punished for the crime of disloyalty and filial piety.

Yinzhen should have been happy about this, because Yinreng never hoped to be reinstated, which meant that the other princes had a chance to inherit the throne.He, of course, is no exception.

But why, he couldn't be happy at all?

The villain under him seemed to be in pain, and took a light breath.He paused, and finally relaxed his movements.

"Chanchan, if you have complaints, just tell me, don't hold it in your heart." He sighed, his body became weak, and he had no more desires.

The idea of ​​having another baby girl is just his wishful thinking, and she didn't even give half a response. This feeling is really uncomfortable.

blame?How can you not complain?She has never seen Xiaoxiao at a glance, and she has been looking forward to it for so long, but in the end, she can only expect him to say "I will never come back again"!He thought he was doing it for her sake, but why didn't he consider that it was cruel to make her wait for so long?

"Slave is tired." The turbulent emotions rolled in her heart a few times, after all she didn't want to get angry with him, after a long silence, she just shrank back, closed her eyes slowly, and murmured softly.

She heard the person behind her call her like a sigh, but she didn't respond.Then a big hand stretched out to wrap around her waist, she struggled subconsciously, Yinzhen behind her was visibly stiff, but still slowly pulled her into his arms: "Then go to sleep."

Her eyelashes trembled, and a tear slipped from her eye.What should I do next?
(End of this chapter)