boudoir

Chapter 98
"No! You are wrong," Su Meiyin shook her head, "In this mansion, there is nothing to be ashamed of at all, only whether you are ruthless enough or not. If you are more ruthless than others, you will have a bright future. If you are beaten, you are doomed to be beaten to death."

Liuli was silent, how could she not understand this truth, she was also ruthless, beating up Nanny Li and fleeing, ruining Hongxiu's reputation, but she still left a little room for everything, like Cuiying and Tian It would be unacceptable to kill them just to provoke conflict between Yu and Qi.

Su Meiyin said lightly: "You know you blame me for Rui'er, but what can you do with me? Aren't I still living in peace and contentment now? Even if you reveal all the truth, it doesn't matter to me. What kind of influence, no one will believe what you say, because almost all the people in this mansion think that you are a dispensable existence, but I am the slick aunt in the long room. In fact, I knew that you also urgently need one Backer, otherwise you wouldn’t have come on that snowy night. But you also felt that I used Rui’er to plot against you, so you always refused to pull yourself off to get closer to me. Your pride is good, but in the end It will harm yourself. If a person is always thinking about this and that when he is trying to survive, and clinging to the past, then such a person is doomed to not be able to achieve any great things."

Liuli stood up, bit her lips and looked at her tightly, wanting to refute what she said, but couldn't speak.

This woman has pinpointed her fatal spot.Yes, she thought that with her talent and experience gained over the years, she would be able to handle this group of women with ease, but now she found more and more that she was wrong.For example, how about Yanhua, she keeps making things difficult for her, even if she repeatedly pushes her back, so what?After all, there will be a next time.Another example is Yu Shi and the others, seeing her staying by the old lady's side, which one would not regard her as a thorn in their side?She can dodge the open spear, but she cannot guarantee that she cannot escape the hidden arrow.If they were all Su Meiyin, how would she be able to fight on her own?
She blamed her for using Rui'er to plot against herself. In the final analysis, it was just that she refused to face her inexperience. Now that this layer of shame was pierced, she suddenly felt as if she had been stripped naked, and she felt a little ashamed .

Su Meiyin raised her eyes slightly, as if she wanted to look into her heart: "I said a long time ago that you are a smart person. The reason why you can't beat them is not because you are stupid, but because your strength is too weak, just like Rui'er obeys me. I did that not because I was kind to her, but because she also wanted the Yu family to lose, and it happened that I had the ability to set up such a situation, so she, who was eager for revenge, listened to my command. If you wait until One day you have the power to control, you can bring security and hope to those around you, and they will naturally obey you, and at that time, you will control the direction of the wind, and you can even call the wind and rain. So the betrayal of the people around you is not necessarily It's because of them, and it's more about whether you, the master, can give them what they want. Do you think you can do it right now?"

Liuli clenched her fists tightly, the wall in her heart that she thought was solid was crumbling bit by bit.Su Meiyin's words were like needles, piercing straight into her muscles and bones, piercing the arrogance she thought was riddled with holes.

That's right, speaking of closeness, Rui'er was originally brought in by her, Su Meiyin, and her relationship with herself was just a later friendship. She was willing to defend herself in front of outsiders, and it was only because Liuli promised her to avenge her, but in revenge Before, when Su Meiyin was able to let out a sigh of relief for her without hurting Liuli, she had no reason not to obey.Maybe from Liuli's point of view, Rui'er betrayed her, but from her own point of view, Rui'er was loyal to herself.

She couldn't fulfill Rui'er's wish in a short period of time, and indeed she didn't blame her for betrayal.Looking at Su Meiyin who was peeling her apart like an executioner, she slowly turned her head away. "You're right, I haven't been able to make them loyal yet, but that doesn't mean I won't in the future."

Su Meiyin also sat down and said: "The future is the future, and the present is the present. People are not grass and trees, how can you be ruthless? The servants are also human beings, and they also have their desires. You only have the ability to satisfy their basic desires, or Let them see hope, and they will be loyal to you from the bottom of their hearts. Just relying on tricks, it will not last long."

After listening to Liuli, she looked up at her, nodded and said, "I've been taught." After a while, she stood up again, sighed, and gave her a deep blessing: "Auntie's blow made me suddenly open. Offended, I hope my aunt will not take it to heart."

Su Meiyin helped her up, and smiled: "It was just a misunderstanding, without it, we would have become a family long ago, and this can be described as a long-term success."

Liuli lowered her eyes, nodded and said: "Very true." Sitting down, she thought for a while and said, "Excuse me for asking too much, how much does Auntie hate Mrs. Yu?"

Hearing this, Su Meiyin's eyes gradually became darker. "How much hate? I hate her more than all the hate in the world combined!"

She turned her head, her eyes were sad, but she smiled again: "I don't say many things, others will never know. But now I am not afraid to tell you. Do you remember the hairpin with the date of birth engraved on it?" Liuli He nodded hesitantly.Su Meiyin's eyes turned red suddenly: "That is not Min'er's birthday hairpin at all, it is my own son's birthday that is engraved on it."

"My own son?!" Liuli was startled, and stood up: "Isn't Min Hua——"

"No, she's not." She shook her head slowly, looking at the eaves outside the window, "She's not my daughter, she's just the child of a tailor in the back street. On that winter night 15 years ago, I was dying of pain in bed, my life was on the line I gave birth to my own flesh and blood. Before I fell into a coma, Heng Wei told me that he was a boy, and she saw it with her own eyes. But when I woke up, he was not by my side. Not long after, Mrs. Yu brought the child over, but it was a daughter ...I gave birth to a boy, but she insisted that it was a girl! But my own son was killed by her! I lost my lover, my original wife, and I have nothing, she But I still want to take away my own son's life! Tell me, how much do I hate her?"

She half-closed her eyes and looked out of the window. The voice at the end was soft, and her former dignity and gentleness collapsed like a city wall made of sand, instantly turning her into a helpless ghost curled up in the darkness.

Liu Li stood there stunned, and forgot to breathe for a while, what Su Meiyin meant was that when Yu Shi took advantage of her weakness, he brought a civet cat to replace the prince, and killed her own flesh and blood, right?

"But these are all your guesses, and no one can prove that it's true..." She was in the long room in her previous life, but she had never heard of this rumor!
"Of course someone can prove it!" Su Meiyin withdrew her gaze and fixed her gaze on her: "Do you think I won't investigate? In the second year, when I was in better health, I asked someone to investigate Mrs. Yu." In the days before my delivery, I discovered that on the night before my delivery, she asked people to go to a tailor shop in the back street a few times, and that night, someone heard a baby crying from her room Sound. I tossed and turned for a long time, and finally found the tailor who had taken the money and left three years ago, and confirmed that Miner was bought by Mrs. Yu to pretend to be my own flesh and blood! And my own biological son, He was strangled to death by her and thrown into the well in the backyard!"

Liuli listened with bated breath. In the past, she only knew that life and death in this big mansion were impermanent, and few people could control their own destiny. Su Meiyin's child was just an unknown baby, but she also innocently became a tool of struggle in this backyard... How many people can take it lightly when they hear that their children have died before they could call their mother? !
Even though she has never been married and had no children, she understands the feelings of close relatives. Su Meiyin endured such pain when she was reduced from the original wife to a concubine, and she still pretended to be indifferent on the surface, How strong is this concentration?Not to mention whether this woman's heart is too poisonous, under such pain, there are not many people who can bear it safely.

Seeing the vicious woman in front of her completely immersed in grief, she began to understand her.No one in this world is born vicious. Naturally, it is driven by one or another reason. Just like myself, isn't it because I have suffered so much torture in my previous life, so now I treat people without blinking an eye?

"Why didn't you tell the old man all this?" She came back to her senses after a long time and asked.

Su Meiyin shook her head, "So what if I tell you? Will they divorce Mrs. Yu and do justice for me? In their eyes, there are too many heirs, let alone just a bastard. For a dead bastard It is absolutely uneconomical for them to cut off the line with the Youcheng Mansion. In fact, do you think that Yu Shi just killed my child? I have been pregnant with three children in total, and the first two were inexperienced in dealing with it. , I ate something by mistake and lost it unconsciously. This last one was saved by me with all my strength, but I didn’t want to die in her hands and suffer from a whole body of illness. If I tell all of this, Yu It's enough for her to die a hundred times, but it won't do me any good to say it rashly, I will only lose what I have now, so I can only destroy her secretly, so that she will eventually become And nothing like me!"

Liu Lifu fell into silence again.What a sad and poor woman.If Liuli has a future, then she in front of her can be said to have no future.The pain caused by the murder of three children in succession can indeed drive a person crazy, and Liuli doesn't know, what will happen to her if such a thing happens to her?
(End of this chapter)