Lord Beast, please let me go

Chapter 40 Jiang Xiaojing's Family History Narration
After a long time, I heard Jiang Xiaojing's voice again: "You know, I'm actually an illegitimate daughter, my mother is a mistress, and my father has his own family, so it doesn't matter if I have a father or not. The thing I look forward to most since I was a child is to hold the hands of my parents and walk on the road openly. The family goes for a walk, has a breakfast, or when I am afraid at night, my father will accompany me. But, no, nothing happened. I was afraid that these things about myself would be discovered by others, and I never dared to appear outside with us at the same time, even if we met on the road, I would only choose to be strangers."

"Later, when I grew up, I heard a lot of gossip, and I knew why my parents couldn't be together. I hated them very much. It was they who kept me living in the dark and couldn't see the sun. The number of times we get together is limited, but the number of quarrels is increasing. My mother wants him to divorce and marry her, but my father just sighs and doesn't agree. Later, he gets anxious and he doesn't like to come, so I won't I understand, since he always smiles and is so happy when he sees my mother, why is he unwilling to divorce. "

"It was only later that I learned that my father actually had a happy family and his own children. He was reluctant to leave his wife. In this case, why did he choose to be with my mother and give birth to me? I hate it even more. He's gone, are all the men in the world like this?"

"I can't stand this kind of life anymore. Since he is reluctant and can't pay attention, let me help him. I went to his wife and told her everything. Unexpectedly, this is also a sad woman. She I didn't know that my husband had been cheating outside for so many years. Seeing her pale face, I gradually felt relieved. I was thinking, without her and her child, maybe I would have a complete life. Dad."

"Sure enough, his wife filed for divorce from him. My mother and I received a call from my father, saying that he would be free soon and would become my real father. I was so happy that I almost jumped up, but who knows, the wish It didn’t materialize, he got into a car accident on the way here and died.”

When Jiang Xiaojing told this incident, she was calm as if she was telling someone else's story. There were no tears, only hatred. The humiliation and abuse she suffered since she was a child has long since shed tears.

Finally she smiled sadly: "Do you think I'm bad now? If I hadn't gone to find his wife, he wouldn't have divorced, he wouldn't have gone out that night, he would still shuttle between two families, but he wouldn't He will die, I indirectly killed him."

Jiang Xiaotao was taken aback for a moment, she didn't expect Jiang Xiaojing to have such a life experience, seeing her soft shoulders of self-blame, she seemed to be able to feel the unbearable pressure on her shoulders.

Put your arms around her shoulders to comfort her: "Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault." It's all because that man is so worthless. Now that he has a happy family, a virtuous wife, and his own My child, why would you do such a thing secretly outside.

Has he ever thought about Jiang Xiaojing's situation and life, has he ever thought about how his wife and children in the original family will behave in front of everyone after the incident is exposed?
How could the child accept that his seemingly kind father was actually such a dirty man, a scumbag?
He died in a car accident, and it was his own fault, without any sympathy.

But she didn't dare to say these words to Jiang Xiaojing. It seemed that in her memory, she still had expectations for this father.

But if it was her, she would rather not have such a father.

She is such a person, the world is either white or black.

Jiang Xiaojing leaned on her shoulder very docilely: "Xiao Tao, do you think I'm an illegitimate daughter?"

"How could it be? I said, it's not your fault. On the contrary, I think you are cheerful and positive now, and you are worth learning from."

Jiang Xiaojing moved the corners of her mouth, but said nothing.

"Oh, sorry, let's go." Jiang Xiaotao suddenly remembered an important matter, stood up and pulled Jiang Xiaojing up, dragging her to run first.

"What's the matter? What a fuss."

"Did you faint too? No, no, it's normal for you to faint from fright. Why did I faint too? You forgot, and the exam is still underway? I guess the Chinese can't catch up, but we'll hurry over now, the next round English can still catch up."

The two even forgot about the broken bicycle, and ran forward in a panic. Jiang Xiaojing was also in a hurry: "I really forgot. Today is the final exam. What do you do? I delayed you."

"What are you talking about? Knowing that you have something to do, I still take the exam with peace of mind. I don't care about it. Am I still human?"

"But..." Jiang Xiaojing wanted to say something sorry, but was interrupted by Jiang Xiaotao: "If the accident happened to me today, you don't care?"

"Of course, what is the exam? How can it compare with your safety." Jiang Xiaojing said.

"That's it." Jiang Xiaotao laughed.

The two girls ran toward the school side by side.

Although Jiang Xiaotao felt that he was doing the right thing, after all, it is such a big event as the final exam, both parents and the school take it very seriously to judge whether you are a good student or a bad student.

After finishing the English test, she went to Jing Ning. Jiang Xiaojing wanted to explain with her, but she refused. She thought it would be better to explain this kind of thing to him when no one was around. , even though she had thought of her words, she was still uneasy along the way, for fear that he would blame her and ignore her.

However, Jing Ning was not in the class, and Ying Ru was as enthusiastic as ever when she saw her, but Jiang Xiaotao always felt that there were poisonous arrows hidden in her smile.

"Xiao Tao, are you looking for Jing Ning? Has he already left?" She asked in surprise.

Jiang Xiaotao's heart ached from that exaggerated surprised expression, as if some kind of hidden pain had been noticed by the person who least wanted to know.

She also pretended to be surprised: "This guy, he asked me to come to him in the morning, but he ran away first. I'll go and see if he came to our classroom, and I missed him." She responded sweetly. With a smile, even talking to herself, she should tell her. She knows that Ru likes him, and of course she can't show weakness in front of her rival.

Ying Ru also hooked her lips and smiled, without saying anything, but that insightful expression made Jiang Xiaotao flee with guilt.

(End of this chapter)