pretend to be a boss

Chapter 118 Fish

the third floor. 669 school district.

Returning to the school he had been in before, Tang Xian didn't have much emotion. The biggest emotion was the wealth of the Li family. From a distance, it seemed that there were a few more teaching buildings donated by the Li family in the school district.

It's no wonder that Li Xiaoyu was able to transfer to the sixth grade class at the age of 12.

There is no one in the school at this time.You can vaguely see lights outside the dormitory building of the students.

When Tang Xian brought Li Xiaoyu in, he didn't meet anyone and went all the way.

Li Xiaoyu's identity card is equivalent to a master key in Fortress 39.

They came to the artificial lake of the school.

This is a large lake area. In this era, there is no distinction between universities and middle schools. The scale of all school districts is the same as that of ancient universities.

Such a freshwater lake is not much different from a real lake, and there is a viewing platform not far away.

Tang Xian took Li Xiaoyu to the viewing platform.

Li Xiaoyu actually remembered some things here.When she was in school, she often came here because she had no friends.

Every time I come here, the people around me will be far away.

She looked at Tang Xian's profile.For the first time, I felt that Tang Xian's eyes were not so indifferent, when he was staring at the lake.

"I heard from Dongran that the girl was transferred to another school district in the third year?"

Tang Xian didn't answer Li Xiaoyu's question, but just stared into the distance.

Li Xiaoyu didn't continue to ask any more questions, but also quietly waited for Tang Xian.

After a long time, Tang Xian said slowly, in a tone that recalled a long time ago:

"I used to be a very nasty person. Very bad personality. Really bad."

"At the beginning of the first school year, when everyone first came to the school district, they were all eleven or twelve-year-old children. The teacher would ask everyone to introduce themselves. Like Xiao Ke, Shanglu and others, they are far from what they are now. Xiao Ke was still a child at that time. With a snot bubble, Shang Lu stammered shyly.

Thinking about it carefully, childhood seems far away to us, but if we look back, it will always be a little bit ahead of youth, and it has never changed.

When introducing themselves, everyone also talked about what kind of person they want to be in the future and what kind of dreams they have.

Some people have really achieved it, while others have lost thousands of miles. For example, Yu Xiaozhe lived a life that had nothing to do with dreams.Some people are very good at the beginning, but their life and death are unknown at the bottom. Some people seem to be stupid, but they live better than anyone else in the end.

I remember one kid saying that he wanted to be Santa Claus when he grew up.I can't remember his name anymore, but at that time... I hated it, thinking how could anyone be so stupid as to dream of something that doesn't exist.

I didn't restrain myself, I thought I heard a joke and laughed.

The teacher asked me what was funny, so I said:

'There can be no Santa Claus in this world.It's just a marketing strategy and behavior for self-satisfaction by stupid adults and toy manufacturers.The so-called Christmas presents are just stuffed in by parents while their children are asleep.How stupid do you have to be to take such a fantasy as an ideal? '

The child started crying, and I was scolded by the teacher.

Due to bad first impressions, I became quite a nuisance.

But I don't think there's anything wrong with it.Maybe it's because I'm missing some emotions.

A lot of the behavior they showed was just too stupid in my opinion.

The same is true in academics. Simple subjects take a long time to learn.

Even the means of cheating are so clumsy.

The reasons for the fights between male classmates are naive and ridiculous.

The reason why female classmates secretly exclude others is also idiotic.

My disdain for them has never been concealed.

Academically, for those who ask me questions, I will tell them the answers and ideas, but when I find that they still don't understand, I will also bluntly say that they are stupid.

All in all, in the first year of school, even people like Xiao Ke and Shanglu didn't have a good relationship with me.

Because I'm really a person who doesn't care about other people's emotions.

It was also at this time that I met Yan Xiaoling. "

"Yan Xiaoling?" Li Xiaoyu felt that this was probably another protagonist of this story.

She seemed to have some impression of this name, but she couldn't remember it for a while.

Tang Xian continued:

"Yan Xiaoling is probably the most idiot among these idiots. She has a lack of IQ. She looks silly when she laughs.

She belonged to the one who didn't show her talent in the selection test, so she would definitely be relegated to the bottom. If she really went to the bottom, it would be very difficult for her to survive with her mind.On weekdays, everyone doesn't like to play with her very much.

I often use very vicious words to describe Yan Xiaoling's IQ. The difference is that if it were someone else, they would be glared at by a group of people, and if Yan Xiaoling was scolded by me, some of them would follow and ridicule her.

Yan Xiaoling watched everyone laugh, and often followed suit.Those who laughed at her laughed at her even more wantonly.

Once I couldn't stand it anymore, and angrily scolded Yan Xiaoling, "They are laughing at you, why are you laughing?" '

Seeing that I was a little angry, Yan Xiaoling also showed me her signature idiot smile.

I really couldn't understand it, so I kept scolding her. She was still laughing at first, but then slowly, seeing that I was very angry all the time, she couldn't laugh, and began to look at me anxiously. "

Li Xiaoyu also hates stupid people.

But this story sounds a little weird.

"I don't understand, what do these actions of hers represent?" Li Xiaoyu asked.

Tang Xian shook his head lightly and said:

"This idiot, every time she laughs, she sees other people's ridicule. She can't distinguish those emotions at all. It seems that all laughter is the same, and all crying is also the same. Laughter represents joy, and crying It means sad, anger means unhappy. The world is as simple as only three emotions. She thinks that when she smiles, the people around her will be happy."

Li Xiaoyu opened his eyes wide.

"Yan Xiaoling is stupid. Basically, she doesn't know how to do the homework that the teacher taught her.

No one knew what Yan Xiaoling's family background was. Anyway, the rules of the pyramid were like this. Children who reached the age of 12, regardless of whether they were good or bad, regardless of whether they were mentally sound or not, would be sent to the third floor to study for six years.

For most people, these six years are the most comfortable six years in their lives.

Yan Xiaoling is a person who is destined to be eliminated. Her brain can't keep up with the learning progress in the school district, and she probably won't be able to adapt to the social system of the pyramid in the future.

But there are a lot of fools in this world who like self-righteous efforts.In private, Yan Xiaoling would always ask me questions that she might not be able to understand in a few years, and what she got was naturally humiliated by me.And the ridicule that many people are accustomed to.

During the mid-term of the first school year, she was at the bottom of the school year without any accident.

Facing everyone's ridicule, Yan Xiaoling still smiled like an idiot.

It's not that kind of bitter smile, and it doesn't smile with tears.Her emotions are pure as a freshly built white wall.

Yan Xiaoling and I are probably the two most humiliating people.

But anyone who tries to do this to me will be humiliated back in a more mean way before they can achieve this goal.

Not long after, no one dared to trouble me anymore.

It was logical that everyone bullied Yan Xiaoling.She once had her face swollen from being hit by a stone.Half of his face is bulging, and his whole appearance looks funny, and he is laughed at wherever he goes.

She wanted to laugh, but found that when the muscles on her face twitched, it would be extremely painful.

In fact, the people in the school discovered such a law, as long as you smile at Yan Xiaoling, she will definitely smile back.

So they came up with such an idea.I wanted to see if Yan Xiaoling would still laugh like a fool when she couldn't laugh.

Yan Xiaoling really lived up to everyone's expectations.Enduring the pain, the smile was extremely ugly and distorted, like our moldy soul.

Naturally, there are also people who are kind to Yan Xiaoling.

Most of the people who bullied her were from the bottom with bad personalities.Most of the people who tried to help her were children from second- and third-tier families.

But when they found out that Yan Xiaoling was always close to me, they gradually alienated her.

That's the way kids rule.If you are found to be in contact with people you hate, you will also be hated.

Even though I hate Yan Xiaoling, she loves to follow me.

I didn't want to waste my time on connections that weren't going to pay off, knowing that I couldn't teach her even if I taught her.

One afternoon in the second semester of the school year, Yan Xiaoling took a box full of food and wanted to give it to me.

I asked Yan Xiaoling, "What's wrong with you, you insist on following me, because you think that if I balance my two IQs, you can have the IQ of a normal person?" '

Then another group of people laughed.

Yan Xiaoling also laughed and said, "Because only Tang Xian has no one around."

I suddenly understood that this girl probably had some kind of illusion.

In fact, she could vaguely understand that everyone hated her.I also vaguely understand that everyone hates me, so I feel that I am the same kind of person.

This ridiculous connection makes her always love to lean towards me.

She smiled and gave me the food box.

Because I disliked the unpalatable nutritious meals at school, I often sneaked out of school to look for food, so I was scolded by teachers many times.

It's no secret. In the third year of school, Xiao Ke and Shang Lu often went out with me to find food.

In Yan Xiaoling's understanding, it's probably because I'm always hungry.He took food and wanted to give it to me.

I did not accept this self righteous behavior.

Yan Xiaoling didn't care either, she would bring food boxes every day, or she couldn't understand at all, and would come to me when she was free, and I would taunt her occasionally, and I still didn't bother to answer the questions she had asked countless times.

But strange to say, I don't bother her so much anymore.She began to think about going with her, she would understand that she was wasting time after all.

She is still doing useless efforts, often looking through the books that record the knowledge of the mining area alone.

When I pass by, I sometimes see page numbers.A whole school year has passed, and others have finished almost a whole book, and her progress is only about ten pages.

In the test at the end of the first school year, naturally, she was still at the bottom.

This is something that will not change in any way, until she leaves in the third year, she will always be at the bottom.

At the beginning of the second year, she was still the same as the first year.He also smiles when being laughed at.

People who used to like to bully her don't like to bully her so much anymore.Probably because of the taste.It doesn't matter, people's interests will always change slowly.

But the number of people who bullied her has not decreased.

It's no secret that District 669 has a retard.

The new students would still bully her, especially since she was a sophomore.This identity made the juniors even more excited when they bullied her.

Yan Xiaoling would still smile at this group of people, confirming the rumors in this school district.

This is an emotionally disabled person, just like me.

I accepted Yan Xiaoling a little bit. When she followed me, I would occasionally talk to her.

I don't care if she can understand, her reaction is the same anyway.

But with others, I still have little patience.

Don't look at Shanglu Xiaoke and the others who have a good relationship with me, but they were all scolded by me before, and they were so red-faced.

That is, something happened in the second school year, and my relationship with them eased a little.

There is still no one else by my side, only a fool who keeps coming to me.

Another time, a group of children surrounded Yan Xiaoling, slapped her and looked at her with silly smiles.

I have never helped Yan Xiaoling, she leaned towards me, so I took it as her wishful thinking.

But that time, watching Yan Xiaoling cover her red and swollen face and smile like an idiot.I find it annoying.

When she had a swollen face and brought me a food box as usual, I said:

'If you can stop giggling the next time someone bullies you, I'll accept your gift. '

I will always remember Yan Xiaoling's expression. When I thought she would promise me with a smile or shake her head with a smile, she cried.

While crying, she nodded seriously.

Since then, I have accepted Yan Xiaoling's food.Even I find it ridiculous.I sometimes feel like a different person.

Also after that, Yan Xiaoling never laughed when others bullied her.

I gradually understood that she probably knew it. As the year went by, because she was always unable to integrate into other people's circles, she probably also knew that there are different meanings between smiles and smiles.

I thought that when Yan Xiaoling was no longer the same as before, she would giggle when she was bullied, and no one would bully her anymore.

After all, it's not fun anymore, is it?
But things were not like this, Yan Xiaoling was bullied even worse.

On the fourth day, she was sent to the school infirmary.

That day I found myself unexpectedly quiet.Quiet and a little uncomfortable.

This incompatibility is like a touch of mosquito blood on a white and flawless wall.

I became more and more bored, and finally went to the school infirmary, and saw Yan Xiaoling covered in injuries.

When Yan Xiaoling saw me, she was still smiling.

After some questioning, I managed to piece together the answer from Yan Xiaoling's vague and intermittent answers.

It turned out that the juniors from the first school year came to bully her again.

Only this time, Yan Xiaoling looked at them without smiling.As if the prey that should have been howling became stubborn, they frantically wanted to make Yan Xiaoling laugh.

But the fool became so stubborn that he couldn't move nine cows.No matter how much she bullied Yan Xiaoling, she always kept a straight face.

She smiled and said to me: Tang Xian, when I was bullied, I didn't laugh or cry.

I just found out that it was the first time she cried when she accepted Yan Xiaoling's gift that day.

In the past, no matter how others bullied her, she never cried.

I understand the reason why Yan Xiaoling did this, but I was just afraid that if I broke the agreement with me, I would reject her kindness again.

For the first time in my life, I lost my temper with this fool for some other reason.

But when he wanted to scold Yan Xiaoling, he couldn't open his mouth and found that he couldn't find words.

She's just too stupid to get mad at her, or so.

In the children's war, there is a default childish ridiculous rules.

That is not allowed to tell adults.

I originally scoffed at this inefficient principle, but this time, I found that some things are more interesting to do by yourself.

I contacted Shanglu and his friends, promised to help them improve their grades, and asked him to contact other people to help me punish the children who bullied Yan Xiaoling in the first school year.

Originally, they didn't expect much, and they didn't intend to help Yan Xiaoling either.

What's more, I'm an annoying person.

But unexpectedly, they actually agreed.

There are quite a few people who are ready to pick things up together, and most of them have been scolded by me.For a moment I thought they had Stockholm Syndrome.

It was only later that I found out that this group of people had bullied Yan Xiaoling.Just feel guilty.

It was probably a riot, from a small group of people at the beginning, to half of the boys in the next two school years, they all got involved and fought hard.

This kind of fighting is meaningless, the behavior is ridiculous and mentally retarded, it is the first time I feel a little carefree.

After Yan Xiaoling came back, no one said anything.

She still couldn't integrate into the circle of other people, and she could only follow behind me, like a shadow of mine.

What annoys me is that I don't even have the remaining distaste.Looking at her smirking, it seemed like she was seeing something that she had long been used to.

The others noticed that Yan Xiaoling had gradually changed.

It's not that it's smart, it's just that it stops trying to get close to other people.And don't smile at anyone.

Only when you look at me will you still smile like an idiot.

I later asked her why.

She said dully:
'Because only Tang Xian allowed me to follow.I can't walk around other people. '

I thought to myself, even if I am accompanied by a burden, a down-and-out idiot, it's not too unusual, it's just two annoying guys getting together.

Just let her follow.

It's true, in the eyes of the big guys, Yan Xiaoling likes me, but it's like mosquito blood on the wall, even if I hate her, I can't wipe it off, let her follow.

No one will say anything.

Only Shang Lu and a few of his friends knew that the reason for the riots in the second and first school years was that I made a fuss in order to stand up for Yan Xiaoling.

So in the second school year, the fact that Yan Xiaoling became my follower became something that everyone gradually got used to.

There were also a lot fewer people bullying Yan Xiaoling.

Yan Xiaoling didn't change her style, she still only smiled at me.

She is a little more sensible and can already see that some things are not hanging on people's faces, but hidden in people's eyes.

She has gradually recognized some mixed eyes of sympathy, superiority and contempt, and her smile has become less and less.

But she still smiles like an idiot every time I look at her.

I asked Yan Xiaoling, what if there is no talent in the sixth school year?If there is no talent, it will be demoted to the bottom.

She said: I can follow Tang Xian, wherever you go, I will go there.

I said, what if I don't let you follow?I don't know what my talent is, but I will definitely have it. Where I am going in the future, you will never be able to go. In this pyramid, what is farther than mountains is the gap in class between people .

I also don't know if Yan Xiaoling can understand.

For the first time, the idiot showed fear.

It seems that the sand that is carefully held in the hand is still slowly slipping out of the palm.

Seeing Yan Xiaoling's frightened look, I felt irritable again, so I said: "If you work harder, I might let you follow."

She started laughing again.It's as simple as first sight.

I didn't bother to think about the future, thinking that even if I brought a bottle of oil, I could live a good life.

Yan Xiaoling really worked hard.Sometimes I don't even follow me anymore, but lie alone in the pile of books in the classroom.

But it's useless.Her grades have always been at the bottom, and even the juniors in the new school year are not stupider than her.

In this way, the second school year is slowly coming to an end.Yan Xiaoling ushered in her third year of school with her grades not improving.

The third year of school is not so long, at least for Yan Xiaoling, it is very short.

This year, I began to try to reconcile with other people, and I began to slowly improve my relationship with everyone.Of course, there are still many people who hate me.Even after I reconciled with Xiao Ke Shanglu and the others, they hated me even more.

But it's still very strange, obviously in the first year, I think it's something impossible to change, so somehow, it started to change slowly.

It was as if another personality had been born in my soul.

This year, the relationship between me and Xiao Ke Shanglu and the others began to improve gradually.

I try to start looking at other people less unkindly.

But I still don't believe in Santa Claus.

In the same year, the fact that Yan Xiaoling followed me attracted more and more people's attention.

This is probably still a bit of a gimmick.Like the smartest person followed by the dumbest person.There are a lot more people talking about it.

Yan Xiaoling's eyes gradually became more emotional.It's the fear of some broken locks.I didn't care, I thought it was just her mediocrity.

But not long after, she did a very stupid thing..."

When some lengthy stories were told here, Tang Xian stopped.

After a long pause, Li Xiaoyu suddenly came back to his senses.

She remembered that she knew the name Yan Xiaoling.

It was a name she ignored.

I just saw it while investigating the list of transfer students in the third school year.

Because her grades were at the bottom and she was stupid, she subconsciously judged that Tang Xian could not like such a person.

But things are completely beyond Li Xiaoyu's expectation, the smartest person always has the stupidest person by his side.

"What happened...why did she change schools?"

"She didn't change schools, she just left."

Tang Xian's tone was flat, and he remained in this flat mood throughout the story.

Li Xiaoyu didn't understand.

"Where did she go?"

"Yan Xiaoling is very stupid. She believes what others say, and she has never changed.

She wants to be smarter, because only smarter can stay with me.

I don't know where I heard it from, someone told Yan Xiaoling that there is a fish in the center of the lake, as long as you find this fish, you can become smarter.

This is obviously deceiving her, but she does not have the ability to distinguish.Especially when a group of people threatened her with the fact that I didn't want her.

So Yan Xiaoling swam to the center of the lake.

After swimming in the center of the lake, she looked at the group of people in the distance and shouted:

'What about the fish?where is the fishI can't find it...'

The laughter became louder and louder, and the people on the shore couldn't wait to see Yan Xiaoling climb ashore in a panic.

But it didn't take long for them to stop laughing.

Because Yan Xiaoling never intended to swim back to the shore of the lake.

She kept searching, and people from afar could vaguely see her loss of physical strength bit by bit.

How could there be fish in artificial lakes and pyramids?
But how could Yan Xiaoling know?

She couldn't hold on anymore, and began to drown. When she was drowning, the sound she made was not calling for help.

Instead, he yelled hesitantly:

'What about the fish?What about fish? '

She kept screaming like this, her voice became more and more shrill and angry.

But she just didn't want to swim back.

The group of bullies were terrified, and only after Yan Xiaoling choked on water several times did they start shouting for help.

When I arrived, I could only vaguely see Yan Xiaoling who was dying and struggling in the water.

I rushed into the lake like crazy, shouting her name.

After Yan Xiaoling heard my voice, she tried her best to surface for a while longer.

Her voice was already weak and weak.It was so far away that no one could hear it anymore.

But I just can hear it.

She was saying to me, Tang Xian, I can't find that fish.

Her hands gradually lost strength.

The last time I saw her, she was crying in fear, and that was the second time Yan Xiaoling cried.She realized she couldn't swim back.I thought I must find the fish.

But probably because he looked at me in a panic, he wanted to laugh and comfort me.

Not just laughter, but also many, many complex emotions.It was as if she was unwilling to find that fish that didn't exist.

It was the first time that so many emotions appeared on that face that had only one emotion.

What kind of expression is that?It's really strange, we obviously hide so many emotions in our own skin every day, I should have seen it a long time ago, but I just feel that I have never met such a face.

Never had……"

After hearing this, Li Xiaoyu finally understood where Yan Xiaoling had gone.

She looked at Tang Xian. Tang Xian's tone was always flat, but he just stared at the distance of the lake in a daze.

From Li Xiaoyu's point of view, people like Tang Xian and himself are used to living alone.

But looking at Tang Xian's profile, she felt for the first time that this man was lonely like never before.

She didn't ask about the ending, because if Yan Xiaoling was still alive, there would probably be such a follower by his side now.

They also didn't ask those who cheated Yan Xiaoling if they were punished, because everything was meaningless.

But the story does not end here.

Tang Xian smiled silently and said:
"But I don't love Yan Xiaoling."

Li Xiaoyu was stunned.

"I was ill for a long time afterwards. During this process, I wanted to understand many things. If Yan Xiaoling was still alive, I would treat her like a relative. But I don't love her."

"Later, everyone gradually forgot about her. Because my reaction to this incident was very light afterwards. When it comes to Yan Xiaoling, most people just think that she has become my friend from an annoying follower."

"She just came from a humble family at the bottom of Fort 39, and the incident quickly subsided, and those children were punished as they should be. And I lived my own life as always. I didn't act special Sad and sad, after all it doesn't make any sense."

"It was only later, when I got along with Xiao Ke, Shang Lu, Yu Xiaozhe, and people I knew at the bottom, such as Liu Lang, Luo Liuyan, or some old miners, that I realized who Yan Xiaoling was."

Li Xiaoyu didn't understand.

Tang Xian raised his head and said:

"Who is Yan Xiaoling? No one cares about her, no one remembers her. She always smiles at me and follows me like my shadow.

I have been thinking for a long time that she is probably my shadow, after all, only I remember her. "

Tang Xian shook his head again and said:
"It was only later that I discovered that she was not my shadow. It turned out that there was Santa Claus in this world. He brought my incomplete emotions to me through another emotionally incomplete girl."

For some reason, upon hearing this, Li Xiaoyu's chest suddenly felt congested.

Tang Xian's eyes fell on Li Xiaoyu again:

"Because of Yan Xiaoling's existence, I was able to become less vicious, and later on, I had many friends who were willing to help me."

Tang Xian smiled and said:

"It's also because someone like her has liked me before, so I dare to believe that even someone like me, there will be someone who likes me."

Li Xiaoyu looked at Tang Xian and found his eyes so clear for the first time.

She suddenly remembered that it was the first time she had met Tang Xian's eyes at such a close distance.

That smear of mosquito blood eventually became a cinnabar mole in Tang Xian's heart.But Li Xiaoyu couldn't feel sour at all.

In this story, what she heard was how two emotionally disabled people slowly changed each other.

If it weren't for that poor girl, maybe the current Tang Xian would have a completely different personality, right?
"The story has been told, and it's too late, you should go back."

"I'll sit down for a while..." Li Xiaoyu didn't want to leave.

Tang Xian didn't force himself, nodded and said:
"By the way, I haven't told this story to anyone else."

"I won't say it."

"I did not mean that."

"what does that mean?"

"The distance between mountains and rivers, and the distance between classes can be reached. Only the separation between life and death is difficult to communicate. Therefore, it is best to live longer."

　That's one chapter for today.Chapter [-] words, the plot will start tomorrow.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)